Disclaimer: I do not Criminal Minds or anything to do with it.
"You can bend it and twist it… You can misuse and abuse it… But even God cannot change the Truth." – Michael Levy
Are you going to say anything?" asked Olivia. Everyone had been gone for twenty minutes and they had sent Amelia up to her room to play. Spencer had been staring at her, opening his mouth every so often like he was going to say something but stopped; it was starting to feel really uncomfortable.
"I am trying to figure out how to without everyone getting upset" he finally said.
"Shouldn't that be kind of easy for you, considering your job and everything" joked Olivia trying to break the extremely thick tension in the air.
"Olivia this is no time to joke" said Spencer getting angry.
Olivia was taken aback. In the eight years she had known Spencer he had never sounded this angry at her and never used that tone of voice, and she hoped he never would again.
"I am sorry Spencer" said Olivia quietly, still slightly taken aback.
"Why did you not tell me?" asked Spencer his voice creepy calm.
"I did not think it was anything, just some creep playing a prank" answered Olivia honestly.
"You should have still told, you should have not kept it a secret" said Spencer his voice rising.
Olivia did not know if it was her hormones or if she was sick of the whole situation but she finally snapped "like you have never kept a secret from me" she yelled. Her heart started racing from the adrenaline pumping and the baby kicked in response.
"For your own good, to protect you!" yelled Spencer in response.
"Exactly my point!" screamed Olivia "just because you are some genius and a profiler does not mean you know everything. I did not tell you everything because I did not want you to worry. I don't want you to think everyone in the world is out to get me and Amelia" finished Olivia rubbing her stomach trying to get the baby to settle.
Before Spencer could respond they heard a tearful voice say "mommy, daddy?" both adults turned to see Amelia standing at the bottom of the steps with tears streaming down her face. "Why are you fighting?" she asked her bottom lip quivering.
"Sorry Millie" said Spencer honestly "Mommy and Daddy did not mean to upset you."
Olivia took a deep breath calming herself "and to answer your question we are fighting about how much you and daddy are going to have at the zoo tomorrow" lied Olivia.
"Really?" asked Amelia staring intently at her mother.
"Of course" said Spencer going over to pick up his daughter "why don't I help you get ready for bed so you are all rested up for tomorrow" he finished starting up the stairs.
"Spencer" said Olivia weakly "later" snapped Spencer shifting his daughter in his arms.
Olivia collapsed on the couch thinking when did everything become so complicated.
Olivia sat in their room waiting for Spencer to put their daughter to bed. She could here Millie laughing as Spencer as put her to bed. She was glad that Millie did not notice the tension between them. However the baby did pick up on her tension and was kicking like crazy, she rubbed her stomach to try to settle it. She swore that this baby was going to kick its way right out of her.
After a few more minutes Spencer came back into their room, the serious look on his face returned.
"So…" said Olivia trying to break the tension.
"So we are back to you lied to me" said Spencer crossing his arms in front of him. Olivia suddenly felt like she was being reprimanded by a parent.
"Spencer can we not start with the yelling or the creepy calm voice again. Can we just please sit and talk" asked Olivia wearily, she suddenly felt exhausted.
"Agreed" said Spencer sitting beside her on the bed.
"I honestly did not think that flowers where anything I thought it was a joke, a cruel joke. Then when the coin showed up I knew it was something and I told you" she tried to reason.
"All right" said Spencer "I still believe you should have told me but I can see your reason. However there is no reason for you keeping a secret about the cramping and almost losing the baby" he said gesturing to her expanding stomach.
"Spencer that was a little dramatic" said Olivia rubbing her temple she felt a headache coming on. "I did not almost lose our baby" she reassuring laying a hand on her stomach.
"You did not know that at the time, you should have told me it is my baby too" said Spencer his voice rising slightly.
Olivia stood she felt her anger rising "When was I supposed to tell you. After you where shot! Or after I was trying to console my sister about her husband and your boss/friend was attacked and possibly severely injured. Excuse for not wanting to add on to the drama and do you really think that if I found out the God forbid I lost the baby or there was something wrong I would have kept it from you?" she asked it a yell whisper as to try not to wake her daughter.
"Before now I would have said no, but part of me is not so sure" said Spencer honestly looking her in the eyes.
Olivia let a gasp she had never felt so hurt, could her husband really not trust her? Before she could respond she heard a little voice yell "mommy."
"Excuse me our daughter's calling. I am going to get that you know if you trust me to take of our daughter" she said coldly brushing past him before he could respond.
Olivia took a deep breath and collected herself before entering her daughter's room. "Okay Miss Millie what seems to be the problem" she asked sitting on the edge of her daughter's bed.
"I can't sleep will you lay down with me?" asked Amelia peering up at her mom with her big blue eyes.
"Of course" said Olivia laying down and curling herself around her daughter as best as possible with her expanding middle.
"Is my baby brother kicking?" she asked laying her small hand on her mother's stomach.
"Not right now, and it might be a baby sister in their" she said stroking her daughter's hair.
"No it's a baby brother" Amelia said determinedly with a yawn.
"How do you know?" asked Olivia with a smile.
"I just do" muttered Amelia before she fell asleep curled against her mother. Olivia made no move to get up or uncurl herself from her daughter. She really did not want to face Spencer and get into another fight. She decided to sleep there with her daughter safely curled up against her.
"Mommy wake up" called a voice, Olivia's eyes shot open. It took her brain a few seconds to realize she was in her daughter's bed where she had slept last night.
She sat up and faced her daughter who was dressed and ready for the day, Olivia glanced at the clock and noticed it was almost nine thirty she could not believe she slept so late.
"Sorry mommy slept so late, what's up Millie?" she asked standing and stretching.
"Daddy says to let you know we are leaving for the zoo and will be back later" said Amelia her eyes shining with excitement. Olivia could tell she was looking forward to spending the day with her father.
"Okay have a great day" she said giving her daughter a quick kiss trying to keep the hurt out of her voice. She was hurt that Spencer had not talked to her himself. Then again she was the coward who slept in their daughter's room last night and had not returned to their room.
"Okay bye" said Amelia racing out of the room. After a few minutes Olivia heard Spencer's car start and leave. It was then that Olivia placed her head in her hands and sobbed.
Olivia was not hungry but she forced herself to eat breakfast for the baby. She had just finished cleaning up the dishes when she heard the front door open. She curiously went to the door she knew that is was too soon for her husband and daughter to be back.
"Hey" said Emily coming inside "I came to see how you are" she said concerned.
"Just fine" replied Olivia curtly.
"Come on Liv" her sister said gently.
"Sorry" she finally answered. "He basically told me last night he couldn't trust" she confessed.
"I am sure he did not mean it, he was just upset. He was just upset because he believed that as his wife and father of his child-"
"Please stop profiling" groaned Olivia, that was the problem of having a family of profilers they were always profiling everything.
"You're right sorry" said Emily with a smile. "If you need to someone to take Amelia tonight so you two can talk let me know, Sara is already missing her cousin."
"Those two" said Olivia with a smile and shake of her head "they may as well be joined at the hip."
"Yeah I know" replied Emily "just let me know" she said giving her little sister a hug.
"I will thank you for coming by."
"Anytime" said Emily with a smile as left.
About four hours later her daughter and husband finally returned. "Hi mom" cried Amelia happily as she ran in the house.
"Hey baby you have fun" she asked kneeling to give her a daughter a hug.
"Look what Daddy got me!" she squealed excitedly practically shoving a small stuffed giraffe in her mother's face. "I learned today the giraffes sleep less than two hours a day!"
"Wow, that's amazing" said Olivia smiling "why don't you go put that away and get washed up and I'll get you a snack."
"Okay" said Amelia scurrying off to her room.
Olivia slowly stood and faced her husband. "Hi" she said meekly not sure what else to say.
"You never came back last night" said Spencer.
"I know" she answered "you told me you didn't trust me, what was I supposed to say?" she answered honestly feeling hurt.
"You still should have come back" he answered simply "I would have told and I am telling you that I was wrong. I trust you completely I was just hurt; I should not have said that to you. Just promise me from now on when we fight you will not walk away. Nothing gets resolved if someone walks away."
"I promise" she said as tears came to her eyes she allowed her husband to pull her in his arms and she buried her face in the crook of his neck.
"We will find out who is behind leaving the flowers and coin" he reassured her kissing the top of her head.
"I know" she answered honestly "you guys have a great track rate" she joked. He did not answer her he just continued to hold her.
In that moment Olivia knew that she should feel happy and content, but she did not. Even though Spencer had apologized and the truth had come out about everything she still felt a slight strain between the two of them.
(Okay I am back! I am a million times sorry that it took me over two years to update! I was really stuck on how to continue with this story and kinda gave up on it, but know I figured it and want to continue. I promise that my next update will not take two years I will try to update as soon and as regularly as possible.)