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That night I sat on the window ceil in my tank top and sweats staring up at the full moon. The window was open blowing a cold breeze that filled room with the smell of salt water. I had been so stupid thinking I could leave behind what I was just by moving across the country. How could you escape something when it was a part of you?
Ethan knowing that I was a werewolf wasn't what bother me truly. He had known something was different about me from the first day I stalked him. What bothered me was in the intimate knowledge that he held about my life back in La Push. There was no doubt the Cullens would have splurged on the details. Another frustrated tear rolled down my cheek. Those were my personal experiences to share with who I decided deserved to know. Now some blood sucker knew everything about me. My resentment towards the Cullens peaked until I was shaking again.
I climbed out the window stealthily dropping from the second story without making a noise. I didn't run through the town like usual. It was already nearing midnight and I didn't want some one to ask Lou why I was out so late without her knowledge. Being invisible here was one thing I more than welcomed. Instead, I headed off jogging through the forest slowly enjoying the manual labor that accompanied the terrain.
The trees flew by me, not as fast as if I had phased, but enough to clear my head. The forest was beautiful at night, all the wildlife coming out in the open. The moon washed the color out of the leaves casting dull light on the forest floor. There was something about being in the wilderness that felt so natural to me. I thought of how Jacob Black had left the pack and lived in the wild for months. The thought was starting to sound appealing.
I looped back through the forrest and ended up sitting on a cliff over looking the sea. The mood reflected in the crashing waves below sending reflecting light onto the cliff. If I didn't know better, I would have thought I was back home in La Push. The thought sent a wave of homesickness flushing over me. I missed my little brother more than anything but there was no way to contact him without Sam knowing. Plus, Seth was smart and he had to have known that was the reason for my silence.
I was caught up mesmerized my the churning of the ocean when I heard leaves rustle behind me. Any human wouldn't have been able to distinguish the wind from footsteps but I knew better. In a few milliseconds I was on my feet turned around and couched ready to phase at any given second. Ethan stepped through the bushes hands extended cautiously.
"I didn't mean to scare you. I just heard some one and thought I would come to see who it was." He dropped his hands as I straightened out of my defensive position.
"Sorry I'm not a lovely feast for you blood sucker." I turned and sat back down facing the ocean. It went against instinct ingrained in me to turn my back on the leech but I didn't want him to think he was welcomed. I strained my ears listening to his movements as he walked up behind me.
"It's okay, I'm not hungry any way." He brushed off my insult ignoring the derogatory term. "Mind if I join?" He asked politely. I grunted yes but he sat down three feet from me any way.
"Do you have some sort of issue with ignoring people's personal space?" I blurted out frustrated he had ruined my peaceful mood.
"Look Leah, I want to apologize. I thought about what you said and you were right. I shouldn't have gone looking for answers behind your back and especially without your permission." He stared out at the horizon during his speech memorizing it.
"You got one thing right." I grumbled not taking my eyes off the ocean either.
"For what it's worth, I would take it any day over the cards I was dealt." He whispered so quietly I had to strain to hear the words. Of course any one would have felt the same way, however, it was hearing it come from a vampire that made them so paramount.
"Well you can have it then." I said bitterly hugging my knees to my chest. The wind had picked up considerably and the temperature was dropping fast. I couldn't determine if the goose bumps running up my body were from the cold or the conversation.
"Unfortunately, life doesn't work that way." He sighed still searching the horizon. I grunted in response hoping he would take it as his cue to leave but he sat patiently as ever waiting for me to reply back. He would have to wait an eternity for that and he would have all of eternity too I thought humorlessly. The silence stretched on with the background noise of the waves crashing against the sharp rocks below. I was just starting to enjoy the silence when the parasite spoke again.
"There are no constraints on the human mind, no walls around the human spirit, no barriers to our progress except those we ourselves erect." He recited the quote perfectly from memory.
"Ronal Reagan." I heard myself name the author before he could. The words surprised me when I realized they had came from my mouth. I hadn't anticipated speaking to him any more that night.
"I see some one pays attention in school." He chuckled impressed by my knowledge.
"We can't all have perfect leech memories." I said as the wind picked up throwing my hair around my face. But I couldn't stop thinking of the quote and what he had meant by saying it. I hadn't erected this barrier myself, being a werewolf was part of my blood. Silence fell again between us and I continued to ponder the meaning of his words. It wasn't until I started to notice the sky fading into lighter shades of blue that I finally stood up stretching my stiff muscles from in the same position too long. Ethan stood up in a blur reminding me of his presence. He had been so still and quiet I had almost forgotten him, almost.
I stood there staring at his too perfect features, vampire and werewolf both cursed comrades in misery. It was too much for my head to take. A parasite wishing to be human again. Just the thought of them being capable of self hatred was an oxymoron in itself.
"Will I ever get to see this fascinating phenomena?" He inquired cautiously. It took my mind a minute to realize the meaning of his words. Was that what he had been sitting there thinking about in the silence? Did he have a death wish or something?
"I don't have that kind of self control." I hissed in disbelief. Even if I did I would never phase for him and especially not to be ogled like a freak show.
"I didn't mean it that way." He read my outraged facial expression. "I just imagine it as being magical." He looked away embarrassed by his choice in childish words.
"Yeah, my life is just one giant fairy tale." I snorted sarcastically.
"Sweet dreams Leah." Ethan turned and disappeared into the trees the opposite way from which he came. He was gone before I could even blink. I took off running through the forest at full speed hoping to make it home before Lou woke up.