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Lima (2016)
"I like girls…"
Judy closes her eyes, silently praying for help; she doesn't know what to say, so she stands up and goes to her bedroom.
"Mom…"
Quinn tries vainly; Judy leaves her sitting motionless on the couch. She is not exactly desperate or hopeless, even if her mother throws her out of the house it won't be the end of the world; she is twenty two, graduated and she has friends, real friends this time.
Yes, it won't be like six years ago, she is not pregnant and sixteen. But it will be tough anyway, she really doesn't want to lose her mother; they've learned to be a family, a real family, even Frannie and her perfect Christian husband.
She wipes her tears and goes to her bedroom.
As she starts packing more tears stream down her face; in this tearful state she goes to bed and cries herself to sleep.
Sun light filling the room, she hears a knock on the door.
"Quinnie?"
"Come in…" She says weakly.
"Morning honey, I made you a beautiful breakfast tray… I hope you hungry…"
Judy walks toward the bed as an astonished Quinn sits up.
"I… yeah, sure…"
"Guess what? I made bacon…"
The young Fabray rubs her eyes.
"That's great…" She is still confused.
Judy hands her the tray and looks at the suitcase on the floor.
"You're planning to go somewhere?"
"I… I thought…"
"You thought I was going to kick you out…"
Quinn remains silent.
"Well, I'm not…"
"No?"
"No, Quinn, sweetie, I know you have reasons to doubt me, but… I'm sorry; I shouldn't have let him kick you out…"
"It's okay…"
"No, it's not…" She sighs. "Anyway, I believe I have to explain my actions or better yet inactions yesterday… Quinnie I left you like that yesterday because I needed to be alone; I didn't want to say something stupid and prejudiced or I didn't want to be antiquated and biased, you know?"
"I understand… but… are you okay with this?"
"I'm okay if you're happy, I don't wanna lose you Quinnie… would I rather see you married to a man to give me grandchildren? Maybe, but I can deal with this…" Judy rolls her eyes. "See? This is the kind of thing I was referring…"
Quinn smiles and shakes her head happily. "Believe me I can't judge you…"
"You can eat now honey…"
"Yeah of course…"
They giggle happily. Quinn can barely believe that this is happening.
"So, are you going to tell me who she is?"
She chokes. "What?"
"Oh sweetie, I'm your mother… you know, you weren't eating well, you're here and not with your friends and you're always with red eyes, it was really clear to me, you are broken hearted; but that's the odd part and I got really confused, my Quinn, with broken heart? You never got heartbroken because of a boy; well, you answered my question last night…"
"That's not true; I got heartbroken when Finn dumped me in that funeral…"
"Don't mix up hurt pride with a broken heart; you got upset because he wanted to be with that Jewish girl…"
So true…
Quinn sighs.
"Rachel…"
"Oh… yes, I forgot you two are friends now; how is she by the way?"
"I'm in love with her…"
"What? You…"
"I'm in love with Rachel Berry…"
"Oh…"
"Yeah… that's why I'm here,"
"Does she like girls too?"
"That's the frustrating part…" She throws her hand in the air. "She keeps sending me these signs, you know? Not just now… but since high school… okay, maybe I just imagined it all… it doesn't matter anyway, she is with him…"
"Who?"
"Finn, who else?"
"Sweetie, I know it's hard… anyway, you're beautiful and any boy, uh I mean girl… you like girls…" She says abashed.
Quinn smiles at her mother's endeavor.
"Any girl would kill to be with you…"
"That's the point mom, I don't know if girls is accurate; there's just one girl to me, there's just her…"
Lima (2022)
There was. She corrects herself.
There was only one girl for me… there was…
"So?"
She hears her mother's voice in the background.
"Quinnie?"
"Yes…" She finally backs to her senses.
"How was it?"
"What mom?" She turns to face the older woman.
"You and Rachel, your talk…"
"No big deal…"
"Mmhm, I can see that… are you leaving today?" Judy says mockingly.
"No…"
"I see…"
"What happened with you guys?" She huffs. "First Santana and Brittany and now even you?"
"I don't know what you're talking about…"
"Whatever, I'll be in my bedroom…"
At six o'clock sharp Santana and Brittany arrived.
"Hey bitch, ready to go?"
"Just stop S…"
"What?"
"So you're telling me, that your mother is downstairs ready to take us to the airport?"
Santana smirks.
"That's what I thought…"
"I'm so happy we're not leaving today!" Brittany says happily. "Are you giving a chance to Rachel?"
"No,"
"But why you…"
"I just want to get rid of this whole situation once and for all… I don't know what's going on in Rachel's head but we can't be together…"
"Why not?" Brittany insists.
"Because that's the real life Britt…"
"She really loves you; you should have seen her in the wedding…"
"What for?" Quinn huffs irritated.
"She was…"
"Just stop, I don't want to know…" She turns to Santana. "Are you in this too? I thought you were my friend!"
Santana frowns angrily, her jaw clenched but she holds back her emotions.
"Why are you guys agreeing with all this? Tell me!"
"I just wanted to see you happy Quinn."
Brittany says guilty and Santana just watches, she knows Quinn is just in one of her tantrums. In fact this reminds her of the fight they had at nationals, in New York.
"I'm happy!" she shouts. "I don't need this, I don't need her! And I can't believe you guys, she has ignored us for six years and in six seconds she turns you guys against me?"
"Okay, are you hearing yourself? We're not against you…" Santana says upset.
"She didn't ignore us…" Brittany turns to leave. "I gotta go…"
"Where are you going? Are you going to see her" Quinn asks.
"Yes… oh no wait, I forgot…" She faces them again. "Quinn, San can I go see her?" She frowns. "Can we go to Blaine's birthday party, it will be fun? Oh no wait, Rachel is gonna be there… can I go to Rachel's wedding, you know it's nothing, it's just her wedding; Can we go celebrate with her, she just won a Tony…"
"You can't blame me… I was trying to move on…"
"Hey Britt, did you get really mad when Santana didn't want to assume that she loved you? You know, because of what society might have said?" Brittany says sadly.
Santana narrows her eyes at Brittany.
"I never got mad at San… love is love but to love is tough; Sorry if I wanted us to be all friends again, and I would love to have her back even if she was still with Finn…" She looks at Santana. "San?"
They understand each other and therefore Brittany knows that Santana will stay. She is not upset with this; it's actually perfect this way. She winks at the brunette and leaves the bedroom.
"Now I'm the bad guy…" Quinn says grouchy.
"Not really…" Santana sits on the bed.
"What's the matter?"
"What you mean?"
"You're weird, you're not yelling at me…"
"I really missed her!" She shouts. "There, happy?"
"I didn't ask you to cut ties with her…"
"I didn't say that… it's my own fault anyway…"
"What you mean?"
"Look Quinn, I'm not regretting anything; I chose to be on your side, that's it… of course I was going to L.A. anyway because of Brittany; but the point is: I took your side…"
"I know…"
"When I encouraged you that night I did it because I truly believed she loved you too; I still believe it though, more than ever…"
"San…"
"Let me finish…" Santana raises one hand up. "I got mad at her and worried about you, but Quinn, people have their hearts broken every day… I know that your feelings were strong but… people move on and as you said, you moved on… You were heartbroken but Rachel was lost… she has been lost all this years; I used to throw my rage on everyone, especially on Finn…" She shrugs comically. "I used to curse and to insult everyone and yes, I was mean too… but Rachel would never do that… not with her friends…"
They look at each other.
"You think that article…"
"If I think it's true?"
"Yeah?"
"Kurt said that that Jason guy is kind of temperamental, but he also said to me that Rachel was very disturbed by the article and that he agreed that Blaine wasn't the best choice…"
"Rachel would never do that…"
"The Rachel you used to know wouldn't…"
"She…"
"Hey guys!" Puck bursts into the room. "So, are we going or what?"
Santana rolls her eyes. "Or what…"
"uh?"
"We're not going…" She answers.
"Why not?" He looks at Quinn.
"Rachel asked her to stay…"
"Oh…" His smirk spreads across his face.
"It's not what you're thinking…" The blonde states.
"Actually, it's exactly what you're thinking… Rachel finally decided to admit her feelings for Quinn…"
"What you're going to do?" Quinn ignores her friend.
"What you mean?" Puck asks confused.
"Well, we're not leaving today…"
"Oh, I'm staying of course… support for my hot Jew…"
Quinn exhales heavily. What a friends she has.
Traitors…
The next day she was awake early. It was just because she went to bed early; it wasn't because she was eager about the day. After breakfast, she checked her phone, watched some TV and then started reading a book.
She is almost finishing a chapter when she hears the doorbell ringing. She gasps and tosses the book away.
Not that she is eager or excited but she gets a little disappointed when she opens the door.
"Who are you?"
She asks the girl in front of her.
"Wow! You're Quinn Fabray…"
Quinn smiles a little.
"I believe so, and you?"
"I'm Mary; you probably don't remember me… I'm your neighbor…"
"Yes of course, you grew up…."
The girl giggles.
"Well I have a thing for you…"
"You do?" Quinn arches an eyebrow.
"Here…" The girl hands her an envelope.
"What's it?"
"You'll see; I have to go…"
"Okay…"
Mary walks away and Quinn immediately turns her attention toward the envelope. She recognizes Rachel's handwriting right away.
She gets inside and goes to her bedroom. She throws herself on her bed.
Quinn looks at the pink envelope one more time.
It is written:
Good morning!
She opens it. There's a note and a notebook page. She reads the note first.
I was rummaging my stuff and look what I found! I loved that day!
Her eyes water and her heart tightens with the memory.
Flashback:
"This rain sucks!" Rachel huffs.
"It's not that bad… we can find something to do here…"
"What?" Rachel pouts childlike.
"A movie marathon maybe?"Quinn says happily.
"That's nice, but you'll go back to New Haven tomorrow… I wanted to do something special with you…"
"Anything is special with you…" She swallows hard. "I mean…"
"You're just saying this…" Rachel says shyly. "You think I'm annoying…"
"That's not true!"
Rachel stares at her.
"Not anymore…" She adds smiling.
"Well, I'll never get tired of saying it, I'm really happy that you're my friend Quinn Fabray…"
They look at each other; Quinn nibbles her lip nervously.
"I want to dance on the rain…" She looks at the window.
Rachel stops staring at the blonde and looks at the window too.
"What?" She smiles.
"Someday, that is…"
"You…"
"I don't know, sometimes I think about things I want to do…"
"You mean like a bucket list?"
"Yeah…"
"What else?"
"Hm?"
"You said you want to dance in the rain, what else?"
"I don't know, I never wrote it…"
"Oh!" Rachel squeals. "Wait here!"
Moments later Rachel gets back with a notebook and a pen.
"So, let's start!"
"What?"
"Your bucket list of course!"
She laughs amused.
"Okay…"
"It'll have thirty items, and you must do them before you're thirty…"
"I'll try…"
And they start making a bucket list indeed.
Now:
Quinn takes the notebook page and smiles at the sight of Rachel's handwriting. She starts reading every item.
Quinn's Bucket List:
1. Make Beth love me.
2. Get into an Graduate from a Ivy League university
She smiles because Rachel was the one correcting her. She had momentarily forgotten that she was already in Yale.
3. Be in a movie
4. Attending the Academy Awards
5. Say at least once: "and the Oscars goes to…"
6. Meet my favorite author
7. Eat ice cream for every meal one day!
8. Have a paint fight!
9. Cuddle next to a campfire
10. Become a vegetarian for a week… Just a week…
11. French kiss on the top of the Eiffel tower
12. Take all my best girlfriends on a weekend getaway at once
"Am I included?"
"Mmm… let me think…"
"Quinn!"
"Of course you are silly…"
"So I'm your girlfriend?"
"You said that yourself, remember?"
13. Swim with dolphins
14. Spaghetti kiss on Italy.
"Like the lady and the tramp?"
"Yeah…"
15. Wear crazy socks (Borrow Rachel's)
"Hey!"
"Sorry…You're writing it…"
"Maybe I'll give you one of my socks…"
16. Dance and/or kiss in the rain
"Like notebook?"
"Yeah… kind of…"
17. Send a message in a bottle
18. Write a book
19. Take a self defense course
20. Meet my favorite actor/artist
"Who?"
"Claire Danes…"
"Really?"
"I really love Romeo and Juliet… I watched it when I was a kid and fell in love…"
21. Get another tattoo
"Yeah… a better one…"
"You don't like the Ryan Seacrest's tattoo?"
"I'm not even answering this… and please, tell me you're going to take it off…"
"If you want…"
22. Drink a $1,000+ Bottle of Champagne
23. Watch the top 100 Best Movies of all-time
24. Give someone my autograph
"I already did it! You'll love it!"
25. Have more than five hundred books
26. Kiss someone at midnight on New Years.
"You never…"
"No… you?"
"Well…"
"Finn…"
"Yes…"
27. Stargazing with the love of my life…
28. Sleep under the stars.
29. Marry the person I can tell every little thing to
30. Be a good parent.
She sighs nostalgic. Why Rachel is doing this? Well it was a good day indeed.
Flashback:
"Who would tell you're a romantic person Fabray…"
"I just never found the right person, you know? To show this side of me…"
"You will…"
"Yeah…" She stares at the brunette.
"Come on!"
Rachel stands up quickly.
"uh?"
"Let's risk one thing from this list…"
"What?"
"Isn't it obvious?" She points to the window.
"Oh…" Her heart speeds up.
"Let's dance in the rain!"
"Oh yeah… of course…"
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing, it's just that… are you sure? It's a little cold…"
Quinn tries to hide her disappointment.
"I'm sure…"
Rachel stretches her arm.
"Come on!"
"Okay…"She holds the brunette's hand.
A few minutes later they are outside, in the rain.
"Wow! It's cold!"
"I told you…" Quinn giggles.
"So, I believe that you have to dance now…"
"Yeah… but now, I'm a little embarrassed… and there's no song…"
Rachel puts her hands on her hips and grimaces at the blonde. Then she starts dancing randomly for Quinn amusement.
"Come on Quinn! Let's dance in the rain… better yet!"
She smirks.
"Quinn?"
"What?" Quinn says smiling widely.
Let the storms clouds chase
Everyone from the place
Come on with the rain
I've a smile on my face
I'll walk down the lane
With a happy refrain
Rachel stops and gestures to Quinn.
"Singing, singing in the rain…"The blonde adds as Rachel takes her hand and they start dancing together.
Now:
"Quinnie?"
"Yes, come in…"
Judy opens the door.
"Who was at the door?"
"Mary, you know? our neighbor…"
"Susan's daughter?"
Quinn nods.
"What did she want?"
"To give me this…" She shakes the envelope in the air.
"And what's this?"
"Something Rachel sent to me…"
"Oh… It's a good thing?"
"Yeah…"
Last night…
"I'm a little lost here… I don't know what to do!" Rachel shouts frustrated.
"You should sing to her…" Brittany says calmly.
"Normally this would work but I don't think this is the case now…"
"You did a lot of thing for her Rachel, but you never sang to her…"
"But Britt, you said it is a hopeless cause… she won't give in that easily…"
"She won't…"
They both look at Santana as she walks in Rachel's bedroom.
"Where's Kurt?"
"He and Blaine went home a few minutes ago…"
"Well, I think we should do the same…" Santana gets close to Brittany and kisses her on the lips; Rachel smiles at the sight.
"Tempting… but Rachel is kind of lost; she doesn't know what do…"
"Oh my God!" Rachel shouts suddenly. "Look what I found!"
"What's it?"
"It's something Quinn and I did years ago…"
"Rachel?"
"Yes?"
"I believe you when you said you love her and you want to woo her and all that sappy thing… but I really need you to tell me, I need you to promise that you're serious; that you're not going to run after Finn…"
"I won't… I would show you the divorce papers but they aren't ready… you can call my lawyer though…"
"No… just don't hurt her okay?"
"I think I'm in more dangerous now…"
After a lot of thinking she finally had an idea.
"Hey guys, do you think you can help me-"
Right after lunch the doorbell is ringing again.
"I'll get it!"
She shouts to her mother as she walks toward the front door.
"Hi!"
This time is a teenage girl who somehow reminds Quinn of Santana; she is with three others teenagers.
"Wow! You're really beautiful…"
"And you are?"
"Uh, my name is Amanda and these are my friends…" They all smile at Quinn. "We are in glee club together, like you… and we are supposed to do this…"
She nods to her friends, the boy starts playing the guitar and Amanda starts singing.
"I can't believe it…" Quinn smiles as she recognizes the song.
Watching every motion
In my foolish lover's game
On this endless ocean
Finally lovers know no shame
Turning and returning to some secret lace inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say
Take my breath away…
.
"And this is for you…"
One of the girls gives Quinn a bouquet of red roses.
.
Take my breath away
Watching I keep waiting
Still anticipating love
Never hesitating
To become the fated loves
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
"The one accomplishment that I'm gonna be so proud of is that I found a way to be your friend…"
She remembers that day as Amanda keeps singing.
Through the hourglass I saw you
In time you slipped away
When the mirror crashed I called you
And turned to hear you say
If only for today
I am unafraid
Take my breath away
Take my breath away
She smells the roses and takes the note.
There is a note, of course.
Watching every motion
In this foolish lover's game
Haunted by the notion
Somewhere there's a love in flames
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn my way and say
And in fact, Amanda sings this part just as good as Santana did.
Take my breath away
Take my breath away…
"I hope you enjoyed…" Amanda says shyly. "We're going now…"
"I loved it… thank you guys..."
"Could we take a picture?" The boy asks hopeful.
"Yes of course…"
They did and then they leave.
Quinn gets in the house.
"What was that?"
Judy asks her.
"I don't know exactly… could you put them in the water?"
"Sure honey…"
Quinn hands the bouquet to her mother and then she starts reading the note as she walks toward the living room. The note has a poem:
Your beauty takes my breath away
Your voice is so sweet no matter what you say
Your beautiful face glistens and shines
Your beauty makes me wish that you were mine
Yes, you're the prettiest girl I've ever met
But you're also a lot more than that
This was lame I know…
But hey! I'm Rachel Berry!
Yes, I am Rachel Berry…
You said people change; I changed, being away from you made me different… I became this selfish and insensitive person…
But I woke up!
And I am me again! I'm Rachel Berry; I love lame and corny things! I love flowers, I love serenades, I love being bossy and diva and I love being on the stage…
But first and foremost…
I love you Quinn Fabray!
With all my heart…
When she finishes reading her face is wet with her tears. She takes a deep breath.
"Are you okay Quinnie?"
"Yes… I think…"
She can't explain what she is feeling; actually, she doesn't know what she is feeling.
Oh God…
In the early evening, Santana calls her.
"Hello…"
"Hey, listen, you don't have to do anything but Rachel wants me to pick you up… so…"
Quinn knows that the right thing to do would be to refuse. And she wants to refuse.
"Okay… you can pick me up…"
"Are you sure?"
"Yes…"
I'm just curious…
Half hour later Santana arrives.
"Where are we going?"
"You'll see…"
"Here… this is for you…" Santana rolls her eyes.
"A corsage?" Quinn arches an eyebrow.
"Go figure… She said it will make sense…"
She looks more carefully at the wrist corsage. It is like the one she used on junior prom. A gardenia with a light green ribbon wrapped on it. Why Rachel would give her this one?
"Can we go?"
"Yes…"
When they get at McKinley high, Quinn frowns at her friend.
"Are we breaking into our old school?"
"Sort of… Don't worry, we arranged everything…"
"That's just great…"
"Don't look at me; you're the one who fell in love with Rachel Berry…"
"I did…"
They get out of the car and walk toward the building. Brittany is already inside.
"Hey guys…" She says happily. "Go see her…" She says to Quinn.
"Where exactly?"
Brittany smiles widely.
"Oh yeah I forgot… just a second…" She takes her phone and Quinn watches as she talks on the device. "She is here already… okay…" She hangs up.
"Quinn?"
They hear Rachel's voice at the speaker.
"You have to meet me in a very special place to us… you know where is it right? I mean, is it the bathroom where you slapped me? We do like bathrooms uh? You gave me the metro pass there… and you showed me your acceptance letter there too… but it isn't the bathroom… it could be the hallway… oh my God… how many fights… "
She giggles.
"But no… maybe my locker? It was where I told Finn which corsage he should buy to you… yeah, just like this one you're using now… did you know that gardenias mean secret love?"
Quinn looks at her wrist. She can't believe it. She starts walking; she knows pretty well where Rachel is.
"Or if you want to get it right then there's only one place you should go…"
But when she gets in the auditorium Rachel is not there. She looks around and nothing, except a sheet on the piano which draws her eyes. On top of it has a note
Play it…
She looks around again, then she sits on the bench.
Quinn knows the song so she doesn't really need the sheet. She runs her fingers on the ivory and starts playing the intro.
Notice me…
And then in perfect synch she hears Rachel's powerful voice and somehow it causes chills down her spine. The Broadway star is in the middle of the stage now.
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Quinn looks at her. She is not exactly dressed like teenage Rachel. But there is something about the brunette right now that makes Quinn remember that Rachel.
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face
It's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
Rachel gets closer and now she is with her hand on the piano. Quinn keeps her eyes on the keys.
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done?
You seem to move on easy
.
She stares at the blonde fondly.
.
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face
You're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
.
Quinn finally looks up and she can see the tears on Rachel's face.
With all her voice, with all her heart Rachel sings the next part.
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
She smiles weakly and looks at the blonde amazed with her every movement.
Uuuh
Now it is her turn to cry.
In theory she knows she can stop playing any time but she keeps playing as Rachel's voice enfolds her.
.
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
Somehow for this brief moment nothing matters but Rachel and her.
.
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face
You're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
When the song ends they stare at each other for a moment.
"Look into my eyes and tell me you don't love…" Rachel breaks the silence.
"Rach…"
"You can't, just like I couldn't back then… Quinn I know I was a coward and I broke your heart and I can't erase it with these things, with songs and roses and… I know…"
Rachel likes to talk, that's a fact so as she started her rambling she didn't notice that Quinn is devastated, she is torn.
"But I just…" Rachel finally looks at her.
"I'm sorry… I can't…" She says tearful.
"Tell me you don't love me…"
"I'm engaged…"
"What?" Rachel gets pale. "Since when?"
"Last week…"
"Thomas…"She whispers, she read something about their relationship.
"Yes…"
"I didn't know you guys…" She says sadly.
"I have to go…"
"So, that's it? You're going to marry him? Do you love him? He is the person you can tell every little thing to?"
The honest answer would be no. But she doesn't answer at all.
"Good bye Rachel…"
Quinn walks away as Rachel sits on the bench and cries her heart out.
The songs:
Singing in the Rain (singing in the rain soundtrack)
Everytime (Ms. Britney Spears) I wanted Lea to sing it not Melissa :(