CHAPTER 10

When we get back to his house I can feel all eyes in me when we walk into the room.

"Takeout my ass!" Kellan says sarcastically.

"No no we got takeout." Taylor says. "But hahaha it wasn't for you guys. It was for us."

"Ouch." Ashley says.

We sit down and all engage in conversation. But five minutes into a very interesting conversation with Kellan my phone rings.

"Hello." I answer getting up and stepping into another room.

"Ooh must be important if she was polite enough to leave the room." Jordan says jokingly.

"What do you mean?" Rob asks.

"I mean I love Bits to death but she does not give two shits about the people around her when she's on the phone she will answer it anywhere anytime and only leaves the room when it's either personal or important." Jordan explains.

"Okay now I have to know what the phone call is." Kellan states, everyone agreeing.

They all sit patiently and quietly trying to hear some of my phone call.

"Okay thanks for the call bye." I say walking in the room hanging up my phone.

"Well." Jordan says expectantly.

I don't respond. My body's gone numb and I just stand in the doorway staring at the wall. I don't know how much time has passed but I know that I haven't said a word. I can hear the whispers and I can feel the stares but I can't make my body move.

"Bitsey." Jordan says.

I still don't respond.

"Elizabeth." She says not joking anymore and standing up.

Not a muscle moves. I'm not even sure if I'm blinking.

"Elizabeth Anne Julig. Talk to me." She says crossing the room and standing in front of me.

My eyes adjust and I find them staring into hers. I can feel the tears welling up in the back of my eyes and the lump forming in my throat but I just shake my head and look at the ground.

"Can we go?" I ask shakily.

"Yes of course. Lets go." She says. "Will you take us?" She asks Taylor.

"Yeah." He says looking concerned.

"Bye." She says to everyone.

"Bye." They all say back with Kristen adding "I hope your okay. I'm sure we will see you two again soon. Keep us posted."

As we leave Jordan wraps her arm around me and says "baby what's wrong?"

As soon as we're in the car-Taylor driving me and Jordan in the back- I look out the window and block them out.

Taylor turns on the radio and skin by rascal flatts comes on and I lose it. I burst into tears and I can't stop sobbing. Neither of them realize its the song so they leave it playing but Jordan scoots over and wraps her arms around me hushing me and holding me. As soon as we get to her house Taylor gets out and opens the door for us. I'm still crying but I get out and hug him. Letting him hold me tight never wanting to let go. Finally though after I stop crying I step back.

"I'm sorry." I say looking down at the ground.

"Don't be." He says wiping a tear from my cheek. "But please talk to me when you're ready."

"I will." I say grabbing Jordan's hand. "Bye."

"Bye guys." He says kissing me on the forehead and leaving.

We walk up her pathway and into her house. I drag her upstairs and we go into our rooms to get ready for bed.

A few minutes after we part I come to her door and knock.

"Come in." She says.

I walk in to find her skyping with her boyfriend.

"Oh sorry I forgot its date night for y'all I'll come back later." I say starting to back out of the room.

"No no stay." She says patting the bed next to her.

I walk over and sit down putting my head on her shoulder. "Hey Nick." I say smiling and waving at him.

"Hey Bitsey!" He says. "I guess you two wanna talk so I'll let you go then. Bye Bits. Bye love." He says waving them signing off.

"So what's up babes?" She asks me.

"My doctor called." I say.

"What'd he say?" She asks.

"I have uhmmm I have...oh god I can't even say it!" I say bursting into years again.

"Shhhhhh. Shhhhh. It's okay hon. You don't have to tell me until you're ready." She says wrapping her arms around me again.

"Okay." I say sniffling.

"So tell me about your date tonight." She says.

I start laughing as I tell her everything that happened earlier. When I'm done she says "Ohmygod I knew that would happen I'm so happy for ya. Is it everything you thought it's be?"

"It's everything I thought it'd be and more!" I say beaming.

"Good. I'm glad but it's late as fuck. And I'm so tired," she says laughing.

"Me too." I say getting under the covers and lying down to face her.

She turns off the light and does the same. As my eyes adjust I roll to my stomach, sigh and just blurt out "Leukemia."