[My computer is having some problems, so I don't know when this will go up, but please review and enjoy.]
She walked silently back to her room, fists clenched, head down. She had asked Sesshomaru to let her walk alone, and he had reluctantly complied. Sliding the door open, she fell right into Sango and Miroku's arms.
They understood how she felt, having both lost their parents at a young age. She let herself lean on them for a moment, then silently got to her feet from where they had all knelt on the floor.
"I'm going to bed."
They nodded, going back to their positions glumly.
"One more thing. When my mother's handmaiden is feeling better, she'll be helping you Sango."
The girl nodded again, and they all lapsed into silence as Miroku closed the door and Kagome collapsed into bed.
When Kagome woke, she felt a cold numbness settle over her, and she got out of bed silently. Getting dressed, not waiting for Sango, she wrote out a note and headed for the gardens, Miroku in tow.
"Please just wait for me in here," she begged when they finally arrived. He reluctantly agreed, opening the door for her.
She strolled through the gardens, silently, calmly, numbly. There was no sound except her feet crunching in the snow, which had fallen overnight, and her own breaths, which seemed loud to her own ears.
Why were her breaths so loud? Why couldn't she think straight? It didn't matter. They were gone. Gone. But her head! Was everything supposed to be spinning?
She sat down under a cherry tree, its blossoms long gone, trying to reorient herself.
"I will not have another fit. I won't." she murmured to herself, staring at the trunk of the tree across the path as she waited for her vertigo to pass.
Her tears escaped her eyes at last, and she took a shaky breath. She hadn't planned on being out so long, she was so cold. Or was she overheated? She didn't know.
"Mama. Papa."
She bowed her head, closing her eyes and ignoring her vertigo. She shook her head, trying and failing to clear it, and crying quietly. She was afraid she'd throw up if her mouth opened, so she kept it riveted shut.
This is ten times worse than the last. Will this be the last one?
"Kagome?"
She heard Sesshomaru calling her, and she let out a weak whimper, afraid to open her mouth. He was by her side in an instant.
"Another fit?"
She nodded.
"You can't talk?"
She shook her head.
"You can't or you won't?"
"Ican't," she blurted, slapping her hand over her mouth when she finished, swallowing back the bile rising in her throat.
He must have caught on, because he carefully pulled her to her feet, without pressing the issue. Everything spun, and she stumbled, though he caught her immediately.
"I don't think I can carry you all that way. You'll have to walk."
She nodded, focusing on moving her feet, one step at a time.
Sesshomaru took her all the way to her room, this time, handing her off to her handmaiden when they arrived. When he was allowed back in, he took a seat by her bedside, closing his eyes and tilting his head back.
He knew that he could revive her if anything were to happen, but it didn't stop him from worrying.
This may be her final fit...
He could feel her aura weakening, and he found it less distracting than usual.
He heard her take in a shaky breath, and he opened his eyes.
"Sesshomaru?"
He ignored the missing honorific, "I am right here."
"I can't see..."
He felt his stomach drop, and he had to refrain himself from healing her right then and there. The fear in her voice tortured him, but he forced himself to keep his voice steady.
"I cannot heal you until after you have passed. The knowledge around our healing methods are very limited, but we are sure it will help you."
He grimaced, for they weren't sure. Not at all.
"I don't want to die," she whispered, letting a single tear escape her unseeing eyes.
He silently wiped it away, letting his thumb linger on her cheek for a moment. She leaned into the touch, letting herself be weak for a moment.
"Everything will be alright. I will make sure of it."
"I believe you... but still..."
He took her hand carefully, and she squeezed it, tight.
"Silence. Just rest."
She gladly complied, falling asleep almost instantly, never thinking to take her hand from his.
Days passed, and Kagome got steadily worse. She didn't regain her sight, and for some reason she'd started to loose her hearing. Kaede said it had to do with her brain, though what it was they didn't know. They just hoped Kagome would get better.
Kagome spoke only to Sesshomaru, and she seemed to have trouble with that too. Her speech was garbled, and she began to forget words. They didn't know what one had to do with the other, but Kaede seemed to think her body was losing it's ability to function. [AN: If you didn't guess already, she has some type of brain tumor. I don't really know anything about tumors, so I'm just gonna say it's destroying important parts of her brain. It started progressing quicker when the most recent fit started, and it's progressing really rapidly now. I probably should have done some research, but it's too late now...]
It was a bad day for Kagome. She refused to eat, as she was suffering from severe vertigo, and she shivered constantly. Her hearing was fading, and she was beginning to have trouble moving. He never left her side, not even to eat. It wasn't as if he really needed food anyway. [AN: What does Sesshomaru eat?]
"Sesshomaru? I'm... tired..."
He heard her heart stuttering, and he clenched his fists, claws digging into his palms.
"It's almost time," he whispered.
"Oh... Can you lay with me?"
Her words were becoming more and more slurred.
He lied down beside her, something he normally wouldn't have done, even for her, and she held tightly to him.
"I guess... this is it?"
"No. I'll bring you back. I swear."
"Okay..." she murmured sleepily, "See you then..."
She slipped into unconsciousness, which would turn out to be a short-lived coma. He held her, feeling her shaking breathes rattling her chest. Her heart was beating rapidly, and he felt himself die inside when her heart finally stopped.
He silently stood up, sensing his father nearing the door. He met him there.
"She's dead. Get Tenseiga. It's time."
[I think I need to stop watching Naruto. There are way too many feels in my stories now. Oh well. Don't worry! He'll bring her back! Or will he? Please review and tell me what you think! Byeee!]