"See ? You did it !"

Her heart missed a beat at the sound of her name in the blonde's mouth. She was not used to but Mikoto noted that it sounded good, especially in her mouth.

"I-I did it, i made a step forward for our relationship..." Misaki thought, as she finally addressed herself to Mikoto with a bit of insecurity. "Does... it sounds weird ?"

Misaka noticed that she wasn't sure of herself, which was rare. As her smile faded a little. "Not at all ! There is something that i didn't know ?"

"N-Nothing... It's just a big step for me..." The Mental Out retorted as she squirmed a little.

The Railgun raised an eyebrow at her response.

"I don't understand you." She sighed as she continued. "You're impassive when It comes to kissing. But for a name, you're all nervous."

That was true , Shokuhou gave to the name a lot of importance. Since she didn't want it to be like Dolly. The poor girl didn't use Misaki's real name until her last moment. She wanted to break that barrier.

"T-That's not the same ! You're the one who made it difficult." She pointed to the chestnut haired girl.

She changed the subject knowing that it will be useless to argue about that.

"So, it's my turn to call you by your name isn't it?" She coughed to clear her voice.

Shokuhou was waiting impatiently as she gulped for her.

"Misaki."

Shokuhou's eyes widened.

The way Mikoto said her name, it reminded her of Dolly. Which instantly turned her to a state of trance as it brought her back bad memories.

Back then Dolly's condition had deteriorated immensely and she was taken away, she had asked Misaki for her real name just before she leaved her.

"Misaki-chan. Thanks for... being my friend..." They were her last words.

She always blamed herself for lying to Dolly. The Mental Out went depressed for a long time due to that. She even wanted to use her powers on herself to remove these "heavy thoughts".

It was an event engraved forever in her body.

The blonde shook her head and bit her lip to refrain any painful memories. "N-No..."

Misaka noticed her painful expression as she softened her voice, concerned by her girlfriend. "Are you okay ? There is something wrong...?"

Misaki was still in deep thoughts as she put her hand on her own face. "It's my fault ... everything is my fau-." She stopped her thought as she felt a hand on hers, it was Mikoto's.

Misaka leaned to the blonde and took her hand when she remarked that she wasn't well. She didn't know why , but she knew that something was wrong. She had to be with her at times like this.

"Im here...It's alright." Misaka squeezed Shokuhou's hand tightly when she noticed that they were shaking.

She could focus on her hand instead of her memories. She did not expect Mikoto to be that worried, her touch brought her back to herself for a moment. But she immediately been overwhelmed into another thoughts.

"She is just a puppet, a part of our project." The scientist laughed as he spoke these words.

She pushed back Misaka's hand and suddenly got up from her chair. "N-No ... She is not!" Misaki put her hands on her head and clutched her own hair, she was overtaken by all of this.

Misaka progressively understood the situation as she clenched her fist. She knew too well how hard it was, after all , she had already suffered from it. But it was difficult to see her that way, her heart shredded at the sight.

The Railgun also got up from her chair and walked over to the Mental Out as she took the blonde in her arms to calm her down.

Misaki was taken aback by the sudden contact. As soon as the chestnut haired girl hugged her, the blonde tried to resist her.

"Let me..." She tried to push her but it was useless , Mikoto was holding her tightly and wouldn't release her until she eased down.

"I won't."

"Please...Just..."The Mental Out almost begged while struggling against her embrace, she was exhausted by all of this.

"You don't have to support all the burden by yourself." Mikoto added to comfort the girl. Which worked as Shokuhou stopped her struggling and let herself little by little in Mikoto's arms.

"It's not your fault." She said as softly as possible, to not change her girlfriend's mind.

She knew Mikoto understood the situation, it was as if she had read her thoughts.

Shokuhou finally hugged her back while confessing to the Railgun.

"If i had known the truth of the experiment... Im sure that Dolly wouldn't have died. All of this is my fault." She said while aggriping to the Railgun's shirt.

Misaka's expression softened. There was a time when she thought the same thing as the blonde."You were just a kid. And if you'd known, it would've hurt you even more." She added as she began to stroke the blonde's hair to ease her down.

Everything that Misaka said to her moved her and went straight to her heart. That was what she'd been secretly waiting for, for someone to tell her that she wasn't at fault.

"So please...Don't blame yourself. If you think like that, what am I? A murder? I killed more than 10,000 of them you know ?"

At her words, Shokuhou looked straight into Misaka's eyes. She did not agree with what she had just said. "N-No ! You're n-"

Mikoto cut her as she awkwardly laughed. "I realized when it was too late, that I wasn't the murderer, and I don't want you to suffer as much as I've suffered." She tightened her grip as she continued her sentence. "If I'm not guilty, you're not either. It's all Gensei's fault for playing with our feelings when we were kids."

She knew Misaka wasn't a murdered, it wasn't her fault after all. Misaki also knew how bad she tried to save her Sister's.

But she couldn't forgive herself to act as nothing had happened and appreciating her daily life.

"But...I'm the bad one to-" The blonde got cut again by the Railgun.

"I know what you're going to say but, life goes on. Even Dolly is enjoying her life right now. You know it as much as me that you are not guilty. You also deserves to be happy." She reassured the girl.

"I..." Misaki was in a loss of word, the electromaster had countered all her arguments. She felt much better and the blonde was no longer alone. She had someone she could rely on.

She finally rested her head in Mikoto's neck and appreciated her embrace.

"It's better like that, Dolly wouldn't like to see you deprimed." Mikoto commented while resting her head on the blonde's head. She hoped she had answered all her fears as she closed her eyes and appreciated the moment of calm.

Until now she hadn't noticed how close they were. She could feel Shokuhou breathing on her neck which tickled her a bit.

"Calm down.. it's not the time to think about this ..." She mentally scolded herself as she tried to focus on something else.

A while later, after she felt that Shokuhou had calmed down Misaka released her grip.

"Are you feeling better now ?"

Misaki nodded. "Yeah... Thanks you." Shokuhou was a little disappointed to withdraw the embrace but didn't say it , otherwise it will be out of place.

"Please...The next time that you feel bad, tell me, I'm here for you. Do not bear the burden alone."

Shokuhou's heart beat quickly to her words. She took Mikoto's hand and squeezed it tightly.

"I will try..." She paused. "You don't know how glad I am to have you..." The Mental Out whispered.

These words reminded her of Junko's words. But Mikoto was the lucky one here, going out with Shokuhou Misaki. It was like a miracle. "Just never underestimate yourself or say bad things about yourself. The one i like is perfect for me."

Misaki's cheeks reddened at her comment. she did not expect her to say that, but it happened from time to time that she was surprised by this idiot, which wasn't bad either.

Misaka released her hand without waiting the blonde's answer, because she wasn't aware of the impact of her words and didn't notice Misaki's mood at the moment as she started walking to her bag to store her belongings.

Shokuhou immediately stopped her to go further as she held up her shirt. Which caused the Railgun to turn around and face her.

"Shoku-...Ah sorry..." The electromaster scratched her head.

"Misaki ?" She said this time, without making any mistake.

"Nothing..." She sighed as she released her shirt.

"Is she idiot ? It was the perfect timing to kiss me..." She thought a bit disappointed.

Mikoto noticed her disappointment, but didn't understand why she was disappointed at first. She would be so dense some time. She didn't even notice how close they were and how it was the perfect timing to kiss her and how Misaki was eager to it.

"If you say so." She shrugged and began to pack her things.

The blonde opened the door and waited for the chesnut haired girl to finish putting away her belongings.

When she finished, Mikoto went to the door where Misaki was standing.

"So..." She scratched her head a second time. "Thanks for today, i will try to succes my exam, and.."

And just before leaving, she leaned toward Shokuhou and kissed her cheek. Mikoto was wearing a big smile and her cheeks were a shade of pink. She was content of her achievement. Then she left as quickly as possible, before the Mental Out understood what just happened.

Misaki had her hand on the door, and looked confusedly. The Railgun was nowhere to be seen.

As she tried to reconstruct what just had happened. She ran her hand over her cheek. "Did she just kiss my cheeks?"

The blonde closed the door and lay down on her bed as she tried to assimilate everything.

"Is ... Is she a elementary school student ? Who did this nowadays, and at our age ? She kissed my cheeks and directly dissapeared."

The Mental Out sounded like she was upset but actually she was blushing and smiling really hard.

"That... That's so her..." She sighed but didn't really complain.

"She will kiss me when the time comes." She took a cushion in her arms and squeezed it. "It's not like im starving for it..."

Actually, she lied , she was really aroused whenever they were close. "That's bad...Really bad." She rolled on her bed. "I am in this state just because of a kisses on the cheek. Seriously!"

She sighed and looked at her ceiling. "It's not like I never went further with my exs. But it's like she's teasing me! She do things so slowly ... She doesn't know how I hold myself back from kissing her at times."

It's the first time that Shokuhou had a relationship like that, which made her confused. She didn't know what to expect. Usually she was just there to have good time with the boys, when she was starving she would just made it, and wouldn't hide anything or refrain the envy. Her exs knew what to expect whenever they saw each other and all of that was for calming her urge. But in this case it wasn't the same.

I Hope you enjoyed this chapter ! I just wanted to specify something. When i use the italic it's either for flashback or thoughts. Just for make it clear. Thank you for reading until the end a second time. I just wanted to rewrite this chapter because it didn't feel as good as i expected to be so i hope this one is a bit better !