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So here is chapter 10 Already. The story is begining its last part. I think it won't lasted more than 15 chapters.
Here you're going to deal with Arizona many questions, her doubts her fears in front of Callie who is sure of what she wants.
So be ready to see an impulsive and almost bipolar reactions from the blonde.
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Arizona rolled her eyes and quickly tried to wipe the tears from her face.
« You may be stubborn but I am too. I took the second key from Bailey. I know she's got a set of each office key. » Callie explained as she notice the prosthetic against the wall. « Are you okay ? »
« I can't do this Callie. I can't talk about us, I can't give you what you want. » Arizona whispered as she litteraly scrumbled.
« Please... Don't cry... » Callie said, not really knowing what to do.
Arizona was litteraly crumbling in front of her, her sobb becoming heavier each second.
Callie thought she would have been pissed, angry maybe even bitter. Deep inside, she wished Arizona would have been thrilled to hear those 3 words from her.
But she was so vulnerable, inches from her. And she couldn't touch her when the only thing she wanted would be to hold her tight in her arms.
Taking the chance, she reached her hand to Arizona's face and brushed lightly at her hair, making Arizona raise her head and stare at her with a scared gaze.
« I'm sorry... » Callie said, struggling to not cry too.
She took a moment to observe her and she finaly authorized herself to stroke Arizona's hair slowly. First reluctant, Arizona decided to let her do it and closed her eyes, still sobbing.
Callie leaned closer to her but without daring to hug her. She eventually sat next to her, taking her hands off of Arizona and sighed.
« I never meant to upset you. » She confessed. « It all came out of my mouth like that. I didn't even admit it to myself before I say it to be honest. I was being jealous of your girlfriend. And I know it was totaly out of bounce. And Please, believe me when I say that I didn't plan on it. »
Arizona didn't react. She only openes her eyes and sighed, one more time, rubbing her cheeks.
« I know this is crazy. Less than a week ago, I was with Penny. And then everything's had gone so fast... » Callie whispered. « I don't want to put any kind of pressure on you. I'm sorry for what I told you this morning. Just forget about it. »
« I can't... » Arizona finally said. « I can't forget it Callie. You have no idea for how long I've been waiting to hear those words. »
Callie remained stunned for a moment. She had no idea about what Arizona was going to tell her, but at least she was speaking to her.
« I can't forget. » Arizona repeated. « Do you know what I regret so much ? »
« About what ? »
« When you left the therapist office... I should have run after you. I should have make you talk to me. Even if maybe it was for the best, even if those years apart made us stronger, I should have grabbed your hand, I should have try to fight harder. » Arizona confessed.
As it was Callie's turn to cry, Arizona took her hands in her and intertwined their fingers.
« It's not something easy Callie. I'm not strong enough. »
« What ? »
« If we … If things falls apart again, between us, I won't make it. » Arizona explained. « It's... I don't deserve you. I can't make you happy. I failed so many times. »
« Do you love me ? » Callie suddenly asked, turning towards Arizona as staring at her.
« I … I do. » Arizona eventually admitted.
« Then, why are you affraid ? I know we both changed in two years. I barely know what happens in your life and I can't stand it. I want to know everything about you. I want you to know everything about me too. » Callie said,
« We can't Callie, it's too late. » Arizona said. « We had so many chances. Even if we take the chance, it will ended in drama. As usual. And I don't want you to suffer. You dont deserve that. You deserve the world. »
« But I love you Arizona. I am ready ! It took me time but I'm freed from our past. I'm healed. »
« I'm not so much healed... » Arizona stated as Callie's pager buzzed.
« 911... » She sighed.
« You see, it's a sign... » Arizona said sadly.
« I have to go. But we need to talk Arizona. Please. Let me try... » Callie pleaded.
« I don't know Calliope... » Arizona whispered. « I don't know... »
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Callie slowly stretched her body after her 4 hours long surgery she had just finished. She was leaning against the sink in the scrub room and smiled when Meredith joined her.
The two surgeons had save another life and they were really relieved because their patient was out of danger.
« Good job ! » Meredith greeted her friends.
« At least there will be something positive from that day. » Callie said as she took of her scrub cap and washed her hands, followed by Meredith.
« What do you mean ? »
Callie didn't reply, drying her hands and opening the door to get out.
« Would like a drink at Joe's ? If your shift is over of course. » Callie asked, avoiding to talk about what Meredith asked her.
« That will be great ! I'm off, let me call Maggie to know if she can handle the kids. »
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Arizona was on her way to her car with her daughter. The little girl was really talkative as usual. After her chahotic day, she was more than happy to have her for the week.
They were in the lobby, Arizona signing a last minute charts and were about to leave when Sofia ran to the stairs where Callie and Meredith were going downstairs.
« Mommy ! » the little girl yelled, making Callie noticing her and smiling.
« Hey ! What are you doing here baby ? » She asked her.
« I'm with Mama, she's just right here ! » Sofia replied, pointing her mother. « We are going to make our own pizza tonight ! »
Callie raised an eyebrow, surprised by the words coming from her daughter's mouth.
« Sounds fun ! » Meredith said, stroking her hair. « I'd like to taste it one day ! »
« You can come home. Mama always buys to much food. » Sofia explained.
« What ? » Callie asked. She didn't know Arizona was cooking with Sofia. It was surprising her.
« Yeah, We cook together every time I'm at home. We have done italian food, french food and even sushi ! » Sofia insisted excitedly.
Hearing her daughter giggling instictively made Arizona turned her head and made her meet her ex-wife's eyes.
An immediate tension came over their exchanged looks and Arizona cut the connection quick enough, before walking toward them.
« Come on Sofia, we're running late. » Arizona said, giving her hand to her daughter.
« I'm coming ! » Sofia replied.
« Hi ! » Meredith greeted Arizona as Sofia was kissing her Mommy good night before grabbing her other mother's hand.
« Hey Meredith. » Arizona replied without really looking at her.
« So you are cooking with Sofia. That's great. Zola loves cooking too. Except that I don't cook that much... » She said.
« Yeah, it's something we are doing every week. She loves it, isn't that right monkey ? » Arizona explained, still avoiding Callie's eyes.
« I love it ! »
« I love that. » Callie said, looking at mother and daughter who were sharing a smile. « I'd like to taste your next recipe... »
Knowing she was encoaching Arizona's space, Callie bit her lips and wasn't expecting any answer.
« Why don't you come on thursday, it's lasagna day. » Arizona said as she looked at Callie for the first time.
Taken back by the proposition, Callie needed a few seconds before replied.
« Yes, I... Sure... » She barely mumbled.
« Oh yes ! » Sofia yelled, hugging Arizona's waist.
« Great. See you on thursday then ! » Arizona noded before taking Sofia's hand and leaving a speechless Callie.
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« This is totally...destabilizing... » Were the only words Callie was repeating before taking a sipe of her beer.
« Well, take it easy. Apparently she's been having second thoughts... » Meredith teased.
« She was so distant. She told me she wasn't ready, almost she didn't want to try again... She was crying for god's sake, totaly upset. » Callie grumbled. « And now she invites me for dinner ? And what is it with the cooking. She didn't like cooking when I was with her. She can cook but she used to tell me she hated it... »
« You're talking too much... » Meredith sighed. « And if you don't want to go, don't go ! »
« She took time to think and she wasn't scared when she invited me... Do you know how she would have react two years ago in the same situation ? She would have picked a fight... And here, she told me how she was feeling, her doubts, her fears... And she got over it... » Callie repeated. « And she's cooking with Sofia... »
« She's changed, that's it... » Meredith simply stated. « You've been apart more than 2 years Callie. She's got a whole new life, without you, and so do you. »
Callie nodded and took another sipe. She had never allowed herself to think about what Meredith was telling her.
Of course she knew it.
Of course Arizona was certainly a new person in some ways. She was now a double certified surgeon, she had a new place she had never visited. She was just living her life like every person. And thinking about that made her sick to her stomach.
« I heard the interns saying she was playing softball. » Meredith said, making Callie swallow the wrong way.
« What ? She can't do that, she sucked at it. And it's not easy with her prosthetic. » Callie said.
« Apparently she is. DeLuca was talking about that with Wilson the other day. »
« I feel like she's changed a lot... » Callie worried. « I don't know why I said yes. »
« Because you want her back, don't you ? »
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Two days later, something seemed lighter in Arizona's mood.
She definitely didn't know what she was going to say to Callie the next day, she didn't really know why she had invited her.
She had reacted on the fact. It was like something was telling her she had to do it. And weirdly, as soon as Callie had accepted the invitation, Arizona had to restrain a smile. She had just nodded and left her.
And as she entered the attending's lounge she found Amelia who was reviewing some patient case on her tablet and April who was doing some paper work.
« Hey... » She greeted them, walking to her locker.
« Hey, how are you today ? » April replied.
« I'm okay. » Arizona simply stated, letting a light sigh escape.
« Why are you sighing ? » Amelia asked, putting her tablet on the table ans staring at her.
« I'm not. I'm just... » Arizona mumbled. « Callie is coming for dinner tonight. »
« What ? » Amelia interjected. « I thought you were in to the comic store girl ? »
« Callie told her she loves her and wants her back. » April precised, noding at Amelia who opened big eyes in surpises.
« And you've hiding that from me Arizona ? » Amelia teased. « I thought I was your friend since I'm sleeping on your couch... »
« What ? » April asked as she was not aware of the situtation.
« Meredith kicked her out... » Arizona explained, noding at April. « And April is sleeping with Jackson even though they're not really back together... »
«Arizona ! » April repremanded her friend.
« What ? You told her about Callie, and I told you about Meredith. So she needed something about you to break even, right ? » Arizona asked Amelia.
« Yeah, that's totaly it, but don't try to change the subject. How did that happen ? » Amelia asked.
« Why did you invite her ? You told me you weren't ready two days ago... » April added.
« I don't know. Sofia was talking our pizza night... »
« That pizza was good ! » Amelia said as Arizona gave her a dark gaze.
« So she told her about it, and she said she wold like to taste it. And I don't know, I just ask her to come for the lasagna tonight... »
« Lasagna ? Great ! I love it ! » Amelia smiled.
« You are not invited ! » Arizona said. « You are going to sleep at April's tonight. Right April ? »
« Yeah... I mean Okay... » April mumbled taken aback. « And what's the plan ? »
« There's no plan. » Arizona stated as she took on her labcoat.
« Come on Arizona. You did invite her on purpose, don't deny it ! »
« I am not denying anything. It's just that there's no plan at all. I'm doing it for Sofia. I want her to be happy, so I need to build a solid friendship with Callie, for our daughter's sake. »
« Your daughter's sake my ass ! » Amelia said as she stood up. « You want her back to but you're too proud to say it. »
« What ? I don't though ! » Arizona said as April stood up at her turn.
« You totaly want her back... » April said as she passed next to the blonde, resting a friendly hand on her arms.
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A few hours later, Arizona was on her way home. She had to get groceries for her cooking night with Sofia, and maybe change her clothes.
But why would she do that. It wasn't a date. It was just a dinner for Sofia. The 6 year old was so proud to tell Callie she was cooking, that it was normal for Arizona to invite her, wasn't it.
She was a little stressed out since her ealier talk with April and Amelia.
« Those two don't know what they're talking about. Just look where they are right now... » Arizona mumbled to herself, as the elevator's door opened.
« Oh, Hey Dr Robbins ! » Richard welcomed her as she entered.
« Hi ! » Arizona replied, smiling at him.
« So, where can I lead you ? »
« Floor 3, i'm going to pick up Sofia, we have a guest tonight and we are cooking ! » Arizona replied, more excited than what she wanted let appear.
« Great ! But you are already introducing her to your daughter ? Isn't that a little soon ? I'm not blaming you, don't get me wrong ! » Richard said.
Arizona bit her lips knowing Richard was talking about Andy.
« Talking about that, I'm not taking things further with Andy. » Arizona said shily.
« Oh... I'm sorry to hear that... » Richard said, looking at her with compassion. « So who is the lucky guest ? And does that mean we're going back to that lovely bar ? »
The ring of the elevator just rang and the doors opened and Arizona get out really fast avoiding Richard's question. She turned to him as the doors were about to close and smiled awkwardly.
« It's Callie... » she mumbled, smiling silly.
« Callie, like Callie Torres ? What the hell ? »
And the doors closed, relieving Arizona from any kind of explanation.
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« And after dinner is Mommy staying ? » Sofia asked as Arizona was walking with her in the parking lot.
She blushed as her daughter said those words and shook her head nervously.
« I don't think so sweetie. She just come over to taste your lasagna you know. »
« So she's going to see my room ! » Sofia said, excited to show Callie her girly room.
« Yeah, that's good... » Arizona mumbled.
If she had ever been to Callie's place a few times to pick up Sofia, Callie had never set foot at hers. It's not that Arizona didn't want it. It was just the opportunity never reallt happened.
Well, she had always managed to avoid Callie's visit to her place.
It was a little house she rented in a quiet neighborhood. It was at the opposite side of Callie's place but remained close to the hospital and to Sofia's school.
But when she thought about all those details she could only admit that it was a parapraxis.
It took her time to act cordially with Callie, to be really able to talk about something else other that the divorce or Sofia. It was a way to ptotect herself from the pain.
But tonight, Callie would be in her kitchen in her home.
« Robbins ! Wait ! » A voice called her as she was helping Sofia get on her seat.
« Richard ? »
« Do you just tell me you where going on a date with... »
« SSShhhhh ! » Arizona said, pointing Sofia, and closing the door of the car. « It's not a date ! It's a family dinner, for Sofia. She needs that. »
« Doesn't sounds like a 'family' diner when you told me that with a big smile on your face... » Richard stated, looking at Arizona with a probing gaze.
« It's...complicated... » Arizona whispered, leaning against the car.
« So, you and Torres are trying to get back together ? Or is it just a fling ? » Richard insisted.
« I don't know... » Arizona resigned.
« As your wingman, I have to say that I'm happy for you. » Richard said receiving a questionning look from the blonde. « I couldn't have pick a better person for you. She's kind, passionate, smart, caring and absolutely beautiful. Of course, she's got a strong personality, but I guess it what makes her so special. »
« Richard, what are you doing ? »
« My job ! I'm your wingman after all Robbins ! » He stated. « So what you are going to do is that you are going to buy an overly expensive bottle of wine that you will be opened after your 'family' dinner when your daughter will be sleeping. You will invite her in the living room. You have couch ? »
« Yes... »
« Good, so you invite her to take a seat, and you serve her a glasse of wine in one of those big goblet. You put a soft background music and you let her talk to you, never leaving your eyes from hers, make her feel listened to and understood. It's really important. »
Arizona was noding politely as she listened to her former chief explain how to seduce a woman back in the eighties.
« You may invite her to dance. I know you think it's kind of old school, but it will work. I'm sure ! »
« That's not the problem Richard. The fact are she's more into it than I am. I mean, I'm in it too, but I still need time to figure if I'm totaly in... » Arizona confessed.
« Listen to me Robbins. She's your one. There's no need to argue about that. I don't know what kind of things you need to figure, but I wish you make the right decision... »
« Mama ! We are going to be late ! » Sofia yelled, making Richard and Arizona jumped.
« I have to go now... Thank you Richard, really... » Arizona said as she opened the door of her car.
« Spring your wings and fly my butterfly... » Richard hummed as he walked back to the hospital and Arizona was on her way to her 'Family dinner'.