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Chapter 10 – Together

The apartment hunting went surprisingly well, even after they looked at approximately 10 different apartments, Sam was extremely patient with her and he kept things light and for that she was grateful. The apartment she chose was the last one they looked at and it turned out to be only three streets away from Sam's place; she was not sure how she felt about that, Sam was worming his way back in her life, he was breaking through the walls she worked so hard to build, but she was so scared of getting hurt again. Over the last two years, she learned to expect to get hurt, so when it did happen hopefully it wouldn't be as painful. It worked sometimes, but most of the time she was just fooling herself; it hurt when he avoided her, it hurt when he left, it hurt when Traci left and it hurt when she lost her mom and then her dad and she didn't know how she could ever be okay again and she didn't know if she could ever trust Sam again, or anyone really.

She looked at Sam who was now bringing her last box into her new apartment and she could tell he was practically walking on egg shells around her; it made her feel kind of guilty about it, but she couldn't stop how she felt. Sam had this knack for tearing down the walls she built to protect herself; the walls she built after he left were stronger than any ones she built before, but he still managed to crack them.

"Do you need help unpacking?" Sam asked her

Andy froze "Um…no…I think I got it handled" she felt bad when she saw the slight disappointment in his eyes before he quickly covered it up.

He gave her a smile "Okay, then I'll see you tomorrow?"

She nodded and managed to give him a small smile, and then he left. She sighed after the door closed, why was everything so messed up? She'd come to terms that she still had feelings for Sam, but she couldn't bring herself to do anything about them.

The next day at work started off like any other and Sam brought her a coffee like always.

"Before I give you your assignments for today, I would like to say that we found a permanent replacement for the detective position, please welcome back Detective Traci Nash" Frank said during parade

Andy's eyes widened in shock when she saw Traci walk to the front for the room, she was so happy that Traci was back but she was somewhat hurt that Traci didn't tell her about it herself.

"Now, assignments are; Epstein/Diaz, Collins/Shaw, Peck/Swarek, and McNally you're with the D's today"

As the pairs went out on patrol, Andy slowly approached Traci.

"Traci" they both had tears in their eyes, seeing each other in person for the first time in almost 2 years. Andy pulled her into a tight hug, "I can't believe your back"

"Me neither" Traci smiled "I asked Best to put you with me today, we really need to catch up"

Once they reached their workstation and were completely alone, Traci changed the subject from work to Andy. "How are you, Andy?" she asked

'Damn I hate that question' Andy sighed "I'm fine"

Traci gave her a look "I mean really"

Andy knew by the way Traci asked that she knew, Andy swallowed hard "Who told you?"

Traci hesitated "…Sam"

Andy sighed; she figured as much "How much did he tell you"

Traci looked apprehensive "Everything" she said quietly, waiting for an outburst from Andy…but it never came.

"Is…is that why you came back?"

"No" Traci answered honestly "I came back because I was ready, and when Best told me that they never filled Jerry's job, I knew it would be the best fit for me…I didn't tell you because I wanted it to be a surprise" Traci knew she had to tell her the rest "Sam called me two weeks ago and told me everything and why you never told anyone how you were feeling. Andy I really wish I was here for you through everything…but I'm here now"

Andy scoffed "Are you going to tell me I need help too? Sa…Swarek already told me I should several times"

"Andy it helps, trust me" Traci pleaded "After Jerry…I was a wreck and when I left I knew I had to be strong for Leo and it was too hard to do with my heart broken; so I got counseling, it started off being once a week, then it went to every two weeks, it helped more than I ever thought it could. I would be so much worse off now if I hadn't of the help I needed…Andy I think you would really benefit from seeing a psychologist, I know that you don't want to feel the way you do forever, and I'm not saying you should go this minute, I'm just asking you to at least think about it"

Andy just nodded

"And don't be mad at Sam for telling me, he did it because he cares about you, a lot" Traci told her

"I know he does" Andy sighed "He's been trying to be there for me and to gain my trust back…damn he's relentless"

Traci was quiet for a moment "I think its love"

It's been a week since her talk with Traci, and she decided now was the time to get the help everyone said she needed because she had finally come to terms that she needed it. She took a personal day for the first time in years and went to the ER. Her phone was on silent so everything would go uninterrupted, and she didn't want to have to explain to anyone why she took a personal day. She was very nervous, she had no idea what seeing a doctor would entail; when her name was called she swallowed the lump in her throat and followed the nurse to the exam room.

Sam was freaking, he had no idea where Andy was and when Frank told him that Andy took a personal day, he got even more worried because that was not like Andy. He was luckily on his own today, so he checked Andy's apartment, the cemetery, and the Penny but she was nowhere to be found. He was getting frantic, enough so, that he went back to the station and traced her phone; his heart dropped to his stomach when he saw where she was. The hospital. He darted out of the station and raced to the hospital and just as he was heading inside, Andy emerged; he sighed in relief when he saw she was all in one piece and immediately engulfed her in a tight hug.

"Sam, what are you doing here?" She looked at him confused

Sam cleared his throat, "I…um…I tracked your phone…I was worried, is everything okay?"

Andy looked up at him and smiled, "Yes, it will be" she answered, she pulled out the two pieces of paper from her pocket and showed him; one was an appointment for a psychiatrist and the other was a number for counselor.

Sam's eyes widened "You're…" he was at loss for words

Andy nodded "I'm getting help"

Sam looked at her with a proud smile, 'I love you' he wanted to say to her, but he knew if he said it now, it would ruin everything.

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