"Berry" I slowly open my eyes after hearing my name and tapping on my window. "Hey Berry wake up" I blink a few more times and see Santana making funny faces on my car window. I sigh a bit because I know she's been drinking but I really don't care right now. I need to be in her arms. I need to feel safe. I start opening the door and then quickly fly into her, hugging her for dear life as I start to cry again. "Hey what's wrong? What happened?" I feel her tighten her hold on me which makes me tighten mine too.

"Kristi...Sara...they" I say in between sobs. Santana pulls back and wipes away some of my tears with her thumbs.

"Slow down" She closes my car door and then leads me over to the curb were we both take a seat. "What happened?" I take a few breaths in and out to control my breathing so I can explain.

"I went to Sara's house after we came home from Regional's. Something just didn't feel right" I start to tear up again. "My feeling was right because when I got there… Kristi answered the door" The tears start falling faster from my eyes.

"Please don't cry Rach" Santana says to me as she starts wiping away my tears again.

"I asked where Sara was and…and Kristi said she was in the shower" I drop my head in my hands. "I didn't want to believe her at first but then" I look back up Santana. "I heard her. I heard Sara yell for her" My head goes back into my hands and start crying harder. I feel Santana scoot closer to me and she places her hand to my back and starts rubbing circles to try and calm me down.

"Bitches" I hear her say casually and even though this isn't the time to laugh I can't help but let out a small chuckle. "I was being serious you know" I sit back up and give Santana a small sad smile.

"I know you were. You think…you think I could stay the night?"

"Always" Santana smiles at me and even though my heart is broken right now it still flutters at her smile and I can't understand why. "Let's go inside" We both get up from the curb and I follow her inside and into her room. I take a seat on the bed and watch Santana as she stumbles around looking for clothes to change into and I can't help but laugh at her.

"How much did you drink tonight?" I ask.

"I only had…" She starts counting her fingers and when she gets to five she turns her hand and shows me.

"Drinks? Or shots?" She shrugs and smirks and I just shake my head. When Santana finally comes to bed she gets in and lays on her back. She brings both hands behind her head and looks up at the ceiling.

"You deserve better Rachel" Santana tells me and I just frown."Has she called you yet?"

"No…well I don't know I turned my phone off" I feel so exhausted. I kick my shoes off and throw my keys on the nightstand before finally getting underneath the blankets. I turn to my left side and face Santana. "Do you think this is my punishment?" Santana quickly turns to her side and looks at me.

"For?"

"For being such an awful girlfriend" Santana's eyebrows narrow in like she can't believe I just said what I did.

"You an awful girlfriend?" I shake my head yes. "You're not an awful girlfriend"

"But I am. I've done things I shouldn't have and now oh god now I'm in bed with you" I quickly jump out of the bed as Santana rolls her eyes.

"Get your ass back in bed. It's not like we're having sex"

"It doesn't matter I can't. I can't share a bed with you"

"Why the hell not? We've already shared a bed before"

"But that was before"

"Before what?"

"Before…before…everything" I stutter and then lower my head and look at the ground. "I should have just gone home. I shouldn't have come here"

"Will you stop" I look up and Santana is sitting up in the bed now. "You're unbelievable you know that? You just said you caught your girlfriend cheating yet all you can think about is how bad of a girlfriend you are" Santana's words hit me hard and I start to cry again. "Shit" I see her get out of the bed and come over to me. "I didn't mean to make you cry. I'm sorry but you have to know what I'm saying is true. Sara's the bad girlfriend not you" I just look at Santana and she gives me a small smile. "Look you sleep in the bed and I'll take the floor and we can talk about this more in the morning"

"You're not sleeping on the floor. That's your bed and I'm not kicking you out of it. I'm just going to go home"

"And what are you going to tell your dads when they hear you coming in at almost four thirty in the morning? Just take the bed" Santana walks back over to the bed and grabs a pillow and blanket and lays on the floor. I just stand there until I sigh and head for the bed and climb in it. She's right my dads won't be happy if they hear me coming in at this time of night especially when I should be at Sara's.

"I wish I never moved here" I say out of nowhere. "I liked my old life. Everything was perfect before I came here" There's a few minutes of silence and I think Santana has passed out but then I hear her clear her throat.

"I'm sorry you hate it here" She says. "But honestly I'm kind of glad I found you again" I sigh when I realized what I just said.

"Santana I didn't mean…"

"Don't. It's fine. I feel a little sick. I'm going to sleep now" I don't say anything. I don't think she wanted me too anyways so I just close my eyes and let the tears fall from them.

The next morning I lay in bed wide awake. I've been awake for a few hours now, I just couldn't sleep anymore. When I see it's a reasonable time to leave I quietly get out of bed praying I don't wake Santana up. I carefully put my shoes back on and grab my car keys. I think about leaving a note telling Santana I left and that I'll call her later but I dismiss that thought and just leave her room. I'm halfway down the hall but that's when I see Santana's mom.

"Morning Mrs. Lopez"

"Morning Miss Berry" I smile. I forget she doesn't like for me to call her by last name. She told me I'm not only old enough but I've known her long enough to call her by her first name. "Leaving before breakfast?"

"Yes, unfortunately I need to get home"

"Is Ana still sleeping? I can wake her so she can take you home or I can take you dear"

"No, no that's not necessary. My car is outside but thank you Mrs.… Maribel" She smiles at me.

"Let me walk you out then" Maribel walks to me to the door and then gives me a hug as I leave. "Rachel dear" I turn back around to look at her. "I'm really glad you're back in Ana's life. I've never seen her so happy" I give Maribel a polite smile. "Drive safe dear"

"I will" I tell her before I open my car door, get in and drive home.

To be honest I'm a little nervous coming home especially since I told my dads I would be at Sara's for the remainder of my winter break. I know the minute I come through the door they're going to question me like crazy. As pull up in my driveway and turn the car off and see the front door open and I start to panic slightly. How do they know I was coming home? I get out of the car and head towards the door and prepare for the worse. I see my dad standing there with his arms folded across his chest and I know I'm in trouble.

"Hi dad" I say with a big smile on my face as I walk into the house. "Where's daddy?"

"Oh no you don't young lady, where have you been all night?" He asks me as he closes the door.

"Sara's house" I lie.

"Really?" I nod my head yes. "So why are you home? I thought you were staying with her for the rest of your break?"

"I was but umm…where's daddy?" I ask again. I'm not one to be in trouble all the time but on the rare occasions that I am it's always good to have my daddy around. He's the nicer one and always seems to get my dad to lower the harshness of his punishments.

"Your father is asleep"

"Oh" Great I'm really going to get it now. "Well… Sara was leaving on a family trip today. I didn't know she was going out of town so I came back home" Please believe me. Please believe me. I repeat over and over in my head.

"Really now?" I shake my head yes. "That's interesting because you see I just got this very surprising phone call a little while ago" He tells me.

"Oh" I say suddenly feeling a bit nervous. "From who?"

"Sara" My eyes go wide and my heart starts racing. "She said she was really worried and didn't know where you were because you weren't answering her texts and calls" My hearts continues to race out of control. "Now please explain to me why Sara would be looking for you if you were at her house last night like you claim"

"I…I…"

"Rachel"

"..."

"Rachel Barbara Berry! Your father and I did not raise you to lie. So I want to know where you've been at all night young lady" I look down to the ground. I'm so busted. No use in lying anymore I might as well be honest.

"I was at Santana's house"

"And why were you at Santana's house?" I shrug my shoulders as I continue to stare at the ground. "I'm going to need a little more than a shoulder shrug" I take a deep breath and then exhale.

"I went to her house after I caught Sara cheating on me" I tell my dad honestly and I just hear him sigh.

"I knew you two were having problems but I didn't think cheating would be one of them" I look back up at him and he frowns at me. "Do you want to talk about it?"

"I guess"

"Come let's makes some coffee and talk" I nod my head as we both make our way to the kitchen. I take a seat at the table while my dad goes to the coffee pot. "So Sara's been cheating?" My dad asks.

"Yes…I mean I think she is" I tell him.

"I thought you said you caught her?"

"Well…I mean I went to her house and Kristi answered the door. Then she told me some…some stuff"

"Some stuff? What kind of stuff" My dad asks as he brings over our coffee cups and takes a seat across from me.

"I rather not say" I answer not really feeling comfortable telling my dad I heard Sara calling Kristi from the shower. My dad just nods.

"I told Sara your phone probably died and you forgot to plug it in the charger and that's why you weren't calling her back. I also told her you were safe and sound here at home"

"Thank you"

"So…" My dad begins to say. "You went to Santana's house?" He finishes as he takes a sip of his coffee.

"Yes. I just… I don't know I needed her" My dad smirks at me and I just roll my eyes. "We're just friends' dad" I say as if I already know what he's thinking.

"I didn't say anything"

"But I know that smirk. That smirk means you're thinking something else" My dad laughs.

"Fine, fine you got me" I take a sip of my coffee. "But you have to know that girl is in love with you"

"What girl?"

"Santana" I give my dad a confused look. "Rachel, please tell me you're not that oblivious to it?"

"I know she likes me but I don't think she's in love with me" My dad just smiles and shakes his head.

"Sweetie Santana's in love with you. I can see it every time she looks at you" I blush a bit. "And I know you may not love her but I can tell you like her a little" I bow my head a bit in embarrassment. "You do don't you?"

"Dad I'm with Sara"

"That's not what I asked" I take another sip of my coffee as I try to figure out how to answer him.

"I…" I don't know what to say other than. "Yes I do" I finally admit not only to my dad but to myself that I do in fact like Santana. "I didn't plan for this to happen, dad. I swear. It's just Santana I don't know she makes me…she makes me feel different. Like when I look into her eyes I see comfort and…"

"Love?" I frown as I lower my head. My dad gets up and takes a seat next to me. "It's okay to have feelings for someone else Rachel"

"No it's not. I'm with Sara. I'm supposed to be in love with Sara" I freeze and my eyes go wide. I said supposed to be. I lower my head in my hands and start to cry.

"It's okay sweetie" My dad says as he hugs me.

"It's not. I just said I'm supposed to be in love meaning I'm not anymore"

"It happens"

"No, Sara and I were supposed to be forever. We were supposed to love each other forever"

"I understand I do and you always will love each other but you know…sometimes things don't always go the way you planned"

"Why did we have to move here dad? Why? Sara and I would have been fine if we never moved. She would have never cheated and I wouldn't have these stupid feelings" I cry harder and my dad hugs me tighter.

"Rachel look at me" I try to control my sobs as I look back up at my dad. "None of this is happening because we moved. This is happening because it was supposed to happen"

"So Sara was supposed to cheat on me?"

"No. Cheating will never be okay but what I'm trying to say is that everything happens for a reason. People fall out of love because they are supposed to. When you meet someone or when someone walks out of your life it's because that's what's supposed to happen. And you want to know something else? Something I truly believe in till this day?" I shake my head yes. "I believe that when you start developing feelings for other people especially when you're already in a relationship it's your hearts way of telling you that, that person isn't the one. The only way your heart can communicate with you is by feelings and emotions and when it doesn't think something is right it will let you know. It might not be what you want but the heart never lies"

"But Sara is the one. The only one for me"

"Obviously not honey" I just glare at my dad and he smiles. "You both seem to have feelings for other people and I hate to tell you this love bug but you don't always end up with the person you thought you'd spend forever with"

"You did"

"No I didn't. I always thought I was going to marry Amy Miller but when I saw your father my heart well it had a change of heart" My dad laughs which makes me smile.

"How did you know daddy was the one?"

"Besides my heart telling me he was?" My dad smiles. "I just knew. It's hard to explain but you'll know. You'll look at them and you'll just know that, that's who you're supposed to be with" I sigh as I wipe away some of the tears from my eyes. "You and Sara really need to talk. Sara cheating and you pretending you don't feel anything for Santana isn't healthy for either of you"

"I'm not pretending"

"Rachel" My dad says and I frown.

"I never wanted this to happen"

"I know sweetie but you can't control what the heart wants"

"And you think my heart wants Santana?"

"I can't answer that for you dear that's something you have to decide for yourself but it's clear that Sara isn't what your heart wants anymore" I give my dad a lopsided smile. "Talk to her. You both need to be completely honest with each other" My dad gets up and kisses the top of my head. "Remember everything happens for a reason. Now if you'll excuse me I need to wake your lazy father up" I watch him leave the kitchen but before he's out of sight he turns back to me. "Oh and your father knows nothing about Sara calling this morning and I don't plan on telling him. It will only worry him for no reason considering you're already home safe and sound. I'm also going to let your lying to me slide just this once. Next time it will be different. Do you understand?"

"Yes sir"

"Everything is going to be okay. It will all work out" I give my dad a small smile and watch him disappear. I sit at the table for a while longer. So many things are racing through my mind but my dad is right I do need to talk to Sara. I finally get up and take my cup to the sink before heading upstairs. I take a quick shower and grab my phone. I turn it back on and sure enough I have about a million texts from Sara and twice as many missed calls. I decide to just delete all the texts and not bother with them. When I finish I go to my contact list and my thumb shadows over Sara's name. My hearts starts racing a bit and I take a few deep breaths before pressing the send button and after two rings she answers.