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Tori's POV
Jade and I went to grab lunch then walked the mall a little. She told me about Christian. She met him last semester but had no interest in him.
"I was just hung up on someone that I loved that will never love me back." Jade says as we walk."
I just nod at Jade thinking who it could be, Beck was her ex, maybe she was talking about him?
I can't help but feel sad she is seeing someone. After the mall Jade takes me back home. We decide to just watch a movie before Jade says she has homework to finish. It seems like it almost getting back to the way things were before the almost kiss but it is still awkward
"Do you want to get coffee tomorrow? Maybe go for a walk?" Jade asks as she gets up.
"Yeah I'd like that, I just have plans with Ben tomorrow at around 2." I say.
"Oh okay well we can get coffee then go to the pond and do a little piano." Jade says before getting up from the couch. "Bye Tori." Jade says walking to the front door and leaving.
The next day Jade and comes to pick me up around 10. We go and get coffee before dropping Jade's house back at my house and walk to the pond.
"So are you enjoying school?" Jade asks as we sit by the pond.
"Yeah it is nice to go and just be on my own, it feels almost normal." Jade just nods sipping her coffee
"How is it being back in school after doing the movie?"
"It's a little tough to get back into waking up to go to class but they are interesting classes." Jade says.
Jade and I sit at the pond for an hour before heading back to the house. As we get there I go upstairs to get ready for Ben as Jade talks to Trina. When I am finished getting ready Jade comes up to say goodbye.
"I'll see you later Tori, have fun with Ben." Jade says form the doorway. I really am starting to miss when she used to hug me goodbye.
Ben and I go to see another movie when he picks me up, after the movie we go to a park that was near the mall to walk around a little since it's such a nice day. Ben kisses me goodbye again at the end of the date,
That week when Ben has time to kill he sits with me at the cafeteria while I wait for Trina. Surprisingly I don't see Jade around campus.
Jade does visit one day during the week after I get home and we walk to the pond. We struggle to find anything to really talk about. After that she heads home claiming she has homework to do.
Since she has gotten back it has been starting to get awkward with her. Since Sunday when we went to the pond.
That weekend Ben takes me out again on Friday and Saturday and I don't end up seeing Jade at all. I can't help but feel sad. It's like we are both kind of avoiding each other. Our texts are limited because we just don't know what to talk about. I just keep trying to convince myself that I'll start to like Ben and I don't want to disappoint my parents.
The following week is the same as before with the exception that I see Jade in the cafeteria twice both times she is with Christian. She just smiles and waves at me when I see but grabs coffee and leaves. I can't help the anger that bubbles inside of me that Jade couldn't even come over and say hi.
The rest of the week despite it not being Jade's fault I just can't talk to her. I am so confused by my feelings and why I am acting the way I am. I can't stand her hanging out with that guy. I don't answer her texts even though I shouldn't be upset or jealous she has a new guy in her life but something in me is making me not talk to her.
The next week I only see Jade in the cafeteria once, again of course it is with Christian which angers me, unlike last week Jade just grabs coffee not looking my way or trying to say hi. I guess she is ignoring me now. That's fine she has Christian now she doesn't need me.
"Where has Jade been?" Trina asks me randomly.
"I think she is dating Christian now so she doesn't have time for her friends." I say trying to not let the bitterness slip in my voice.
"Oh she is dating again?" Trina sees surprised.
"Seems that way."
Trina goes to say something just as the doorbell rings interrupting our conversation.
"Hey Tori." Ben says when I open the door.
"Hey Ben. He leans in and gives me a kiss.
I let Ben into the house. We are just going to hang out here tonight and watch some movies.
After we watch 3 movies and it's getting late Ben decides to leave.
"Tori, I know we haven't been seeing each other long but will you be my girlfriend officially?"
Ben asks before he leaves. I completely freeze.
"Uh Ben, I don't know I mean like you said it hasn't been that long. Can I have some time to think about it?" I say trying to stay calm.
"Yes of course. I'll text you later." Ben says kissing me goodbye before walking out to his car.
"Ben asked me to be his girlfriend." I tell Trina as she walks down the stairs. She just shakes her head at me.
"Why don't you like him?" I ask getting angry.
"It's nothing, just leave it alone."
"No tell me Treen!" I snap out, not questioning where the nickname came from.
"Nothing Tori, jesus just leave it alone!" Trina yells out at me.
"Tell me!" I yell.
"Jade is in love with you! Can't you see it? She told you was in love with you before the accident!" Trina yells.
"Oh my god." I mumble out. "I'm not gay Trina." I say quietly.
"Oh yes you are, well were. You came out before the accident, and news flash you were in love with Jade too!" I just look at Trina in shock. "Yeah Tori, yI was the first person you told.
Flashback
"Trina, can I talk to you for a minute?" I say knocking on her door.
"Um Tori I am in the middle of something." Trina is standing watching some weird cosmetic show. Her hair is in tin foil and she is waving her hands to I think have nail polish dry.
"Treen please it's important and I have no one else to talk about it with."
Trina turns to look at me.
"Okay, what's wrong Tori? It needs to be quick I have a date tonight." I shake my head wondering how I got stuck with her for a sister.
"I think I am gay." I say holding back my tears. "I think I am in love with Jade."
"Oh god Tori." Trina says this was not the reaction I hoped for.
"You have a problem with me being gay?"
"No I have a problem with you being in love with Jade. Couldn't pick I don't know a nice non-psycho girl to love? Tori I don't care that you are gay, you are still are my not as talented or as popular or pretty little sister and I love you the same." I feel tears spill over at her acceptance not even caring about her Trina like response.
End flashback.
"Oh my god Trina, I had a memory! Oh my god I remember telling you that night I remember how I felt for Jade why I have been so upset that she is with that guy now!" I say tears burning my eyes.
Trina comes over and pulls me into a tight hug. Trina tells me about how I didn't believe Jade the night she told me she was in love with me but she has showed since the accident that she truly loved me.
After talking to Trina I decide first thing in the morning I need to go and talk to Jade. I need to hear it from her before I will believe it.
Jade's POV
The day at the pond I knew I fucked up the friendship with Tori. I t would never be the same. The following week was torture when Tori didn't want to talk to me. I got the call after a few days that I had received the small part I send a video audition in for. It was short notice but luckily I had already spoken with my professors of the classes I had that were not online. Incase I did get the part.
I decided the day I left I would go and give Tori her present and say goodbye. There was a tiny part of me that never wanted to come back though it was bad enough that I was already basically running form my problems.
After a month and a half of being gone I ha mixed feelings of going home and seeing Tori. When I finally saw her in the cafeteria with that guy it hurt. She never liked me that way. Maybe I should just stay out of her life. No that wouldn't be fair to her I was still her friend.
I walked over and was surprised when Tori gave me the hug but it wasn't unwelcome.
When Tori told me about the date with Ben my heart shattered. I did want her to be happy but I really wish it were with me. I couldn't even ditch her either. I got to suffer sitting near her knowing she would never love me.
I decided after that I would give this guy Christian who asked me out the first semester of school a chance. I start really wondering if I can just be Tori's friend the next day when we hang out at the park. I know it isn't her fault but I don't know if I can deal with the pain.
Christian and I plan coffee for Saturday morning. I don't know why but I agree to hanging out with Tori when she asks. I don't mean for Tori to find out about Christian the way she does but what is done is done.
The following week I don't really see Tori as much. I do end up visiting her at the house on Wednesday. It is pretty awkward between us because I am struggling to find stuff to talk about that isn't her love life without seeming like a terrible friend. She is busy that weekend with Ben so I don't try to make any plans with her and opt to sit home watching horror movies and hang out with Christian some.
The following week I start hanging out with Christian more and Tori even less. It is almost like she is ignoring me. Her texts are either short if she even texts me back. When I see her at the cafeteria I decide to just wave and smile. She is with Ben and I have Christian with me and I don't feel like dealing with the awkwardness of trying to make small chat.
I don't really see it going anywhere with Christian but he is a fun guy to hang out with and turning out to be a really good friend.
The next week Tori is just blatantly ignoring me. She won't return any of my calls or texts and that hurts even more than her being with Ben. I see her at the cafeteria with whom other than Ben and quickly go and get coffee before she can see me. I knew I fucked everything up with that almost kiss. I don't know why she is so mad at me now though. Tat following weekend 3 weekends after I finally got back from the movie Friday night I get a text late from Trina.
'Ben asked Tori to be his girlfriend. You need to do something now before you lose your chance.' I let out a humorless laugh. What chance?
'I never had a chance; I can't make her like me. She deserves to be happy even if it's with Ben.' I reply back to Trina. I feel my eyes burn. I send a text to Christian about getting coffee the next day because I really need a friend and right now he is the only friend I have close.
"Hey Jade are you okay?" Christian asks when he comes to pick me up.
"Yes I am fine just need some coffee." I reply giving him a fake smile and following him to his car.
We grab coffee and sit for a little talking about nothing in particular. After we finish our first cups we grab another and head back to my house.
As we pull up to my house I notice a car in the road in front of my house that looks a lot like Tori's. I turn and see Tori sitting on the front stairs in front of the front door. I get out walking up the steps. Tori immediately stands up seeing me walking up to her.
"Sorry I shouldn't have just come." Tori says looking upset.
"Tori why are you here?" I ask gabbing Tori's wrist before she can get away.
"I didn't know you were with your boyfriend." Tori hisses out. Why is she so mad? She has Ben.
"Aren't you supposed to be with Ben?" I say angrily. If she is going to give me attitude I'll give it right back.
"At least I know why you have been ignoring me!" I just lose it.
"Excuse me? I have been ignoring you? You know hat I'm done, fuck you Vega!" I snap out angrily before thinking. I notice tears fall form Tori's eyes.
"Uh Jade, I'm going to go." I hear Christian say.
"No I'm going you can stay." Vega says as more tears fall.
"Um, no I'll leave. You guys should talk things out." Christian smiles at me before walking to his car. I just look at Vega and shake my head before. I walk into my house before she can see my teas. I go to close the door and look to see Vega still standing there.
"Why did you come here?" I ask again calmly.
"You weren't supposed to just give up on me!" Tori says crying but yelling.
"What are you talking about?" I say confused.
"Nothing, just forget it." Tori says before she turns and walks towards her car.
I am sorry about the cliffhanger, but i promise the next chapter will make up for it! let me know what you think RandR!