Feelings

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My first lesson was Maths – which I had with Isaac. So we walked together through the crowd of pupils, while some of them stared at us and some just stared at me – since I was the freak in school. I sighed, and Isaac glanced at me with a curious look. I pretended not to notice.

It took quite a while for us to reach the classroom, since my crutches were slowing us down. Maybe if I hadn't been peeking at him all the time – making it harder for me to walk straight – we would have gotten there faster.

When I got to my seat, I realized that he wouldn't be sitting next to me – something that strangely made me a bit upset. I shook my head, somehow trying to shake off those stupid feelings. But I couldn't really get rid of them, which irritated me. What was wrong with me? First of all, I didn't even know him. And second of all, he was sitting at the bench in front of me, so why was I longing for him? My only answer was that I had literally gone mad now.

I kept peeking at him – like I always did. Sometimes he was looking at me too, which made me blush.

"Miss Moore?", my teacher, Mr. Samson, called, trying to make me pay attention to the lesson.

"Ehm…what?", I asked, feeling like a complete idiot.

"The answer?", he asked in an irritated tone.

"What?", I repeated, flushing a deep red.

He sighed and chose another pupil. I looked down at the table immediately, still with a blush on my cheeks. I almost kept my eyes there for the rest of the lesson, except for the few times when I quickly glanced up to look at Isaac. He was staring intently at me all the time, which made it impossible for my blush to disappear.

When the bell finally rang, I got up from the chair and started to gather my things. I turned around and almost ran into Isaac. He had to grab my shoulders so that we wouldn't collide. Even though my sweater was quite thick, his cold skin made me shiver involuntary. He noticed that, and let go of me as fast as he could. His eyes were full of regret. I didn't understand his reaction at all, but I didn't bring it up since he looked quite upset.

"Are you driving me home, too?", I asked, mostly out of curiosity, but also because I wanted to erase that sad look in his eyes.

"Of course", he answered in a shocked tone – obviously he thought of it as a matter of course that he would drive me home.

"Just asking", I murmured.

He smiled at my comment, but didn't say anything. I was a bit relieved to see that his eyes were back to normal. Well, as normal as they could be.

"Jess", someone called from behind me. Not just someone – it was Zac.

"No", I whispered to myself, starting to panic again.

I looked up at Isaac, who was staring at me with amused eyes. I knew he found my expression funny, but I didn't have time to get irritated at him.

"Isn't that your ex-boyfriend?", Isaac mumbled to me, still with an amused look on his face.

"Yeah", I muttered, and gave him an angry look.

"Jessica", Zac said, standing at my other side.

"What do you want now?", I sighed.

"Ehm, I just wanted to talk to you…", he mumbled, glancing at Isaac.

"Well, I'm a bit busy right now, if you haven't noticed", I said – my voice getting angrier. "So goodbye", I added and started to walk away as fast as I could.

I didn't hear anyone following me, so I sighed out of relief. But when I glanced to the right, Isaac was walking silently beside me. A low gasp escaped my lips. He saw my frightened expression.

"Did I scare you?", he asked in an incredulous voice.

"No", I lied, but he easily saw through it.

"Sorry", he said, his tone sincere.

"I told you I wasn't scared", I said in a sour tone.

"And I didn't believe you", he answered, his voice not angry at all.

I sighed and looked away – apparently it was impossible to win an argument. We walked in silence till we reached the classroom where my next lesson was. I knew he had to leave me now – for a while at least – and it hurt a bit, knowing that I wouldn't see him until after school.

"I'll see you at lunch", he murmured to me.

I grabbed his arm just before he had time to walk away from me. His skin was extremely cold, but I didn't show the shock I felt inside. I didn't want him to get upset again.

"At lunch?", I asked, my eyebrows raised.

"Yeah", he said slowly, but with a smile on his lips. "Unless you want to sit with Zac", he added, his smile becoming teasing. Before I had time to answer, he walked away.

I wanted to shout something at him, but I was able to keep my mouth shut. I made it all the way to my table, almost sighing out of relief when I got to sit down. Unfortunately, I didn't have the desk for myself. Gary Brook shared my table, even though none of us enjoyed sitting beside each other. But the teacher wouldn't listen to our complaints.

"Hi Jessica", he greeted me – like he always did, out of politeness.

I just nodded at him, not caring to be nice. My irritation hadn't faded yet, and I didn't want to say something unfriendly to him – which I probably would if I opened my mouth.

Somehow I made it through the day, even though it seemed like the time went slower just to annoy me. But eventually it was time for lunch, and I rushed – well, almost rushed, since I couldn't run with a broken leg – to the cafeteria.

I could easily find him in the large room – his beauty standing out from the other pupils. I hurried to the table, struggling to make my way through the crowd of hungry students. He watched me all the way with an amused look that I was starting to recognize. When I got to his table, I realized that I hadn't bought any food.

"Damn", I sighed and turned around to get some lunch.

Before I had time to take one step, a cold hand grabbed my arm. I froze immediately – an automatic response.

"I'll get it for you", he mumbled, dropping my arm quickly before he walked away.

I stood there for a few seconds, not sure what to think or what to do. I finally decided to sit down at the table he had picked out. It was in the corner of the cafeteria, so that nobody would disturb us. Well, not like someone would do that otherwise, but anyway.

Isaac was back faster than I would have expected. Hadn't there been a pretty long queue?

"Here you go", he said with a warm smile on his lips, and handed me tray overloaded with food.

"Uhm, thanks", I said and swallowed loudly.

"Is there something wrong?", he asked, his smile fading.

"No, no", I assured him quickly. "There's just so much", I explained.

He chuckled, but put some of the food on his empty tray. I watched his movements, forgetting all about my food.

"Aren't you going to eat?", he asked, glancing meaningfully at my tray.

I blushed and picked up a slice of bread. I wasn't really hungry now that my stomach was filled of butterflies – but he had after all brought me food, so it felt rude not to eat it. I continued to watch him at the same time as I ate.

He didn't eat very much, but maybe he just wasn't hungry – like me.

"I'm done now", I said when I was finished with my slice of bread.

One of his eyebrows arched upwards when he saw my tray that was still filled with food, but he didn't say anything. Instead he quickly, and gracefully, got up and waited for me to do the same.

He followed me to the classroom, like before, and I felt a bit flattered – even though I didn't want to admit it. But it wasn't like when Zac had been the one who'd followed me to the classes. Isaac was totally different. And my feelings for him were also completely different.

I sighed, and shook my head in an attempt to get rid of those thoughts. But everything came back everytime I looked into his blue eyes.

"See you in an hour", I said in a quite sad voice.

He slowly reached out for me. I stood very still – not really sure how to react. His hand touched mine for a few seconds, before he abruptly turned around and hurried down the corridor.

My breath got stuck in the throat, and my thoughts were dizzy when my last lesson started.