Do I look like a girl to you?
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Summary: After another fight with Sanji, Zoro disappeared on the unknown isle. Where is Zoro? And who is that girl Sanji found in the forest? Gender change, violence. Lemon XD. ZoroXSanji
My Comments:
Thinking
"Talking"
'Reading from a book or a letter'
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Chapter Ten: Oz.
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Sanji was pissed off. He wanted to see the Marimo, but apparently Chopper had other plans. No one except him and Robin was allowed to enter the infirmary. That idiot had been in there for two days now. Oz had been a lot quieter after Luffy and told him to leave at the next island. The news had made Sanji smirk, but right now the fact that he couldn't see the swordsman and talk to him was bothering him. Sanji had no idea why Robin could enter, but thought that maybe it was because she had found out something about Zoro and she was there talking to him about it.
Sanji thought back to the nights three days ago, when he and Zoro had almost done it. He smacked his head. How should he be able to talk to that man again? What if Zoro didn't feel the same way? It had all been stupid.
Zoro was lying in the bed in the infirmary. He was healing much better now that he didn't do any work out and the female side didn't take control, but now he was bored and wanted out, but he stayed inside for one big reason. He didn't want to meet Sanji. He was scared that he would lose control over his body again. Last time he was saved by the pain he had felt in his wounds, but if it would happen again, then he would not be able to make Sanji stop.
It was not that he didn't like Sanji. To tell the truth, maybe he actually wanted to do it, but he wanted to be the one doing it. Not being the one sitting inside of him and watch he and Sanji do it. It would be wrong.
He hadn't been sleeping well either. He was hunted by nightmares. Most of them including the death of his crewmates. Sometimes he found himself believing that being in the infirmary was a dream, while his crewmates really were dead. Of course I have it that way! I haven't seen them for two days! Zoro thought. This was the best he could do to relax himself.
He sat up, even though he was tired, and cursed at the whole thing. Oz had apparently become more quiet and asocial. This bothered Zoro even more. What was he plotting? Chopper had told him to stay in the infirmary at least two days more, but Zoro decided to disobey the doctor once again. He felt fine now, and the pain had almost disappeared. He should be able to get to his room without meeting the cook, and if he met him, he should be able to shake him off. He opened the door and entered the galley and bumped into someone. When he looked up he was meted by a blue surprised eye.
Sanji looked down on Zoro who had just exited the infirmary he had been about to enter, even though Chopper had told him not to. Zoro's eyes immediately looked away.
Zoro wanted to walk away, or close the door right in Sanji's face, but didn't do any of it. He hadn't expected to meet Sanji so soon, and to tell the truth he didn't really know what he would do when he did. He quickly found his body didn't want to move properly. Was he really this easy to gain control over? He looked away from Sanji's face. It made it easier to gain control over him again, when he didn't see Sanji in the eyes. While he was still fighting the other side of him he heard Sanji say.
"I think we need to talk." He sounded serious. Zoro didn't do anything. He didn't want to talk. Sanji walked over to the table, but Zoro still hadn't fully control over himself, so he just stood still. "You are coming over?" Sanji asked But Zoro didn't move a muscle. Still not meeting Sanji's eyes he asked. "What do you want cook?"
Sanji cleared his through. "Well I wanted to ask you about what happened three days ago. About us." Zoro gulped. This was not a thing he wanted to talk about, since he had felt so helpless at the time. He had lost control over himself, even though he had been fighting very hard to regain it. It had just been impossible. He felt somehow dirty and unworthy for this blond in front of him. Zoro sighed. "What about it?" Zoro said sounding like what happened between them was one of their usual fights. Sanji grinds his teeth.
"Is that all? This is fucking serious! This is not something you can just throw over your shoulder like anything else you are doing" Zoro slammed his hand into the wall. "Well if you think of me like some brutal heartless person, then maybe you should just hate me again!" Zoro shouted at the floor, still determined not to meet the cook's eyes. "I have never hated you" Zoro's eyes widened by the statement. It had been so low, like a whisper, but Zoro had heard it anyway. He really wanted to look at Sanji, but he knew he would lose the little control he had gained over his body, if he saw him now. He must look terrible.
"I-I … I have to go." Zoro just said and ran out of the galley and on the deck where everyone else was, including Oz. They all looked up. "Zoro you're alright again!" Luffy yelled happily and ran up to give his first mate a hug. "He-Hey Luffy stop, I'm not fully heal-ouch" Luffy let go of Zoro. Zoro frowned. He hated feeling this pathetic.
"Zoro what are you doing here?" Chopper said as he had been going into doctor mode. "I'm fine Chopper." Zoro assured the little doctor, as he tried to get away from the galley. Luffy grinned. "Yeah Chopper! Zoro heals very fast, and you know that." Chopper looked at Luffy. He felt so wrong not telling Luffy it all. Luffy believed in Zoro. He thought Zoro was fine, but Chopper knew Zoro was everything else than fine.
"Zoro go to your room, now!" Chopper said. Zoro looked at him. Chopper looked really worried about him. "Okay fine." Zoro said and bit everyone goodbye, before leaving to return to the guestroom. He was actually glad that he had been sent to his room.
After a little while the door opened. Zoro thought it was Chopper and said. "I told you I'm fine Chopper, you don't need to worry about Me." there was a low laughter and Zoro felt it run cold down his back. He knew this laughter. "I have been waiting for some time alone with you Zoro." Oz said in an evil low voice.
Sanji sighed. Zoro hadn't been to lunch and now he didn't show up to dinner too. He didn't want to meet the swordsman after what happened the day earlier, but his duty as a cook told him to go and make him eat something. Still Zoro had run away after he had told him he didn't hate him. Sanji wondered what that could mean. After a half hours argument with himself he finally decided to go and give the swordsman some food, so he began cooking.
When he was done he placed the food on a plate and left the Galley and went straight to the guestroom. He knocked on the door, but to his surprise the door opened at the first hit on it. The last person to exit the room must have forgotten to close the door properly, or the marimo had. Sanji entered the room. The room was dark. The window had been covered by some cloth. Sanji then heard some noise come from the bed. He turned on the light, but right after he had done that he regretted doing it.
The noise from the bed turned out to be a really bloody Zoro. He looked even worse than when Sanji had found him in the forest. His hands were being cuffed over his head and handcuff was around the bed edge, making it impossible for Zoro to get off the bed. He was blindfold by his own bandana, and another bandana was covering his mouth. The bed was bloody red and the usual white color was nowhere to be seen. On the floor were Kisetsu and Shuusui lying. Both of them had blood on them. Sanji went over to Zoro, but the second his body touched the bed Zoro kicked him.
"Ouch. Hey I want to help you, baka!" Sanji yelled. Zoro sat still, after he recognized the voice and Sanji took off the blind fold and the cloth that covered the mouth. "What happened?" Sanji asked. Zoro didn't look at him. "It's nothing." Sanji felt his anger fill him.
"You call this nothing? God it's just like on thriller bark. You think just because you say it's nothing we'll stop worry about you?" Zoro still looked at his night table. Sanji turned to look too, and noticed a key.
He took it and soon found out it matched to the handcuffs. "At least tell me who did it." Sanji said, hoping the idiot wasn't that stubborn that he would actually cover up for the one, who had apparently raped him, but Zoro coughed out blood instead.
Sanji suddenly became very aware of Zoro's lack of cloth and hurried stood up and turned to the door.
"I'll go get Chopper. You better come with some answer when I come back." Sanji said as he stood up and left.
Zoro saw the door close behind the cook and released a breath he didn't knew he had been holding. Oz had left for a half hour earlier, leaving Zoro to bleed to death. At this point Zoro found death like a good idea.
The pain alone made him want to die, so it would stop, but his pride was against it. Like hell he would die without becoming the world's greatest swordsman. He jumped when the door opened again, which caused him to bite down on his lip, so he didn't scream in pain.
"Zoro! What happened? How did you end up like that?" Chopper yelled as he hurried over and began treating him. Zoro hissed in pain, when the little reindeer as much as touched him. Chopper was scared. What if Zoro didn't survive this? These wound was bad even if Zoro had been himself, but now … Chopper shook his head. He didn't want to think something like that, when he still had the change to save him.
Chopper was done. It had taken a lot more time then, and the little doctor was sure everyone outside the room was worried, why he hadn't left the room yet. He looked at Zoro who was sitting on his bed with a very painful look on his face. "You know you should lie down. This way you'll end up killing yourself." Zoro looked at him. He could see the worried expression on Chopper.
"I know, but I don't want the others to worry about me." It didn't look like he was in deep pain when he spoke anymore, but Chopper knew better. He could see how it hurt for him to speak. Chopper wanted to push Zoro down on the bed. "But it is best if you got some rest."
Chopper switched the weight from his leg. He looked really worried, and it made Zoro worried. "Chopper, is something wrong?" he whispered slowly, making it as painless as possible. Chopper looked at the ground, but didn't say anything. Finally Chopper looked up. "I don't know if I'll be able to save you Zoro." Zoro froze by this. Wasn't he saved? "What do you mean?"
Chopper moved uncomfortable with his one leg. "This time we were lucky you still have some control over yourself, but if this continues … your body can't take the sudden chance you're having every time you lose the control. It's destroying you from the inside." Chopper gulped. "We need to find a way to make you normal again."
Zoro nodded. "If that's the case, then I have only one person I can ask to do that …"
Outside were everyone, as Zoro had said, worried.
"He has been in there for an hour now." Nami said and looked at Robin, who wasn't smiling her normal smile. She knew if Chopper took this long, Zoro must be in a bad shape at the moment. She wanted to go in and see if he was alright, but that would be impossible.
Sanji hadn't said a word to the others. He still didn't believe what he had seen. Then the door opened. Chopper sends everyone a smile and said. "He's alright, but I'm not allowing visitors." Everyone looked at the reindeer and was somehow relieved, except Sanji. Chopper looked at Sanji.
"Sanji you can go in. Zoro wants to talk to you Sanji." Sanji became a little nervous, but nodded and entered the room. He began how he had managed to let the reindeer let him in.
Chopper went over to Robin and both of them left the rest of the group.
Sanji looked over at the bed. Zoro was sitting on top of the now white sheet it looked like he was meditating. His arms and legs were covered with bandages. He was wearing a t-shirt and a pair of shorts. Sanji cleared his throat.
"You wanted to talk?" Zoro didn't open his eyes. "Yes. You are to keep quiet of what you saw." The hidden pain in Zoro's sweet voice made Sanji become even more worried. Sanji went over to Zoro's bed and sat on it. "Why?" Sanji asked. Zoro frowned, but didn't open his eyes.
"I don't want the others to know of it." Sanji began feeling angry again. Once again Zoro was trying to hide his own suffering and pain from Luffy and the others. It really made him angry.
"You'll end up dying for Luffy, marimo." Sanji mumbled out, but high enough for Zoro to hear. "Well I want to be the world's greatest swordsman first." Something in that sentence caught Sanji's attention.
"What do you mean 'I want to be'? I thought you'll become it, or have you finally realized that it is a stupid dream?" Zoro stood up and yelled Sanji in his face, with anger and fury filling every vain in his body.
"I know how hard it is to become the world's greatest swordsman! And I'm willing to die for it, but if I get any weaker I might die within this month! So don't you dare call my dream stupid while I'm still breathing, you bastard!" Then the pain hit him and he fell down and his head landed on Sanji lap, while he flinched in pain. Sanji was shocked.
Zoro didn't normally flip out like that on him and especially not when he was injured. He always said it was a waste of energy he would use on getting better, so he could kick his ass.
"Hey, Zoro I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that." Sanji said as he ran his hand through Zoro's hair. It was surprisingly soft. Sanji liked it. Zoro placed a hand over his stomach, and rolled to lie on his back "I know that." he just said. Sanji looked at Zoro face. His eyes were closed and he looked like he was sleeping. He was truly beautiful. Sanji wanted to say something, but Zoro was the first to talk.
"You aho-cook?" He asked. Sanji would have shouted at him, if Zoro hadn't sounded so serious. He really hated the nickname Zoro had given him, but he guessed Zoro didn't like marimo either. "Yeah?" he answered.
"Do you like me?" Zoro asked, still with his eyes closed. Sanji's hand stopped. He hadn't expected this question. How should he answer that? Sanji didn't get to answer, because Zoro again began to speak.
"I knew you wouldn't give me an answer right away. I can understand that. To tell you the truth, I kind of have feeling for you but…" Zoro paused. He wanted to tell Sanji everything, but something made him stop. It was the other inside him. She clearly didn't want to disappear yet. Zoro fought her inside himself, but suddenly he heard the other man talk.
"I do." He just said. Zoro froze in his inner fight. The female person inside him was gone. "I do like you Zoro." Zoro dared to open his eyes, hoping he would still have fully control over his body. He was meted by blond hair and a blue eye. Zoro had never realized how beautiful Sanji truly was before now.
"You know, when I saw you in the forest as a girl, I thought you were beautiful, but …" The comment made Zoro sits up. He almost hit Sanji's head with his own, but he didn't care. Sanji hadn't finished his sentence, because he had to dodge Zoro. Sanji looked at Zoro. He had both his feet on the ground, and wasn't looking at him.
"Get out" Zoro's voice was just above a whisper, but the voice was filled with anger and hurt. Sanji now understand Zoro had taken the thing he had said all wrong. He thought he only like him as a girl. "No Zoro! It's not like that … I…" But now Zoro disrupted him again. "Get out!" This time he yelled it, and the anger took hold of his voice. Suddenly Zoro felt himself lose control again. She was getting stronger. He felt like he was choking. He gasping for air, but it didn't seem to help.
Sanji wanted to help, but Zoro pushed his hand off him. Zoro then noticed something made his other hand, the one that was still on his stomach, wet. He looked down and saw his bandage was all red. Zoro began feeling lightheaded. He felt down on the bed as the darkness surrounded him. The last thing he remembered was hearing Sanji's worried voice shout. "Zoro!"
"… Can't see him right now! He needs to rest."
Zoro woke up to hear Chopper outside. He was yelling at someone, which was rare. The little reindeer never really yelled at people. Of course he did when he was worried, but today Chopper sounded angry.
"I need to see him. He could be awake now." Zoro froze. The one person he never wanted to see again was right outside, but apparently Chopper was blocking the way.
"I don't want anyone to go inside there. Even if he's awake I would not allow you inside, before he says you can enter." Chopper decision made Sanji release an irritated sigh.
"Could you at least tell me something?" there was a pause. Chopper must have nodded, because it was Sanji who said something again.
"What is happening to him? He isn't going to die is he?" Sanji sounded desperate. Zoro, for some reason he knew, but wouldn't admit, wanted to go out and tell him to come inside and stay with him. After all Sanji had promised him never to leave him.
"He needs to rest, Sanji. I don't think we should let any visitor in before he is conscious." a pair of footsteps now left the door, while another entered. Chopper noticed Zoro's eyes looking at him.
"Oh … you were awake." Zoro nodded. Chopper moved a little nervous. "I hope you didn't mind that I …" he didn't finish the sentence, but Zoro knew what he meant.
"It's fine. I don't even want to see that sick fuck anymore." Chopper looked a little surprised to hear that. "But for a week ago, you said he maybe could bring you back to normal." Zoro looked at him. "Have I been gone that long?" Chopper nodded.
"Luffy is a mess because you wouldn't wake up. He thought you would be fine after a day or two, but he is getting really worried, you know." Zoro felt bad for Luffy. He had lost Ace only three months ago.
"I wouldn't die until I have made Luffy the pirate king, and before that I'll defeat Mihawk." Zoro looked at the roof. "Sanji told me you were choking and all of the sudden you began bleeding." Zoro closed his eyes.
"She is getting stronger Chopper. I don't know how much longer this can continue. To tell you the truth, I had almost given up before Sanji found me." Chopper wanted to protest, but Zoro stopped him with a hand. "Death just seemed easier, but I would never do it." Chopper looked like he would cry. "But you told me Sanji could help you. I thought …" The face Zoro had made Chopper stop his sentence.
"Sanji doesn't like me Chopper. He likes her, and she is just stronger with him around. I thought it was because he was the one that would be able to stop her, but I was wrong." The voice was bitter and irritated. Then Zoro didn't really say anything else.
He only quickly answered to Chopper's question about where he was in pain and Chopper concluded that he should be able to get out in about a day or two and with that he exited. When he stood at the door he turned to look at Zoro. "We have drop off Oz. We reach the island five days ago. We are going to leave today after lunch." Zoro nodded, and watched as Chopper exited the room, before closing his eyes and tried to get some more sleep.
SC: Hey guys … I'm done with the continue… I hope you'll like it. xD.