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BPOV
Rose had just asked us to explain all about my boyfriend and his family! I could tell she could sense they were...how can i put this...different!
I can appreciate that she is curious but i worry that she may get freaked out and not know how to take it!!
Now we were sitting in the family room again and listening to Charlilse explain about them being vampires. Rose and Jake were taking it very well! They sat and listened! Maybe a little paler than usual but nothing bad had happened!
No one freaked out but rather sat and listened intently to Charlilse as he explained!
Edward on the other hand was staring at me! I could feel his gaze on me as i watched Charlilse explain.
This boy was going to be the end of me! I was dying inside because i havent been able to kiss him. Why does he have to be so stubborn! What i am asking is not ridiculous, is it??
I started to think of what happened in the kitchen! Oh how i wished he kissed me then! Screw my stupid rules. He is irresistible! His touch is so soft, cool yet sensational. one word..mind-blowing... Ok i know its two words but they are hyphenated so it doesnt count as 2!!
How i wished Edward had his arms round me now...a part of me didnt feel right, being this for away from him! I dont like it! I feel cold, empty!
I was so lost in my own thoughts about Edward, that i hadnt realised the commotion that was going on around me. Esme who was sitting beside me shook me gently,
"Bella....Bella? Rose needs you!"
I snapped out of my own head, i looked up and saw Rose lying with her head drooped down and onto Emmetts shoulder. He eyes had rolled back in her head..
"What happened! Rose! Rose... what happened?? Charlilse? Edward? Whats going on.. what happened to her??" I started to panic! Jake was already at her side helping Emmett move her so she was lying down on the sofa with her head on Emmetts lap!
I glared at Edward looking for answers, then to Charlilse! Edward came over to me and wrapped his arms around my waist to comfort me! I let him! I needed him now, he was my strength, especially in times like these!
"She only fainted! She is alright! I guess she was listening so intently to me explaining our vampire nature and she forgot to breath and passed out due to lack of oxygen!"
"But how can she... i dont understand! Why hasnt she woken up yet??" I was really worried about her! Jake had gone to the kitchen to get water for her!
"Its ok Bella, she will wake up in about 1 minute 25 seconds!" Alice said in her pixie-like voice! "She just had a bit of an information overload! Emmett you might want to move before she wakes up! She is going to be freaked out when she wakes! Bella and Jake you stay close to her, she will want to absorb the information while taking in what we truly are!"
I looked up to Edward, mouthed thanks! He knew what for! He truly was my strength but i needed to go over to my sister! He understood that!
Emmett had got up and lifted her head so i could take his seat! He then gently laid her head back down on my lap! He seemed reluctant about this, he didnt move once he put her down!
"Emmett, you need to come back! She will wake up in 20 seconds!" Alice warned him gently!
I had never seen this teddy-bear like teen handle anything so delicately as he did with Rose! I guessed he may like her! Who knows? I would have to ask Edward about this later! He never took her eyes off her, even when he moved back to be beside his family, just as Edward never stopped watching me! I didnt need to raise my head to know that he was watching me!
Then Rose's eyes started to flutter open, she was coming round!
"Shhh Rose we are here! Your ok...you are safe here!" Jacob whispered and took her hand! He could be a right softy when it came to his sisters!
"Vampires...them...Bella he-" She tried to sit up and point at my boyfriend and his family but Jake gently pushed her back down!
"I know Rose...Its ok! I promise!" I soothed, stroking her hair!
"But i ... they...blood??" She was still very confused!
"Rose just relax...i will explain but you need to calm down!" I continued!
Jacob handed her some water, she took it gratefully! Jake was handling this news pretty well! He didnt seem to fazed but this new news or freaked out that they were vampires!
"Rose, its ok! I know they wont hurt us. Look at them, do they look like they want to eat us?" Jake said softly
Rose sat up slowly and turned to face them! They all looked at her smiling. Not a creepy smile that said 'i want to drink you blood!' but a genuine smile, relief that she was ok. Full of care towards her! Even Jasper, the newest vegetarian vampire was smiling, happy to be this close to her! I knew he would never hurt any of us!
Emmetts expression shows more of a fascinated look. He seemed to be in awe of her!
She took in their whole body language.. they were calm and relaxed! Esme, the 'mother' of the Cullen's spoke softly,
"Rosalie, i know you must be freaked out, but some of us have never drank humans blood and those few who have, haven't done so in hundreds of years! You are under no threat here! We have alot of practice with our self control!"
"I - I just need some time, ok? Alone...I'm sorry!" She got up and left and went to the room that she was given for her stay here!
"Its ok guys!" I saw the disheartened looks on their faces! "She needs to process! She'll come around!" I tried to sound reassuring but
Emmetts whole expression fell when Rosalie left the room. I was deffiantly going to ask Edward about this later!!
Jacob looked at me and then turned to the Cullens, "So..let me get this straight...you all are vampires, but ones that dont drink human blood but drink animal blood instead! Any the likely hood for us to become the next meal ticket is...?"
Everyone laughed at him...he always knew how to lighten the mood. I smiled at him
"Slim... we havent drank human blood in years and year! We have grown pretty accustomed to animal blood!" Jasper answered [a.n. - by this point jasper has no problem with his self control!]
"Sure i think Eddie boy would kill us if anything happened to Bella or..." Emmett said, he mood seemed to have lightened, Edward growled slightly!
"Emmett you know i -" But he was inturrupted
"hate being called Eddie, Eddie-boy or Eddikins" Emmett mocked, i couldnt help but laugh, "But you know that wont stop me Eddie-babe!" he said with a wink!
"Ughhhh" Edward groaned, he knew Emmett wasn't going to stop, so instead he tackled Emmett to the ground.
Play fighting i was sure but the two of them were hilarious to watch! Esme didnt seem to pleased tho..
"Boys!!! No Fighting in the house!" She called after them loudly but they didnt listen! Emmett kept trying to hit Edward but he could tell what was about to happen and dodge his hit!
"BOYSS!!!!" She shouted, they froze! Wow i have never heard Esme shout or raise her voice, not even a little bit!
"Outside... NOW!" She pointed out the back door!
"Catch me if you can Eddie-boy!" Emmett yelled as he ran out the back! Edward chased after him and rugby tackled him to the ground! They rolled around the ground for a bit! i laughed and walked past them and sat on a rock at the far end of the garden to think. Its a good thing the garden was big, I could hardly hear them! Boys will be boys i guess...no matter how old!
I sat and thought about Edward, about Rose and Jake, about the Cullen family and as much as i hated it! About Charlie. I didnt like to admit it but i was scared about his reaction about returning home and finding the note so he know we were here. Note to self - go to house and grab last belongings and remove the note.
I thought about where Edward and I were at the minute! He wanted to kill my father. As much as he probably deserved it i couldn't let him do it! He was my own blood when it came down to it. Even though i hated him with every essence of my being!
I wished my mum was here! She would make everything ok! She would take care of us and besides, she would love Edward. She always had a manner of approaching a situation which made everything ok! I missed her just being there, but most of all i missed her hugs. She would give you a hug which filled you with so much warmth and protection that you never wanted to let go. Everyday i felt cold because she was not there to give me her magic hug!
That was until i met Edward! He managed to fill a void i had that her death had left. That didnt mean it makes her absence any easier or that i missed her any less everyday but his hugs reminded me of her. I know she would absolutely love him! Sometimes i wondered if she sent him to Forks, to be with me! To help heal me in a way that never quite healed after her death.
I would love to see her now! The only memory i have of her is in my mind. Charlie got rid of all of her stuff in one of his rampages after she died and left us with nothing to remember her by. It was a hard thing to accept.
I really wanted to catch up with Rose, by myself! She hasnt even been here a full 24 hours and its been crazy! I need some sister time with her. She has been through so much and has come out the otherside! I would always look up to her because of that! She was strong, yet she has always been.
Tears that i hadnt noticed welling up finally became too much and spilled out over their barriers. Then another thing my mum used to say when she was alive, if she found one of us crying, He who does not weep does not see! - Les Miserables. I just realised the full meaning behind this, these words holding a strong message!
I went to wipe away the tear now streaming down my face but another hand reached their first. As i felt the cool touch i knew who it was, Edward! My personal hero!
He pulled me in close to him, and let me cry into his shoulder! he just kept whispering 'Shhhhhh' and 'its ok now...everything is alright!'
"I-I-I mi-miss her s-s-so much!" I tried to make out, i hoped his enhanced hearing could pick it up!
"I know love, its ok now though! Im sure there is not a day that passes that she is not looking over the three of you!"
We sat like this for some time, i stopped tracking the time after a while! He hummed a song to me, 'Closer - Joshua Radin'! As he hummed i sang the words in my head!
So, we're alone again
i wish it were over
we seem to never end
only get closer
to the point where i can take no more
the clouds in your eyes hush my baby now the clouds in your eyes photographs and brightly colored paper
down your face they pour
won't you be the new one burn to shine
i take the blue ones every time
walk me down your broken line
all you have to do is cry
your talking is just noise and won't lay me down amongst
your toys in a room where i can take no more
down your face they pour
won't you be the new one burn to shine
i take the blue ones every time
walk me down your broken line
all you have to do is cry
are your mask you wear in this caper
that is our life
we walk right into the strife
and a tear from your eye brings me home
won't you be the new one burn to shine
i take the blue ones every time
walk me down your broken line
all you have to do is cry
"Edward?" I asked with a small weak voice, looking up at him once he had finished humming!
"Yes my love?"
"I need you to do something for me!"
"Anything my Bella, what is it my love?"
"I need you to promise me that you will not go after Charlie! I know you must hated every fibre of his being, just as much as i do but he is all i have left out of my parents!"
I looked deep into his eyes, searching for any hint at how he was taking my request! He was thinking i knew it, good sign, bad sign, i wasnt too sure!
"I wont hurt him as long as you promise to stay away from that house! I really dont want you going back there! Esme has set up rooms for you all! I cant, CANT have you anywhere else not knowing if you are safe or not!"
I couldnt help but smile! Not only had he agreed to not hurt Charlie, but he is asking me to move in! He always had a crazy effect on my mood! I was crying not 10 minutes ago and now i was happy and smiling, joking even! =]
"Are you asking me to move in??" I smiled and raised my eyebrows! He fell silent for a couple of seconds and then nodded his head once, like he came to a decision in his head!
"I guess i am! I know Esme kinda beat me to it earlier but i want to make the request definate and final! So what do you say? Will you?"
I pretended to think about it! "I would love to!" I stood up on my toes and kissed him softly at first until he deepened the kiss. Full on and with so much passion i nearly fell back, but his strong arm was round me, stopping me from falling! I only realised here how much i had actually missed kissing him! His kiss was like toxic...my own personal drug...i couldnt get enough!
Oxygen was becoming an issue, for me that is...stupid vampire, not needing oxygen! Before i broke away to breath a deep voice clearing their throat sounded! We broke apart suddenly, we both turned, expecting to see one of the Cullens but instead, standing right infront of us was....
:O cliffy!!!
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