Honestly, I didn't really know if I wanted to continue this story at one point. I just, I've been getting so little notice on this fic, I started to think that nobody cared about it. And I didn't mean this in a mean way, it's just every other story I've written had gotten so much more notice and this was just very discouraging. I just thought that there was no point to finishing this story if no one was reading it. And at one point during these last three days, I really considered dropping this story. And it was sad. I thought this story had so much potential and I worked so hard on it, but I was just ready to drop it. And I actually decided that after I wrote this chapter and the next one I'd just put it on hiatus, wait for me to actually feel like this fic was good. But, I decided against it. I got this one review that warmed my heart. That review was the review that made me want to continue this story, because it reminded me of what it was like to feel accomplished about writing a chapter and people liking it. And it was really nice because I haven't gotten something like that in a long time. The review said, "I love these scenes from the books that you include they're awesome! You're so dedicated, and I love this fic. Hope you know I adore you and that you have a great day/night", it was sent by laurenathalasa, and I was so happy when I read that. That one little comment meant so much to me, that comment made me want to keep writing this, so thank you laurenathalasa. I want to personally say that I would dedicate this chapter to you but it's really not my best work and I want you to have an awesome chapter [dedicated to you I mean] so the next chapter is in dedication to you. However, this can be an honorary dedication.

Thank you laurenathalasa!

I do not own Mortal Instruments, all rights belong to Cassandra Claire.

Magnus unlocked the doors to his apartment; dropped them and his bag on the nearby table and dragged himself to his bedroom. There, in that darkly lit room, Magnus crashed on to his bed and curled up; drunk in his misery.

Magnus sighed, "I give up! I'll never find Alec."

Magnus untucked his duvet from the corner of the bed and lied beneath it, curling into a fetal position. He then leaned across his bed to get the TV remote left astray to turn on the TV, settling for any channel. After sitting there for a few minutes staring at the screen, Magnus reached for his nightstand again to get his phone. Dialing Catarina's phone number, Magnus waited for her to pick up. One ring. Two ring. Three ring. Finally, Catarina picked up the phone [and much to Magnus's relief]

"Hey Mag, what's up?" asked Catarina

Magnus began to sob, "I'll never find Alec. I'll just be miserable for the rest of my life living with my cleverly named cats."

"Oh Mag, don't say that!" said Catarina

Magnus let another sob out, "Why not Cat? I'm pathetic."

Catarina sighed, "No Magnus, you're not pathetic. You're anything but pathetic."

Magnus sniffed, "You're just saying that because your my friend."

"No, Mag, I'm saying that because it's the truth." said Catarina

"It still doesn't matter, I won't be able to find Alec!" replied Magnus

Catarina took a deep breath, "It was one time, I'm sure you'll be able to find him again."

"You promise?" asked Magnus

"I pinky promise," said Catarina, "Alright now, you take a nap, get your mind off of things. Call me back later if you're still sad."

"Okay," Magnus grumbled, "I guess I'll do that."

Magnus hung up the phone and put it back on the nightstand, after that, he took a deep breath, "Okay, just relax. Think about all these things later. Just take a short nap," Magnus yawned, "That's defiantly possible now."

Magnus closed his eyes and waited for sleep to lull him in; he couldn't wait.

You never called me back," he said. "I called you so many times and you never called me back."

Magnus looked at Alec as if he'd lost his mind. "Your city is under attack," he said. "The wards have been broken, and the streets are full of demons. And you want to know why I haven't called you?"

Alec set his jaw in a stubborn line. "I want to know why you haven't called me back."

Magnus threw his hands up in the air in a gesture of utter exasperation. Alec noted with interest that when he did it, a few sparks escaped from his fingertips, like fireflies escaping from a jar. "You're an idiot."

"Is that why you haven't called me? Because I'm an idiot?"

"No." Magnus strode toward him. "I didn't call you because I'm tired of you only wanting me around when you need something. I'm tired of watching you be in love with someone else - someone, incidentally, who will never love you back. Not the way I do."

"You love me?"

"You stupid Nephilim," Magnus said patiently. "Why else am I here? Why else would I have spent the past few weeks patching up all your moronic friends every time they got hurt? And getting you out of every ridiculous situation you found yourself in? Not to mention helping you win a battle against Valentine. And all completely free of charge!

Magnus woke up from his beautiful, beautiful dream. Alec was back in his life, he just couldn't give that up. He didn't care for how little Alec is in his life, he was still part of his life. And cutting him off like that, cutting him off like that seemed like such a lowlife thing to do. Alec deserves to be part of his life no matter what, regardless of how hard it is to actually find him. Alec deserves the best, and the best Magnus has to offer is to keep him as part of his life.

"I'll find this boy no matter what, no matter how long it takes or how much money it takes. He deserves all of this. If I could do it then, then I can do this now."

Magnus was set, he would find Alec Lightwood.

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