AN: Alright, here's a little angst for you. I'm not really good at writing angst, but I wanted to give it a try. Tell me what you think :)
Drama Queen –
Zarya was already asleep when Annie got home, late at night, to find a puddle and a broken glass on the kitchen floor. Auggie sat down, leaning his back against the counter and holding his head between his hands.
"What happened here?" She asked, a little worried, as she locked the door.
"I dropped that glass, obviously." He sounded snappy.
She opened a drawer and took a dishcloth to clean up the mess and take the small pieces of glass from the ground.
"No, no, no. Stop it. I dropped it; I'm going to clean it up." He said, getting up from the floor.
"You're gonna hurt yourself, Auggie. Let me do it."
"It doesn't matter if I'm gonna hurt myself, it is my obligation to clean it up."
"No it's not. I know you're upset, but you'll be doing a much better work by going to bed and waiting for me."
"You sure you don't mean I'd be doing a much better work being blind somewhere else in the house?" He caught Annie by surprise.
"What the hell, August!?" She raised her voice, but not enough to wake Zarya up. "I'm not gonna stand here and listen to this crap! You wanna get your hands hurt? Sure! Go ahead! I honestly don't care." She threw the dishcloth to his feet and walked away to their bedroom.
He cleaned it up precariously and, obviously, cut his fingers with the broken glass. It wasn't usual for Auggie to feel incapable of doing something, but of course it happened every now and then. Whenever the feeling of self pity hit him, he tried to forget it, because there was nothing he hated more than feeling that way. But sometimes it was really hard to let go. Especially that day.
He washed his ensanguined hands on the kitchen sink and decided to take a hot shower to relax and maybe forget about it.
Annie watched the whole scene quietly from their bed, and felt like she needed to do something, even though she knew there wasn't much she could do to help him.
He came back to their bedroom, put on his trousers and laid, silently and gravely, by Annie's side, but he didn't touch her.
"Annie, you up?" He whispered, afraid that he'd wake her up if she was already asleep.
"Yep." Annie patted his abs. She sounded more relaxed than before.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be ungrateful."
"I don't wanna see you drowning in self pity ever again, ok?" She kissed the tip of his nose.
"I know. I hate it too. I feel like a selfish idiot." He distanced from her.
"Wanna tell me what's eating you?" She pulled him closer again, laying her head on his chest.
He ran his hand through her hair.
"It's nothing."
"Come on, Auggie, I know it's not nothing. I got home and found a depressed man on my kitchen floor; I wanna know what happened."
He sighed. "Today I went to pick Zarya up at her school and I overheard some comments that made me realize how fucked up this world is."
"Well, since you work where you work, I thought you had pretty much an idea of what a fucked up world this is..."
"It's not that kind of thing, I'm sure no one is working secretly as an arms dealer in Zarya's First Grade class." He teased. "It's just… people are so ignorant." He looked disgusted now.
"What did you hear?" She patted his cheeks softly.
"Let it go... I'll forget it."
"No you won't. And I'm not letting go." She pressed her forefinger against his sternum and stared at him, serious.
"Alright. You really wanna know? A woman said it was really selfish to expose an innocent child to such a hard way of living. The poor little girl will never feel safe having a disabled parent."
"Augs..." She put her head next to his, trying to contain the tears coming from her eyes.
"It's not over. The other woman added that one had to be really stupid to want a child in this condition. She was sorry about my wife, though, because that woman probably does all the hard work by herself."
"Come on, Auggie. Stop it. You know you're a thousand times better than their husbands, whoever they are." She kissed him softly. "Don't let it hit you, ok?"
"I know those women are just ignorant and I shouldn't be worrying about it too much, or at all, but it had me thinking…" He hesitated for a while, and bit his lower lip. "Annie, if I ask you something, do you swear you'll be 100% honest with me?"
"Of course, Augs. I'd never lie to you, you know that."
He took a deep breath. "Do I leave all the hard work to you? I mean, you got home today and the first thing you did was start to clean up my mess for me, that's why I didn't want you to do it."
"Auggie, really? You are ten times better than any father I have ever seen. Sometimes I feel like Zarya wouldn't even mind if I wasn't here… Please, don't listen to people like that, ok? You are amazing." She kissed him and he felt her tears in his face.
"You sure?"
She laughed at his lack of confidence when it came to this matter. "Of course I'm sure!" She kissed his cheek. "Now, please, bring August Anderson back, I liked him better. He was a little arrogant, and sometimes it pissed some people off, but it's much better than a drama queen."
"Oh, I've also heard he was a sex god." He rolled on top of her, kissing his way from her neck to her lips.
"Was he? I don't know about that…" She teased, responding to his kiss.
