Tommy was sitting on the back porch of his home with a guitar in his lap. He had just finished writing yet another song about Jude. He grabbed his notebook and went into his home studio to record it. Tommy was trying his hardest to keep himself busy at his new home. He needed to get back in touch with Kwest. It was driving him crazy not knowing what was happening with Jude and G Major. Tommy went inside the studio and set the microphone up just at the right spot to capture all the sounds at perfect pitch.
(Cold by Crossfade)
Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
To you I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
I never meant to be so cold
I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never have wanted to let you go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Tommy finished up recording, he knew it was time to get back in touch with Kwest. Tommy flipped open his phone and dialed Kwest's number. Kwest was driving his mustang down to Panda Express when he heard "Tainted" by Slum Village go off on his cell phone. Just he was about to be handed the bag of food by the employee he heard Tommy's voice.
"Hey Kwest,"
Kwest dropped the food right there with his jaw nearly reaching the floor. Kwest hadn't heard from Tommy in a month and here he was calling him like it was any other day. Anger wasn't the right word to describe Kwest's emotions, not only was he not aware that his best friend was leaving, but he also broke the heart of the young woman he claimed as a little sister.
"You got some nerve calling me Tommy," Kwest said picking up the bag of food that the kind employee was more than welcome to replace.
"Is Jude there? How is she? Is she ok?" Tommy asked eager hoping everything was still ok with Jude.
"Jude is not here, and as for the two latter questions, why don't you call her yourself to check up on her?" Kwest said, Tommy could hear the words being gritted out of Kwest's clenched teeth.
"Kwest. You need to understand why I left," Tommy said trying to explain himself.
"Please try and make me. You broke her heart, you know when I left her at the studio she was in tears, sobbing." Kwest said handing the employee a fifty dollar bill and motioned for him to keep the change for himself.
"Damn it, Kwest, where are you?" Tommy asked, he needed to tell someone what happened, he needed someone to understand his reasons.
"Panda Express, picking up lunch for me and Jude," Kwest said still not all too enthused to hear Tommy's voice through his phone.
"I'll call you later tonight to explain all of it, please just, just take care of Jude for me," Tommy pleaded, Kwest could hear the pain and yearning towards Jude in his voice.
"I would have done so even if you didn't ask me," Kwest answered hanging up the phone and driving over to the studio with 2 orders of orange chicken, two orders of sweet and sour chicken, one chow mein and one fried rice.
Kwest walked in and knocked on the door signaling that he had brought Jude some reinforcements...comfort food. Jude was humming along to the chords she was playing on her guitar.
"It sounds real good Jude," Kwest said laying out the bag's contents on the table.
"Hmm chinese? Sounds good to me," Jude said grabbing a fork and taking one of the boxes of orange chicken.
"Yep, I had a craving for it, and I knew you wouldn't be able to resist it," Kwest said grabbing a box of sweet and sour pork.
Jude tried to smile at him showing her gratitude but her mouth was too full of orange chicken do make a full smile. Her cheeks were so wide and big that Kwest couldn't help but laugh. He grabbed his phone before Jude even knew it and had taken a picture. Once Jude had finally realized that he had taken the picture she had nearly choked on the mouth full of chinese and tried to grab the phone.
"Nuh uh, this is all mine now!" Kwest said trying to make her laugh.
"Oh fine, have it your way. But Kwest, really, thanks for being here," Jude said in a sincere tone.
"It's not a problem Jude, you're like a little sister to me,"
A knock came from the door and Georgia stepped in.
"Jude, I have some news, David Letterman has asked us personally for an interview with you, the interview is next friday and you will be also performing a song." Georgia said in her professional upbeat tone.
"Whoa, that's great. I'll be ready for it," Jude said stuffing her face with chow mein this time.
"Kwest, keep an eye on her with that chinese, I don't want her stuffing herself to death," Georgia said with a laugh at the end.
Later that night, Jude drove home and went straight to her room. She needed to get away, she needed a break. Ever since her first CD had come out it's been tour after tour, interview after interview, and studio time in between. Not to mention, constant mixed signals from Tommy, and then he abandoned her. Her life was slowly going down hill and she really needed a vacation. Kat and Jamie had become Jat and spend every waking moment together, Jude felt more alone than ever. Sadie was trying her hardest to cheer up Jude when she was able to, but she had been also busy with college and work, she was now an assistant for a journalist who writes for the biggest newspaper in Canada. Jude lied on her bed, it was nearly 3 in the morning and Jude was still wide awake. She missed Tommy, his voice, his piercing blue eyes, his soft warm smile that always made her melt, what she missed most of all though, was how he balanced her out. Jude decided to go for a drive, just a long drive by herself to clear her mind.