5 days later and I was exhausted between wedding planning and making enough time for Edward it was horrible who knew it took so much to plan a wedding 2 days until my wedding and I couldn't be more excited I just prayed I didn't fall asleep at the altar that would be terrible and just ruin everything.
Alice was talking about wedding colors and placemats and some other stuff but me being tired I was starting to doze off but not before Ali caught me
"Bella" Alice snapped snapping me back into reality
"Sorry Alice just tired" I said trying to plaster a smile on my face
"I was asking if you wanted green or gold colors for the ribbons on the bouquets" she said exasperated
"Gold" I said remembering Edwards golden orbs it just made me miss him that much more I only had one more night with him and then I had to stay with Alice and Rose
"Okay okay I have Rose and I's dress already if you want to approve of them and then everything should be good all we have to do is set up everything but tomorrow we can relax and have girl time" she said getting really excited near the end she couldn't wait to have a sleep over even though vampires can't sleep but who was I to crush her fun of having a sleep over
"No Alice I trust you and I loved my dress so I'm sure I would love yours" I said starting to get the excited feeling in the pit of my stomach I felt like I was going to burst with anticipation
"Okay Bella you're done for now I don't think there's anything else I have to ask just be ready for the wedding" she said giving me the go to leave and be with Edward I jumped my tired bones up and pretty much ran my clumsy ass back to my love
I made it to the bedroom before my foot caught on anything imaginary but my luck was terrible and before I knew it I was barreling for the floor goody goody I missed you floor but before my face met the ground familiar strong arms were wrapped around my waist hoisting me up from my doom
"Bella Bella didn't anybody tell you to be careful I don't want you in a cast at our wedding" he said smirking the whole way
"Ha Ha Edward way to make fun of your future wife" I said trying to make him feel bad for making fun of me
"I wasn't making fun of you I was stating a mere fact" he said all cocky and confident god if I could hit him and actually make it hurt that would be great just wait until I became a vampire the first thing I was doing was hitting him just to make up for all those times I really wanted too
"One more night together" I said sadness laced in my words I don't know how I was going to be able to sleep without him
"I know but the next time we're together we'll be married" he said trying to make me feel better it worked a little but I didn't know if I could make it through the night without having a nightmare
"I can't wait but what if I have a bad dream and you're not there" I said starting to get upset
"Bella I already thought of this and I didn't want to give it to you until the morning and it won't be the same as me humming to you but I hope it will keep away all the bad dreams while I'm gone" he said rummaging through his things he came back with an I-pod handing it to me I searched through the songs they were all untitled
"What are these" I asked really I knew but hearing him say it would be better
"I made a list of your lullaby so it will stay on constant repeat" he said looking sheepish
"Oh Edward this is wonderful I love it thank you so much" I said jumping up and down like a school girl I jumped into his lap hugging him and kissing him all over he was tense at first but he got into it I probably surprised him by my sudden movements but I wasn't about to apologize I loved him and I wanted him to know that I looked down at him and his eyes were just brows knit together in concentration
"Bella… Bella stop" he said getting turned on I could feel his hardness on my center I was probably making it worse by moving and grinding on him I wasn't doing it on purpose I was just excited
"Sorry baby" I said kissing him and hopping off of his lap
"Thank you it was very thoughtful of you I was starting to get scared of being alone but you made it worth it and I can't wait to see you waiting at the altar for me" I said cuddling up next to his side I didn't need pillows anymore Edward was my personal pillow I still didn't know how I was going to make it but I would do it for Edward
"Get some rest Bella tomorrow is going to be a long day I want you to be well rested I'm thinking that Rose and Alice are planning something for you but I don't know there blocking me right now" he said sounding frustrated at the end of his speech
"Exciting" I muttered waiting for Edward to start humming to me so I could go to sleep
"I love you Edward Cullen" I said as I always did before I went to sleep
"I love you Bella Cullen" he said my soon to be new name I just looked at him funny
Edward chuckled and pulled me closer he started humming my lullaby and I was a goner I couldn't stay up even if I tried I was dog-tired so I gave into my body and let sleep take me
The next morning I woke up to an empty bed where the hell is Edward he better not have left me without saying goodbye I would be very upset as I was about to get up I felt something crinkle I lifted it up and it looked like a note from Edward
Bella,
Take good care of my heart I've left it with you. I'll see you at the altar I'll be the one in black
I will be waiting for you my love, you are my life now
Love, Edward
I was in tears at how sweet Edward was even though I couldn't see him in person but I was putting most of the blame on Alice and how everything has to be played by the book with her even though none of this was by the book I mean how many times a day do you hear a vampire and a human are getting married but I would play by Alice's rules she did get my wedding done in a week much to my dismay I would've rather gotten married by an Elvis impersonator but like I said this makes everyone happy I'm sure in a hundred years I would appreciate that I had a proper wedding.
"Alice" I yelled waiting for the tell tale signs that she was coming upstairs
"Yes Bella" Alice said
"What are the plans for today since I can't see Edward am I allowed to talk to him" I said hoping she would let me talk to him I really didn't want to sulk all day
"I don't know Bella really but our plans are to get dressed up we're going to the club we're going partay" she said dragging out party sounding all funny
"Really Alice I can't dance I'm going to fall flat on my face and what are the guys doing" I said hoping she would give me details as to what they were doing what Edward was doing
"You're not going to fall Bella and the guys are doing their own little bachelor party thing which isn't bad there hunting and goofing around" she said explaining the bachelor party thing which is lucky there better not be any strippers I would hurt Edward and I'm sure Rose and Alice would do the same thing to Emmett and Jasper
"Alright where is this club we're going to?" I asked wanting to get this night over with
"It's called Twilight" she said looking stoked to be going dancing she has been asking me for a long time but I denied her each of those times I guess I wouldn't be getting out of this one DAMN I thought to myself guess I would have to break my leg again for them to understand I was clumsy and that probably wasn't going to change even with vampirism
"Okay what time are we going?" I asked usually she would be giving me more details
"Well sleepy head you slept till 10 so we have all this time to get ready and we'll arrive there at 6" Alice said happily I just groaned I was going to be Bella Barbie all day long
"Okay Bella take a shower and meet me in my room Rose will be there to don't take too long we're wasting enough time as it is" Alice hopped up off of my bed and made her way to the door waiting for me to get into the shower
I got into the shower 5 minutes later and just enjoyed the hot water running down my back loosening up my tense muscles I hoped tonight went okay without a hitch I didn't want to visit the E.R. tonight that would be horrible
I got to Alice's room 20 minutes later my towel still around my head hair still damp
Alice got straight to work pulling and primping my hair working on my outfit getting it just perfect and then my make up but I limited her on that because I didn't want to look like I had caked the makeup on looking like fake plastic Barbie bitch with an inch of cover up on but Alice always knows what's right everything looked wonderful I looked like one hot hot person but then Rosalie walked in and all my self confidence that I thought I had had was diminished into tiny little ashes
After hours of watching Alice and Rosalie get ready we were ready and a raring to go with our new looks you would think we were prostitutes but that surely wasn't the case we were women on a mission to have a good time I walked or more like stumbled into our room taking one last look this would be the last night that I was in our room as Bella Swan I would be Bella Cullen and that just made me more anxious to get this night over with I laid my head back only to hear something crinkle what the hell was that I rolled over and grabbed the piece of paper that wasn't here when I left to Alice's room
Bella,
I can't wait until I see you tomorrow you have made my life so much better my heart is left with you tonight so please take good care of it. I will be waiting to see you beautiful and in your wedding dress I know that you will look amazing I can't wait to spend eternity with you in my arms please have fun with Alice and Rosalie tonight they only mean good with their intentions and you look wonderful if I must say so myself.
With the last line I started to frantically look around was he here would I get to see him again god I wanted to see him inhale his sent find comfort in his arms and ignore Alice with her yelling that I couldn't see my fiancé right now who made up this stupid rule I read the last line of the note and knew that I wouldn't be the nervous jittery bride tomorrow I would be the impatient one waiting until the wedding march sounded so I could bolt down the aisle
I Love You,
Your future husband Edward
I sighed at the last line god could he get any more perfect
"Bella" I heard Alice and Rosalie yell at the same time I'm sure she timed it perfectly knowing Alice
"Coming" I said yelling back down at them I grabbed the heals that I had slipped off and darted for the stairs slowing down before I hit the first step not wanting to fall down the stairs that would be terrible
"What took you so long?" Rosalie asked but I seen the smug look on Alice's face because she had already known
"Why didn't you tell me he was here Alice" I grumbled at her my mood souring because I couldn't see Edward right now
"Oh don't you get all grumpy with me at least I let him in the house I threatened to tell you what was going to happen after the wedding if he tried to come near you" she said all proud of herself for keeping away Edward
"What are we doing after the wedding?"I said in the off chance that she might tell me
"Nice try Bella I can see the future you're not going to trick me" she said in tinkling laughter
"Alright Alright let's get this night over I have a vampire to marry" I said and they both grimaced with my blatant use of the word vampire
It took us 45 minutes to get to this low key club in Port Angeles I didn't know how we were going to get in but Alice knows everything so I just let her lead the way there was a very long line this was going to take forever for us to get in but as we surpassed everyone I started to get confused what were they going to do
"Hello ladies" said the bouncer holding the red rope blocking everyone from getting in
I blushed when the big burly bouncer set his sights on me winking
"We just wanted to have a good time stud" Rosalie purred at him I was completely shocked when she did that
"O...Okay" she stuttered figures Rosalie has that ability to make men speechless
"Ladies you have a good time tonight and if you need anything you just let me know" he said with a double entendre to his words god guys are disgusting except for my Edward
He raised the red rope letting us in to the club I was assaulted by smoke and the smell of alcohol god this is what people say having a good time is I would rather stay with Edward
"Okay were going to order some drinks"
"But you don't drink"
"For looks Bella"
"Oh" I said feeling stupid
"And we paid a considerable amount to party and not getting carded" said Alice
"Alice really spending a lot of money was that necessary I don't need to drink in fact I don't want to drink" I said trying to argue with her why would I want to get drunk the night before my wedding
"Okay Bella we won't force you to drink unless we have to so let's have some fun dancing"
"I can't dance Alice" I said for the millionth time with being a vampire I shouldn't have had to repeat myself so many times I felt like a broken record
"We will teach you duh Bella" Rosalie said with a hint of annoyance in her voice she grabbed my hand and led me to the dance floor where everybody was grinding on each other practically having sex on the floor
Alice stood in front of me as did Rosalie they started grinding their hips together showing me how I was supposed to dance I started moving my hips to the beat starting to enjoy myself when I started to get thirsty Alice already fore seen what I would need and handed me a water where she had this hidden I have no idea but I practically chugged down drink feeling my energy renewed I started dancing with renewed vigor this was great I would have to go dancing with Edward after our honeymoon I was enjoying moving my hips to the beat and I hadn't fallen so I think I was doing pretty fantastic
"I have to go to the restroom" I said to Alice and Rosalie knowing they would both hear me even over the loud music they both started to follow me but I stopped them I didn't need someone holding my hand while I was going to the bathroom even if Edward thought that I had to be watched every second of the day. They both stopped there advances to follow me and picked up dancing again
The bathrooms were smelly to say the least but I got myself in there I was looking in the mirror fixing my hair it was started to get frizzy from the humidity and sweating that I was doing
I walked out of the bathroom to only be met with a brick wall what the hell I fell backwards and looked up it was Jacob
"Jacob what are you doing here?" I asked him I hadn't seen him since I had been in the hospital and that was awhile ago I wonder what he was doing here
"Getting drunk Bella what does it look like" he slurred out he was totally not of age and I know I sound hypocritical but Jacob is younger than me and I'm not drinking even though I could if I wanted to
"Jacob your drunk shouldn't you be with Billy" I asked wondering how Billy was coping after Charlie's death I know it had been awhile but they were like brothers
"It's your fault Bella" he said a sneer covering his face I sucked in a breath it was like I had been punched
"Jacob how could you"
"No how could you Bella you knew how close my dad and your dad were and you took him from us" he said getting more belligerent the alcohol causing him to get angry faster
"Jacob I never meant for that to happen" I said tears starting to run down my face I looked at him he didn't even look like the same Jacob I had always known he was angry and drunk I had to get out of here where are Alice and Rosalie
"He's not the same Bella that's your fault" he said raising his voice so he was yelling at me I was starting to get scared at how Jacob looked right now if looks could kill I would be 6 feet under right now and that upset me more
"I…"
"You probably did it on purpose so you could spend all your time with your bloodsucker boyfriend didn't you" he spat at me anger lacing in all of his words a sneering look staring down at me
"How did you…" how did he know about the Cullen's?
"Bella I'm not dumb" he said
I got up to leave I needed to get out of here Charlie's accident wasn't my fault was it? I don't know anymore everybody tells me it's not my fault but was it really
"Don't you turn your back on me Bella I'm not done with you" he said latching his hand on my arm
"Jacob you are hurting me" I said whimpering at the pressure he was putting on my arm
"You hurt Billy" he said as if that was reasoning enough that he was hurting me
"Let go of her now" a deadly voice said behind Jacob I recognized it as Alice's voice I had never heard her voice that deadly before
"Why should I?" Jacob bristled at who was behind him as he got angrier his grip tightened causing me to whimper again I was definitely going to have a bruise there
"I don't really want to cause a scene here and I am really close to ripping your face of right now dog" Rosalie said the anger in her voice making me shudder
"Yeah right leach as if you could hurt me" Jacob spat at Rosalie
"You're running my patience thin dog" why did she keep saying dog what was going on the only thing I could think of was the pain in my arm
"Take the killing bitch" he said throwing me into the wall by my arm I hit my head hard and felt like passing out from all the drama but I couldn't let that happen I had to stay awake I just wanted to stay awake long enough to get home and go to sleep I was getting married tomorrow I couldn't let this ruin my mood
Alice was at my side in a heartbeat asking me if I was okay
"Bella I swear I tried to get here sooner your future disappeared and I panicked I rushed here there were so many people I didn't want to hurt anyone what did he say to you?"
"I want to go home" I said which was the only thing I could say right now I didn't want to be sad I wanted to be happy and ignore this like it never happened but everything he said was true it was totally my fault that my father was dead I could've convinced him to let me drive
My brain was overflowing with all the information Jacob thought this was my fault how many other people thought that I was my fault did Edward was he just lying to me to make me feel better
"Okay Bella" Alice said I remotely remember Rosalie pinning Jacob up against the wall ripping him a new one but all I could concentrate on was getting home Alice sat me in her yellow Porsche and a couple seconds later Rosalie was getting in
Alice rushed home I got out of the Porsche and made my way to the house I didn't want to talk to anyone I was a killer how could Edward want to be with me I killed my father
I bolted for Edward and I's room just as the sob that had been building up broke free I locked the door behind me and curled myself up in a ball and cried until I couldn't cry anymore I heard 3 quiet knocks
"Bella let me in please" Alice asked all sweetly
"No" I said crying again more tears running down my face
"Please Bella" Alice said pleading through the door
"Alice just leave me alone" I said starting to get angry I just wanted to wallow in my own grief and shame
"Alright Bella if that's what you want" she said sounding broken I heard her step going away from the door I lost track of time I didn't know if I had been crying for days hours minutes I just didn't know I wanted Edward with me
I heard 3 more knocks on the door couldn't Alice just leave me alone
"Leave me alone Alice" I said yelling louder than I had before
"Bella" Edwards pained voice broke through my tears Alice called Edward? O thank god
I jumped up from the bed and rushed to the door unlocking it as fast as my shaky fingers would
"Edward" I said jumping into his cold arms crying harder
"Bella what happened" he said upset that I was crying I was yet again ruining another shirt of his
"Jacob" I said and as soon as the name left my lips Edward tensed and then growled
"What did that dog do?" he asked apparently he couldn't get it from Alice's or Rosalie's mind
"He. . . He" and I started sobbing again
"I'm a killer" I said still crying through my confessions
"He said that I was a killer and a bitch and. . . and can't you see Edward how could you want to marry me I'm a killer I killed Charlie" I got everything out it felt like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders Edward was the best and I didn't deserve him I wasn't going to tell him about the huge purplish blue bruise on my arm
"Bella don't ever say that again Jacob was just mad and he will pay for upsetting and hurting you but you're not a killer love" he said trying to convince me otherwise
"Stop lying to me Edward" I yelled at him getting angry
"Bella I have never lied to you and I wouldn't think of starting now you didn't kill Charlie" he said punctuating the last 4 words
"I feel like it's my fault Edward like I can never escape the feeling that I killed Charlie" I said vulnerability in every word that I said to him I wanted to feel better again not as if I was a killer
"It's okay Bella but it's not your fault you have to know that" he said kissing my lips with his soft cold ones gently brushing his lips over mine
"I will always tell you the truth Bella you have to believe that I wouldn't lie to you I love you and I can't wait to marry you tomorrow"
"Oh Edward I love you too" I said hugging him closer to my body
"Alice says I can stay until morning and then I have to go" he said scowling at the fact that he couldn't stay with me all day
"That's good with me I get to spend the night with you" I said snuggling into his side and waiting for my lullaby to be sung so I could have a peaceful night's sleep in my fiancé's soon to be husband's arms
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Hey this is a really long chapter for me 10 pages I hope you like the wedding is the next chapter I hope there aren't too many mess ups please leave reviews that would be greatly appreciated!