Chapter 10: Warblers and Kurt's answer

The Warblers hadn't said anything about Kurt and Sebastian sense they heard a couple of hours ago, that was about to change.

"Guys we need to talk about Sebastian and Kurt, we're all thinking about it," Thad said.

"Thad, it's not like we can do anything," said Dave.

"Why not?" asked Wes.

"Because it's their choice." said Dave.

"Well they're making the wrong one." said Jeff.

"Jeff weren't you supposed to be going somewhere tonight?" asked Trent.

"Please, I just told Nick that because Jerry, my dorm adviser, is starting to get annoyed with Nick sleeping over, and truthfully so am I. Don't get me wrong I love Nicky to pieces, but I can't get any shut eye when he's over." he saw the amused look on the others faces. "Get your minds out of the gutter guys." he said irritated.

"If your minds not in the gutter it's homeless." said Thad in a taunting voice.

"Shut up Thad." they all said in an exasperated tone.

"If Nick thinks it's okay," Wes started, "then maybe we should just go with it. I mean if they're not meant to be then they'll break-up, but what if they are. If we try to screw this up then we'll never know, and neither will they."

"Fine." they all said in unison.

Meanwhile back in Nicks room Kurt was about to answer the question.

"Seb, truthfully?" Kurt started. "That is kind of hard to answer. I mean I was with Blaine for over a year, and he was my first...everything. So my feelings for him are not so much stronger but different then my feelings for you. I care about you, a lot. And I think you're amazing, and incredible in everyway. Plus I don't have to mention how unfairly sexy you are. Taking all of that into consideration I guess I'd have to say, you." Kurt finished with a small smile.

Sebastian and Nick looked like it was not the answer they were expecting.

"Really Kurt, 'cause at the start of that answer you seemed to be going in a different direction." Sebastian knew it was just an answer to a silly question but he was wondering what on earth had changed his mind.

"I was going in a different direction but like I said I took everything else into consideration and it just made me realize that the real answer should have been you." he answered honestly.

"There wasn't much to consider Kurt." Sebastian said disbelievingly.

"Really? Because I saw a lot to consider. Like for number one "I care about you a lot"- I do. I care about you. For number two "Amazing"- You are. Your an amazing performer but that's not the half of it. You have an amazing smile, when you smile and not smirk. You have this amazing way of making people around you happy when your not trying to. For number three "incredible"- Again you are. You have an incredible personality, I've only seen it once or twice when it slips through your dick facade. Also you have an incredible sense of humour, not exactly a clean or appropriate one, but none the less an incredible one. For the last one "Sexy"- You already know your sexy but I might as well explain this one too. Your body is sexy obviously. And I know I just said you have an amazing smile, but it's nothing compared to your sexy-as-hell smirk. You for some reason can work that awful blazer. I mean I know it's the school symbol and all but it's hideous. The only piece of that uniform I ever liked was the tie. Also your voice is so sexy I couldn't even explain in just one night. So I think there was a lot to consider." Kurt finished his speech. This time he wasn't all that afraid to admit it was the truth.

"Babe? You really feel like that. I mean I've been told I'm amazing, incredible, and sexy, but no-one has ever told me why. Also you did say that Blaine was your first everything, and you were with him for over a year doesn't that over-ride me?" he asked.

"At first I thought it did. Then I remembered not only did I have some of the best times in my life with him I also had some of the worst. Like for example he wasn't my first everything, Karofsky was my first kiss. It was against my will, but it was still him. Not to mention Blaine was my first, not ashamed of that, but I am ashamed of what might have been my first. I never told anyone this but, that night at Scandals. After we left, I told him to get in the back so I could drive. When he got in he tried to pull me on top of him. I kept telling him to stop, but he wouldn't. Luckily he was so drunk it wasn't hard to stop him. If he had of had a better grip though he might have raped me. I never told anyone because nothing actually happened not to mention he walked home that night. The next day he apologized, and I know that shouldn't have made a difference but I loved him." Kurt finished in a voice that made it clear he was on the verge of crying.

"Kurt, you have to be kidding me." Nick stared.

"Nick, did it sound like he was kidding?" Sebastian said in a pissed off voice.

"No, it's just I can't believe Blaine would do that." he said.

"Well, I can. So excuse me while I go bash his fucking head in. I want to make it perfectly clear no matter wha,t he is to never lay another hand on you." he looked at Kurt as he got up.

Kurt got up as well.

"Seb... please, he's not worth it." Kurt tried.

"Oh I know that. But what he did is." Sebastian stated. Kurt grabed his arm and twirled him around do that they were were face to face.

"Please Seb. Stay, for me." Kurt pleaded.

'Fuck those (gorgeous) puppy-dog eyes again' Sebastian thought.

"Fine, but he lays a fucking hand on you and he's dead." Sebastian said his eyes dark. Kurt hoped it was just his acting skills.

After Nick fell asleep Kurt decided it wasn't fair to hide his feelings from Sebastian. They were lying back to back. Kurt turned over and whispered:

"Seb, are you asleep?"

"yes." he answered sleepily. Sebastian was about to turn to face him but Kurt stopped him.

"This would be easier if I didn't have to look at you."Kurt said.

"Kay?"

"Look, holy shiz, this is hard. Okay, I think we should stop hanging out." he said in a level voice even though he felt broken inside.

"Why?" Sebastian asked normally, even though it hurt.

"Because I just can't be around you anymore." he answered sad.

"Um, I know we kinda hated each other so much we couldn't be in the same room, but I thought we had gotten past that." Sebastian actually just didn't want to lose Kurt.

"We were past that, we are." he stated in a sad voice.

"Then why the fuck are you trying to ruin it?" Sebastian asked as he turned to face Kurt on the bed.

"Sebastian, I just can't anymore. It's to hard." Kurt couldn't find the correct words.

"What's to hard? Pretending to date me?" he asked, "If that's what this is about then forget it. We can just stay friends or whatever." it sounded like he was pleading a little!

"That's not it Sebastian." Kurt sat up, and so did Sebastian. "It's just, that, holy fuck." Kurt was so frustrated he wanted to cry, he wasn't sure how on earth Nick was still asleep.

Sebastian reached out and pulled Kurt to his chest, and Kurt was so upset he just excepted the hug and curled into Sebastian.

"Babe, babe? Come on it's okay. Just explain how you want to and I'll try to follow the best I can okay?" Sebastian said in a soothing voice.

"Sebastian, you don't have to hold me. I want you to but you don't have to." Kurt wasn't even worried about Sebastian knowing anymore.

"You want me to?" Sebastian asked.

"Sebastian this why we can't stay friends it's the Blaine thing all over again." he couldn't help it he started to cry.

"Kurt, babe, what you mean? what has this got to do with the hobbit?" he asked seriously.

"Our friendship, is like when I first met Blaine. I thought we were good friends, but then my feelings grew, and I know you don't feel the same way, just like Blaine didn't. So I'm stuck in the friend zone again, I know it's stupid to want you because you're so much better then me but I do." Kurt finished still sobbing.

"Kurt wait. You're saying you want to be dating me?" Sebastian asked not knowing what answer he wanted.

"Yes, like I said I know it's stupid but.." he was cut short by a soft pair of lips smashing against his.

Sebastian pulled back.

"Seb, please don't." Kurt hated knowing that was the last time would ever kiss this beautiful boy.

"Why not?" Sebastian pleaded.

"I don't want you to feel like you have to, I know you don't feel the same way so just stop." Kurt cried.

"How do know I don't feel the same way? Did you seriously think I was that good of an actor?" he asked.

"What?" Kurt looked up into his green eyes.

"If I didn't want to hug, kiss, hold, and cuddle you, I would have kicked you out as soon as you found Toy Story." Sebastian said with a small laugh, remember when Kurt went to get an extra pillow out of closet and found another 5 Disney movies.

"You're saying you actually like me?" Kurt asked.

Sebastian smashed his lips against Kurt's once more.

"Does that answer your question?" he asked as he pulled away.