A/N: I feel so bad that I've been making so many of you cry. Forgive me? It's not easy for me, either. I cry while I write these chapters. I get so into it that I feel the pain. I hope this one isn't too sad to read... but fair warning, I did cry while writing the last part. I'm sorry, sweeties. Bear with me. I promise you this, things will get better. There's still two (or possibly three) chapters left, so don't worry. :) That's all I will say, because I don't want to spoil anything.
Just a little fyi, I will be writing another Kevedd fanfic after this one. It will be a love triangle between Kevin, Edd, and Nat. But if you aren't interested in that, I'll most likely also be writing another one with just Kevedd during the same time. Oh, and don't worry, it'll be pure fluffy cuteness. No sad, heartbreaking stuff like in this one. Maybe some conflict to keep it interesting but nothing to make you cry. Lol, because I feel like I owe you guys that much for sticking around.
Anyways...
Reverse!Edd belongs to asphyxion.
But I'll also put that Nat belongs to c2ndy2c1d, even though that cutie doesn't make an appearance in this chapter.
"Because you love him."
Kevin squeezed his eyebrows together, shutting his eyes tightly, hoping to stop the tears, but they kept coming. He rolled over onto his side and sniffled. It was just nine in the morning, the next day after that dreadful loss against Peach Creek's rival. Kevin groaned at the thought and reached out to grab his phone. He checked his text messages. They were all from friends, saying they were proud of him no matter what and that he played a great game. The redhead rolled his eyes and kept scrolling down until he found the last text message Edd had sent him; three weeks ago. He stared at it, his eyes blurring with tears again. It read: As always, I'm looking forward to seeing you today. I'm in need of one of your hugs. I will be outside soon. Kevin sighed and put his phone back on his bedside table.
"I miss you, Edd," he quietly said to himself.
Kevin didn't want to spend his Saturday moping around over an ex. He got out of bed and started getting ready for the day. Hearing a few voices outside, the redhead decided to step out and see if there was anything to do. Nazz was chatting with Sarah. Rolf was attending to his chores. Jonny and Jimmy were just walking around the cul-de-sac, having their own conversation. Kevin looked over at Edd's house when he saw the front door open. The sockhead stepped out and sighed. Kevin swallowed hard and began making his way towards Nazz. Edd looked up, gasping when he noticed the jock. He hesitated for a moment, and then asked, "H-how was the game?" His voice was almost too quiet, but Kevin heard him.
The redhead's heartbeat sped up. He stopped walking and faced the small teen wearing dark clothing. His lips parted a little, but he remained silent. This only made Edd regret asking. The sockhead stepped back and leaned against his front door.
"No answer?" He asked Kevin. "I suppose that implies it didn't go quite well."
Fine, you want it that way? Kevin sneered at him and continued walking.
Edd watched him. "That wasn't what I meant," he said to no one. Kevin was already next to Nazz and Sarah. The sockhead sighed, staring at the love of his life. His heart was begging for him to give in. Oh, just give in already. The torture was not worth it anymore. Edd began to feel a little shaky as he made his way towards the others.
Nazz was the first one to look up and notice the lanky teen. Her eyes widened, but a slight smile appeared on her face. Kevin froze when he saw a shadow cover him. Sarah followed Nazz's gaze, but she made a gagging noise and scrunched up her nose.
"What do you want?" The redheaded girl asked Edd. "Don't you bug us enough at school already?"
Kevin peeked up over his shoulder and furrowed his eyebrows at Edd, but he didn't say a word.
Edd fiddled with his fingers before saying, "I just wanted to-"
"Wanted to what?!" Sarah jumped up. "Be an ignorant bastard to us for no apparent reason? Well, guess what, Edd?" She stepped forward, pointing a finger at him, "We aren't going to take any more of your crap! So, get lost!"
"Sarah!" Nazz yelled out. She looked up at Edd with an apologetic look, because she knew Edd's intentions of going to them wasn't to bug them. She could read the expression on his face.
But Sarah's words ruined it. Edd growled at the redheaded girl and stomped forward. "For your information, Sarah, I did not come over here for those reasons!"
"Then why did you? Huh?!" Sarah demanded, putting her hands into fists.
Edd blinked and glanced down at Kevin. Kevin quickly turned away, making the sockhead pout a little. Edd made eye-contact with Sarah again and shook his head.
"I will take my leave," he said as he turned around and headed back to his house.
Nazz got to her feet and grabbed Sarah by the shoulders. "Sarah! How could you? Couldn't you see the look on his face?" Sarah just rolled her eyes. "He was here to apologize to Kevin-"
"There's that stupid word again," Kevin mumbled. Nazz let go of Sarah and sat back down next to Kevin on the curb.
"Kevin, weren't you able to tell?" She asked, wrapping a comforting arm around him.
"I don't know." The redhead shrugged.
"Well, I could. Kevin. You haven't lost the Edd you knew. He's still there, okay? I think he's just too scared to go back to his old ways, because he probably assumes people prefer him this way instead of some smart, innocent-"
"Dork," Kevin added with a half smile.
Nazz thought about it for a second, and then smiled. "Yeah, and maybe he just needs a reminder that being a dork wasn't a bad thing at all."
This made Kevin laugh.
"Kevin," Sarah started, "I wouldn't forgive him if I were you. He didn't even fight to get you back. He just let you walk away. What does that tell you?"
Kevin frowned and looked down at his hands. "You're right."
Nazz gasped. "What?"
"No, really, Nazz. Sarah is right." Kevin got up and shook his head. "If the old Edd was really still there, I think us breaking up would have snapped him back, but obviously I didn't mean enough." The redhead scrunched up his face as he realized what he had just said. "Fuck, I'm beginning to sound like a real whiny kid."
Nazz ran her hand through her hair short blonde hair and sighed. She stood up and placed her hands on her hips. "I'll prove to you that Edd is still Edd. I promise."
There was a small amount of students at Peach Creek that cringed a little in fear when the Eds walked by. Ed's lips quivered when he saw the looks on their faces.
"Eddy," he spoke. "Why are people looking at us like we're monsters?"
Eddy took notice of this and shrugged. "I don't know, monobrow. Just deal with it. Not everyone's going to like us."
Edd nodded, agreeing with his short friend, but frowned once he saw the expression on his taller friend's face.
"Double D," Ed said.
"Yes, Ed?" The sockhead offered his friend a smile.
"Kevin is walking to us," the tall Ed whispered into Edd's ear.
Edd stopped, making Eddy crash into his back.
"What the heck, Sockhead?" Eddy growled, shoving his friend out of the way so he could see what put him in shock. He spotted Kevin, alone, nearing them, but he wasn't going to them. Kevin was staring off to the left, nodding every now and so when someone greeted him. Eddy looked at the sockhead. Edd's mouth was wide open and fear was in his eyes.
"What's with you?!" Eddy shouted.
The sockhead's stunned face turned into anger. He scowled at the redhead walking by and quickly went up to him.
"Hello Kevin," he sternly greeted.
"Oh... great, just great," Kevin mumbled and as he took a deep breath, Edd shoved him. "Hey! What the hell, man?!" The redhead yelled. "I wasn't even in your way." Kevin grabbed Edd by the hood of his grey jacket. The sockhead released his hood from the jock's grip and turned around, growling at him, but Kevin ignored this and just pushed him up against the lockers, holding him there with all his strength. Edd's anger quickly turned into fear with this action. He opened his mouth to say something, but nothing came out. His eyes did the talking; begging for Kevin to let go of him.
The redhead relaxed himself letting out a loud breath as he backed away from Edd. He squinted his eyes at the boy shaking slightly in front of him. "Why?"
Edd blinked a couple of times, trying to understand what Kevin meant by that, but then it dawned on him and he looked down at his feet. "B-b-because I can."
"So you're adding me on your stupid list of kids to pick on, huh? Well, I wouldn't do that if I were you, double dweeb."
"What did you call me?" Edd asked, taking a step forward.
"Oh, what? I've called you that before, you dork. Because that's all you really are. A DORK. A stupid dork who's trying to act hard, but you know you're as weak as ever." The redhead snickered at his own comment.
The sockhead just there in silence for a moment as his eyes slowly watered. During their relationship, Kevin had called him a 'dork' plenty of times, but he hadn't called him that with such a crude tone of voice since they were in middle school, and it felt terrible to hear it now. Edd wanted to let those tears out, but everyone was staring. He didn't know what to do. He saw it as having only two options: cry or fight back. So he fought back. The sockhead pushed Kevin with all the strength within him. Kevin lost his balance with the impact and fell.
"Hey!" a voice yelled out, startling everyone. A female teacher who was standing nearby walked over to the scene.
Oh dear... oh dear... Edd covered his mouth. The teacher pointed a finger at both Edd and Kevin, then snapped her fingers and pointed in the direction of the principal's office. Kevin groaned and got up on his feet.
"Way to go," he mumbled to Edd before following the teacher.
Edd sneakily wiped a tear. Filled with shame, he followed the two.
The ticking of the clock that hung on the wall in the main office was the only sound heard as Kevin and Edd just sat there, waiting to be called in to be seen by the principal. They didn't sit right next to each other. Three chairs separated them. Kevin had his elbow on the armrester as he tapped a finger on his cheek repeatedly. Edd sat straight up, his hands resting on his lap. He glanced over at the redhead every now and so, but didn't get any response. This wasn't what Edd thought would happen when he walked up to Kevin. He honestly didn't want to start anything. He just wanted to communicate with the jock in some way and for some reason that even he didn't even know why, the only way he thought to communicate with Kevin was by violence. It didn't make sense. There were much better alternatives, but he decided to go with the worst.
"Kevin, Edd," the principal's deep voice stunned the two as he said their names. "Please come in."
Edd stood up from his seat, but froze in his tracks as Kevin entered first. The sockhead sighed and followed behind. There was only two seats, so the boys were forced to sit next to each other. Kevin groaned in annoyance and crossed his arms.
Principal Clinton stared at the two for a moment before saying, "Would either of you like to explain what happened?"
"Yep, I would," Kevin answered, receiving a nod from the principal. "This was just a simple case of a little wannabe." The redhead smirked at Edd.
Edd could feel his heart aching in his chest. He swallowed hard and turned away.
"A serious answer, please, Kevin," Principal Clinton said. He looked at Edd. "Would you like to explain? I'm honestly surprise to see you sitting here, Edd. You are one of Peach Creek High's best students, and you've never been in trouble before. So, tell me, what happened?"
Kevin stared at Edd, waiting for him to answer, but Edd put his head down and sniffled quietly. Understanding he wasn't going to get an answer from Edd, the principal rested his hands on his desk and said, "You two aren't bad students. I have seen you in here before." He said, looking at Edd, "I have seen Kevin, but only for minor reasons, therefore, I will let you two off with just a week of detention."
Edd's head shot up in horror. His vision was blurred with tears. Kevin shook his head and mumbled, "Great."
"Oh, you two should definitely feel lucky," Principal Clinton said. "I could suspend you both." Edd's eyes widened. "But I'm letting you off easy. The next time you two decide to have a disagreement, I won't hesitate."
"Believe me, sir," Edd finally spoke. "I won't let you down. You have my word."
The principal nodded and dismissed them both. The two stood and made their way out. The last bell of day rung. Students shuffled out of their classrooms all at once. Edd went to his locker and quickly grabbed a few textbooks before following the others out of the school building. He was greeted by Eddy and Ed outside.
"Is Double D in trouble?" Ed asked, his expression worried.
"I have a week of detention," the sockhead answered. "I will not complain. I deserve it for being an immature-"
"Prick," Kevin finished for him.
Edd spun around.
"Hey, back off!" Eddy defended his friend.
Ed grabbed Eddy. "Eddy, please do not upset Kevin! I'm tired of all the fighting!"
Kevin chuckled. "The dork started it." His face grew serious as he narrowed his eyes at Edd. "And I'm going to finish it." He made his way past the other Eds.
Edd tried sneering at the redhead, but the urge to cry overfilled him again. Not being able to contain himself, Edd's knees begin wobbling and he threw his hands up to shield his face.
Kevin saw the fear and said, "This isn't you, Double D. I know you. You aren't this person."
Edd gulped. "Maybe now I am."
Kevin shook his head. "No. You're not. You never will be. You're nice and caring. Not a dick. So stop acting like one."
"No, Double D!" Eddy chimed in. "Don't listen to him! He's just trying to get to you."
A crowd was now gathering around them, and little by little, each of them began chanting, "Fight! Fight! Fight!" The pressure was almost too overwhelming. Edd could feel sweat running down his face. He took a deep breath and put his hands into tight fists as he marched toward Kevin. He started to raise his fist.
Kevin nodded, understanding what the sockhead was about to do, but then he shrugged and said, "I love you, Edd."
Loud gasps came from the crowd and the chanting stopped. They all stood there in silence. Edd's jaw was completely dropped open. He put his fist down and stared into Kevin's emerald green eyes, trying to see if there was any hint of a lie, but all he saw was pure honesty.
He... he... he loves me? That... but... I... Edd shook his head and stepped back. "Don't try to distract me, Kevin."
Kevin gaped and threw his hands up. "I'm not! How could you-" but he wasn't able to finish. Edd was already making his way, as fast as possible, towards Eddy's car.
"Sockhead?" Eddy quickly ran after his friend, followed by Ed. "Hey, are you okay?" He asked once they caught up with Edd.
"I just want to go home, thank you," Edd simply answered.
Once the boys made it to the cul-de-sac, Edd sadly stepped out of the car.
"Do you want to talk about it...?" Eddy asked. He didn't know what he would exactly respond to what ever his friend would have to say about it, but he didn't want to leave him alone either.
Edd shook his head. "I'd rather not."
"Come on, Sockhead-"
"Please, Eddy. I'll see you and Ed tomorrow." Edd closed the car door and started walking to the front door. He noted that his friends were still staring at him, but he ignored them and entered his home.
There was nothing but silence inside. He could see a few sticky notes from his parents in the kitchen, but he was in no mood to do anything. I will complete any and all chores once I clear my mind. As he started up the stairs, a few tears dropped from his eyes and landed on the floor. Edd sniffled and walked into his bedroom, closing the door behind before he slid down it.
"Kevin," he said through his tears. "I'm a horrible, horrible, horrible person. Please forgive me." He sighed, his breathe a little shaky. And then it really hit him. The breakup. The harassing he had been doing to innocent students. The breakup. The mess he was becoming. The breakup. The awful things he had said, but worst of all, the breakup!
His eyes widened in horror. No, Kevin. No! Edd got up on his feet. He quickly took off his jackets and tossed them aside, followed by the dogtags, tears running down his cheeks as he did so. He didn't bother wiping them away.
"What have I done?" He asked himself. "I've been so foolish! How was I so blind?!" He couldn't hold it in any longer. He covered his face with his hands and finally allowed himself to cry it all out. His sobs were too loud for him to hear anything else, and he suddenly felt relieved that his parents weren't to be home until late. He walked over to his bed and crawled onto it, grabbing his pillow and burying his face in it as he continued to release his pain.