(JustAGirlWithALoveForFiction: I agree Andrea and Lori annoyed the crap out of me when they were alive but now that are dead I'm like "awe i'm gonna miss them..." )

~2 months later

"You have to get out of Woodbury while you can. He doesn't love you like he says. Phillip has something up his sleeve and it is dangerous. Please Channon…leave while you still can and for god sakes take Brian with you!"

Channon woke up in a cold sweat. She ran a shaky hand over her face trying to ignore Nick's panicked voice. For the past 2 months she had nothing but the same nightmare over and over. Dead and bloody Nicky would beg her to leave Phillip saying the man would be the death of her just like him.

How Phillip was sleeping through her waking up freaking out was a mystery. Channon figured he knew all about this but wasn't saying anything to be polite or he figured if she wanted to say something she would. Phillip knew pretty well there was something not to even bother asking Channon because it would completely shut her down and result in nothing but frustration.

Channon stood on shaky legs looking at her reflection in the mirror. She looked awful this particular morning. Her skin was extra pale and looked like she had seen a ghost. At first Channon tried to dismiss this as being a product of being stressed about multiple things: the dreams, working extra hard with Milton to find a cure, and the number one stressor of her whole life the possibility of being pregnant. She hadn't even mentioned it to Phillip. He probably wouldn't be angry in fact he would probably be tickled to death. Channon meanwhile, felt pretty much the opposite. This was the last thing she really wanted. The bad mostly outweighed the good on this particular subject. She pretty much agreed with Brian on the idea that Phillip's main reason for wanting a baby with Channon was to guarantee she wouldn't leave him again.

Brain himself had even put together a list of reasons why Channon shouldn't have a baby with Phillip (most of which made Channon laugh)

You will never be able to leave him! (If you haven't noticed my brother has completely lost it!)

Swollen ankles and stretch marks (need I say more?)

Your boobs are gonna get bigger! (You complain about them being too big as it is. Personally, I think they are great but hey I'm a guy. Boobs are awesome.)

Phillip is gonna be OCD protective over you. (his protective ways always annoyed you in the past)

Phillip is bat shit crazy! (That pretty much explains itself.)

I don't want him to hurt you again. (Let's face it Phillip has what you would call a talent at that)

As quickly as possible Channon tried to make herself look somewhat healthy before Phillip noticed something was up. He had been so busy lately that he didn't seem to notice her looking so rough. The few times he had seen her before dark she played her physical condition off as just "being tired." Now more than ever Channon tried to face the facts that she was knocked up and probably needed to tell Phillip before she woke up and couldn't see her feet. She dismissed that thought as she walked to the lab. Phillip wasn't that stupid. Even if he seemed to busy all the time when he would put his arms around her at night he would be bound to notice. Sucking up her pride Channon decided she would tell him that night she needed a test. In all honesty she didn't need the test to know what was wrong with her. This was more for Phillip's benefit then hers.

Channon spent most of the day looking through old medical volumes trying to see if there was something that could possibly lead to the start of the bitters coming around.

"Are you sure you are ok?"

Channon looked up at Milton who was giving her a nervous expression. His kind eyes looked more worried than she had ever seen them. With a sigh she sat down her book and looked at her friend closely.

"I'm fine Milton…for the 100th time. Have you been talking to Brian or something?"

Milton nodded.

"He's worried about you too."

Channon smirked.

"Yall need to get some hobbies instead of watching me…like ya know…find a girlfriend or something."

Milton shook his head. How was he supposed to get it through to this stubborn girl that he was flat out worried about her? Every day she seemed to look paler and paler not to mention she seemed to hardly eat anymore and when he did try to get her to eat she looked beyond nauseous. Milton knew he should mention something to Phillip before things go too bad. He was honestly surprised that Phillip hadn't noticed before now however the prison seemed to captivating him more and more.

The prison was another thing bugging Milton. He wasn't for sure how he felt about standing by while Phillip killed so many innocent people of course telling Phillip that would be suicide. Milton was also shocked that Phillip hadn't even told Channon a word about it.

"I don't want a girlfriend at the moment. I however, have an idea of what is wrong with you."

This got Channon's attention. She looked up with wide eyes focusing on Milton like a lion would a zebra. With a frown she put the pen she was holding down and fully turned to look at him.

"I think you should keep that to yourself don't you? Goodness knows you probably aren't right."

Milton took a deep breath.

"He's gonna find out."

Channon began to stand looking angry.

"You don't even know what's wrong with me Milton!"

Milton felt his heart began to pound. Channon and Phillip seemed to have the same temper that made him feel like a weak little mouse. They were both scary when they were angry. He swallowed before standing and taking something out of a drawer. Milton gave Channon a nod before placing the object in her hand.

Channon looked down at the pregnancy test in her hand before looking back at Milton.

"How did you know?"

Milton shrugged,

"Intuition…it just seemed to fit. I'm sorry Channon but with your history it's best for you to not keep this a secret."

Channon put her hands on her hips.

"My history?!"

Milton nodded frantically.

"The miscarriage."

Channon looked beyond horrified as she sank into her seat with her head on the table. This was something she didn't want anyone but Phillip to know. She looked up sadly.

"He told you."

Milton nodded sitting down by Channon gently taking her hand in his. He looked almost ready to cry himself.

"He was drunk. I don't think he meant for it to happen. It wasn't long after he became leader. I found your picture in his apartment and asked who you were. He said you were the one that should have never got away. You're the only person other than Penny he seems to truly love. Phillip was torn to pieces about you running the way you did. At the same time I see why you did. You must have felt awful."

Channon nodded rubbing a stray tear from her cheek.

"Beyond awful Milton. Phillip is the only person I have ever loved. I've went through hell with the man. From the miscarriage to this I don't know what to say Milton. I've never been good with expressing my feelings but I'm a nervous wreck here. I accepted Andrea had a thing with him and Rowan completely caught me off guard. You know when all this shit with the bitters started he was the last person I wanted to spend the apocalypse with. As the days went on and Penny was there it seemed to all go right. It wasn't perfect let me tell you. I wanted to kill him some days but I fell in love with him again. After Penny died it went to shit."

Milton looked at her sadly.

"Well this is your second chance. He's not the same person he was before I'm sure but he does adore you. That's a rare feat for him I can assure you."

Channon smirked.

"I know."

She and Milton sat in silence for a few moments neither knowing what to say. This was the most in depth Channon had really told Milton about her personal life. After a moment or two Milton handed her the test with a gentle smile.

"Why don't you see what we have going on here?"

Channon nodded.

"Thanks Milton."

As Channon waited on the results of the pregnancy test her mind went back to when she found out she was pregnant the first time. This wasn't a memory she liked to visit too often mostly when she was feeling sorry for herself or she was shitfaced.

Channon stood in the kitchen of Nick's apartment. She was waiting for Phillip to come pick her up. After dating for 2 years she was getting tired of him not wanting her to move in with him. Today however would probably change that. She had found out a couple hours previous she was pregnant. For someone who didn't want kids at all Channon was excited. Maybe this baby would be the thing that she and Phillip needed to keep their relationship from crumbling.

With a smile Channon let her hand fall to her flat stomach. It was hard to believe there was a baby…Phillip's baby in there.

"Channon you here?"

Her heart began to pound hearing Phillip's voice as he walked in the door. She smiled turning and walking in to the living room. Phillip gave her a small smile from the door.

"I gotta tell you something."

Channon said with an eager smile. Phillip nodded,

"Channon I need to talk to you. It's really important. What do you gotta tell me?"

Channon smiled again feeling a little more hopeful. The look on his face looked really calm making her feel like this would end well.

"You go first."

Phillip nodded,

"You know Sarah right?"

Channon nodded,

"Yeah wasn't she talking to Bobby or my brother? I know it wasn't Brian."

Phillip nodded,

"I uh…don't know how to say this to you. Channon I really do love you but I've been seeing Sarah too and she's pregnant. I'm going to marry her."

Channon felt her heart stop and it seemed like a bag of bricks had knocked her senseless. She could only look at Phillip with wide eyes. Her temper automatically seemed to flair. There would be no way in hell the man would see her cry! She wouldn't allow that.

"So I've just been a game to you?! Two fucking years Phillip! I see why you never wanted me to move in with you now! You've been too busy fucking that tramp!"

Phillip began to look angry.

"Like being in a relationship with you is a piece of cake baby."

Channon turned to see Nick and a very shocked looking Brian standing in the kitchen. They had come in from doing something outside and overheard everything. She looked back at Phillip with an icy glare.

"Well now you don't have to worry about it. Fuck you Phillip."

She didn't give him a moment to say a word before storming into Nick's bedroom slamming the door as hard as possible.

30 or so minutes later there was a light knock on the door. She looked up to see Nick and Brain looking in at her with matching nervous expressions.

"I'm fine."

She said simply. Nick shook his head sitting down beside her. He was going into older brother/father mode and it was driving Channon crazy already.

"Sissy I'm so sorry. We didn't know what was going on. I'm sorry he did that to you and you deserve so much better. You don't deserve some guy who is going to ..."

"I'm pregnant too Nicky."

Nick's face went pale white and speechless. Brian just stood looking at her with that same gaze Phillip gave her so many times when she ticked him off.

"Can you quit looking at me like that Brian?"

Brian nodded looking down at the floor without another word. Nick didn't say anything he just sat there with his hands squeezed so tightly shut his knuckles were turning white. Channon didn't expect him to say anything right away. Nick really didn't know what to say in situations like this…this was Phillip's job. He always knew what to say when something needed to be said. Now he was nowhere to be found…

Channon looked up as Milton sat back down beside her. He gave he a gentle nod.

"It should be ready."

Channon took a deep breath.

"Read it to me."

Milton took the test in his hand before looking up at Channon with a careful smile.

"Positive."