I walked home from school that day. It was raining. I loved the rain and I decided that I needed to stay in the rain. I spotted the park. I sat on the swing. It reminded me of the night that I left. Talking to Joe. I felt a tap on my shoulder all of a sudden. I turned my head to see the curly brown hair of Nick. I turned back away from him.

"I need to talk to you." He said.

"Why?" He was silent for a second.

"I need to explain, about everything. I need to apologize."

"What if its to late to apologize?" He was silent again.

"Izzy, I'm sorry. For everything. I was a huge jerk to you, and I had to reason to do that to you. I pushed you way to far. I… I love you Izzy." I was silent.

"What part of Move On, don't you get?"

"Izzy… You're the one who doesn't get it. I want to spend my life with you, Izzy. I love you." I looked at him. I stood up, and slapped him.

"So. Why should I trust you?"

"Because you know me! You know I wouldn't do that to you."

"I'm sorry, Nick. Our relationship is to much a paradox for us to even know each other."

"What on earth is a paradox?!!!!"

"It is and it isn't at the same time. I love you, but I really hate you still." He came a little closer.

"See, but I don't hate you. So my love plus your love factoring in the hate, its that love overcomes the hate."

"That made no sense." I felt a numb tear come down my cheek. He wiped it with his thumb. He pushed a piece of hair behind my ear. He kissed me. I continued to cry, he embraced me. His warm smell filling my insides and saturating my heart."I don't think I can do this…"

"Just Trust me…" He said. He smiled and kissed me.

"Wait a minute. What's the date?" I asked.

"Um… Tenth of September."

I had a new reason to cry.

I fell to the ground and pulled my knees to my chin. Nick slumped down next to me and embraced me as I cried.

My mom died exactly four years ago, today.

"Fishy, I love you. Please believe me" He said. I looked up at him, my face red from crying. I wrapped my arms around his neck and cried into his shoulder. I coughed a few times. He rubbed my back and stood me up. He led me away from the park. I couldn't see where he was going. I figured he was going to my house. I was right. He knocked on the door and my day answered.

"Nick? Izzy… what's wrong?" He asked. I hugged my dad.

"Mom…" I whispered.

"Oh… my god…" My dad barley said. He hugged me tightly. I pulled away from him.

"Four years." I finally choked out through my sobs.

"Yeah." He said. I turned to Nick and hugged him. I pulled him inside and out of the rain. We went up to my room and simply sat on my bed. He hugged me for a while. He would run his fingers through my hair and rub my back. He kissed my head a few times.

Suddenly my cell phone rang. I didn't want to answer it. Nick grabbed the phone and did that for me.

"Hello?…. Um… this is Nick….yes…. Yes…well you don't have to be mean….Yeah. Hold on."

"Some jerk named Josh?" I nodded and he handed the phone to me.

"Josh?"

"Hayley, why are you with that jerk?"

"He's not a total jerk. What do you want?"

"We have practice at my house."

"I can't go. I'm busy."

"Busy with what? Nick?"

"No, jerk. Me and my dad are having a bad day. I can't do anything today."

"Sure. Just go on that stupid date with Nick. Abandon Zac, and Jere and I."

"JOSH! I'm being serious!"

"What could possibly be that bad that you can't do anything?!?" I was silent for a second.

"Its my mom's anniversary."

"What?"

"The day she died." He was silent for a second.

"Oh."

"Yeah, jerk. Leave me alone." I hung up the phone and threw it at the wall.

"Now look what you've done." Nick said looking at my smashed Virgin Mobile Cyclops. I shrugged, went over to it and grabbed a screwdriver. I placed the pieces back together and turned it on. I showed it to Nick, who's jaw was dropped.

"You never cease to amaze me." He said

"I know." I laughed. It felt good to laugh. "I have an idea."

'What?"

"You can help me with a song." I smiled and pulled out my notebook. I grabbed his hand and led him downstairs to the piano. It was a large black wood baby grand. I placed my fingers on the keys and pressed.

"Got the news today,
But they said I had to stay,
A little longer, and I'd be fine." I started. He looked at the book.

"When I thought It'd all be done,
When I thought It'd all been said.
A little bit longer, and I'll be fine." He sang.

"And you don't know what you've got til' its gone." I sang.

"And you don't know what it's like to feel so… low." He sang. AHH! I loved his voice.

"And every time you smile or laugh you glow,
You don't even know, know.
You don't even know." I finished. I looked up at him.

"Wow."

"You hate it, don't you?"

"No… Fishy… that's amazing. What's it about?"

"April 10th, 2000."

"What's that?"

"I was eight when I found out I had diabetes. April 10th, 2000. Eight years."

"Wow…. And that's about it?" I nodded. He sat down. "Ok. How about.." He pressed the keys down in the same way I did. "All this time moves by,
Still no reason why,
A little bit longer and I'll be fine." He sang. I smiled and wrote it into the notebook.

"Then I was thinking…" I started, "Waiting' on a cure
But none of them are sure
A little bit longer and I'll be fine"

"And then it goes back to the 'you don't know' chorus part." He asked. I nodded." Try it."

"All this time moves by,
Still no reason why,
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
Waiting' on a cure
But none of them are sure
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
But you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
You don't know what its like to feel so low.
And every time you smile or laugh you glow
You don't even know, know, know.
You don't even know, know, know.
You don't even know, no." We sang, doing it, switching out parts. I smiled.

"AHH! I love it!" I said.

"Ok, then it goes back to the chorus, and then…

'So I'll wait 'til kingdom come,
All the highs and lows are gone,
A little bit longer, and I'll be fine.
I'll be fine." He smiled widely.

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"Ok, so this next song… is really very cool for me. Me and one of my best friends wrote it together, and its about having diabetes. I've had it since I was eight, and I'm doing well, but trust me, sugar free stuff sucks. You don't know what you've got 'til its gone." I said. Nick came onstage with a microphone. "Ready Nick?" I asked.

"Yup." I started to play the song.

"Got the news today
But they said I had to stay
A little bit longer and I'd be fine." I sang.

"When I thought it'd all be done
When I thought it'd all been said
A little bit longer and I'll be fine." Nick sang. He wrapped one arm around my waist.

"But you don't know what you got 'til it's gone." I sang.

"And you don't know what it's like to feel so low." He sang.

"And every time you smile or laugh you glow," I sang.

"You don't even know, know, know.
You don't even know." We sang together.

We finished the song. Everyone went insane.

so their back together.

for now...