Disclaimer: I don't own twilight…just a lot of empty Mikes Hard Lemonade bottles.
A/N: And here we go again…..
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BPOV
"I'm at the shop. What the hell is going on Bella? Why are you having lunch with Edward and practically having sex in the parking lot!?"
What the hell! How did she know this crap? I had barely said goodbye to him when she was calling. I turned the car on and flipped the A/C to high, still sitting in the parking spot. My eyes absently scanning the street as my heart and nerves accelerated.
"Alice, calm down. I don't know what you are talking about. Why in the world do you think I was making out with Edward?" I hoped I sound confused but I'm sure I didn't.
Just then I spotted him. Sitting precariously on the street bench, fidgeting and staring at me. The look on his face was a cross between amazement and apology. Jasper. How in the world had I missed him? And why hadn't he come up and say hello?
"JASPER!" I yelled. I was clambering out of my car, getting caught in the seatbelt and tripping over my own feet as I stomped over to him.
"Bella! You don't yell at him. All he did was go and get a sandwich for me. Its not his fault you weren't paying attention." Alice was the one yelling now.
Jasper stood and closed the gap between us, walking me back to my car. "Sorry," he whispered. He gently grasped my upper arm and guided me back to my car. I climbed back into the drivers side and he filled the passengers. I took a deep calming breath, for what felt like the hundredth time, as I prepared to deal with this in an adult like fashion.
"Alice, I am going to drop Jazz at your place. I will be there in a few." I hung up. "Put your seat belt on," I growled at him.
"Bella, I'm sorry, I was ju…" I moved my hand to a 'stop' position between us, not being completely sure I would be able to control myself yet.
"Just stop." I made good time getting to Alice's shop, not speaking to Jasper for the entire five minute drive. Wow, Bella, you really showed him.
Alice was in the back, pulling boxes so she could stock. He hair pulled up in to a messy knot and a pencil shoved through it, she looked up as we entered. Her face was unreadable.
"Bella."
"Alice." I stated back. "So lets just get this over with. So I kissed him, big deal. We had lunch, he walked me to my car, and I let my head get the better of me and kissed him." I shrugged at the last part of the comment.
"Well, to be more precise, Bella, he kissed you." My eyes went wide as Jasper added his two cents. "And it seemed like you too had more than lunch. I could feel the sexual tension from the other side of the restaurant." My jaw went slack. His pulled up into a grin. Fucker, I thought.
"And exactly how in the hell do you know that, Jasper?" I could feel my anger rising again. What did he know? He was just there to get a sandwich and leave. That takes what, a whole five freaking minutes?
"Well, because I watched you. From the moment you fixed yourself in the window to the time you saw me sitting there on that bench, I was watching you." He put his arm around a quiet Alice. "Do you remember what happened when you walked in the restaurant?"
What the hell was he talking about? I fixed myself in the window, walked through the door, bumped into a blonde man…oh.
Oh!
He was smiling more than I had ever seen him as my realization set in. "That was you! What the hell Jasper, why the fuck didn't you say anything?!" I was yelling again.
"Oh, but I did. I said hello, even said your name, but it seems that you were to preoccupied with someone else." The smug bastard.
"That's when he called me." Alice was back to herself, practically vibrating with whatever emotion she was currently feeling, most likely disgust. Or hate. Or disappointment.
"I told him to see who you were there to see, and when he said you sat down with Edward, I told him to find a place to camp out and spy." She was grinning now. "I got a play by play of the whole thing and from what Jazzy told me, it seems like you two have more on your mind than just lunch. So why were you two having lunch anyway? And why didn't you tell me that you were"?
"Its just…I didn't…I well, I just thought…Oh shit, I don't know Alice. Its hard to explain." I ran my fingers through my hair and combed them down to the tips, promptly fidgeting with them.
"Well, by all means, enlighten us." She pulled us up a chair each and snagged the hidden instant cappuccino mix we only used in case of dire emergencies. Some type of caffeine was better than none, right? I wasn't sure that I wanted her and Jasper to be in on my little secret but saw no way of leaving without a full disclosure.
I filled them both in on the talking, texting, and flirting that had been going on since Edward had started at the bar. When I told them about the night I went to his apartment, they simply sat there, slack jawed and wide eyed. They stayed silent for a few minutes afterwards.
"Wow. Really?" Jasper was the first to respond.
"Really." I said flatly, dropping my head into my hands.
"Wow." He repeated.
"Oh hush Jasper, your just jealous she did it with him and not you." Alice smirked and pushed against his shoulder. "Bella, it's a good thing what you did right? I mean, it was consensual and all, but do you regret it?"
"No. I don't regret a second of it. At all." I half grinned. "Its just, now, I cant stop thinking about him. I mean poor Rose had had to listen to me last week going on and on about it. But I guess, really, she's enjoying it, seeing as she was at my door at the butt crack of dawn the next morning."
"Wait." Her eyes grew wide and her face stern. "Rose knew about this? How come you told Rose but not me? I thought we were best friends Bella." I had hurt her feelings inadvertently.
"I didn't tell her, she figured it out on her own. She grabbed my phone while you were in the bathroom that night. Basically gave me her blessing to go and get down and dirty with him." I laughed at myself. "That's why I asked you to take me shopping, Alice."
"I thought there was something going on, but you insisted. I can always tell when your lying but I wasn't sure that day."
"Well, now you know."
"So the question is Bella, what were you too doing having lunch to day? Is this an ongoing thing?" Jasper, always the one to cut to the chase.
"Oh hell, Jasper. I don't know. He wanted to have lunch today, said there was something he needed to talk to me about but all we did was eat and talk about nothing. Well, I guess you saw what we did. But damn it all if that kiss he gave me wasn't the best I have had in a long time. Its just such a nice change from Jake." They both looked at me, eyebrows raised, motioning for me to continue. "You know, to have someone make me feel like they actually like me for me, not what they think I should be."
"Yes, Bella, I know exactly what you mean." She smiled softly, turned in to jaspers shoulder and wrapped her arms around him. She turned her face to me then said, "This is what I have been trying to get you to realize your not getting with Jake. The man you marry should make you feel like that even when your sick and all puffy from throwing up and it smells like you just ate a truckload of cabbage and horse poo"
"I know Alice, but I am never gonna have that. Not with Jacob Black."
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It was 6:30 and I had just finished with putting dinner away. Adolf, the Anti-Christ, was just finishing with his shower and was sauntering down the hallway in nothing but a lilac colored towel. His lips were moving but I could hear nothing he was saying.
My IPOD was blaring through my headphones as I wiped up and when I actually looked at him, I was memorized at the sight before me. What I was looking at was a beautiful copper skinned body, toned but not chiseled with a light threading of hair tracing the center line. It was pointing due south like a neon sign on the Las Vegas strip.
Sitting on this wondrous manly frame was the face of Edward. I could see the perfect green of his eyes, the defined jaw line, his lips. Before I knew what was happening I had one hand in his hair and the other around his cock.
He lifted me onto the counter pushing my knees apart, His fingers snaking their way into the wet pooled between my thighs. Our lips found each other and with one firm suck, I pulled his tongue into my mouth. I allowed him to remove his tongue, scarping my teeth along it as it exited, instead pulling his bottom lip between my teeth. I bit down.
I could feel the vibrations on my teeth as he moaned. His hands became frantic, no longer just savoring the feel of my skin. I could feel his cock pressing at my entrance, just like it had those so few nights ago. In and instant he was inside of me. Gone were the soft, gentle, thoughtful thrusts. They have been replaced by power and force.
My legs wrapped around his waist as I began to slip backwards on the slick countertop. My head fell back and I gripped the edge with my fingers, using it to pull myself into him further. The slippery friction of him inside of me and the feel of the tile rubbing my ass caused my nerves to tighten. Not ready to come undone yet, I pushed him back and down on to the floor. The ear buds of my IPOD yanked from me as I placed one leg on each side of his body.
I squatted over him, and slowly lowered myself onto him. I brought myself up at exactly the same place. His palms found a home on each cheek, aiding in my balance as I used only my legs to slowly bounce up and down on him. I could feel his blood pulsating inside of me. The feel of it rubbing against the thin membrane that made up the rear wall of my insides. The nerve sitting within that membrane now humming.
I was vaguely aware that I was moaning in pleasure. I brought my hips down fully on to him and then ground my pelvis against him. He sat up and wrapped his arms around me. The position allowed me to place my feet on the floor behind him and lean back onto my hands. He arched up into me pushing himself further into me than I thought possible.
With his balls brushing my ass I arched back and let the tension release. My body tightened and I was momentarily paralyzed. "Mmmmm, god damn, Bella."
My head shot up, expecting to see Jake standing over us. My eyes darted around the room looking for the scowl I was sure I would find. When I finally glanced to gauge Edward's reaction he wasn't there. Instead I found the post-coital flushed face of my husband.
"Jake!"
"Damn it, that was amazing, babe. Shit." He pulled me down into his lap once again as he finished riding his own disgusting wave.
All signs of arousal and pleasure immediately removed themselves from my face. I realized in an instant that it had been Jake all along and what I thought had been Edward's body touching me in an intensely intimate way, was really that of my husband. The pleasure and excitement that Edward had brought with him down that hallway was all done, in reality, by Jake.
Stupid, Bella, why would he be in your house. I wrapped my arms around Jake, placing a chaste kiss on his neck before removing myself from the uncomfortable situation. "I'm gonna go clean off."
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"Whoa, Bells. That is intense." Rose took a sip of her martini as we sat at lunch the next day. "You could actually see his face the entire time?"
"Not just see, Rose. I could smell him, feel the softness of his lips. It was crazy. I mean, its not like Jake is bad in bed, but its just so different than the way Edward was." I was exhausted. I had spent the better half of the night trying to sleep, but unable to do so because of what I was now referring to my sexual meltdown. "I think I am literally losing my mind."
"Ha ha ha. Your not crazy Bella, just sexually and emotionally stunted." Rose leaned forward and took my hands in her own. "Bella, what you thought you were feeling last night with fake Edward wasn't a meltdown. It was real. That is how your body is suppose to respond to a man, or woman for that matter, that you are attracted to." She put her hand over mine, "That's what its like every time for me and Emmett. It is insane, after all this time that we've been together, its still just as exciting as the first time we took our clothes off and showed each other how much we cared."
"Really, Rose? I mean, is it really the same? Because its not the same as it was when me and Jake first started dating. Its good, but I just don't get that tingle. All I can think of is what he said to me earlier or how he just gets up there and uses me like a toilet. I feel like Whoopi Goldberg in The Color Purple." The tears threatened to spill, I blinked them back trying to hold my composure.
"Well, its not exactly the same, but its just as good, in a different way. Now, we know what each other want, what we like. He knows exactly what kind of kiss I want, what way I want him. Its not the fireworks exploding in the background sex that it was when we first got together, but its just as good, believe me." She smiled at the thought of the two of them, together.
"I cant do this with him anymore Rose. I either have to get Edward out of my head, or I have to get rid of Jake. I just don't know what to do. I'm comfortable with the life me and Jake have built and all the little extras I have come accustomed to having. But I love the way I feel when I am around Edward. Its not the sex that has me all twisted up. Its him. The way he speaks, not just to me, but to everyone. it's the way he doesn't judge. Anytime I talk to him he just takes me as I come. He's ok with me just being me."
"Well, sweetie, I don't know what to tell you. You have to figure this out on your own."
"Yea…I know."
We paid the tab and left, promising each other that we would talk later today.
That never happened. I decided that I was going to speak to Jake about the way he had been treating me lately. I was sick of being talked down to. I didn't want to feel like I had to succumb to his every whim. I was just sick and tired of being sick and tired.
So at dinner that night I spoke up for myself. With confidence I said, "Jake, can we talk?"
"Oh, any conversation that starts with that can't be good," he set his fork down, "what is it Bells?"
"Well, I just wanted to talk about some stuff that has been, uhh, you know, bothering me lately."
"What do you mean? Are the guys giving you a hard time at work? I swear if any of them is trying anything funny, I'll have their…"
"No, Jake, its nothing like that. Its just, well, its about you and me."
"What do you mean 'you and me'? What the fuck are you saying here Bella?"
My pulse quickened and I could feel my flight or fight response kick in as the tenor of his voice raised. "Well, I just don't feel like you.."
"Like I don't what, Bella? Like I don't take care of you? I do everything for you! I work my ass off seven days a week to give you everything you could ever want. I never sleep, I sweat the life out of me at that godforsaken plant during the week and then go to that bar every weekend. You don't appreciate a damn thing I do around here. You just walk around like I'm your fucking man servant! So, please, tell me what it is that I am not doing for you!"
I had pushed myself as far back into my chair as it would allow at the end of his rant. My hands were trembling as he rose slightly. "Jake…calm down, please. I just mean…its just that…you know you scare me when you do this. Please stop, I don't like this. Please, Jake." My whole body was shaking as I tried to calm him down.
I stood up and hesitantly wrapped my arms around his neck. "Please, Jake. It was nothing. I am just over thinking, that's all. I appreciate everything you do for me. I love you, honey." I pressed my lips to his firm slit of a mouth in an attempt to calm him. "Come on, lets go to the bedroom."
I did the one thing I knew would get him happy fast. I reached down and rubbed him through his sweats. Instantly, he responded. Soon, he had me bent over the edge of our bed, working out his anger .
Inside, I wept.
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A/N: So we finally get a full dose of exactly how Jacob makes Bella feel. Let me know what you think.
Oh yea…got me a beta now, but if anyone else has anything to add or like the story let me know….we can be friends….I would love that!!!
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