October 25th, 2010
7th Period, Library
"You idiot."
"What?"
"You're an idiot."
"What are you talking about, Fanny?" Wally was sitting across from me at our usual table we went to for study hall. He was giving me this look of annoyance. I shot the same one back, "Samantha!"
I heard a shush coming from the librarian.
"What about her?" He asked, "And try not to be mean, because she is, after all, my girlfriend."
"That's it."
"What's it?"
"Stop playing dumb."
"You know me Fanny, I never play dumb."
I groaned, "Fine. Samantha. Why is she your girlfriend?"
"I don't know how to answer that."
"I don't know how she became your girlfriend, when you obviously like another girl," I spat.
Wally rolled his eyes, "Liked. I'm over Kuki."
I snorted, "Yeah. And Nigel has luscious locks of hair."
"On his ass," Wally smirked.
I rolled my eyes, "I'm trying to be serious."
"I know."
"Wally," I grabbed his his hand and looked him straight into the eye, "I don't understand."
"Understand what?" He asked.
"How you can go from being all gaga over Sanban, to asking out another girl."
Wally bit his bottom lip. He let go of my hand and placed both of his underneath the table. He then sighed. A really big one, "You're right. I'm still gaga over Kuki. But you should understand why I asked out Samantha. I mean, I've gone out with plenty of other girls while I still liked Kuki."
"I never understood that, Wally," I admitted, "I guess Kuki never seemed bothered by it, but now she is. You should've seen her yesterday. Almost as broken up as I was."
Wally was quiet for a moment, he looked down at his hands and whispered, "I'm scared."
"Of what?"
He sighed. The same one he did earlier, "Her."
"Kuki?"
He nodded.
"Why?"
Wally scratched his nose and looked around the room for a bit. My guess was that he was trying to find the words. And when he found them he looked me in the eyes; they were forming tears. I grabbed his hand again. He looked down at them and smiled slightly and looked up at me again. "She's wonderful, Fan," He whispered, "And I don't know what it is that draws me to her, and when I'm so close," He lifted up his free hand and put his thumb and pointer finger a couple centimeters apart, "SO close to telling her," He wiped his face and continued, "I freak out, and I get a Samantha, or whoever I know will say yes and then I date them for two weeks."
"So you're afraid of a relationship?"
He shook his head, "No. I could very well picture myself with Kuki for a long time. And I mean, for as long as I can. But I'm "Two-Week" Wally. And I don't know what she wants. I know you guys tell me she likes me, and that's great, but-," He stopped himself and let go of my hand, "but, what if she just wants "Two-Week" Wally and then I turn into, 'Let's be together for as long as possible,' and then she dumps me."
"She wouldn't do that."
"How do you know that though?" Wally exclaimed. And quite honestly, I was shocked. A. Because we were in the library and B. He never yells. Except when we were little..he yelled a lot then.
I shrugged, "I guess I don't."
"But you have to, Fanny," He sounded desperate, "I need to know that Kuki will be my sure thing."
It was my turn to look around the room. It was my time to give him advice that could possibly change his whole way of approaching the situation called his emotions. I smiled at him, "There is no such thing as a sure thing. You gotta take the leap, because in the end Wally, the best things in life come with risking something."
"Look who's talking."
"You can make Kuki the happiest person alive," I told him, "Hoagie already is that. Why would I change that, ya know? His happiness means the world to me. Even if it's not me who's caused it."
He agreed, "Yeah, I know what you mean."
"So unless he shows any signs of being unhappy with her, I'm not doing anything about it."
Wally nodded, "Well if it changes anything, you can make Hoagie the happiest person alive too. Maybe even happier."
I gotta hand it to Wally, he always knew exactly what I needed to hear.
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