Ben. I can't love Jacob now. Ben would kill me. He would find a way. He would get past Jake, and whoever else tried to get in his way. And I don't want to hurt them. Thats how much I love Jacob. I am going to sacrfice myself for him. "I-I can't."I wispered and he put his hand in mine. "Please, I need you." I could see his dark eyes peircing in the darkness. One tear fell. "Jake, I can't. Please." I begged him to let this go. I don't want to hurt him anymore. "Okay, but I'll always love you." and I felt his lips kiss my forehead and he was gone. I heard the door shut and I broke down.

I cried for Jacob, I cried for Bella, I cried for my family for putting them through my drama. But I didn't cry for me. I will never cry for me. Thats my promise to myself. I know there are people out there who have much worse than I. So I will never cry for myself.

I stood up and ran into the kitchen. Trying not to think about what I am about to do. I grabbed the largest knife and put it right to my throat. It was cold and alarming. Then it was gone. "Did you hear anything I said to you earlier?" Edward. I sighed. "This is my desicion. Not yours. My choice. Leave me alone." , "No. I am sorry that your life is terrible right now but that can be fixed. The mark you will leave when you kill yourself will effect everyone. It cannot be fixed. Don't you understand that?" I sat down at the kitchen table and thought. "There are only three people that love me in this world. Jacob, Bella, and my mother. That isn't enough for me. How can I live with that?" I put my head down. I looked up and Edward was sitting in the chair across from me. "You forgot one."I rolled my eyes. "Sorry Ben." I scoffed. Ben doesn't care about me. He just wants someone to beat unconsious. "Me." I was suddenly alert. "I care for you Anna. Don't you see that? I wouldn't be here, talking to you, lecturing you, helping you and keeping you safe if I didn't care for you." , "Your insane Edward. You don't care for me. You care for Bella. You don't want me to die because it will sadden Bella. I'm not an idiot." he smiled. "Okay your half right your not an idiot. But I do care. I don't know how to show you that." , "Okay I believe you can we just forget this conversation just happened?" ," Why?" , "Because I am trying to be depressed and my all time favorite fictional character telling me that he cares for me or talking to me period is ruining all that." he smiled so did I. "I see. If you wish." , "I wish." I said and we walked into the living room. I laid down. "Goodnight Anna." , "Goodnight fictional vampire, whom cares for me." I heard him chuckle and then he walked up the stairs. I drempt pleasent dreams...

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I woke to the shrilling ring of the phone. I groaned and got up. I stretched while walking to get the phone. I bet I looked kind of weird. I pushed talk and put the phone to my ear. "Hello." I grumbled. "I want you to sing for me." Ben. "What? Its.." I looked at the clock above the kitchen sink. "Eight. And it's my birthday. Don't we do what I want?", "No, we do what I want. I'll see you in the garage in fifteen minutes." he hung up. Who is going to be playing? Well I know I'm going to be singing but who are playing the instruments? "Who is Aaron, Derek, Brian, and Liam?" Edward was coming down the stairs. Those are Ben's friends. I hate them. They...I don't want to think about it.

I tried not to think about what Ben's friends did to me while I got dressed. I was wearing a black t-shirt and a pair of dark skinny jeans. I brushed through my pin straight black hair and walked downstairs. Bella and Edward were sitting on the couch. They looked at me and laughed. I inspected myself. "What?" I asked. And then I found it. My shirt it had an Edward quote on it. It said. 'No'. "What does that mean?" Bella asked. I smiled. "Glad you asked. This is what Edward said to you when you asked if he wanted you." she was ticking me off sorry Edward I had to. she looked down and I heard a car door shut. They're here.

I watched them all get out of the car. Ben was first. Then Aaron his brown hair was curly and he must have removed his peircings maybe he changed. Then Derek, he had red hair that was grown out to his shoulders now and he was very thin. Brian got out next. He had black hair to his chin and very emo looking. Liam was the last. He had black hair with a red streak right in the front. They were walking to the door.

I took a very deep breathe and Edward stood. Sit down. I pretty much begged him. "No." was his reply and they walked in. I tried not to let my memory stray to that night. My heart was beating faster than I could count. Ben came over to me. He touched my arm and my heart when into overload. The fear. Of all of them. They all smiled sadisticlly at me and went to sit in the living room. Bella came up and stood next to me. Edward was giving them all death glares. And man if looks could kill....

"So Anna, nice to see you again." Liam said and winked. I smirked and rolled my eyes. Ben glared. Well I'm getting beat for that later. "So what am I singing?" I asked. He handed me the music. "I can't do this." I said handing it back to him nervousely. "But you will Anna. See I give it to you and you do it. It's easy here try it." He handed it back to me and I took it and tried to figure out how I was going to get through singing this. I won't. "No." I said and he turned away from his friends to look at me. "What did you say to me?" he asked. "Ya def Ben?" I said 'no'." His friends all 'ooed' and awed' and all I could so was remember how many asprins were in the cupboard.

"Lets talk." Ben ordered. But I stood still. "Move it." he said and I stayed still. I thought about moving but I then I thought again. No. "We can talk, right here." I said and he glared. Liam, the brave one, got up and stood next to Ben smiling at me. "I'll help you." He said and I considered running into the kitchen and sticking a knife into my heart right then. "This won't have to happen if you just sing the song." He said and I shook my head.

He began walking towards me and then Edward was in front of me. "I don't think you really want to do that." he hissed and Ben smiled. Then there was a snap. Ben screamed and I chuckled but tried to hold back the laughter. Edward smiled and turned towards Bella who was shocked. Liam, Brian, Aaron and Derek all stood up. Ben was jumping up and down and gripping his wrist. Derek and Liam came towards me and grabbed my arms. "Come with us." , Derek wispered angered. "She's mine." Ben said and came towards me with wrath written all over his face.

Then Edward stepped in front of me. "I hate reruns but if it has to happen...." he smiled and put his hands in his pocket. "Edward. Stop it." Bella said. She isn't used to this kind of thing. And I didn't konw Edward was either. "I'm not scared of you." Ben said and for once he wasn't smiling! "You sure?" Edward asked and smiled. His teeth were sharp and glistening. "Positive." Ben hissed and Edward's smile widened. He rolled his eyes and turned to Bella. "Look away." he said to her and she did. "You too Anna." I shook my head and laughed. "I have been waiting years for this please continue." Edward shrugged and all I saw was a flash. Then Ben was on the ground.

His lip was bleeding and I could tell Edward wasn't holding his breathe. He can handle it...right? Edward nodded to answer my thoughts and I nodded in return. Bella looked at the scene and gawked. "Edward! You didnt." , Edward turned around and popped the color on his button up shirt then said these words that sent me into complete laughter. "I'm just that good." he said and smiled. Bella looked shocked. Little does she know every Twilight fan has been waiting for this Edward. And I got to see him.

Edward then turned to face Brian, Derek, Aaron and Liam. "You guys wanna join him?" he asked rasing and eyebrow and stepping forward. They were gone in a matter of seconds. "Happy birthday." Edward said and Ben stood up. He gave me the glare on his way out the door. "Edward Anthony Cullen. Was that even called for?", "Not really. I don't know what came over me." he admitted and I sat down on the couch stifling laughter. "Devan's coming in get ready." Edward warned me and I stood up. Now alert.

Just then Devan came through the door. A look of confusion plastered on his face. What do I say? "Hey Anna." He said happily. "Glad you finally punched him. You took long enough. And happy birthday." okay....Then someone came in behind Devan. Aleena. His girlfriend. And my best friend. She stopped when she saw who was in my living room. She looked at me. You see Aleena is my age and had the same straight black hair. Except she has red sidebangs and you can't see her ears because they are covered in earring. Then Edward walked up to Aleena. He held his hand out. "Edward Cullen nice to meet you." he smiled his dazzeling smile and Aleena shook his hand and her mouth was wide. "This is Aleena Fletcher." I introduced her for herself. She looked a little out of it. "Edward-E-Edward Cullen?" Aleena is the number one Edward fan. Yea, you should see her room..

"And that must be Bella." Aleena said and Bella smiled. Aleena hates Bella for the pure reason that she is marrying Edward. "I'm giving you a makeover." Aleena said looking at Edward. "O-kay?" Edward replied confused. "Aleena, don't." she smiled. "What?" , "You know what." I said. She always has pictured an emo Edward. "Oh God." Edward said. Probably from the menal image in her mind. "Oh yeah." I said and then we all went upstairs to witness Edward's 'makeover' I was amazed. Though I'm not sure how he is getting his normal haircolor back....

His hair was...okay I can't even explain it. He looked like Gerard Way. Oh yeah that good. Bella had to turn around while the makeover was going on because she kept repeating the words 'no no no'. "Bella, turn around." I said and when she did she screamed. Edward doesn't even know what he looks like yet. I gave him a mental image. "Oh no. Here comes Alice." Edward flinched and Alice came in. "What is Gerard Way doing in your bathroom?" Alice asked me. We all laughed.

Edward stood up out of the chair and looked at Alice. " I don't look like-" and then she turned him arund to look at the mirror. "Oh I do."I nodded and I saw Edward's question coming because I was wondering too. "How did you get my hair this long?" He asked. Aleena smiled sheepishly. "Lets just say my electric bill is going to be over the roof and I'm glad heat doesn't really bother you." he rolled his eyes. "Wow I have Gerard Way/Edward Cullen in my bathroom. I feel special." I looked at Devan he had the corkiest grin on his face. Then Edward's eyes went wide.

I knew what he was thinking, and so did Edward. "Devan, it's not going happen. Not all dreams come true." Edward looked like he just might do it. "What are you are thinking about?" Bella asked. "Devan wants me to....sing." he swallowed hard on the last words. "Do it." Bella said. She has been the difficult one today so that she said this was a surprise. "Fine...I'll do it." Devan smiled evilly and I bet Edward is regretting his decision now.