Life is never as easy as people say, they say the good times never end but my good times never started. I can barely see past all the tears in my eyes, why did Jasper do that, why didn't he just let them take me insteed of...what he did. The wind rushes past my ears as I fly threw the rain, it's not cold rain...it's just rain.

Everything just happened so fast, one mintue Jasper was holding me in his arms and the next Felix was smashing his head off. All I can think about his is the life leaving his eyes and why he did what he did. He did it because of me, Jasper died because of my stupidity.

Why am I still flying in the opposite direction of where Jasper's body is? Damn why do I keep making myself cry even more. I keep thinking about if I died I would want someone to care, someone to be at my grave and know that I was there. Jasper would have wanted that too...someone to care, someone to be at his unmarked grave...

I hear the heavy beating of my wet wings as I flap. I'm going to turn around a visit Jaspers grave, so if he's in heaven, he can see that someone really cared...someone loved him...

I know I am getting closer to the road where Jasper died because I can smell the sickly sweet smell of a vampire. I can barely see past all the rain, but I spotted something I really wanted to see, I saw the road.

I felt sick, the thought of seeing Jaspers body, lying lifeless on the ground, I began to sob loudly again, his eyes starring into nothing. I smelt the vampire smell again and it smelt close hope rushed into me, maybe he's not dead! Maybe my eyes were playing tricks on me!

I dived down at a speed that would have killed a vampire if It hit the ground! I swooped up just before the ground and landed gracefully on the road.

I saw someone moving in the distance and the lovely smell of vampires again. Jasper's alive, it seemed like all my tears just sucked back into my eyes and the world was perfect. "Jasper!" I scream in joy and run as fast as I can forwards, but something happened, Jasper looked allot shorter and with long blonder hair.

"Jasper?" I asked, the sadness was back into my voice. "kassy?" I heard a girly voice ask, a familare voice, sweet and innocent. The rain seemed to clear and what I thought was Jasper, wasn't. "why did you come back?" Alex asked, the small blond girl from the voturi. "I had too say goodbye... " I whimpered, but I was determined not to cry in front of her.

"O-okay...I'm so sorry...I didn't want too but-" "shut up! I'm not here for you!" I pushed passed Alex and walked slightly up the road.

I could see a Jaspers body laying on the ground and his head was a meter away from his body. "you didn't burn him?" I asked with a hint of hope in my voice. "yeah that's what I came here for..." Alex's voice was cold and heartless. She reached into her pocket and pulled out a lighter. "please! No! Oh! I'll do anything! Just please! Don't!" I was begging, I colapesed to my knees and began crying into Alex's coat. "I have to...aro will know if I don't..." she looked like she would cry, but I knew she couldn't.

Her hands were shaking and she looked very un-sure on what to do. "please Alex...your not his slave..." I manged to sob out. "Aro...saved me..." Alex whimpered. "I can tell you don't enjoy doing the things you do...killing people..." I was a bit more conferdent now. "I need to eat..." she lit the lighter. "no! If you let Jasper live he can teach you how do live of animal blood! See! His eyes there not red...there gold..." I began whimpering again. "h-he can?" Alex was clearly surprised. I smiled "yes!" I almost screamed. Alex closed the lighter lid. "it will take a few hours. Before his body heals it self..." she said her voice was sweet again. My world seemed to join back together

We had to move futhur away from the road, because humans drive down that road and if they saw Jasper de-headed it might freak them out a bit.

I was so cold even tho I was in Italy, which is normally very hot. My wet hair drippled down my back and my clothes were soaked. Alex started a fire which made me nervous because Jaspers body was only a few meters away, his head was almost fully intact.

I smiled and sat down next to jaspers body, he'll wake up soon and I want to be the first person he sees. I began to gentally stroke his curly mess of a hair. "Are you two like...a...?" Alex began to ask. "No...we're just friends..." I smiled and looked down at his perfect face, he really was handsome. "I've seen the way he looks at you...it's like he would give his life for you..." she looked down and began to play with the fire. "he already did die for me..." I chuckled lightly. She smiled, grr damn Vampires why do they always have to be so cute. Alex looks so innocent and adorable but I know how vampires are no matter how nice they act you can never fully trust them

I look down at Jasper, A few weeks ago I never would have even gone near a vampire but here I am stroking ones hair with his head on my lap. Jasper's body began to twitch slightly and he let out a low grumbling sound. "Jasper?..." i whimpered, what if he's angry at me for coming back for him. His eyes shot open and let out a loud hiss, he pushed me back with a great force and growled at Alex. I flew back a few meters and hit the dusty ground, "Jasper!" I screamed, I ignored the pain in my leg from when he just pushed me. He didn't turn to look at me, he just growled Alex.

I smiled and ran towards him, he turned. "Kassy?" He asked. I wrapped my arms around his shoulder and hugged him, he was clearly surprised. He slowly wrapped his cold arms around me, I began to cry into his chest. "Shhhhh...its ok..." he rested his head on the top of my head and in haled deeply. "Im here...it's ok..." I missed his voice it was like music to my ears. "J-jasper..." I whimpered into his chest, I dont know why I was still crying...I was just so happy to see him but sad about what I put him though. "Kassy...I told you not too come back..." he sounded angry. "I know...I just couldn't...I couldn't leave you..." I sobbed out, I took a deep breath and held back the tears. I looked down at me, his eyes were watching every movement I made. He moved his face closer to mine, his face was so close to mine I stopped breathing and my blush became a deep red.

"Uhmmmm" I heard Alex cough, Jasper pulled away from my face and turned to Alex, grr I was so close to a kiss...hmmmmm...kissing Jasper..."What are you still doing here?" Jasper hissed threw his teeth. "Well...I just spared your life and I was promised that you would teach me to hunt animals" Alex stood up and walked closer to us. Jasper hissed and stood infront of me. "I'm not going to hurt her...but you might..." She said flatly...what does she mean...he wont hurt me...He turned around and looked down at me, his eyes were a black and he had black rings under his eyes. "Fine...I will take you hunting...but if you even come near Kassy..." he didnt finsh but we all knew what he meant. They are going hunting...what am I going to do...wait here?.. but before I could say anything Jasper scooped me up in his arms. "Kassy...you need to come hunting with us...sorry..." he began to run, I hated going at this speed and he knew it...I just closed my eyes and pushed up against his chest.

I wasn't aloud to be around Jasper or Alex when they hunted, they didn't want to risk attacking me. Jasper took Alex deep in the forest, I stayed by a river, Jasper promised to be back in half an hour. Half an hour thats plenty of time to have a bath...I looked around and saw no-one so im guessing it's safe. I stood up and walked up up to the river, I gotta do this quick. I began to strip off my clothes, It made me nervous that Jasper was only giving me half an hour so quickly dived into the water. The water was warm and felt nice against my skin, It felt like it was washing away my problems...

Im not sure what should happen next! so if you have any ideas please reveiw!