2 weeks later
Robbie
Ray handed her the package, and she took it nervously, staring at it
for a moment. "She would have wanted you to have it" he replied,
and Lilly nodded, smiling at him.
"Thank you" she murmured as
he wrapped her in a tight hug.
Robbie Ray grinned at her, pulling
away and tapping his cowboy hat. "We'll see y'all in a bit"
he said, waving at Nick before him and Jackson hopped in their car.
Lilly
stood there for a moment, holding the brown package Mr. Stewart had
handed to her. "Lilly?" Nick asked, snapping his fingers in her
face.
Lilly jumped slightly. "Yeah, yeah" she mumbled, walking
into Mr. Stewart's house.
Robbie Ray and Jackson were leaving
for the Christmas Holidays, and asked Lilly and Nick to watch his
house. As much as Lilly didn't want to be here, she thought that
they deserved a break. Robbie Ray had asked Joe to stay with Lilly,
but she refused, so Nick agreed to stay with her. It was a little
stupid, seeing as Nick lived next door, and he could go back there at
night, but Lilly couldn't help being grateful that someone was
staying with her. Miley would be here too of course, Mr. Stewart
already put Miley's crib in Miley's old room.
Nick watched her
for a moment, before following.
Lilly collapsed on the couch,
staring at the package. Nick sat next to her, staring at it as
well.
"You going to open it?" he asked curiously, raising his
eyebrow at her.
Lilly nodded, sliding her finger under the tape
and taking out a pink fuzzy diary.
Nick chortled. "What's
that?"
"Miley's diary" Lilly whispered, running her finger
down the front. She couldn't read this, diaries were meant to hold
your secrets. But then again, she already knew all Miley's secrets
right? So it couldn't be that big of a deal. She reached into the
bottom of the package, pulling out a tiny gold key. She stared at it
for a moment, and then set it on the table, slipping the diary back
into the package.
Nick watched her place it on the table, and part
of him longed to read it. He wanted to know if Miley used to write
about him, but the more he thought about it, the more he realized he
didn't want to know.
"You ain't going to read it?" he
asked, standing up and locking the front door.
Lilly shook her head. "I think I'm going to go to bed" she replied, standing up, grabbing the diary and running to Miley's room. She locked the door behind her, and turned to face her room. Everything was just like she left it; it almost looked like she was still there. Clothes were tossed carelessly out of her closet, and shoe was hanging off her mirror. A few magazines were scattered around her unmade bed, and her Hannah wig was placed in plain sight. Lilly frowned, the only thing that had changed, was a stack of cardboard boxes in the corner. Mr. Stewart was going to pack up her room, but probably couldn't do it.
She nervously sat on the bed, sinking into the many cushions. She could feel it. She could feel Miley, and she really wondered if it was possible for Miley to be watching her right now.
Lilly ran a hand through her blonde curls and picked up Miley's diary again. She grabbed the key and nervously opened the lock. She opened to the first page, scanning it quickly. It wasn't that old, a few months or so, when they first started High school. She flipped to a slightly recent page, the page before the car accident.
Dear Diary,
Let
me rephrase that.
Dear Lord; or whoever is there watching over me
and laughing,
Its getting hard to bare. All my happiness has died.
My heart broken in a million pieces, my dreams thrown against the
wall and my hopes crushed like the simplest bug. It's all been
taken away from me. Whenever I try to tell someone about how unhappy
I am, their comments are always the same. 'You always seem so
happy!' and my reply stays the same as well; anyone can smile.
School is horrible, I'm completely terrified inside, for reasons I
cannot point out. I have given up on everything, seeing as I have
lost everything. My family is all I have, I would give my dad and
brother anything, in return for a full day of their love. Thought
everything has become hard and horrid; I'm still here, aren't I?
Sometimes I wish nothing more than death…I need your help Lord,
please don't let me be in pain any longer…
Always and Forever,
Miley
She
felt her hands shake, the journal falling from her hands and landing
with a soft thud on the ground. Lilly quickly wiped at her
face as tears filled up in her eyes. Miley was unhappy? What could
Miley be so sad about? And why didn't she tell her?
Lilly bit
her lip, slowly standing up. Maybe, the car accident was planned,
maybe Miley wanted to die, so she got someone to hit her? No…nobody
would agree to that, it was sick. Lilly covered her mouth with her
hand, crying quietly. What the hell was going on?
Maybe that was what the dreams were about. Miley was trying to tell her why she was sad…Wait, no, Lilly! Snap out of it! Miley can't try and tell you something, she's dead, remember? You're never going to see her again…Wait, yes you will, when you die, she'll be there waiting…Right?
Lilly
fumbled with her shoelace, trying to calm herself. She stood up and
grabbed the key from the coffee table, before leaving Mr. Stewarts
house and locking the door behind her. She wandered slowly down the
steps, shoving her hands in her pockets. She zipped up her sweater
and walked a little faster. She tried not to think about what Miley
wrote in her diary, but she couldn't help it, it was consuming
her.
She walked up Oliver's steps, ringing the doorbell
nervously.
"Oliver?" she squeaked when he opened the door, and he raised an eyebrow.
"You ok?" he asked, staring at his friend for a moment. She shook her head and grabbed his hand, pulling him down the steps and towards the beach.
"Lilly,
can you tell me what is going on?" Oliver asked when Lilly had
stopped in front of Rico's.
Lilly paused, her breath
quickening. "Was Miley happy?"
He pulled his hand away,
staring at her for a moment. "What do you mean?"
"Was she
happy?! It's a simple question, Oliver." Lilly snapped, and
Oliver looked hurt.
"Yes, she was happy…why?" he answered,
not looking at Lilly now.
Lilly paused. "I'm sorry for
snapping, but Oliver, are you positive?"
Oliver shook his head
and shrugged, sitting down on a beach chair. "I'm not positive,
but she seemed happy. She was always smiling…she was always
herself." He replied.
Lilly sighed. "She's a good actress.
Really think about it, did Miley ever seem…sad?"
Oliver
took a deep breathe. "Well, she was sad when you left, if that's
what you mean" he replied, looking at her again.
Lilly pulled a
chair up next to him, sitting down. "Kay…" she murmured,
closing her eyes and thinking.
"Why?
Lilly, what's going on?" Oliver asked, taking her hand and
watching her.
Lilly bit her lip again, frowning. "I don't
know. I just wanted to know if she was happy" she lied.
"You're crying." Oliver commented, frowning slightly.
"Allergies" Lilly replied, wiping her face.
"You don't have allergies Lilly…" Oliver said slowly, and she whimpered.
"I know" she whispered, tears falling more quickly now.
Oliver looked at her sympathetically, before pulling her into a tight hug.
"Oliver…were you in love with Miley?"
A/N; Oh my gosh. I'm so terribly, incredibly, sorry. I should've updated so much sooner, but I didn't. xD I'm really sorry, I'll try to update more frequently, because I know how annoying it is waiting for someone to update. I'll explain more why it took me so long later…Read and Review 8D
