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"KK?"
"KK are you fucking listening you dipshit?"
Everything was bending. If it was because of the sight of him or the alcohol in his body was unsure, but every noise was being blurred out. The boy he loved was making out with his biggest rival; Vriska Serket.
According to Sollux, they had only been kissing for a few seconds before John had broken it off in total panic. But for Karkat it had seemed like a painful eternity.
When Vriska finally released John he staggered backwards, staring at her with eyes big as saucers. The shock made him sober up for a moment.
"What the heck are you doing!?"
"Oh come on John, I´m way better than that looser!" She tried to pull him in for another kiss with a big smirk on her painted lips, but John pushed her away in a disgusted manner.
"No. No,no,no! I came here to meet him, nothing else!" and with one final push he got rid of the disappointed girl, almost making her fall over. His eyes darted across the room and saw the said male rushing upstairs. He took up the chase after him, but his way got blocked by an angry, heterochromic eyed male. He was almost a head taller than him and towered over him with an intimidating look.
"What the actual fuck are you doing? First you mess with his feelings back and forth and now this?!" he snarled at him. John cursed and tried to stutter out a proper answer.
"I-i-I didn´t mean to! You saw that, she forced me to it!" he tilted his body to the left, trying to see where Karkat had disappeared behind Sollux.
"Please, I need to talk to him!"
"You better fix this or I swear to god I´ll skin you alive! Understood?"
John nodded in agreement, still frightened by the confrontation and Sollux let him pass, eyes still piercing him as he hurried up the stairs.
Even though John had sobered up a little, his legs still didn't want to work completely. He wobbled across the room and up the stairs where he´d last seen Karkat, cursing under his breath.
"Karkat, wait!"
The second level of the house was much emptier than the lower. The music was more isolated and there was only a few people standing and chatting in the hallway. John quickly discovered Karkat in the far right and jogged over. He was leaning against the wall, head facing upwards and eyes closed. John hesitated, he was feeling nauseous and his mind was getting foggy again.
"Karkat?"
The black-haired male took a deep, shaky breath before replying.
"Have you finally realized that I´m no fucking good for you?"
"What are you talking about, I-"
"It´s okay. I´m okay with it. Maybe I´ve been pushing you too far into something you didn´t even fucking want in the first place." He took another breath and took a step forward so that he was facing John.
"I´m fucking sorry for doing this to you, now please let me the fuck alone! I don´t want you! I don´t want you I my life because all you do is to fuck up my feelings all the fucking time!" voice shaking of anger and sorrow. His words cut like knives trough John and he began to panic; nothing had worked out as planned. His stomach turned again in protest and he immediately regretted those drinks from earlier. Someone had handed him one when he arrived and he gladly accepted it, believing it would calm his nerves a little bit.
"No,no,no please don´t say so! I never wanted to do this to you!"
"Then fuck off before you make things worse!" and with that Karkat walked past John. He didn´t want this anymore. He´d rather rot alone than being a tangled mess of emotions all the time. Sure, things had been great during their first two or three dates, but after that it just felt like a downhill to both of them. Maybe they weren´t supposed to be anything more than friends. The thought was hard to accept and a lump formed in his throat. As he stomped trough the room he could feel tears starting to run down his hot cheeks. It hurt. Everything hurt.
Suddenly he was stopped; a hand grabbed his lower arm and he was pulled in close.
"Karkat I don´t know what to do!" his ocean eyes were too flooded by tears.
" I´ve never felt like this before! It´s weird as hell and having you close drives me nuts and all I wanna do is,is-!" he stuttered before lunging towards Karkat. He grabbed one side of his face with each hand and kissed him hard. He broke off the kiss and repeated;
"I don´t know what to do."
Karkat just stared at him for the first seconds. Did this just happen? He had to blink a couple of time before he could say anything.
"What?"
"I get so damn nervous around you-"
"John.."
"-and I´m scared that, that-"
"John…."
"that I´ll smother you if I´ll just let go!"
"John shut the fuck up and kiss me again."
It was John´s turn to stare back in confusion. Karkat hurried to slid his hands behind his neck and crushed their lips together again. First too startled to respond, John started kissing back hungrily. Their tongues mashed together in a furious mix of frustration from held back feelings and desperation.
"Hey drama queens! Get a room!" someone called out from across the room.
They broke off the kiss, both panting softly with flushed cheeks. Karkat looked at the source of the voice that had interrupted them. Sollux took a few steps closer, chuckling at the two males.
"So that´s what you´ve been holding back Egbert?"
John blushed heavily and looked down at Karkat´s chest.
"But seriously. Go get a room and fuck each other senseless because that´s clearly what you guys need!" he continued while grinning widely.
"Shut the fuck up, shitlicker!" Karkat yelled, face just as red as John´s now. Sollux just laughed and gave him the finger while walking downstairs again, leaving them to themselves again. Karkat looked back at John who was still looking down at his shirt, hands placed on Karkat´s chest.
"Wanna get out of here?" he asked, grabbing one of his hands. John hummed and nodded in reply. They scurried down the stairs and managed to get outdoors. It was past midnight and the night sky was like a dark draping dotted with sparkling lights above their heads.
"Wow, they´re beautiful!" John gasped, hand still clenching Karkat´s. His eyes sparkled like the stars they were gazing at.
After a rollercoaster of up and downs things finally seemed to settle down. What Karkat said before was a lie; this was what he wanted. He wanted to be with John and share simple, but joyful moments like this over and over again. He wanted to just forget about everything get lost in those sparkly eyes forever.
"Hey, I have an idea. C´mon!" Karkat smirked while he tugged John along. They walked up the street in the opposite direction they had come from earlier that night.
"Where are we going?"
"You´ll see"
"But I wanna knoooooooow!"
"Stop whining like a fucking infant. I won´t spoil the surprise!"
They got further and further away from the Makara´s house. Houses become more scattered and the streets were hauntingly empty except for some stray cats running under the yellow streetlamps. Karkat took a turn to the right and stopped in front of a tall, concrete monument. It was protected by high seamless, metallic fences all around.
"A water tower?" John looked confused at the sign, not sure if this was their final destiny.
"Yeah. I used to come here a lot as a kid when I needed to get away from everything." Karkat hooked his fingers high up in the fence and began dragging himself up on it.
"What are you doing?!"
"What does it fucking look like? Come on, it´s not as hard as it looks." John looked hesitatingly at the obstacle, trying to figure out how to get over. Karkat was already at the top and reached out a hand.
"Just like a climbing wall in pre-school."
The expression on John´s face told that he still wasn´t fully convinced. He´d been always been a good kid and the thought getting in trouble was quite scary to him.
"If you come over you´ll get a kiss" Karkat teased with a smirk. His slightly pointed teeth glistered in the moonlight.
"Fine" John replied, trying to sound unhappy about the deal. After slipping once or twice with his feet, he was soon on the other side. He jumped down the last bit and was caught by the other male. Karkat quickly pressed a kiss on his lips before heading towards the tower.
"No, nooo. There´s no way we´re gonna-"
"Yes we are Egderp. Don´t be such a fucking chicken!" he made cackling sounds while waving his arms like bird-wings. John was not amused at all and Karkat let down his arms with and unnecessary deep sigh.
"If you´ll be disappointed we´ll only watch your movies for the next three movie nights!"
"Five!"
"Three."
"Four!"
"Nope. Three."
John sighed at the defeat and followed Karkat up the metallic ladder. They went vertically all the way up along the grey wall. The first time Karkat climbed this stair he´d been terrified, but after a couple of visits the tingling feeling in his stomach was gone and it had become one of his favorite places in the world.
The ladder ended at a narrow platform that went all the way around the tower. Karkat sat down at the edge, his head nudging the sparse fence. He patted at the space next to him and John took a seat. The view from up there was truly amazing; the contrast between the warm, glowing lights from the streetlamps and the blackish-blue sky made the city look like a postcard.
After listening to John´s amazement over the view Karkat decided to try to pick up where they had left at the party.
"So, I heard something about sloppy make-outs?" he smiled with a certain cockiness in his voice. He´d expected John to give one of his shy and blushing reply´s, but this time the reply was rather surprising.
"You head right stud muffin, I wanna make out with your face!" he grinned back. He scooted closer and slid in a cold hand on the back of Karkat´s messy head.
"You´re so fucking drunk Egderp…"
He leaned in close, lips brushing close to the others
"..but I don´t mind."
They dipped in for another kiss, but this one was different. They didn´t just let their tongues wrestle for domination; it was deeper and somehow so much more passionate. Karkat began feeling a warm, tingling feeling in his stomach. In the middle of exploring each other´s mouths Karkat took a small pause to nibble at John´s lower lip. This made him let out a mix of a whimper from the sudden pain and a soft moan, adding to the heat building up in his belly. He continued down his neck; leaving a trail red lovemarks on his warm skin. The needy whimpers closeness was making his mind foggy.
He suddenly felt John´s hand travel up his thigh. The touch made a shiver go down all the way his spine, making things even harder to control. He reluctantly broke off the hot kiss and looked at John with eyes half lidded.
"John…I think we need to stop here…I.."
"Why?"
The look on his face made him shiver involuntary again; his eyes were heavy from lust and they were both panting softly. All this made it hard for Karkat to think clear. He wanted to continue - all the way.
"We´re both far away from sober and I don´t want you to regret anything. But shit John, you really shouldn´t have held back all this."
"I was scared I´d weird you out"
"I´m a walking freakshow, nothing you do can weird me out." John chuckled and leaned his forehead to the cold railing.
"But seriously, don´t hold this back, not a single drop of it. It´s fucking fantastic."
They climbed down the steep ladder and made their way home again, hand in hand.
"Karkat?"
"Yeah."
"Can I sleep with you tonight?"
"Fuck yes."