I Own Nothing

CN: Ethan and Danny finally talk about the things that Aiden said to Lydia in the chapter before. They go more in-depth than Aiden did.

Title: Beaten But Not Truly Broken

Characters: Danny/Ethan, Lydia/Aiden, Kali, Scott, Derek, Stiles, Deaton

Summary: Kali is furious over losing Ennis and when she finds that the twins have gotten too close to their assignments she takes her anger out on them. Not for faint of heart in the first couple of chapters. Started this in January or February of 2017 just got it the way I wanted it.

Ethan had put off talking to Danny for days. He had been so focused on helping Aiden when they weren't at school. He had been drained the morning after Aiden had broken down. It was like he had been there as well, but he still had his fears and nightmares inside. He knew all of Aiden's problems weren't gone. He was waiting for his brother to explode, that was usually how Aiden dealt with something. It was why he knew there was more to come before everything was resolved. The last time that Aiden had been treated close to this they had taken out their former pack. He hoped that Aiden didn't go and try to do something as stupid as that alone.

Ethan hadn't slept beside when Danny, Aiden and Lydia were in the bed with him. He'd woken up feeling like he was being tortured again. Danny had pulled him out of the nightmare before Aiden or Lydia had woken up. He had wanted to tell Danny then what it had been. He'd asked him to give him a couple of days. They had stayed closed even at night when Danny stayed with him. They just hadn't talked about what caused Aiden to finally start to break. He knew where Aiden's mind was at because he'd felt it.

He had stayed awake the last few nights watching Danny sleep. He faked sleeping beside him because he couldn't get his mind to shut off. He kept seeing Kali even if he had stopped letting her control his mind when it came to Danny. His memory would then rush to the past to the first time he had thought he was happy. He hadn't even remembered until now. It had been with the former bastards that had tortured and done so many other things to him. There had been one person there that had never hurt him.

Ethan used Danny's window to get into his bedroom. He knew his parents were home, but he needed to see his boyfriend. He'd woken up after accidently falling asleep on the couch. Aiden had been with Lydia so he hadn't been there to pull him from the nightmare. He had told Aiden he was fine when he'd gotten his brother's text though. He said he was going to Danny's, which he had done. It was time that Danny finally knew the rest of the truth. The part about why at first he had been hesitate of ever bottoming again.

Even though he knew that Danny would never do what had been done to him. There was also the reason behind why Aiden had down right hated Danny at first. There was a reason he had thought he was going lose him to Danny. He had kept it locked so tight down he had forgotten about it. He had bottled it up not wanting to remember it because of all the bad that happened after the good.

"Can... Can we talk?" Ethan asked in a low voice, "I know your parents are home, but you said when I needed to talk." he was hoping that they could.

He didn't care if it made him seem weak, he needed Danny. He needed his safe place and Danny's arms were that. He needed physical contact right now or he felt like he would lose his self. He had woken up to the pain of being beaten by Kali. He knew it was her doing it because he felt like his skin was melting away. He thought he had beaten this letting her have control. He didn't want to go back to feeling like he was dying inside. He hoped that if he told Danny then he could really pull his self out of the gutter that she had tried throwing him in.

"Yeah, let me just tell my parents good night," Danny said getting out of his desk chair hugging Ethan. He held onto him as tight as he could being human could. He could feel Ethan shaking against him and he actually felt cold. Ethan never felt cold, except his feet those could be down right ice at times. He could tell that his boyfriend needed him more than doing his homework at the moment. "Get comfortable, I'll be back," he said when he pulled away leaving his room.

Ethan hadn't wanted Danny to go, but he let him knowing he was coming back. He stripped down to his boxer briefs getting into Danny's bed. He breathed in Danny's scent letting it surround him. He'd wanted to be completely naked, but if Danny's parents came in for some reason it might not go over well. They might like him, but not so much so that they wouldn't toss him for having sex in the house. He had no plans of doing anything with Danny, but if they did. He sighed his libido was out of whack again not wanting to let him have any fun. He got hard every morning on cue, but he couldn't stay that way. He was getting frustrated again, but there was nothing he could do until his mind was free.

~ED LA~

It didn't take long before Danny returned taking his clothes off getting into the bed behind Ethan. He wrapped his arm around him taking Ethan's hand in his sliding his fingers between Ethan's. "I'm all yours," he said holding onto Ethan as tight as he could.

"I had a nightmare while I was sleeping on the couch alone," Ethan said feeling safe with Danny's arms around him. He didn't understand why it was the past he was remembering the most. It was those memories that haunted him right now. He was starting to think it was because Kali said Deucalion would force him to submit. He never wanted to go back to those days of being helpless. "It's not about what Kali did, but it's related," he said feeling even colder at the moment. It might have been the pain from her giving him the beat down, but it wasn't what had him running here.

Danny could hear the pain and sadness in Ethan's voice. He had never heard Ethan like this before, not even the other day when he'd talked about what Kali had said to him. He kissed Ethan's neck not saying anything knowing Ethan would go on when he was ready. He would do anything to take away what the man he loved felt. He wished he could go back and save the little boy that had lost so much. He wanted to stop what had followed once Ethan's parents were gone.

"There was this teenager my age I liked when I was thirteen almost fourteen. I knew then that girls or women did nothing for me since I was twelve. It was one night that our former alpha was too busy with one of his women. He hadn't locked Aiden and me up that night. We had stayed off his radar all day just hiding out so he wouldn't notice us." Ethan said taking a breath feeling Danny nuzzling his neck. It wasn't the nuzzle that he felt during sex. It was a comforting one that he was taking in. "I snuck off with the other pack mate,"

"I'm guessing it didn't go like you planned?" Danny asked rubbing circles over Ethan's body wanting him to feel better.

"No," Ethan said turning so he was facing Danny. Danny was the first person he had truly loved, but his first crush and lust had been his former alpha's son. "It did at first; it was how I kept sane when I got beat down. I thought of how I felt with him." He said not hearing a skip or murmur of Danny's heart at the knowledge he wasn't his first crush.

~ED LA~

He told Danny about them going to the river that ran past where they were staying. It was the first kiss he'd gotten and it had felt right. They had kissed mostly at first, but let their hands roam since neither had done anything else. He had known it was stupid, but he had taken the risk because he liked him. He told Danny how they had taken their clothes off just planning on looking at the other while they jacked off. They'd gotten hard grinding together while kissing and touching each other.

They had ended up jacking each other off instead. They had kissed to keep from howling in pleasure as they got close. It hadn't ended their though because they'd gone for a swim together. It was chili out, but they'd been hot so the water felt good. Aiden had been looking out for them so they had thought they had more time. They'd messed around in the water experimenting with touching and more kissing. They had gotten off a second time in the water grinding against each other. After they had gotten out of the water they just laid on the bank drying off while their hands did most of the moving then. Aiden had woken them up close to dawn after they fell asleep cuddled up together.

It had gone on for four months not just the one night. It was the nights that their alpha spent with what he thought of as his first crush's mom. Aiden always said boyfriend, but he didn't feel as deeply for Nick as he did Danny now. He didn't want to hide stuff from Danny and Danny had told him about his first boyfriend. It was hard thinking back then since he had pushed it so far down. However, he needed to get it out before it ate him up. Before it had gone bad he had spent two nights a week with Nick. If he got really lucky it was three and Aiden never cared that he lost sleep those nights. He had given him those two or three nights to be happy in all the hell they lived in. He just couldn't remember if Aiden had ever gotten to be happy then.

They had kissed, made out, touched each other and it had been good. They both had liked each other and had snuck off once for a real date. It had been to a movie and they had almost been busted. However, Nick had covered saying he wanted to take him out to show him this girl he liked. Nick's dad hadn't known he was gay and he kept it that way til they were caught later on. He had wanted to tell their alpha that he was with his son. However, Nick had put so much pressure on his arm he thought it was going to snap. He had kept his mouth shut not saying a word. It wasn't the only time Nick had kept him from getting his ass beat down.

Ethan told Danny about the first time they had sex. He'd given Nick him as his birthday present since he was a year older that night. It was only by a couple of months, not a real year older, but Nick had asked him. He hadn't known the difference in what was right or wrong anymore. He was constantly beaten and punished for stuff he didn't even do.

Nick had snuck into the cellar at times given Aiden and him food. It wasn't a lot, but it was more than the scraps they had gotten that day. Nick tried helping them so many times that it had gotten too close at times. He had blocked Nick out for so long, but he knew they shouldn't have crossed that line that night. It was how things finally got screwed up and the happy ended completely.

~ED LA~

"The night after I had sex with him we met up again," Ethan said nuzzling Danny's chest listening to his heart beating. "It was almost four months after we had started sneaking around,"

Aiden had been on guard that night watching over Nick and him. They had been lying on the river bank together after a swim. They were in the middle of making out and Nick had been using his tongue to open him up. They were going to wait til his birthday for him to be the bottom. Nick just wanted to make him feel good after he'd been abused most the day by their alpha. He almost hadn't made it to the river, but Nick had asked to have his friend, him, freed. Their alpha worshiped his son since he was the only one he had. The rest of his children were daughters, but he kept trying to get another son. He had stopped giving a damn about his son that night he found out what they were doing.

Nick was nothing like the bastard and it showed in how much he cared. Nick had been the one good person in the pack. He'd never done anything, but care about Ethan; it was why he had let him go. He went back to telling Danny about what had happened next after he had found his release thanks to Nick's mouth and fingers.

"His dad found us because he got suspicious at Nick wanting us out. He said if he'd asked for Aiden first he wouldn't have thought twice. It was that he asked for me then Aiden that made him think," Ethan said glad that Danny was loved by his parents for being his self.

He told Danny that Aiden had landed beside them bleeding with claw marks down his torso. He had been so blissed out from what Nick had been doing he hadn't felt Aiden's pain. Nick had tried protecting him, but his dad had beaten Nick down too. Ethan had been making sure Aiden was okay before he'd tried fighting the bastard. He'd already been hurt so he wasn't a match for him.

"I was thrown in the cellar when we got back to the house. He chained me so I couldn't really move. I had been beaten even more than before and he'd broken my leg so I couldn't escape," Ethan said feel like the pain was back in him now.

He had been left there for days not even Aiden could get to him because of the mountain ash. The emissary of the pack had put it around the door. He wanted the memories to go away, but he had to get it all out. He hoped it would help with the pain if he told why he felt so broken now. It had only gotten worse from that night on and he had heard Nick's pleads to let him go. It had only resorted in Nick being beaten and it had been in front of him. He'd been chained their helpless watching Nick be punished for liking him.

He'd begged for Nick to stop being punished, but it hadn't helped. They hadn't thought of his punishment yet so he had watched for almost a week while Nick got beaten down. Nick had told him he didn't blame him for what happened. He hadn't known then, but he thought now that Nick had done it out of love. Like Aiden had done for him by letting his self be raped over and over. What had happened then had triggered Aiden's hate for anyone that loved him again. It had taken time to get Aiden to like Danny. He saw it was nothing like the past though and figured out he wouldn't leave him for Danny.

~ED LA~

"They finally thought of a punishment after almost killing Nick the last time they'd beat him," Ethan said.

Danny moved his hand over Ethan's arm before tilting his head up looking in Ethan's eyes. He could tell how broken Ethan felt right now and understood why Kali torturing him had taken him back there. He hadn't known that it wasn't just Aiden that Ethan had the guilt for. It was clearly Nick too even though he didn't know if Nick was alive or dead now. "They should never have hurt you like that. I'd give anything to make it up to you or take the memories away," he said tracing Ethan's jaw with his thumb.

"It's what Aiden told me for hours after they finally thought of a punishment. I blocked it out until I saw it running through Aiden's mind. I had forgotten all about Nick too even though he tried saving me, us a lot," Ethan said looking back at Danny. He might have even loved Nick, but it was Danny that was his forever. "You do make things better, Danny. You make every day so much better when I'm with you." He didn't want Danny to think he did appreciate all that he did and had done for him. Danny was what got him through everything that made him feel like he wanted to curl up and die.

Ethan continued telling Danny what had happened after they had dragged him from the cellar with a collar and chain around his neck. He had thought they were going to beat him again since he had healed over mostly. It was what their alpha enjoyed humiliating a pack member. Most of them didn't fall out of line after one lesson with the bull whip that their alpha loved. He told Danny he had been strung up countless times for just looking at the bastard wrong. He'd strip the person down and beat them front and back. Male or female it didn't matter and he'd make it hurt. He had loved it and got off on it, literally cumming from the pain he had inflicted on them countless times.

"It wasn't what he planned on doing through and I had no way of fighting back. He did something worse than actual torture." Ethan explained, "He jerked me to my knees holding my head so I was looking right in his eyes. He forced me to submit that night,"

Danny could feel his own tears watching the ones that were threatening to fall from Ethan. "I would never agree to the killing anyone, but I am glad you killed the bastard," Danny said not bothering to keep the anger from his voice at what they had done to Ethan. He couldn't image having that done, but he thanked who ever had kept Ethan alive. "No one deserves that, please tell me it stopped at some point?" he asked hoping that it hadn't been every night.

~ED LA~

"I shut down after that night. I almost gave up on the will to live, but Aiden begged me not to give up. It was the night that our roles shifted, he became the big brother. Every night he locked me in the closet of our room before our alpha came. Nick always warned him when his dad was coming. He wanted to do more than just warn us, but he was constantly hurt as well," Ethan said reminded of hearing Nick screaming.

He had heard him beg for it to stop, but he knew what was happening to him. It was the same treatment that he had gotten that first night before Aiden traded places. He could remember almost dying after he had been fucked so many times. He had lost count of how many went inside of him. The worst was being told over and over it was his fault. He had been called names and they'd clawed into him before releasing all over him. He'd choked and almost stopped breathing from being forced to take it. One time during that night they had forced Nick to fuck him. Nick had tried not letting it hurt, but he'd already been abused. Nick hadn't sped up even when they kept beating him trying to make him. It was nothing compared to what they had done to Aiden though. He'd gotten it one long miserable night, Aiden got it for a year.

"Aiden never made a sound just took it until they got bored and left him. I begged him to just let me take the abuse. I was supposed to take care of him. He said it's what brothers do and he would be okay." Ethan closed his eyes against the tears knowing that it had come so close to happening again with what Kali had done to them. "Kali said she'd done the same thing if she had a dick," he had never been so glad the bitch was female in his life.

"It was his way of showing you he loved you. They shouldn't have done it to either of you. You're just as protective of Aiden as he is of you. You let Nick go free instead of killing him like the others. I might have thought Aiden was annoying at first, but I'm glad you had him," he didn't want to think about what might have happened if Ethan wasn't a twin. His heart was aching as it was thinking about the kind of love it had taken for Aiden to do what he had.

"I don't want him to ever do that again. I couldn't take it if Kali broke him the way our alpha tried. I was broken then, being forced to submit took my free will for so long. It's why he locked me in the closet so I wouldn't lay there and let him have me." Ethan said holding onto Danny like a life line. "She ordered him to kill you, me to kill Lydia. I didn't know if I had the strength to over come it. I don't understand why she came after us though. She thought Derek had killed Ennis, but she came after us. All I wanted was to be back here safe not watching my brother almost die for something I had wanted," Aiden had taken the abuse for what he had done with Nick.

"You're safe, Aiden's safe and it won't happen again," Danny said against Ethan's ear holding onto his boyfriend. If they were any closer they would be sharing a body. He made circles on Ethan's back knowing it was the only way he could comfort him. He couldn't take the memories away or the way Ethan felt at the moment. "I don't have an insight to her brain, but maybe losing the person she cared for broke the last of her humanity," Danny didn't know what Kali was like before, but it was the only thing he could come up with. He wasn't making excuses for the monstrous bitch, but it was a theory. "If I lost you, I know I wouldn't want to get over you at all. I love you."

"I love you too." Ethan replied before closing his eyes clinging to Danny like a life line.

He felt some of the weight lifted off of him. He also felt like he was going to be okay. He knew that Erica, Boyd and Cora were safe like Nick was. He hadn't thought about Nick in forever it seemed. He'd blocked him out just like he had the memories of what happened to him. They came flooding back with what happened with Kali and loving Danny. In a way it was like when he had liked Nick.

However, it was different too because of so many aspects being changed. Danny was the one he was supposed to be with. Danny had saved him from going into a level he never wanted to be in. He had found out from Cora that Nick was in Mexico with the pack she had been with. It was all he had wanted to know though not wanting to bring up the past anymore. He had asked Cora not to say anything about where he was. He didn't want to have Nick show up here for some reason. Danny was his forever now and he didn't want to go back to a time that hurt at times.

He let everything about Danny lure him to sleep. He hadn't gotten everything out, even though he had about Nick. Aiden had taken the physical part of what their alpha had done. However, Ethan had felt every bit of it too. It was why he had begged Aiden to let it be him. He would have taken the pain, being ripped open over and over, lying in his own blood after being beaten and fucked over and over. He had it done the first time and he deserved it over Aiden.

They had never talked about what Aiden had done. It was one of those things that had gone unspoken after he'd begged Aiden the first night to just let him take the punishment. What brothers do for each other hadn't been the only thing that had been said that night though. He still remembered Aiden apologizing for not saving him in the first place. He'd wanted to give him something normal. He had wanted Nick and him to be happy together. Nick had given him what Aiden couldn't, but he would have done it different. He should have let Nick get them both out of there.

Aiden had always tried to give him normal even took him to his first gay club when he'd been almost sixteen. The week they had gotten out from under the bastard that had tortured them for so long. He had helped Nick escape before he had merged with Aiden. Nick had told them to make his dad suffer the most. He had told Nick goodbye that night and knew he wouldn't see him again. Danny was right in the fact that Aiden had showed he loved him even if he couldn't say it. He needed to talk to his brother, but sleep was going to have to be first. Aiden was safe with Lydia at the moment. He had his own heaven with the girl he knew Aiden loved.

~ED LA~

Danny didn't stop moving his hand over Ethan's back even hours after his boyfriend was asleep. He could feel that some of the tension had left Ethan, but it wasn't all gone. There was more that had to be talk about. He thought it was more with Aiden than him though. He could tell that it ate at Ethan what Aiden had done for him. The fact he couldn't stop what had been taken from him either. Even the guilt from how Nick had been beaten and tortured weighted on Ethan.

He couldn't image Ethan as the broken thirteen year old having his free will taken from him. The way Ethan was now proved that he had broken free. He had gotten out of that cage and done the only thing he could. He had meant every word of what he had said when he told Ethan he was glad the bastard was gone. It had made him want to do the same damn thing to the bastard maybe even shove their werewolf dick down his own throat or in his own ass.

There wasn't much that could make him mad, but he had been lately. Thinking about what the she-wolf had done to Ethan. He'd only wanted to be with him and she'd tried to take it from him. He was grateful that Ethan had fought her command to kill them. Aiden had done the same because he was still alive. Since they had woken up Aiden hadn't shown any kind of hate towards him.

There was still a lot to deal with including Deucalion and Kali if they realized the twins were alive. He knew that it was going to be a blow up and out right fight to the death. He couldn't even imagine how it would go because they said Deucalion was just as bad as Kali. Erica and Boyd were still wanted by the alphas, which was why Cora had taken them with her for protection. He hadn't known anything about where the two had gone or Derek's sister either. It had come up the day before at school when the pack had been talking. Ethan had asked Scott how they were doing in Mexico.

They had already been thought dead just like the twins were by the other two alphas. A pack Cora had stayed with was helping them out. Derek had wanted Cora safe too so they had gone there, but Derek was keeping in contact. Ethan was a wonderful person if he would risk everything to save Erica. Even before he had fallen for him he had a good heart buried underneath all the damage.

~TBC~

EN: Wanted to dive into their former pack some and have Ethan's view point. Just posting this chapter this week. More coming next week so enjoy til then.