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Clare's P.O.V.

The next morning when we went to school I was the happiest that I've been in a long time, and the saddest at the same time. I was so content that I had a boyfriend, but I was sad that my parents were divorcing (My dad was cheating and my mom was drinking all her troubles away), my friends were all drifting apart, and my ex best friend was about to start attacking me.

"Clare, you finally moved on from KC, huh? I always thought you'd stay a virgin until after marriage," Jenna said in a snooty manner.

"What are you talking about? I'm still a virgin," I asked confused.

"Don't try to deny it, I saw Eli driving you to school today, and he was wearing the same stuff as yesterday."

"Look, all you need to know is that we didn't sleep together, the rest is none of your business!" I grabbed my books out of the open locker in front of me, then slammed it shut roughly.

"You shouldn't lie about that, Clare, it's fine. A lot of people your age have sex," She continued.

"Jenna, unlike you, I don't get pregnant from guys I stole from my friends," I said to her before walking away.

It seemed to shut her up, I always knew that information would come in handy someday.

As I got a few yards away Jenna finally came back to planet Earth, "Clare, if you know what's good for you, you'll keep this to yourself," She warned me.

I scoffed, "We'll see."

Who does she think she is? She can't boss me around! It's not like she can do anything to me, right?

As the day progressed I started feeling like people were watching me. When I walked outside I saw all the heads turn and they started whispering instead of talking out loud.

What were they talking about?

I spotted Jenna talking to Alli and could just about make out what they were saying, "I hear I'm not the only one with a bun in the oven. I mean, come on! Did you notice how much weight she gained?" Jenna said staring straight at me.

"Clare? No way!" Alli fought back.

"It's true, this morning I saw Eli and Clare drive to school, and Eli was wearing the same clothes as yesterday. This isn't the first time either. I've seen it before," Jenna gossiped.

I almost burst out laughing. I usually didn't care what anyone said about me behind my back. Alli's face turned even more surprised, if that was even possible. But the part about my weight stung a little. I knew I was fat! She didn't need to remind me all the time.

She came up to me and started shrieking, "Clare! You're pregnant?"

"No, Alli. Feel free to tell Jenna that," I remained calm.

"But Jenna said…" She trailed off confused.

"And you believed her?" I asked.

"But Eli stayed at your house last night, right?"

"Um… Y-yeah," I stammered.

"Oh my God! Clare, you never tell me anything anymore! From now on you have to fill me in on everything! So what happened?" Alli gushed.

And thus began the long conversation with Alli. She kept on asking me questions I didn't want to answer, and I kept trying to avoid the answers. Eventually she found out we were dating and freaked. She stated that she knew all along that we would end up together and KC was a piece of shit.

After school Alli and I caught up at the mall, she told me all about her relationship with Drew and I pretended to listen, but was secretly daydreaming about Eli Goldsworthy.

The afternoon was a lot more fun than it normally was, mainly because I hadn't hung out with Alli in so long. It was the most normal thing I've done in ages. I felt like a normal person. I forgot about my parents and all that stuff, and I managed to ignore the throbbing in my left wrist.

The next day it was Eli who helped me feel normal, a feeling I'd been addicted to lately. After school he offered to take me to the carnival that was in town and I rapidly agreed.

Eli was a good boyfriend, although I've only had two in my life. KC was the perfect boyfriend in the beginning, he would carry my books, pull out seats for me, and hold doors. He would also text me cute messages and give me his jacket. He was so courteous. But after a few weeks the cute small gestures started to fade away into nothing. After months he was less of a boyfriend to me than Wesley was.

Eli was good, in a shy way though. He wouldn't do obvious things like pulling out my chair, well maybe in private he would, but he preferred to do sweet symbolic gestures, like giving me his headphones. I appreciated the way he cared about me.

At the carnival Eli and I walked hand and hand from one activity to another. He'd already won me a giant pink unicorn, I know it's cheesy.

"So is it a boy or a girl?"

"It's a boy," I said to Eli.

"But he's pink! He should totally be a girl," He fought back.

"Fine, he can be a girl. What should I name her?" I gave in.

"You should name her Ellie," He said, so conceited.

"No! I'm not going to name my unicorn after a redhead who used to go to Degrassi," I said playfully.

"No, name her after me. I mean I did use my mad skills to win her for you," He said with a smirk.

"We'll name her Ellie, then," I decided to let him win.

His smirk got wider and I linked arms with him. As we progressed towards the middle of the place Eli got hungry and we took a break at a small stand with a few benches around it.

In the middle of our meal I felt a small tap on my shoulder and I decided to ignore it.

I felt it again and whipped around and stood up, "Declan!" I shrieked.

"Hi, Clare," The rich boy said as Eli followed me up placing an arm around my waist.

"I thought you were in New York."

"I was and I came here to visit Fiona. I just happened to bump into you here."

I felt Eli tense up a lot next to me. I could hear him breathing sharply. Was he jealous? I almost chuckled. His green eyes just got a whole lot greener.

I pulled Declan into a hug, hoping to annoy Eli, "It's good to see you again! It's been a long time,"

When we pulled away he said, "You too. So who's this?" He motioned towards Eli.

"I'm her boyfriend, Eli, who are you?" He asked rudely as I elbowed him in his ribs.

Eli rubbed his side and let out an, "Ow!"

"I'm just an old friend, nice to meet you," He turned to me, "Listen, I have to go find Fiona, I seem to have lost her, I'll see you around. I think I might visit Degrassi tomorrow," He shot me a charming smile.

"Bye, Declan." I smiled sweetly at him.

After he was gone I turned to Eli, "What is wrong with you?" I yelled as I smacked him on the arm.

He frowned, "Geez, what's with all the abuse?"

I tapped my foot impatiently, "Answer my question. Were you jealous?"

"Psh, no," He said unconvincingly.

"Uh huh. Okay," I said sarcastically as we took our seats.

"Think what you want, Edwards," He said as he turned back to his burger.

"I will, Goldsworthy, but don't worry, I've only got one guy on my mind and that's you," I smirked at him knowing it was true.

I looked down at mine before taking a bite. It seemed pointless though, I wasn't even hungry. It was just a bunch of calories. I pushed it away from me, no need for the extra fat. I mean I needed to fit into a pretty dress for the dance. I already ate half of it and it felt gross.

I guess he was rubbing off on me a little. It was hard to not start acting like him, I mean it was just so cute when he did it. In the beginning when I just met him, the way we fought was so childish, it was almost adorable. It was sad that everyone could figure out we belonged to each other so long before we could.

I watched him eat, and leaned my head on his shoulder. As fun as it was catching up with Declan my feelings for him were long gone and replaced by stronger ones for Eli.

"I'm going to go find a bathroom, you wait here, okay?" I asked him.

He nodded in response and I walked to the restroom I saw on the way over here.

I've never tried anything like it before, but I felt so fat and disgusting. I was a giant pig and no one finds that attractive.

I went into the bathroom stall and looked down at the murky water. It was gross, just like my body. I then stuck my finger onto the back of my tongue and applied pressure, and just like I'd seen in movies, the vomit came right after. I puked until all that was coming out was stomach acid.

I took out a wisp from my purse and cleaned my mouth before walking out feeling more confident than I had when I went in. I had my head held high and my chest out. I was almost proud, not that I would admit it to anyone. It was wrong. Even if it did feel really good. I thought back to what Jenna had said the day before, she was right, but she wouldn't be for too long. I was glad that eventually I would be skinnier than Jenna, and Eli would like me more.

When he was done we spent the rest of the day just hanging out and talking about everything. I'd been trying really hard to ignore the topic of his father, but it was just too hard. It was the only thing I could think about and I really needed to get my feelings out.

"Eli, what are we going to do about your father?" I asked, obviously worried.

"We are going to do nothing. I, on the other hand, am going to wait until I can legally move out, and possibly take you with me," He smirked, trying to blow off the subject.

I was flattered that he would even consider taking me anywhere with him, it was so incredibly nice of him, and I was looking forward to it, I mean spending time with him was great.

"I don't think we should wait that long," I said.

"Edwards, don't you think this relationship might be going too fast?" He asked talking about me moving in with him.

I slapped him on the shoulder, "I was talking about your issue with your dad! I mean like you can't keep living with him! What if you get seriously hurt? I would never let myself live with that," I rambled on.

"I mean you need to move out, we could tell the police, you don't have long until you're eighteen, maybe you could even get emancipated or something. I want you to be as safe as possible," I kept going and finally he cut me off.

His soft, supple lips pressed onto mine and I melted at the touch. It was like I was on cloud nine, it was simply just a beautiful kiss. As he started pulling away I used my hand to push his head closer to me as I sank into him.

When we both ran out of air Eli was the first to speak, "I know how to shut you up," He smirked at me.

I grabbed his hand and pulled him to the next attraction I saw.

It was a pretty purple tent with gold lace, it was like velvet. It had an eerie aura. It's sign said Tarot Cards, I was immediately excited and turned to Eli.

"Can we go, please?" I begged.

"One condition," He smirked.

"Anything!" I exclaimed.

"Give me a kiss," His smirk only got bigger.

I leaned up to his face and leaned in for another perfect moment.

Fuck… You guys! Tonight's episode! It was just MAGICAL. I screamed my ass off. It was like the most magical episode yet! They better make up in tomorrow's episode though! It was just so awesome! Stupid Mark Fitzgerald… Ass hole. I mean he's kind of attractive, but he's still an ass hole (Nowhere near as hot as Munro Chambers, though). I just have a thing for bad boys . But Oh my god they were just so cute together! I was like dying all over the place! And by the way Drew, that was an ass hole move, I don't care how hot you are.

Another thing, I watched the Shark in the Water promo again for the five millionth time, but this time I realized just how clever it is. Since it's like the end of the season and I've seen everything, it all just makes so much more sense! I sound really retarded. I bet no one really even reads these author's notes, and I seem really annoying in them, like I know I hate it when the authors leave really annoying long ones, but I can't help it. When it comes to Degrassi I really lose my cool. Hope you give me another chance in the personality department.

Okay, so this chapter was sort of short, I'm sorry but I wanted to update tonight, it's a little later than usual. I didn't really like this chapter too much, tell me what you thought. I was also super side tracked, I was Googling like crazy. Thank you for all the reviews, alerts, and favorites from last night, by the way. I'm super excited for tomorrow's episode! I also really need some ideas for the story, because I'm really running out. So could you give me some help? Please, unless you want this story to end after like fifteen chapters. Because I'm not really the brightest star in the solar system. Okay so please review a lot! I'll love you a lot if you do! Again, sorry for the super long authors note.