I'm so productive right now :D I have already finished the next chapter and I'm not doing anything for the rest of the weekend, so hopefully I can write some more..
Chapter 10
Gaara's POV
I couldn't get his words out of head. I have gone through his arguments over and over again. I just can't accept that explanation, even though I can't seem to find another. I ferociously shake my head. No! It can't be right.
Friendship just doesn't exist. No matter who, everybody will fuck you over when they get the chance. That is how life works, use people instead of being used. Everybody is just selfish. If they think they can get anything out of using you they will without remorse.
Feelings for other people are just an expression. It isn't real. People become friends because the other person has something to offer them, help in classes, money, a higher place in the hierarchy or just because they are bored. People act in their self interest and all they do, is a benefit to themselves. They think they love or need each other. It's only because staying together has become a habit, and they can't adapt to being without is a hypocrite. They talk to you and say they care and want to help. They don't. They just want to seem better. They think helping others make them better humans.
I scowl. I can't trust him. He is just as bad as the rest of them. But... would he really waste all that time everyday, to try and get me talk to him, just so he could use me? Images of Naruto beaming at me, smiling his genuine smile, laughing, talking nonsense nonstop, of him scared and confused. Somehow I just can't see the ill-intention in him or his actions.
He just seems so bright and so expressive. He is the opposite of me. I can always see what he is feeling, just by looking at him. It's all there, in his eyes, his face and his body language. I try to imagine him mocking me, using me. Things he should be capable of, but I just can't. I just don't understand anything. These bonds he is talking about, I have never experienced them. I have never believed in them, but maybe, just maybe, they might be real. I sat down and began drawing. I don't want to think about this anymore.
Naruto's POV
I scowl at the closed door. Why did he have to be like that? But that's kind of what I like about him. He reminds me of Seth. I quivered with delight. I had always wanted to befriend a person like Seth. And I won't let Gaara ruin that. I have decided to let him get some time to think about everything I had said and then I will continue annoying him again afterwards. I went back into my room and began on my homework.
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I look at the clock. Gaara should be here by now. It's 2 am and I'm beginning to get a bit bored. I had eaten with the others, and went back to my room. After some time I just couldn't help myself. I just wanted to see Gaara again, even though I wanted him to have some time to himself. Now I'm sitting here in the corner like always and waiting and I hear the sound of the door opening.
"Hey Gaara" I whisper. I quickly ran to the fridge and found the food I had set aside. He just sat down like before and waited for me to come with the food after I had reheated it.
"So have you thought about what I said?" I look into the table. I was really nervous about this.
"I have" My eyes widened in surprise and I look at him.
"So you found out I'm right?"
"I'm not sure about this." I sigh. I had really hoped he had just said yes
"I want to understand this, so we can continue as before" He said a little unsure. I smiled.
"So you wanna be my friend"
"I didn't say I want to be friends with you, just that I want to understand all this" He was back to his monotone voice again. I didn't care. That was a 'I-wanna-be-your-friend' in Gaara-language.
Gaara's POV
For a while everything was like before. He would come see me in the night and he would talk and talk and talk. I would sometimes give small replies to him while eating. Nothing much had changed except one small, teeni-tiny thing.
The realization that I liked him. That I liked another person. Some annoying blonde who was always pestering me. I sighed. Alright it wasn't that small of a thing. It was huge. It felt huge. It was something I had never thought I would experience.
I still don't know much about these bonds, but he was always talking about them. I think that we are friends now. Unfortunately I like having him around. He just has such a bubbling personality and such vivid expressions. Sometimes I catch myself getting lost in looking at them all.
I hope you enjoyed this chapter as well. Gaara is finally beginning to soften up :3