Well, hello there, long time no see... Sorry about that! :/ :) Hope you don't hate me.. :D So anyway, I'd like to thank all who have read and reviewed, it means so much to me, to know that my work is appreciated. Thanks guys, really (:

DISCLAIMER: I own Twilight just as much as I am Taylor Lautner's girlfriend... And since I don't like in the US, I believe that is highly unlikely.. Dammit... :(

Previously: He felt like the proud father when Bella got home from school with the one perfect test after the other. Zero mistakes in all of them. Bella was the sunlight of the family, the one that brought them all happiness and change for the better. Carlisle truly loved her.

~~~~time passing, Bella is 12 :D~~~~

BPOV

My family was great. When I beat Emmett in Guitar Hero, I felt so proud of myself. His face was priceless, I'm so happy Alice had foreseen the moment and filmed us.

Everytime Emmett got a little too cocky or annoying, I would run the tape and he would shut up immediately. It was genius.

I remember the very first time I went back to school after years of homeschooling with Esme. Alice had asked me if I wanted to do so when I was about 7, but it got more and more postponed. Mostly, because I was afraid. What if I would get bullied again? I hadn't forgotten what they said to me. I hadn't forgotten what had caused me to run away from them, from my home, from Ms. Kim and Kenney the bus driver. But I had never made such a good decision in my life. Who knew if I would have ever met the Cullen's - my family - if I had stayed? Who knew what would have happened to me? I didn't and I was grateful I didn't find out.

Around my 11th birthday, Emmett started teasing me more. I loved him all the same, he was just so annoying. Hitting puberty really sucked because that was why Emmett started teasing me. I just teased right back. But hitting puberty also sucked because I started getting a crush on Edward. And he was 17, even though he would be so forever, and he would never look at me like that. It really sucked because both Alice and Jasper knew. Alice because of her stupid visions and Jasper because of his stupid empathy. Sometimes it sucked living with gifted vampires. Luckily, Edward couldn't read my mind, and for that, I was forever grateful. It would have been so embarrassing of he found out. I had made Alice and Jasper swear they wouldn't say. Not even to Emmett and Rosalie. Especially Emmett. He wouldn't let me live it down. And it was just a crush. I started seeing Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie and Alice more as brothers and sisters. I stopped calling them aunt and uncle when I was about to be 9. Carlisle and Esme were still mom and dad; Charlie hadn't felt like my dad since I was 4.

But Edward never really felt like a brother. Perhaps it was because of my little crush. All I knew was that I blushed a whole lot more when I hit puberty, and used that as an excuse everytime Edward said something nice to me. I blushed when they all said something nice, so I was safe on that part. Mom seemed to know what I was feeling, and I didn't like that one bit.

On my 11th birthday, I got a diary along with some other things. I just remember the diary the best, because I had been writing in it ever since. My fears and feelings. My thoughts and secrets. It sucked big time when Emmett once read it. I had written down everything I felt about Edward. Just not his name in case somebody *cough-Emmett-cough* read it. I was so thankful that I hadn't written down the name. But Emmett still teased me like I have never been teased before, it was so embarrassing!

"Bella has a crush, Bella has a cru-ush!" He sang for days for the whole family to hear. I blushed every single time one of them even smiled at me, or gave me knowing looks. I screamed and screamed at Emmett because he had read it, and Esme pointed her finger at him, saying he shouldn't do it, but he still teased me. It wasn't until my awesome-sister Rosalie smacked him on the head that he stopped. I was forever in debt for that one. Though, he would still bring it up now and then.

When I started in school again, it was in 6th grade. I was smarter than the whole class, and it was so, I don't know, embarrassing I guess. The tests were too easy for me, and I had to get harder stuff. It was still easy. But I learned to live with it, and I got some good friends. None of them wanted to go to my place though, because I lived with the Cullens. They were afraid of them for some reason I have yet to understand. Okay, so Emmett had an impressive size, but he was as soft as cheesecake. And Rosalie and Alice was so beautiful it hurt to be near them, but they were the best sisters in the world. I just didn't get it, but I was happy that they invited me to their places though. I had never had many friends, but I got some really good ones. I never told anyone of them about my family; I would never betray them like that.

Since I came into the family, we had moved once. We moved to Detroit, and it was here I came to school. The Cullen's adopted me for real in Detroit, so I was a Cullen on paper as well as in my heart. It was the happiest day of my life.

What sucked though, was, that everybody could hear and smell me. When I was sick and had to throw up. When I had to go to the bathroom. When I was crying. When I freaked out. And Jasper could even feel it when I freaked out and cried. That was the only negative sides. And the fact that I talked in my sleep, and they didn't sleep, at all. They could all hear me, and when I had nightmares, they were all in my room to comfort me.

As I grew older, it got harder to think of my past; why I lived with the Cullen's in the first place. My nightmares grew more and more horrible and there came more and more of them. It was always about Charlie, and when I woke up, it was only Esme, Alice or Rosalie that could calm me down. I wouldn't let any of the boys near me, not even Edward and Carlisle either. I knew he was like my dad, but I was just so afraid that they would become like him, even though it was irrational. I always apologized again and again because I knew it hurt their feelings, but I just feared so much that even Jasper had a hard time. His calming waves had no effect on me when I woke up from such a nightmare. Carlisle said it had something to do with me becoming older, that I had a harder time dealing with it from when I was younger. It came as my mind developed and I became more mature. It was natural I would feel like it, he said. But I still felt bad.

I and Emmett's prank wars were the best. He should have never let Rosalie teach me about cars and motors; I got good at it, and managed to change his horn's honk to play Barbie Girl in his jeep. He found out when he was in a line and he honked at the slower car in front of him. He didn't find that so amusing. Of course, Rosalie had helped me with that one, but she thought he deserved it after he read my diary. Then he could learn not to prank the master. I also learned how the play the guitar; mostly because I had practiced the hand moves so much with Emmett in Guitar Hero; I know it's not at all like playing a real guitar, but I got faster and faster to play the guitar that followed with the game and eventually, I tried a real one. It sounded horrible in the beginning, but I became good at it. Sometimes Edward and I even played for the family. They said it sounded really good, and of course I blushed at that.

When my nightmares just kept on coming, I learned to trust the guys again. I always trusted them, yes, but it was harder when I had my nightmares in the back of my mind.

But the dad, my brothers and Edward (there it is again, I just can't think of him as my brother. Stupid crush) showed me I had nothing to fear, and that they understood fully. They talked to me, and I realized that I was being as foolish as I could be of course they wouldn't harm me. They loved me. I realized my dreams were just dreams, and that nothing like that would ever happen to me again.

They didn't fail on me, when my trust failed them.

That just shows what a great family I have.

Sooooo... what'd'ya think? :D Bella has a cru-ush! Aww! :P Tell me what ya think, please? ;)

- Lu