Chapter 10

He had finally got her back in his room and they had just sat on the bed for what seemed like forever without either saying anything.

Peyton sat there staring at the floor while Lucas sat there watching her, not sure what was going to happen.

He was the first to break the silence

"Peyton, What did you want to talk to me about?"

"I am so sorry Luke i have ruined everything for you and now i am about to do it all over again, I don't blame you for hating me cos i hate me"

The tears started to form in her eyes and she did everything she possible could to stop them from escaping.

"Peyton you are not making much sense"

"I have to go back to LA Luke" She blurted it out not knowing how else to tell him.

He looked at her shocked then he turned and focused his eyes on the floor.

"When" Was all he could manage to say.

"Soon... On Wednesday" Peyton could tell by the way he was sat she had just broken his heart, he looked defeated. She couldn't sit there and watch him break down she stood up and walked towards the door.

"I'm so sorry"

"Please Peyton don't go"

She wasn't sure if he meant don't leave the room or don't go back to LA, either way those words made the tears start to fall from her eyes and roll down her cheeks.

"What?"

"Please don't go"

"I have to go Luke i need to get back to work"

Lucas looked at her with tears rolling down his face just as they were on hers.

The look in his eyes made her want to run to him and hug him like she would have done when they were in high school but instead she just went and sat back on the bed and they sat together and cried.

"Don't take our daughter away from me again i have only just started to get to know her" He said quietly between sobs.

It broke Peyton's heart to see him like this and knowing it was her that was causing him so much pain just made it that much harder. But she could not stay in Tree Hill much longer, it killed her seeing him with Grace and knowing they could never be a family.

"Luke you can still see her, we will sort out her coming here and you can always come to LA to see her, I know you don't want to lose her but i promise you i will always do everything i can to make sure you have contact with Grace. I don't know what else to say or do Luke"

"You could always move back here... im sure you could run Tric again if you are worried about your job" Lucas looked up at her with a hopeful look in his eyes.

"Its not just that Luke, my life is in LA now i cant just up and leave it all behind"

"Why not thats what you did three years ago i thought you were a pro at it" Lucas regretted saying that as soon as it left his lips he could see the hurt in Peyton's eyes.

"I'm sorry Peyt i didn't mean that"

"Yes you did Luke, and i don't blame you, nothing has changed since high school Luke i am always hurting the people i love...its easier if i stay away" Peyton's voice was quiet and full of sadness.

"Sorry, i don't know what else to say but i am sorry for all the pain and misery i have caused you. I have gotta go" She started to get up when Lucas pulled her back.

"I don't understand Peyton you come her to tell me i have a daughter then a week later you are here telling me you are taking her away from me again, please explain to me whats going on"

"I already told you, Brooke told me to come back and tell you, so i did and now i have to go home"

"So the only reason you came here was because Brooke told you to? So if she hadn't then i still wouldn't know i have a daughter?

He didn't give her chance to reply.

"Do you know what hurts me the most? The fact that we were so close i felt like i could tell you anything and you wouldn't judge me and i thought that was the same for you but it obviously wasn't, i understand it must have been hard when you thought i was with Brooke but wasn't there any point in the past three years that you could call me or write me a letter to let me know you had my child, I thought you were the one person who knew me better than anyone else, you knew how much i wanted to have kids and to be a good dad unlike my own father, but you took that away from me and now you are doing all over again."

Peyton was now crying so hard she couldn't see properly, she knew he was right she screwed up, and she didn't know what else to say except;

"I'm sorry" With that she turned and left and this time he didn't come after her.

Peyton walked as fast as she possibly could to get away from the man she loved not being able to watch the pain she was causing him, she always thought he wanted Brooke, he always chose Brooke over her, he said he was the man for Brooke Davies, she thought she would just be in the way if she had stayed so she did what she thought Lucas would have wanted she left so he could be with Brooke .

Peyton walked for a little while trying to compose herself before she went back to her daughter she didn't want her to see her like this, when she walked through the door Grace was sitting watching tv and Larry was in the kitchen she went in to her dad and he knew straight away the talk had not gone well.

"Peyton, sweetheart come here"

She walked over to her dad and they just stood there hugging each other.

Lucas led back down on his bed letting the tears flow freely. It had hurt him so much when she left Tree Hill without saying goodbye, but at that moment he wanted nothing more than to chase after her and kiss her and tell her he still loved her and hold onto her for ever never letting her go again.