Previously:

"I'm telling you that you won't find anything in the library. But, since you are all insistent that we try to find another way, we'll look in the Book of Anubis. If you need me to I'll translate out loud each page and we can take notes. I can't guarantee anything, but you all have hope in a situation where I have none." I say as if I've lived for a very long time.

"You're talking weird again." Amber says, which diffuses the tension and it makes me laugh.

"Sorry, habits die hard." Which makes everyone laugh.

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My hopelessness against the rise of the monster in me has me on edge. Considering my visions and the insistence of my friends to find a way to save me, my emotions on the matter is something I need to deal with and soon. Aside from my personal turmoil, the Sibuna's have started their search in the library. A day has past since the collection of the staff and know for a fact that the rest are either looking for a way for me to keep me from going berserk or mentally preparing for the days ahead. I've also noticed that they've been keeping a closer eye on me and take shifts as if I need a watch. I don't mind to be honest. Most would find it annoying or creepy, but it shows that they all care, including the newer members that I haven't really gotten to know. At least once, each of them have taken turns staying with me. It's refreshing, but has also made me realize something. My years gone and the trauma that I've been through have taken a toll on me. It's weighing me down. It also made me realize another part of the riddle. "...don't fall for the lies of Set." My battle with the side of me that I repress really shouldn't be a battle. My helplessness against what I can't control is a fear playing into his plans set for me. The fears and the hate for a very big part of me, shouldn't be something I fight. I need to accept. I will need to use the spell and go into my mind again. If I am to accept me for who I am now, I need to be able to accept my past. As well as my future. Realizing what I need to do, I look to KT, who is on watch. I should show them the meditation ritual first, it should at least keep them grounded, even if it hasn't worked for me in the past.

"Hey KT, I'm going to go up to my room and call a meeting. Care to accompany me to my room?" I say as we get up from the living room couches. We were reading books as I had my revelation.
"Sure, care to tell me what the meeting is about?"

"I've done some soul searching so to speak. As well as, reading the riddle. I came upon a epiphany of sorts. I also wanted to teach you guys a meditation ritual as a thank you for keeping an eye on me." We walk at a calm pace up the stairs as I explain.

"Oh, well that's great then!" She smiles at me, its a little restrained and I know exactly what she's feeling.

"I know that look. You think that because you are the new one that you'll be forgotten from the picture once everything comes to a head." Her eyes flash with surprise and then she looks at me a bit sheepishly.

"I knew that you were observant, but not that observant. It is a fear of mine, yes. I also just don't want to get in the way. I feel like this stuff that's happening doesn't really pertain to me and I'm just here for the ride. Like I'm just here as someone in the background." She looks down as we stop in front of the door. I take her hand.

"Let me tell you as someone who thought the same exact way. Everything has it's purpose. It may not feel like you do, or that your adventure is done and over and you have to make room for the new or the old. But, this war will not be the case. It'll take everyone. Including you. Every member of Sibuna has a purpose in this upcoming war we all wage with chaos. I know that it may seem like I or the other may take the forefront, but I know that this feeling of mine will prove that you and the others have equal purpose." I pause and realize that she's tearing up a bit. I pull her in a hug.

"I sound like a fortune cookie. This speech pattern is troublesome. It also makes me feel a lot older than I actually am." The random comment makes her laugh, and in turn makes me laugh.

Laughing into my room, she pulls me into another hug. After another fit of laughter, I call the meeting. As the group comes trickling in, I feel myself relax. A feeling that I haven't felt in awhile.

"Hey guys, before I tell you my news, I wanted to say thank you. I know that you have taken upon yourselves to be my watchers. I honestly appreciate it. As my thanks, I want to teach you guys a mediation ritual that I've been told helps relax and ground you. My hope that it works with you guys. I haven't had much luck." I say as I sit on the ground with them.

I tell them to follow my movement and slowly ease them into the meditation. It's been a few hours now, and it seems to be working for them. Although the one thing I can't explain to any of them is the slight glow to each of them I see. Each with a little bit different color, a gold with a swirling color. It's fascinating and beautiful. They all slowly come out of their trances as the glow fades from each. A relaxed expression on each of their expressions. Next is the hard part.

"Was that helpful?" Asking as a ice breaker to the silence. I hear a few "yes" from some and then a few head nods.

"I know that you had something else you wanted to talk to us about, Nina. What is it?" KT asks for the group.

"Yes, during the last day and a half, I've been doing some soul searching. As I was doing my contemplating, I stumbled upon a answer for part of the riddle. "Find the representation of power, but don't fall for the lies of Set. Combine all three and find the answer you seek. Fail to do so, the magic of Set will be your doom." The magic of Set isn't something that's going to manifest here in the physical realm. It's here and here." I point to my head and heart.

"It was mainly talking about me, but I do know that because of my connection, you guys will be eventually tested by the magic too. I don't know in what way, but it will happen in the next four days as we wait for the battle." Before I could continue, Patrica spoke.

"The magic of Set... its your dark side isn't it? You brought us to tell us more about it didn't you?"

"Yes and no. Yes in a sense, because you'll see it fully manifested. No because it pertains more to me and the fact that you all have noticed my outbursts and violent behavior. My magic's connection to my emotions. My darker side is still apart of me and the fact that it's a physical manifestation of my negative emotions is proof of that. For me to not fall into the traps Set has laid out, I need to face my past in order to be prepared to face the present and future."

"So, what are you saying? That you need to accept both parts of you? That because of the inner turmoil, it would give Set a opportunity to cause us to fail the mission?" Amber says, quickly with understanding and excitement.

"Yes. That's exactly what I'm saying. My acceptance of the past will be the start of that."

"Alright, what do you need us for?" Alfie asks.

"I need you all to watch my body as I dive into my mind and deal with my demons." A determination fills the room as they look excited for my progress and slight fear of what's in store for them when they meet the other half officially.

"Alright I'm going to start now, but I will give you all protection talismans and put a protective barrier around me." I hand out the little slips of paper and put the spell up.

Here we go. I sigh and dive into my mind.
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Hey guys, long time no see. I'm actually writing :) I'm trying to at least update all of my stories within the next few days so if you follow some of my other stories, I thank you for your continued support as I've been struggling to get content out for you guys.