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I usually try to update once a day. But this chapter came out so easy I figure I may as will put it out now. Please review. I'm kinda running in the dark on this story.

Chapter 10

Embry POV

I walked in and the stench hit me. It was one I would never forget. The smell of alcohol and Edward Cullen. Bella was lying on the couch staring at me. I thought it was a simple question. Her shirt was torn off of one shoulder. Her hair was a mess. Her lips were puffy. Almost bruised.

"Answer me Bella."

"He, he stopped by."

"He stopped by?" I asked her walking closer. I had a need to make sure my Mate was uninjured. I had to touch her.

"Yeah, he stopped by. I handled it."

"You handled it? Why are your clothes torn Bella?" I stopped and grabbed her face. I sniffed and smelt him on her lips. His hand on her face. I could see the bruises where his fingers touched her face.

"He kissed me okay? I didn't kiss him back! I told him to leave. He left! End of fucking story!"

I have always thought of myself as a level headed guy. So the red haze clouding my vision was somewhat of a surprise.

"He kissed you?" I whispered.

"Yeah. I told him to leave and he kissed me. He threw me on the fucking couch and wouldn't let go until I screamed. You going to go kill him now Embry? Isn't that how everything is settled in the supernatural world. You kill each other?"

"He touched what is mine?"

"Yeah, and I'm yours so let it go. It's not worth anymore violence. I am not worth anymore violence."

"He touched you." Why could she not see this?"

"So what?"

"He forced himself on to you."

"Yes. On me Embry. So I am telling you to drop it. Do not be getting in fights with vampires over me. If it was Mike Newton I would say kick his ass but…"

"But it's your ex-boyfriend. Your first love. And he can do what he pleases, is that it?"

"What did you say?"

"You heard me just fine. Your ex-boyfriend comes in, you invite him in, he has his way with you and I'm not supposed to do anything about it. It's no big deal? Is that what you are saying?"

"This has nothing to do with being my ex-boyfriend."

"Doesn't it Bella?"

BPOV

I can't believe he said that. He is insinuating that I am protecting Edward? Because I don't think anyone's lives need to be ended?

"I can smell him all over you. He did more than kiss you. He was on your couch."

"Yeah he threw me on the couch. So what? I'm okay. He had a momentary lapse of control. At least he didn't bite me."

"I'm surprised he didn't. Maybe he felt like he didn't need to right now. Maybe he figures you will come willingly enough. Maybe there is no reason for him to bite you now. Why did you invite him in Bella? He didn't break the door down. He just about ripped your top off and placed his scent all over you but no door was broken down. You've been drinking."

Oh God no he didn't.

"So let me get this straight. I was drunk. Edward showed up. I let him in. Then I sat there while he had his way with me? Is that what you are saying?"

"Is that what happened Bella?"

"I can't believe you asked me that."

"You haven't been exactly honest lately have you?"

"I never lie to you!"

"You lie everyday about your drinking. And you lie about therapy. I ran into your therapist the other day in Port Angeles where I was looking to buy you an apartment warming gift and he mentioned to me that he hasn't seen you in 5 weeks. I thought you said you were going every week."

I lit a cigarette and noticed my hands were shaking. I don't know if I was scared or angry. But they wouldn't stop shaking.

"Get out."

"What?"

Did I just say that? Yes I did.

"Get out."

"No we are going to settle this now."

"You going to force yourself on the human just like the vampire did, wolf man? Go ahead. I can't stop you anymore than I could stop him. You want me to control my life but how can I? I'm at everyone else's mercy. Everybody wants me. Nobody wants me. Everybody wants Bella. Their Bella. You want the sweet naïve heartbroken girl you fell in love with. The Cullens want the Bella who needs a family and who can't stand on her own and trips over her own feet. The one who relies on them for safety and security. Edward wants the Bella he fell in love with when she moved to Forks. The 17 year old girl who had never had a boyfriend. Charlie wants to make up for 17 years of not being there by wanting me to be his little girl. The Pack wants me to be their Alpha's imprint. Strong silent Bella. The woman behind the wolf. Who bakes fucking muffins and feed the goddamn boys their lunch and tells them how fucking brave they are! I'm fucking sick of it! I'm sick of you! Get the fuck out of here. You need to be around your imprint? Sleep outside my window for all I care but don't come back into my place again! Ever! We are fucking over!"

I realized I was yelling. I was screaming. But he never said a word. He just stood there.

I collapsed on the couch and closed my eyes.

"I'm not leaving Bella. I don't care what you say."

"Then you are no better than Edward Cullen."

I just said that. I opened my eyes and he was gone. I heard a howl nearby. Almost outside my window.

I managed to run off the last good thing I had in my life. Great. Mission accomplished Bella. You are completely a bitch. No sarcastic remarks? Can't think of any. Now I just have to drink enough courage to do for myself what I have been waiting on someone to do since I arrived in this hell hole of a town.

Embry POV

I heard a knock on my door. I could smell it was mom but a part of me was hoping Bella had showed up. I never knew I could hurt this bad. It almost made me wish I had never met her. Almost. But nothing could ever do that. If she could only see the woman I fell in love with. The one that is under the depression and rage and alcohol.

"Yeah Mom?"

"What happened?"

"What do you mean?"

"I figured you would be at you and Bella's love shack all night. Why are you here?"

I took a deep breath.

"She kind of kicked me out and said she never wanted to see me again."

"That doesn't sound like Bella. I don't know much in life but I've seen the way she looks at you. She looks at you with complete devotion and love."

"She has changed."

"No she hasn't. She may have forgotten or gotten confused about who she really is but she is still the same person. So what caused the fight?"

"Her ex-boyfriend came by before I got there. Her shirt was torn and she told me he had kissed her and threw her down before she fought him off."

"Charlie is not going to be happy to hear about this." Mom said.

"Yeah well, I doubt Bella will tell him. She didn't want me going after him. She said it was handled by her and she didn't want any violence over it."

"Smart girl."

"You agree with her?!"

"Not for the reasons she probably thinks she has. She thinks she isn't worth it. I think you shouldn't go after it because you need to learn that turning into a giant fucking wolf isn't going to solve your problems all the time."

Yeah that…

"What did you say?"

"You heard me son."

"How, how did you know?"

"I love you. You think I was going to let you start hanging around Sam Uley all hours of the night and not find out what was going on? Fuck Billy Black. I don't give a damn what he says. I was going to find out. So one night I followed you. A doctor who comes and helps at the clinic is a big hunter. He let me borrow a night vision scope. I saw you and Sam and Jarrod turn into big wolves from about 400 yards away. Sorry baby. But there was no way I wasn't going to find out what was going on. You are too important to me."

"You've known this whole time."

"Yep."

"And you kept it from me?"

"Yep. But there are things you are keeping from me. Things you know that you don't want me to know that you know. You know?"

I had to laugh a little. Why I ever thought I could get away with anything.

"I know my legends. The Makah and the Quileute's are close tribes. And I fell in love with the son of a Quileute elder once. I also know that you are Alpha. I can tell. You got bigger and Jake doesn't come around as much to give you crap about Bella. He doesn't come around at all. I saw him the other day at the grocery store with Billy. Both of them looked like their favorite puppy got booted off a cliff. So I'm guessing if you know you are Alpha you know who your father is."

I looked at the ground. "Yes ma'am."

"Embry, can I ask you something about Bella?"

"Of course."

"Did Edward Cullen really kick her down those stairs?"

"No."

"But she was attacked wasn't she?"

"Yep."

"Do you know the details?"

"Some. I know a tracker vampire got a hold of her because he wanted to take what was Cullens. Cullen saved her. That's all the details she really gave. She doesn't like to talk about it."

"Embry when I found out I was pregnant with you, I was so scared. Billy was the future chief and he was married. He told me he would leave Sarah to be with me. His family would be angry. But he didn't care. Two months later he still hadn't left her. He comes over one day and tells me he and Sarah just found out they were having a baby. He begs me not to tell her. He offers me money to stay silent. He offers to set me up anywhere I wanted to go. I told him to go fuck himself. I had you and I raised you on my own. I dealt with the rumors. I dealt with the looks. I wasn't going to tell anybody who your father was, not because I was protecting him. I just didn't want you to have to know you came from that son of a bitch.

But, Embry. I felt worthless. I felt abandoned. I felt like I was nothing to anyone. I loved him. I did. And I hated him. I thought it was my fault. Maybe if I had been better. I don't know. But I started drinking. I started drinking a lot. Every night after I would lay you down I started drinking and wouldn't stop till I passed out. And every day I had to look myself in the mirror and feel worthless."

"What changed?"

"I had a good friend pull me up by my hair and kick my ass. But she could only start me off. I had to learn to love myself. You were the only thing I truly loved in this world. I needed to love myself. The look I saw in the mirror though Embry? The one I had to look at every day? I've seen that look. The same look your Bella has. She been drinking?"

"Yes ma'am. For a while now."

"A lot huh?"

"Yes ma'am."

"Something happened to our girl. Embry. Something happened in Phoenix that was bad. And it got worse when Edward Cullen left. She is most likely an alcoholic. She is probably suffering from PTSD. And probably chronic depression. I ssupect she had that befoer she ever came to Forks. She won't be able to just quit. She won't just get better. It won't be that easy. She hates herself right now. She needs to find herself outside of her love for you."

"I don't think she loves me."

"You really can be stupid. If there is one thing that girl knows it is that she loves you. I know because when I was in her shoes, the one thing I knew was that I loved you. So the first thing we need to do to help her and give her the kick she needs is to find out exactly what happened in Phoenix. I need to know. I have to know what triggered this before I can help her. Then we can help get her back to where she needs to be. But Embry, this is going to be tough. Not as simple as changing into a wolf and fighting vampires. This is going to be tougher."

"Your going to help her?"

"Your damn right I am. She became my problem the moment you decided you couldn't live without her. So yeah. I am defintely going to help her. She loves you. I love her."

"She won't talk about Phoenix."

"No she won't. Not if it is as traumatic as I think it was. Let me see if I remember what Charlie told me. Broken ribs. Laceration to her leg that cut through the femoral artery. Snapped tibula and fibula clean through? I'm guessing by that scar on her wrist she has to look at every damn day that he bit her. The tracker could have drained her dry in seconds. He tortured her. You are strong. Can you imagine what it must feel like to be weak and have that done to you?"

Holy shit.

"No ma'am, I can't. But I mean how do we find out?"

"Easy son. We get in my car and go to the one group of vampires who know exactly what happened. And we ask them."

"Mom we can't go there!"

"Why not?"

"I am not letting you go into a coven of vampires!"

"Please. I told you I know my legends. If Carlisle Cullen were dangerous he certainly wouldn't have been in a hospital for as long as he has been. Besides I have a big damn Alpha wolf with me for a guard dog. What are they going to do?"

"Mom…"

"Do you love her Embry?"

"Yes."

"Is she everything you ever dreamed about?"

"Yes."

"Can you live without her?"

"No."

"Then I can't either. So am I driving or you?"

BPOV

I can't believe I drove out here. I can't believe I made it. Of course the alcohol doesn't have as much affect on me anymore. At least the amount I drank tonight. But I had a fresh bottle of Jack Daniels and a hell of a view of an incoming storm. It was cool from the top of this cliff. You could see everything. Even at night.

I walked to the edge and looked over. And tilted my bottle. I tried to light a damn cigarette but the wind was too bad. Plus it was starting to rain. Here comes the storm.

I had worked down half my last bottle. I would get to the bottom and never drink again. I had to laugh. James couldn't get me. Victoria couldn't get me. Even Laurent couldn't get me. I had out lucked and out lasted them all. And for what? James should have just killed me instead of playing with me. I was supposed to die that day. He was just to fucking stupid to do the job right. Since then, three more vampires have died that will probably start a war between the Cullens and their "Cousins" and get them and wolves killed.

"Hey you! Dumbass pale face sitting in the rain. Yeah you."

I turned around and saw a beautiful Indian woman with a look on her face like she just stepped in dog shit.

"Yeah? What the fuck do you want?" I yelled over the rain and the wind.

"What the hell are you doing out here in this weather? You're going to fall off the damn cliff sitting that close to the edge."

"As far as what am I doing, well I am getting toasted. Want to join me?"

She shrugged her shoulders and came over. I offered her my bottle and she turned it up. My kind of girl.

"Leah Clearwater." She said sticking out her hand. I took it. "Bella Swan."

"Holy shit. You're the Bella Swan that Embry is going out with?"

"We were. We broke up tonight."

"He leave you for your cousin?"

"What? No. I don't think I have a cousin. Don't you have to have aunt's and uncles for that?"

"I was engaged to Sam Uley. He left me for Emily, my cousin."

"I know Sam. I know Emily. She makes a killer fucking muffin." I broke down laughing. None of this was funny but I couldn't help myself. Leah looked at me like I had grown a second head. But then she smiled.

"Yeah, that's what I hear. So you are the Alpha's girl."

"I was. Wait. What do you mean?"

"Embry didn't tell you? My brother and I phased a couple weeks ago. Vampires and all. You know. The Cullens. Your friends?"

"Yeah, one of my friend's nearly raped me tonight and then Embry pretty much accused me of sleeping with him. Anyway we don't talk a lot lately about Pack stuff, even before tonight."

"Ouch. That's a tough one. That doesn't sound like Embry."

"So are you pissed at me? Cause I brought the vampires here and everything? You can push me off the cliff if you want. I won't tell anyone."

"I should be. But the Cullens were here before you came. At least that's the way Embry says it went down. And they came back because of another leech after you. It does seem you attract these things. But nah. I'm not mad at you. Dad says it was meant to be. I'm just glad I didn't phase in front of him. He probably would have had a heart attack. He says we don't phase just because of vampires that are here. If that were the case we all would have phased when the Cullens first arrived. You know I'm the only female shifter in history? Dad thinks something big is coming. Something that is going to justify as many of us phasing. Seth is only 13."

"Damn." I took my bottle and finished it off. I lit a cigarette using my hands and my jacket as cover from the rain.

"So what are you doing out here tonight Swan?"

May as well be honest with her.

"Leah, I have quite frankly had enough. I don't want this anymore."

"You don't want what?"

"Pretty much life in general. Thanks for the talk. It was good to have someone to talk to at the end. Do me a favor would you? Tell Embry I love him and I'm sorry I wasn't enough."

I stood up. I could barely feel my legs under me. I heard Leah say something but I'm not sure what it was. I looked down at the rocks below. I hope I hit one. I really don't want to drown. I took a step. I felt a hand on my sleeve and my jacket was pulled from me as I was falling. And falling I was. I could see the top of the cliff getting farther away. I felt the water. I lost my breath when I hit it. I landed on my back. Damn. I guess I missed a rock. I guess drowning it would be. Luckily I was drunk enough that it felt pretty relaxing. Being here under the water. I had no breath. All I had to do was open my mouth.

A/N

Next chapter, Kay Call meets the Cullens. See you tommorrow.