NOTE: Ya'll better love me for posting so soon. It's not that I'm trying to hurry and end this story (...ok maybe a tiny bit...but like a speck I swear!), it's just that I felt inspired today to write and so that I don't lose the inspiration, I decided to write and post it. FUN FACT!: Chapter eleven and the epilogue were written WAY earlier in the process (like ch. 11 was the first chapter I actually wrote for this fic and the epilogue was written around the time of chapter 6 or something). Hope you enjoy it!

WARNINGS: One more chapter and an epilogue. Slash and language-ish.

DISCLAIMER: Ok kids, what have we learned? I do not own Digimon in anyway possiblle. Ok, class dismissed.

CHAPTER 10. Reaching For My Moon

His eyes. That's what scared me the most. They were full of so much anger and coldness. I thought that it wasn't possible for him to look so…hateful. To me, he'd always been beautiful and angel like. But now, standing before me, the angel had turned into a blood lusting devil.

"Yamato," I finally said. "I…don't understand…"

"You should learn to make up your mind Taichi!" he spat back.

"Make up my mind?"

"You say that you want to be with Sora but you turn around and end up kissing me!"

"…that's why you're upset?" He didn't answer me, but just continued glaring. "I didn't really…mean it you know?"

"So you lied to everyone?" Yamato snarled. "Wolfgang must have been telling the truth when he said he wasn't cheating on Mimi then."

"I wasn't lying!" I snapped back. "He really was cheating on her and now they're not together. I didn't even have to do anything this time for it to happen, it just happened on it's—"

"Wait, what?" Yamato cut off.

"I said, 'It just happened on it's…'" I froze.

"You've been trying to break them up?" Did I really just admit that? Shit. "No wonder Mimi has been so miserable! How could you sink that low? That is terribly selfish of you Taichi!"

"It wasn't for selfishness," I grumbled while lowering my eyes. "I was doing it because I thought you loved her and I—" Yamato let out an irritated growl.

"You are still with that? I told you Taichi to just drop it! It's none of your business and I can deal with it alone!"

"Do you remember what you told me?" I returned his glare, but his eyes held more harshness than mine ever could. "How the last time you went off to deal with something on your own, you were trapped in darkness!" We glared at each other for a moment. I sighed. "I can't…stay mad at you Yamato…I don't want you to be by yourself anymore…"

"Do you really want me to believe you after this?" he challenged. "You either lied about wanting to be with Sora or saying that Wolfgang was cheating."

"Dammit Yamato! Why is it such a big deal to you?"

"Because you lied, Taichi! That's why!"

"I only did it because of you!"

"Don't blame this on me! You're the one who—"

"YAMATO I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU!" Silence. My face flushed as the anger in his eyes turned into surprise. I lowered my head. "I love you…I've been in love with you for a really long time. You're one of the most important things in my life and I just want to keep you happy. No matter what it takes…that's why, when you and Mimi started hanging out more and more together, I immediately assumed that you loved her. I thought I was ok with it…but now I know that I actually wasn't. What I was trying to do…it was stupid and caused a lot of problems." I looked up at him again. "I…I'm willing to fight for you Yamato. I realize that now. I'd do whatever it takes. You're…a part of me Yamato. I don't feel like I am a totally complete person without you." I smiled at him half-heartedly. "You keep me sane from all the craziness of the world. I know that I can count on you with anything. I feel…complete and happy when I'm with you. And…I think that's probably one of the reasons to why I fell in love with you." When he said nothing, the smile vanished. Yamato sighed, folded his arms and closed his eyes. "You…wanna say something?" He didn't. I moved closer to him, and he turned slightly away from me. My heart sank. "You…hate me now don't you?"

When he opened his eyes, they were soft again. He gazed into my own eyes for what seemed like an eternity. Hesitantly, he unfolded his arms and raised his hands to touch my face. I slightly flinched when I felt his cold fingers touch my skin. Part of me wished we could have stayed like that forever…the other part was confused like hell.

"No," he finally whispered. "I don't hate you, Taichi. And I honestly don't like it when we fight." He dropped his hands and turned serious. "Right now, however, I really don't like what you've done." I blinked a few times.

"Well, Wolfgang is a douche bag," I said. "Believe me."

"You don't get it do you?" Yamato growled.

"No. I don't. Quite honestly, I am confused like hell! I'm trying to figure out if you love me or not!" Yamato rubbed his face with his hands in annoyance. "Well Yamato? Do you love me or not?" Another silence. I hated the silence. He uncovered his face and his eyes were hard again. Not necessarily angry like before…just cold and hard.

"How am I supposed to believe you when you've been lying to everyone around you?" he simply said. I opened my mouth to protest, but then closed it. It's true. I had lied to everyone sometime or another that night. I lied to Mimi this past month about Wolfgang. I lied to Koushiro about my sexuality. I lied to Jyou and tricked him into helping me with my stupid plan. I liked to Sora about wanting to be with her the rest of my life. I've obviously been lying to Yamato. And I've even went to the extreme and lied to myself…about everything. "That's what I thought." Yamato started to walk away from me.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"I need time to think," he replied. I immediately went after him and caught on to his hand. He stopped and looked at me.

"Don't go," I pleaded. I hate begging…but then again… "Please?" He shifted his eyes to the ground. He didn't seem too convinced because he jerked his hand away from mine. "Ugh, at least give me an answer then!"

"I said I need time to think," he glared at me again. "Sometimes Taichi, you can be really selfish and impatient!"

"What is the big deal about giving me an answer now dammit?" I hissed. Yamato sighed irritably and shook his head before walking off again. "Yamato! Come on Yamato! Don't be like this!" Yamato turned to look at me. His eyes were filled with anger and hurt.

"Talk to me once you've decided to grow up Taichi," he said. It wasn't angry, or pleading. He was just…saying it. We kept eye contact for a few minutes longer, then he forcefully tore his eyes away from mine and walked off. I stood still and watched as he disappeared into the night.

I was left alone to battle with the many emotions that were running through my body. I was still confused to why the hell he was acting the way he was. I really doubt that it has to do with me lying…I was sad and kind of hurt that he wouldn't answer me right away. Who knows how he really feels about me. I mean…I thought I knew…but now I'm not sure…which kind of pisses me off. What is so hard about a simple "yes" or "no?" You either like someone or you don't. Yamato shouldn't be playing this stupid game where he acts like he likes me for one moment and then the next he is pushing me away and chewing my head off! I groaned loudly to myself and looked up into the sky.

This isn't fair, I complained in my head. Once things look like they're going to turn out right, they end up being shitty. I guess…it is kind of my fault for all of this happening…if I hadn't gotten so involved with what was going on in Mimi's love life…maybe then…

"Where is the moon?" I asked myself. The sky was pitch black, with only a few stars to light up the sky. "Huh. Must be a…new moon tonight…" I turned my gaze back to the place where Yamato had walked off. I slowly raised my right hand…as though trying to reach for him would make him come back to me. But it wouldn't. I dropped my hand in defeat. "Yamato…I'm sorry…" Feeling exhausted and torn in the inside, I sluggishly started to walk home.

I can't help but wonder how the sun feels every time the moon decides to leave it's presence to go out and "think things out." Does he beg him not to go? Does he just let him go? Does he reach for him? I know that I am reaching for my moon. It is hopeless, however, to try and make the moon shine when it was too far away from the sun's rays. So, just like the sun, I would have to wait until the moon made it's full rotation again before it would come back and bring forth a full moon. Until then, I would have to deal with the moonless night sky and wait until he comes back soon…hopefully…

...Meh. I'm not quite satisfied with how this chapter ended up. Maybe it's because I was trying to tie in the name of the fic in this little chapter...but I guess it's better than the first time I ended up writing the ending for the chapter...so I'd like to get your opinion of this chapter. Do you like it? Are you confused anywhere? Please feel free to ask. No flames or bashes please, or else I will have no choice but to roast weenies with the flame of the flame.