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10: the mess I'm in…

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Well strange thing is after from yesterday I don't feel sick anymore. Was it Zero's blood that helped? "How are you feeling?" Ichijou asks as he sits on my bed next to me.

"Better than yesterday if that's what you're asking." I answer in monotone (got that word right!) he sighs and what he says next almost makes me spit out my drink.

"Well the Vampire Society summoned us to the Autumn Social where we're probably being matched."

"What?! When is it?!"

"This weekend and we're leaving at noon so start packing!" he flies out before I can say anything. I glare at him and start packing because chances are we'll be there for a while. I haul my luggage into the van Vampire Society provided and I'm not too fond of being stuck with the whores who live in the Sun Dorm for 6 hours straight. I sit in the middle of the van, draw up my legs to me and stare out of the window. The sun's not even up yet and they expect us to be at the Autumn Social? Who do they think I'll be fine with the person who they pair me up with? I hope it's not with a person like Suko or Kaname, or even a person like Dad who he sleeps with a woman while he waits for a child. I wonder how my real mom was; did she have long chocolate curls like me? Why aren't there any pictures of her at all in the Estate? Why hasn't Dad even mentioned her? I know that I probably never was to find out in the first place but the more I put into it, things don't add up. How was Sakura able to play if off that I was her daughter even though I don't look like her at all?

The van pulls up, we unload our things into the rooms we're allowed to stay in. Everyone gets ready for the social downstairs. I get into a skinny one shoulder dark purple dress and go downstairs.

"My love!" I turn around as Sakura runs to me. She hugs me; she grabs my shoulders and smiles at me, giving me enough space to…

"SLAP!" she grips onto her face that's scarlet from the slap I gave her. "How dare you disrespect your mother that way?!" she exclaims.

"How dare you call yourself my mother Sakura?! I know that you were father's MISTRESS while my REAL mother was pregnant with me!" I shout at her then the room falls silent.

"Akahanna," she grips onto my arm with furious written across her face, "Stop making a scene Akahanna, I didn't raise you to be this way." Then my father comes to investigate what's going on, as soon as I see him I want to hurt him.

"How can you do this to my REAL mother?! Is my marriage supposed to save your sorry asses from the sins you two done?! Lust, ambition, envy, those sins are supposed to be cleared from me?!" then Aketo, (my father) doesn't say anything. I storm off into my room and cry.

"Akahanna?" I wipe my tears away and once when I see who it is I run up to hug him.

"Zero, please stay up here with me." I mumble into his neck.

"Are you parents downstairs?"

"They're not my parents; I don't want anything to do with them." We stay there, him trying to make me feel better but honestly it doesn't really help. We sit down on the floor and lean our backs on bed. I lace my fingers through his as I rest my head on his shoulder,

"Your parents wouldn't mind that we're in here?" he asks I study his tattoo, it's so strange because every time I try to touch it, it glows violet as the Vampire's Hunter's magic reacts against my presence.

"Who cares, they probably wouldn't care who I get married to, they could go and let me marry you without thinking twice." It trails off of my tongue but it doesn't sound right. he gets me off and he's pissed.

"So what I wouldn't be good enough? Wow you PureBloods really are conceited," he starts to get up, I pull him down,

"No please Zero, I didn't mean that it came out wrong." I try to keep him from leaving, he looks at me and I plead with my eyes.

"I'm sorry but I shouldn't be here, your engagement could get jeopardized."

"I don't care and I don't want to please Zero." He hesitates but he comes back. "I'm sorry it's just that with you I feel like I'm having a chance at a regular life well I guess as regular I can get…" I look at my hands and think about the damn special blood I have that changed me from living to undead. Then I look at Zero, his skin still human but it's just the change in his blood from a normal human blood to a destructive monster raging through his human veins. I glance at myself in the mirror which brings me back to the mess I'm in, a pawn in one's game and a bishop in another. Then I remember the lie I'm living just because of the damn Kuran wants the Cross girl.

I put my head against my forearm which is against my bed, guilt surges through me but I can't help it.

"What's wrong?" he asks, I almost tell him but I bite down on my lip to shut me up. I yelp and he comes to investigate. "You have to stop doing that, one day you'll mess up your lip really badly…" he doesn't finish because he smells the blood. I don't say anything as he kisses me licking the blood off. Then he gets off of me gripping onto his arm.

"What's wrong?" I ask now because I don't want him feeling like he's hurting me.

"I can't do this Akahanna I'm sorry." He zips out of the room leaving me with a bleeding lip. I sigh and go to clean up my lip with a hollow feeling eating at my heart.