The song used in this chapter is System of a Down's "Lonely Day".

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Chapter 10: Sad to happy and back to sad

Seth placed his hand on Maxine's thigh gently, trying his best to calm her down as she had been extremely nervous ever since they had entered her doctor's office. She was really grateful that Seth was by her side but at the same time it made her feel a little uncomfortable knowing that after all of this there would be no more lies and secrets between them. It would all be out in the open and that was scary.

"It's gonna be okay, angel. I will forever stand by your side," he said quietly, kissing her temple lovingly before whispering into her ear. "I love you, Maxine. More than anything."

Their moment of intimacy was quickly interrupted by the opening of the door, a tall, young woman in plain clothes entering the room. Seth had always thought that therapists were some old, grey-haired doctors in white lab coats but this was very surprising to him. In a positive way.

"Mrs Rollins, I'm glad you finally found the time to come by again," Doctor Anthony said friendly, looking at Maxine with a genuine smile on her face. "And you must be Mr..."

"It's Seth. Just Seth. Otherwise I feel too old," he immediately interrupted her, shaking her hand when she extended hers to him, returning her smile.

They both watched as Dr Anthony sat down opposite of them on a massive leather chair, only a sparsely occupied desk in between them on which her medical documentation were put on.

"So, I'm honestly quite surprised you brought your husband along this time. What made you change your mind about telling him?" she asked instantly, not beating around the bush as they needed to get to the point straight away so that they could help Maxine as fast as possible.

"Things have been crazy at home for quite a few weeks now. At first I thought it was the constant exhaustion of taking care of two babies at the same time, but I soon realized that it's my depression that was making our lives a living hell. Seth and I almost parted ways because of the non-ending fights. I thought I could do without the medication but it seemed that I was dead wrong about that," she said with a heavy sigh, talking so openly about her feelings with Seth next to her costing her quite an effort.

"So I suppose you are staying home with your wife at the moment?" the doctor asked, directing her question at Seth who quickly nodded his head.

"Yeah. I wanted to support her in the first few months with the babies at home before I would go back on the road. I know I haven't been the kind of support she needed but now that I know what's going on, I finally realized she needs more help than just me changing a few diapers once in a while," he admitted, taking Maxine's hand into his and squeezing it softly.

"Why would you think you haven't been the kind of support she needed?" Doctor Anthony asked curiously, writing a few things down on her writing pad, making Seth feel very uneasy.

He wasn't the one who needed help. He wasn't prepared to be answering questions. But he knew that if he wanted to help his wife feel better, then he had to hang in there and make it through all of this.

"In the beginning I left her alone very much. I thought she had everything under control and so I went out with friends to work out and stuff. Apparently she wasn't able to do all of this without me. That was the first time we had a huge fight. It opened my eyes and I was finally able to see that I needed to change. Becoming a father was easy, being one is very difficult. I tried my best to help her as much as I could. But after things were fine at first, it all came crashing down soon again. We kept fighting, blaming each other for stupid things...it was ridiculous really. I think I can honestly say we were both not happy again. I wanted to leave her the day she told me about her illness. It's killing me, quite frankly. I feel horrible for not realizing that she was at the end of the rope. All these years I have not once realized that she was in pain mentally. What kind of man am I for not seeing these things? Who...," he talked himself into a rage only to be stopped midsentence by Maxine who had tears in her eyes.

"It's not your fault, Seth. I've been lying to you all these years. I've put up a big front. It's a mechanism I've gotten used to over the years. I just wasn't able to keep it up anymore. I'm exhausted. I can't do this anymore. There was nothing you could have done," she insisted, tear after tear now escaping her eyes, breaking Seth's heart even more.

"Yes. I could have. I should have seen what was really going on. I should have supported you more. I've always been so fascinated by your strength and independence that I was never able to notice how insecure and weak you really felt deep inside. I wasn't thoughtful enough and I hate myself for it," he scoffed, a single tear now streaming down his face, a sob even escaping his lips.

"Hate is such a strong word, Seth," Dr Anthony said in a soothing manner, putting the writing pad down onto the table in front of her, looking at him intently. "You should stop blaming yourself for things you didn't have control over. I've known Maxine for quite some time now and I know how convincing she can be if she tries to make you believe that she's happy. Many patients have learned to protect themselves by acting as if everything was fine."

"But I'm her husband, the father of her children. I'm not just anyone," he said desperately, even raising his voice a little.

"It doesn't matter who you are or how close you are. If Maxine didn't want you to know, you wouldn't know by now. She's told me how afraid she was to tell you the truth. She loves you very much and was scared you would leave her. It surprises me that she was honest with you."

"I want to help her. What can I do?" he asked helplessly, still teary-eyed when he wrapped his arms around Maxine's shoulders lovingly, the way her whole body was shaking with sobs tugging at his heartstrings.

"All you can do is support her. Not only by helping with the children, but by being by her side at all times. Sometimes she just needs to cry. She needs someone she can trust. I know it's much to ask for you to put up with her mood changes but it might take a few weeks until the medication is completely effective again. Cry with her if she needs to cry and smile with her if she feels like smiling. It might not seem fair to you that it's all about her right now, but very soon you both will enjoy being with each other again. It's not only important for the two of you but your children as well," the doctor explained, handing them both some tissues to wipe away their tears.

They sat in silence for a few minutes, just being in each other's arms and letting the tears fall, the only sounds audible in the room their combined sobs. They both had tried for way too long to be strong in front of each other and now it seemed that they finally could let go.

"I want to see you again on a regular basis again, Mrs Rollins. You can decide if you want to bring Seth with you or not. That is something you two need to decide together," the doctor said after a while, breaking that silence was that in the air. "I'll have my assistant prepare the prescription for your medication now. You know how many to take right?"

"One in the mornings, two before going to bed," Maxine said knowingly, smiling weakly when her doctor nodded her head in approval.

After a few more minutes they could finally leave Dr Anthony's office again, Maxine's face still puffy after crying her heart out only a couple of moments ago. It broke her heart to know that Seth was blaming himself for her misery when she very well knew it wasn't his fault. She didn't want him to feel like that. It just wasn't fair.

"Thanks for accompanying me," she said quietly, her voice almost a whisper. "It really means a lot to me."

"I'll do everything in my power to make you smile again, you know that, angel," he whispered back, wrapping his arms around her waist tightly so that he could pull her close, placing a sweet kiss onto her forehead. "We'll make it through this. I promise you that."

And although they knew it was a long way for them to go, they knew that together they could move mountains. And maybe even chase away that demon called depression.

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"And this time it's a...," Dr Matthews started, chuckling when both Roman and Karolina groaned when he suddenly stopped midsentence, knowing how to tease them as he had known them for quite a few years now.

"Come on, doc. We've been waiting for this day for aaaages," Roman huffed, rolling his eyes playfully only to be swatted on his chest by his wife. "What? It's true."

"You're going to have twins," the doctor said nonchalantly, bursting out laughing when both Karo and Roman screamed a loud and horrified 'WHAT?' simultaneously. "Okay okay, sorry, I was just kidding."

"That wasn't funny, Simon," Karo admonished, still a little shocked, grateful that she could call her doctor by his first name as they were clearly spending a lot of time with each other since things in her first pregnancy didn't turn out the way they should have.

"So, what are we really gonna have now?" Roman asked, clearly impatient now.

"Well, Karo is expecting another little boy. Congratulations you two," Simon said happily, smiling warmly at the soon to be parents who were giddy with excitement.

He knew they didn't really care if it was a boy or a girl as long as their baby was healthy. A fear they were still carrying with them although Leni was perfectly healthy with no issues during the whole pregnancy. But the exhausting and complicated pregnancy she had with Joshua was still in the back of their minds and he couldn't really blame them.

"Yihaaa! Let's go tell Dean and Shannon," Roman quickly said while cleaning up his wife's pregnant belly that was still full of gel, excited to tell his best friends about the news they had just received.

"What about Seth and Maxine?" she asked a little dumbfounded, nervously watching as Roman was clumsily wiping away the liquid off of her stomach.

"I think we should give them a little more time to themselves for now. You know why, babygirl," Roman said abstractedly, raising his head slightly when Dr Matthews cleared his throat. "What's up, doc?"

"Nothing. Just kindly throw the tissues into the trashcan and not onto the floor," Simon said with a chuckle when he pointed to the sticky tissues that were now lying on the ground next to the examination table.

"He's a mess, as always," Karo said while playfully rolling her eyes, giggling when Roman growled at her, probably trying to sound intimidating.

He was just so thrilled to tell their best friends that Leni was going to have a little brother that he simply couldn't contain his excitement anymore. It was too damn adorable.

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"OPEN THE DOOR, AMBROSE," Roman yelled slightly annoyed, pounding on the front door of Dean's and Shannon's house with his fist forcefully, already hearing Dylan and Leni who were toddling towards the entrance hallway, a smile immediately spreading across both his and Karo's face when they heard them giggle.

"Who's this?" Dylan asked quietly, covering Leni's mouth when she wanted to start screaming for her daddy, wanting to tease his uncle a little more.

"It's the cookie monster. I'm coming to eat all your cookies," Roman said in a deep voice, smiling at Karo when they heard the kids laugh inside the house.

"I have a nerving little cookie here for you, Mr Cookie Monster," Dylan replied, opening the door only slightly to push Leni out before quickly closing the door again.

"DADDY!" Leni screamed when Roman picked her up high in the air, blowing a raspberry onto her stomach at the skin that was revealed when he shirt was pushed up a little bit.

"Hmm...what a delicious little cookie," he chuckled as he was tickling her, yelping when his daughter pulled at his ponytail with full force.

"MOMMY... help me!" the little girl was crying out loud, trying to get to Karo who was laughing heartily next to the both of them.

"I can't help you or the cookie monster will eat me," she yelped when Roman started playfully biting her neck. "See. Now he has us both. HELP."

They all jumped when the door was opened forcefully, bouncing against the wall before Dylan out of nowhere jumped onto Roman's leg, holding on for dear life.

"Stop, cookie monster, stooop," the little boy yelled, trying to bite Roman's leg only to realize that his teeth weren't strong enough to bite his uncle's kneecap. "Spear him, Leni. Spear him."

"I can't. Go and get Uncle Dean to do the Dirty Deeds," Leni said completely out of breath, watching as Dylan jumped off of Roman's leg only to run into the house as fast as his legs would carry him.

It didn't even take him a minute to get his father to the front door, the sight in front of Dean making him crack up laughing. While Leni was still pulling at Roman's ponytail, Dylan was now trying to bite his uncle's calf when at the same time Karo was pinching his sides.

"Do you even need my help?" he asked with a chuckle, surprised when he felt a pair of arms wrap around his waist from behind. "Go back to bed, sweet cheeks. You need more rest."

"I'm missing all the good stuff. Look at these weirdos," Shannon stated before gently letting go of Dean, taking her cell phone out of her sweatpants so that she could snap a picture of the incredibly adorable scene in front of her.

"Lemme guess, you're putting this onto twitter?" Dean more stated than asked, not even paying attention to his best friend who was yelling for his help. "You're such a social media victim, do you know that?"

"I am. One of us has to be. And since it's not you, it's me," she said with a sweet smile, pushing him towards the fighting quartet, urging him to help Roman to get out of their kids' grip, even though Karolina could have done it as well but she had too much fun helping the children with teasing him.

ShannonDuh: Another typical day in the life of KarolinaWWE, WWERomanReigns TheDeanAmbrose and me. God help me! #crazydaddys #crazykids #andkaro

As soon as she added the picture and sent out the tweet, Dean had been able to pull them all apart, shoving each and every one of them into the house, being a little more gentle to the kids and Karo than he was with Roman.

"How about you two go upstairs and clean the mess in Dylan's bedroom?" Shannon asked, looking at Dylan sternly when he shook his head no, knowing that he shouldn't mess with his mother. "I'm not going to tell you twice. Leni, you're going to help him."

Leni nodded her head quickly and gave her aunt a sweet smile, already knowing how to get Dylan to do the tidying up all by himself without having to lift a finger. She was always able to wrap someone around their finger. Maybe it was these grey eyes she had inherited from her father that made her so powerful and irresistible.

"Sooo, what did the doc say?" Shannon asked the second both kids were out of sight, knowing that they still needed to explain to Dylan and especially Leni that there would be a new baby joining them in a few months.

"Twins..." Roman said bluntly, using their doctor's joke to shock Dean and Shannon who were clearly taken aback. "...the doc said to pull a prank."

"Fucking idiot," Shannon mumbled a little annoyed, trying her best to be mad at Roman but the moment he took her hand into his to kiss her knuckles, she couldn't help but to forgive him right away.

"Come on now. I hate these guessing games," Dean huffed, running a hand through his famous messy hair, looking at his best friends expectantly.

"We're going to have a boy," Karo replied, a huge smile on her face when Roman grabbed her hand and squeezed it tightly, sending her one of his signature heart-melting smiles.

"A Fred. It's gonna be a Fred...YES YES YES," Dean shouted, jumping off of the couch he had just been sitting on only to raise his fist high in the air as if he was celebrating a victory.

"It's not gonna be a Fred, you dumbass," Roman scoffed, raising an eyebrow at Dean who very slowly sat down next to Shannon again. "What would have been wrong with the baby being a girl? I think you and Leni are getting along very well."

"We do now. She was a little brat when she was a baby. I don't have the nerve for another daddy's princess when your daughter still has you wrapped around her little finger, dude," Dean answered, smirking mischievously when Roman frowned at him.

"She doesn't," he defended himself while crossing his arms in front of his chest.

"SHE DOES," they all said at the same time only to burst out laughing immediately afterwards.

"I hate you all," he mumbled to himself, pouting just the way little Leni would when she was sad.

"And we love you, you little wimp," Dean said, high-fiving both Shannon and Karo before patting his best friend's shoulder, smiling when the Samoan joined them in their laughter.

They really were such a great team.

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Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life
Such a lonely day
Should be banned
It's a day that I can't stand

Shannon was once again lying in their bedroom after Roman and Karo had left with Leni, urged by Dean to get a little more rest as she was still exhausted from all the stresses and strains before and after her surgery. She hated being alone in there. It always made her think too hard about everything that had happened in the last few days.

The most loneliest day of my life

The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day

Shouldn't exist

It's a day that I'll never miss

Dean was putting Dylan to bed so that he could take a little nap before they would have dinner. She was happy her two boys were always around, supporting her as much as they could but nobody knew how she really felt deep inside. Although she always had her family and friends around, she felt lonely. Lonely because nobody would ever understand the pain she was suffering.

Such a lonely day
And it's mine
The most loneliest day of my life

She was happy that Karolina was having another baby. She couldn't be more thrilled for her best friend. But now that she knew the baby's sex and seeing Karo's swollen belly, she realized once again that she would never have anything like that. It was over. She wasn't going to have another baby.

And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you

It broke her heart into a million tiny pieces. But who would she be able to talk to? She didn't want to bother Karo or Roman with her fears as she had no intention of ruining their excitement. Seth and Maxine were too busy with their own lives. And then there was Dean...

Take your hand and walk away
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

She had no idea if talking to him would be a good idea. It was still difficult discussing feelings with him. Most of the times he tried to ignore whenever anything felt wrong. He hated analysing things and talking them through when he knew he clearly couldn't do anything about it.

Such a lonely day
And it's mine
It's a day that I'm glad I survived

"Are you okay, sweet cheeks?" his voice suddenly broke her train of thoughts, even startling her a little as she didn't hear him entering the bedroom.

"Yes, I'm fine," she lied, even managing to give him a weak smile but when he frowned at her she knew that he was having none of it.

"Why are you crying then?" he asked quietly, now making his way over to where she was sitting on the edge of the bed, immediately making her look at him by lifting her chin with his index finger as she was now looking at the floor. "Talk to me, babe."

Dean was sincerely worried about her this time. Something in him changed when he saw how she was lying on that hospital bed just a few days ago. It made him realize that every day could be the last one and that they needed to cherish each and every minute to the fullest before it was too late.

"I'm okay...really...," she mumbled, wiping away her tears with the back of her hand, a fake smile plastered on her face.

"Stop lying to me, Shannon. I know something's bothering you and I want you to trust me enough to tell me what's heavy on your heart," he said, not only surprising her but him as well with the kind words that had just left his mouth.

"I can't tell you," she sighed, once again trying to break the eye contact but he wouldn't let her.

"Yes you can. You can talk to me about everything, sweetheart," he insisted, cupping her face with both of his hands, placing a sweet kiss onto her lips before gently letting go of her again. "Spill the beans."

Shannon wasn't sure if telling Dean about everything that was on her mind was a good idea but it was now or never. It would only eat her alive should she bottle it all up. She needed to be honest with him and he deserved the truth. What did she have to lose anyways?

"I can't handle the idea of not having the possibility of carrying another child," she blurted out, a sob instantly escaping her lips after she had said those words.

The tension in the room was almost tangible when Dean didn't answer. She knew he wouldn't be able to cope with the truth but she thought she would at least let him know what was really going on inside of her.

Seconds felt like minutes and minutes felt like hours. Shannon couldn't stop the tears that were constantly streaming down her face. But when Dean finally wrapped his arms around her, she immediately melted into his embrace, his strong arms around her having such a calming effect on her that she finally stopped shaking.

"We have Dylan, sweet cheeks. You gave me a wonderful boy and you couldn't have made me happier. I know we should have talked about this a long time ago, but I was too much of a coward to get straight to the point," he started to explain, his voice very quiet and calm. "I've told you before that I love you the way you are. And I just now realize how much you've been craving to have another baby. I wish I could give you that. I wish there was anything I could do to give you the chance to carry another baby below your heart. But Shannon, as hard as it sounds...it's not going to happen again."

He immediately stopped her when he felt that she wanted to say something. The words he had just thrown at her maybe sounding mean or heartless, but he had always been brutally honest. That was just who he was.

"I wasn't done talking yet. Please let me finish," he pleaded, kissing her forehead softly while his arms were still wrapped around her tightly. "Things between us won't change because of what happened. Yes, you can't physically carry another baby, but if a baby is something you so desperately want, then we'll find other ways.

"Other ways?" she asked hoarsely, looking up at him slightly, her cheeks puffy after all the crying.

"Yeah...adoption...or whatever possibilities there are," he replied, sighing when he saw her looking at him wide-eyed. "But baby, please, all that matters now is that you're getting healthy again. We're a family...Dylan, you and me. We have a bunch of kids running around this house on a daily basis, and if Karo and Roman keep going like this, it will be 5 more."

A huge smile spread across his face when he heard her giggle, taking a load off his mind. He knew that it wouldn't make her feel better having other people's kids around when she wanted another one of her own, but he was sure that time healed all wounds. He would be by her side until the very day he would die. With or without cervix.

He sighed when she yawned loudly, hugging her even closer before finally letting her go again. He placed butterfly kisses all over her face, telling her over and over again how much he loved her. And although he didn't even let her talk much, but did all the talk himself, he knew without words what she was feeling deep inside. He might have been heartless in the past, but he wasn't blind. And he knew her like the back of his hand.

"Sleep a little, baby. I'll be down to prepare dinner, okay? Stop crying now...I don't like women with crinkles. I want my ladies to be sexy bitches, you know it," he said, making her giggle once again.

He kissed her one more time before putting a blanket over her still slightly tensed up body, kissing her forehead before quietly leaving the room.

The moment he closed the door behind him, he texted the one person he knew would be able to help him right now:

*Roman, I need your help…*

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