I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT! THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS REVIEWED. I do not have a beta so i apologize for the errors in this story.
CHAPTER 10
Pain, that's all I feel, is pain, even my hair hurts. It's just too much. Everything is going black again.
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Cold and pain, not a good combination. I'm so cold; I can hear my teeth chattering. I'm shivering; it's causing me more pain. I can feel myself slipping away again.
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Why is it so hot in here? Someone needs to turn on a fan. Why am I still in so much pain? Why is it so dark, I know my eyes are open?
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Beep, beep, beep, beep.
What is that?
Beep, beep, beep, beep.
Why can't they turn it off?
Beep, beep, beep, beep.
Why can't I open my eyes?
"I'm here baby, I don't know if you can hear me or not but I want to tell you I love you. Your going to be fine love, you just need to wake up." I knew that voice, "Why isn't she waking up yet?" Who was he talking to? I was trying to open my eyes, I wanted to see him I missed him so much.
"I'm sorry son I don't know, I wish there was a way that I could wake her but her mind and body isn't ready yet. Keep talking to her thought; let her know where she is and what's been happening. I'll be back after my rounds tonight, if there's anything that you need just have me paged ok." I heard a door open and then close, then I felt someone sitting beside me and take my hand into theirs.
"I don't know where to start, so many things have happened since you have been in here, you're in the hospital by the way. I miss you so much baby, I wish that you would wake up so that I could see those beautiful brown eyes of yours and hear that wonderful laugh. I'm looking into buying us a house out in the country with a nice size back yard, swimming pool, and even someplace that you could plant flowers or a garden if you wanted. Someplace that we don't have to worry about our kids being outside and can have a place to play and run. You can swim in those little bikinis that you have, I can watch you chase the kids around. You're probably wondering why I keep talking about kids huh? While you were taking all those antibiotics, they rendered your birth control useless, so as a result you ended up pregnant. You're only about 10 weeks now; it's a miracle that the baby survived the crash. The doctors come in everyday to see how you and the baby are doing; you can hear the heart beating and see this little dot on the screen. I hope you know that I will be here for you threw the whole pregnancy should you choose to keep it. If you don't want to then I will support you in that, but I'm hoping that you will." I wanted to shout out that I was going to keep this baby, but I couldn't, nothing was working I tried to talk to open my eyes even so that I could tell him that I was ok, that he didn't need to worry anymore. I could feel myself slipping back into the darkness; I was really beginning to hate the dark.
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"Hey princess," I could hear my dad call for me but when I looked around I didn't see him anywhere. Everything was so bright, there looked like a light up ahead, I started to follow it to see where it would take me. When I walked threw to the light there were both of my parents. They looked great and I was so happy to see them, I started running towards them and pulled them to me hugging them as hard as I could.
"Mom, dad, I'm so happy to see you guys, I've missed you both so much." I was crying I didn't want to let them go again.
"We don't have much time to stay I'm afraid, we just wanted to tell you that we're doing well and to not worry about us, you take care of that handsome man you have there with you."
"Look at you princess all grown up, you have turned into a beautiful women and soon you will be a wonderful mother too. We are so proud of you, we want you to have a wonderful life filled with joy and happiness just like your mother and I have had."
"I know that we didn't tell you enough but we love you so very much. You were the best thing that we ever did in our lives, this little one that you have with you will be the center of your world. She will be daddy's little princess and mommy's little angel. Always remember to hold her close and tell her that you love her everyday, no matter what she may have done. But also remember when she's growing up that she is going to push her limits to the max, you did as a child also." My mother was giving me advice on raising a daughter, a daughter I just found out about.
"Don't be surprised when you say no and she goes to dad hoping that he'll say yes. Keep the lines of communications open between you and your husband always, that's what helped your mother and me. I give him my blessing 100%, he will take great care of you and the kids, because there will be more to come." Dad laughed lightly, how did they know all of this?
"He's not my husband, just my boyfriend, though I didn't know that I was even pregnant until now. And you're telling me that it's going to be a girl?"
"Yes dear, I know that it's a shock to you, but one day that man is going to get down on his knee and ask you to marry him, it won't be because you're pregnant with his child, it will be because he loves you with all of his heart, the fact that you are giving him a child makes him happy but if you say yes to him he will be on top of the world."
"Princess I hate to say this but your mother is right. I hate the thought of my little girl growing up but I'm glad that you have found a man that treats you right. He will take great care of you and your children. On your wedding day remember that we will be watching from above, we love you so very much and we miss you everyday." They were fading on me and I didn't want to let them go yet.
"Wait! Please don't leave me yet; I have so much more I want to say to you guys. I love you both with all of my heart and I miss you everyday." I said crying and trying to hold them here with me for a little while longer.
"We love you too sweetheart, now it's time to put that poor man to rest, wake up and have a wonderful life with him and your daughter." With that said they were gone, I started to cry harder, I hated that I couldn't have my parents with me but I knew that they were always in my heart.
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I could hear the door to my room open again, I had no idea how long I had been in the hospital or what had happened to James and Felix. I was becoming more and more aware of the things around me now, I knew that the beeping sound was my heart beat, there was another sound it was almost like a whooshing sound I didn't know what that was but once I wake I'm sure they will tell me. I still couldn't believe that I was having a baby with Edward and a girl at that; I hope he didn't have a preference. I felt someone come up to the side of the bed and place there hand on mine, I knew right away that it was Edward's, there was this zap like an electrical current going threw my arm or where ever he would touch me.
"I wish you would open those beautiful brown eyes baby, I miss you so much." It sounded like he was crying, was there something wrong, had I been so out of it when I saw my parents that something happened to me or the baby? "They have you hooked up to this machine now that will monitor the heart rate of the baby; it's growing like it should. They said it's too early to tell yet what we're having, but I don't care. As long as you are fine and the baby is fine. Felix is going home today, he said that he wanted to stop by in a couple of days to see you, he feels terrible that he couldn't do anything about the car running you both off the road. The police have already talked to him, they will want to talk to you once you're up, and I personally don't care if you talk to them or not, I just want you to wake up." I could feel him lean in and place a kiss on the side of my head, I turned my head just a little, at least I tried to, and it must have been enough because Edward ended up kissing me on the nose instead. I could feel myself smile.
"Bella! Can you hear me baby? If you can squeeze my hand twice ok?" I was able to squeeze his hand twice like he asked me too, I was trying to open my eyes when I did I closed them right back. It was so bright in the room, I felt Edward lean over me to lower the lights for me. "Can you try to open your eyes again love, I've turned the lights down a little for you." When I opened my eyes the first thing that I saw was Edward's green eyes shinning with joy in front of me, I could feel my face smiling.
"I love you," I crocked out, my voice sounded horrible I knew that it was because I had been out of it for so long.
"Don't try to talk yet ok, let me page the nurse and dad so they can look you over first, you've been out now for about a month." He leaned over me to page the nurse, when she came in she ran right back out and I heard the page for Carlisle. When the nurse came back she had a glass of water for me along with some other looking goop that I was to drink first. After drinking the goop that she handed me she gave me the water, it was much easier to swallow now.
"The stuff I had you drink first is Lidocaine, it helps to numb the area, it won't last long but I thought it might help you out a little, it's also safe for you. Carlisle will be here in just a few minutes, he was going to finish up with his patient and then come right over. My name is Tia I'll be your nurse until my shift is over and then you will have Stefan during the day. I'm going to let you rest until Dr. Cullen gets here and then I will be back in with him ok." Tia seemed like a nice girl, she was young looks like she's still in school, I was wondering what Stefan was like, would he be nice like Tia or a real jerk.
"Jake would like Stefan and the same for him, when you meet him you are going to wish that you had Jake as a nurse instead, well at least I did."
"Is he that bad, or was it that he hit on you all the time?"
"He hit on me every time he came into your room, it was annoying."
"Oh it wasn't that bad, I recall you using it to your advantage." Carlisle chuckled as he came into my room. "I'm glad to see you're up finally, we were all worried about you. Has Edward had a chance to tell you about anything yet?"
"I could hear him while I was in and out of it," I was looking right at him so he knew that I had heard him. "I heard him say that he loves me that we are going to be parents in a few short months by some sort of miracle, that Felix was being released to go home and that he was beating himself up about what happened. I also heard that he missed me and he was looking into buying a house in the country so that the kids would have someplace to play and I love the idea of a swimming pool in the back yard, but it's going to have a fence around it just so there are no accidents." Edward was openly crying now, you could see the love in his eyes and the sheer joy that I was able to hear him. "That's all that I remember right now, I do remember the accident too I know that the cops are going to want to talk to me and that's fine."
"Well they're going to be waiting a few days you need to get your strength back first. So as you know you are pregnant, as of right now you are in your second trimester your at 13 weeks, it's a miracle like you said that you were able to continue to carry the baby. We have a monitor hooked up to you now so that we can hear the heart beat, that whooshing sound is the baby's heart beat. During the accident you had sustained a few injuries that we were concerned about, one of those being head trauma your brain was swelling rapidly so we had to drill a small hole to relieve the pressure. You have a broken shoulder, some ribs again, and your leg is broken. You might have noticed that you aren't in a whole lot of pain right now but in time you will be, we are giving you morphine for the pain it's safe for you and the baby. When you start to feel pain please let the nurse know right away, we want to keep the pain under control if you try to bare the pain it will seem like the meds aren't working and will cause you and the baby stress. We're going to keep you hear for a few more days and then you will be sent home with an at home nurse for a few weeks until your ribs have healed more. Unfortunately with you being pregnant and baby's love to kick the ribs you are going to be in major pain when that happens, when it does I want you to let your ob/gyn know right away, they will be able to give you something to help you. Also because of these injuries you are going to be on bed rest for the majority of your pregnancy, I know that you don't like it but for now you don't have the option. Do you have any questions for me so far?" Carlisle was going to tell me the truth; he knew how much I hated to be cooped up in the house all day with nothing to do.
"Not that I can think of that is pertaining to my health anyway. Edward told me that I have been out of it for about a month now. I do have questions about the accident and James though." I looked at Edward and he didn't look very happy so that told me that it wasn't going to be good news.
"I'll let Edward talk to you about that because I don't know much myself, I will be back in a little while I have a few more patients to see and then I will be back. If you need me before then just have the nurse page me ok." I nodded my head that I would; my throat was starting to get sore again so I was going to rest it for a little while.
"So you want to know about what happened?" He was wary about telling me, you could see it in his eyes and hear it in his voice. I nodded my head for him to continue. "Someone had been behind you and had seen what happened and called the police letting them know what was going on. Because of them they were able to get to you right away, but not fast enough to get the person in the car. The car was registered to a kid named Embry, he had reported it stolen about a week before, the car is gone now, and it was dumped a few miles down the road from the accident. They haven't found him yet though, I know that they are working on this case round the clock now. They had to cut the doors off the car to get to you and Felix, the person who called in the accident stayed with you until they got there, she has been here a few times to see if you would be ok. Her name is Bree she's 18 years old and was driving home from work when she saw a car hit another one trying to run it off the road, she didn't know what to do other than call the cops. When the cops got there she told them everything that she saw and got the plate number too."
"Wow that was nice of her; I hope that she stops by again so that I can thank her. Has there been any other news on James?" Edward shook his head no, that didn't sit well with me, and I was beginning to wonder if he didn't have someone in law enforcement helping him out.
"Do you think it's possible that he has one of the cops on this case helping him out? I mean how is it that they can't find him, he has been able to get to me a number of times and yet they can't? It just doesn't make sense to me, he has to have someone helping him from the inside, how else would he know where I am all the time?"
"I don't know love, I don't know." I could tell that he was deep in thought about it being possible.
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I have finally been released from the hospital! We are on our way home now, they nurse would be at the house soon, I had no idea who it would be I was kind of hoping that Tia or Stefan would be one of them. On my final day there they came in with an ultrasound machine and I got to see our baby for the first time, they said it was still too early to tell the sex but after my dream with my parents I was convinced that it would be a girl. I told Edward about seeing my parents and what my dad had said about him being a good guy and having his blessing, he didn't say anything about it but was glad that they approved of him. I wished they could have met in real life, I know my mom would have loved him.
Felix had been to see me before I was release, I told him that in no way was it his fault that we were run off the road and that I didn't blame him for any of it. I knew what James was capable of and I didn't want Felix to feel guilty.
Jake came by and said that he would see me at the house later today or tomorrow, he had to be in court so he couldn't stay long but was glad that I was finally awake so that Edward would start to calm down some. When I asked what he was talking about he said that he would tell me later, Edward said it was nothing to worry about just him being a worry wart.
We had been home for about an hour when the doorbell rang, I figured it was the nurse coming by to check on me, but when Edward answered the door it was Alice and crew. Esme had a baking dish in her hands and said that it was a casserole for later; she knew that Edward couldn't cook and that I wouldn't be able to do much for a few weeks, I thanked her for it.
"If you need anything at all dear just let me know, I can be here in a matter of minutes and its no bother to me."
"Thank you Esme, I'll let you know."
"So I was going to go shopping for some new clothes for you, you're going to need maternity clothes soon and I didn't know if you wanted me to get anything else." I rolled my eyes at Alice, like she would need a reason to go shopping.
"I don't need any new clothes right now, I can't even where the ones that I have. Right now I just want my comfy sweets that will go over my cast and baggy shirts, I know that it's not fashionable but nobody is going to see me so I don't really care."
"But you're not going to be down that much longer, you're going to need new clothes for when you get bigger." She was giving me her puppy eyes and trying to pout, but for once I wasn't going to back down to it.
"No Alice, I don't want any new clothes right now, why can't you wait until I am able to move more, then I might be up for going with you for a little while, I would like to actually pick out something, and even do some baby shopping, but it won't be for awhile yet ok."
"Fine," she sighed.
"Let the poor girl rest dear, she just got home." Jasper was trying to help me out and I greatly appreciated it. They left a couple of hours later when the nurse comes in; it was Tia who was going to be helping me out.
"I'm so glad it's you that I got, I wasn't sure if you did at home care or not, I told Carlisle that I wanted you if you did it."
"I don't normally do at home care but for you I made the exception." She laughed, she was a great nurse while I was at the hospital and I know that some do at home care also, so when Carlisle asked me I told him that I wanted Tia or Stefan if they were available he said he would look into it for me. "Let's get started ok, how are you feeling? Are you in any pain at all and I want you to be honest with me, remember we want to keep the pain at a minimum so that it doesn't get out of control before you say anything."
"My leg is bothering me but I don't think that I need anything for the pain right now. I will let you know before it get's too bad though I promise."
"Good, I'm going to look around and see what we can do about any temporary changes that need to be made ok." I nodded at her letting her do her thing; I was hoping there wouldn't be too many changes that needed to be made.
"I'm going to take you into the office; I want to show you the houses that I was looking at while you were asleep." Edward wheeled me into his office and parked me by his desk and turned the computer on. When he was ready he showed me these houses that I thought were way to big for us, he said that we would need the space for all the kids we're going to have.
"And how many kids are we talking about 12?" There was no way I was having that many kids, I may love him dearly but I was not going to be pregnant every year.
"No, I was thinking maybe 3 or 4, I would like to have at least one of each, and if your mom was right and we are having a girl then maybe next time we will have a boy."
"I can handle 3 or 4, but why would we need a house with 10 rooms in it? We only need 5 bedrooms and at least 3 bathrooms, a kitchen, living room, laundry room and an office."
"Well we would need an extra room or two for when we have people over, or if the kids want to have friends over then they would have someplace to stay."
"Ok 1 or 2 extra rooms but not 5 rooms, that's a bit much I think."
"Well they wouldn't all be bedrooms; we would have 6 or 7 bedrooms and the others we can use as an office, or something. You know that you don't need to worry about the cost of the house, that's not a problem." He knew how I always worried about what things were going to cost us, it was a habit that I was trying to break but it wasn't working yet.
"I know but I still think we only need 6 or 7 rooms at the max, I'm sure one of the house's you have looked at already has an office in it right?" He looked at me sheepishly and nodded his head, he thought he could get away with having more rooms but I knew him better then he thought I did. We continued to look at he houses he had pulled up when Tia knocked on the door.
"Ok I have everything that would need to be changed until you are able to start walking. I noticed that the bedrooms are all upstairs, and there is nothing down here that could be used as a temporary bedroom, so we are going to have to come up with a way for you to get up and down the stairs."
"I will be happy to carry her," I rolled my eyes at him of course he would.
"But what about when you're not here, if she wants to lay down for awhile how is she going to get up the stairs then?" I liked that she was challenging him, she had a good point though, and he shrugged his shoulder not sure on how to answer that one. "You need to have a ramp installed, they are temporary and can easily be removed once she can climb up and down the stairs, if you have any kids around they love to race up and down them also."
"No kids yet, but that's fine, do you have a number I can call to have them come out and put one up for her?"
"Yeah I do, this company can come out and make all of the necessary changes that are needed. You are also going to want to install something for the shower, they have chairs for showers, they sit right in there and she will be able to keep her leg out of the tub. I would recommend getting a removable shower head also, it makes things so much easier for her. Those are the 2 major things that I have found so far."
"Thanks Tia, I will call them first thing in the morning so they can get out here right away."
"What can I do about taking a shower in the mean time? I want to wash the hospital smell off of me soon; I was hoping that I would be able to do that tonight."
"For tonight I would just use a wash cloth, I know that you want to get cleaner then that, but until you get the shower taken care of there isn't much else you can do. Dr. Cullen wants you off that leg for a few more weeks yet. I'm sure this nice man here will be happy to help to." I blushed at her comment; I knew that Edward would be all for helping me.
"You bet Tia, maybe I should have them hold off on the shower for a few days," he was looking at me smiling so I knew that he wouldn't do that but I thought that I would get him for his little comments.
"Just remember that when you have to sleep next to a stinky person, I want that shower done first!"
"Ok you guys, I'm done here for the night, I'll see you around 11am tomorrow, have a great night and I'm glad to see you at home now Bella." I wished Tia a good night and Edward walked her to the door, when he came back we continued to look at new houses. I must have been falling asleep in the chair because the last thing I remember is Edward carrying me up to bed and telling me that he loved me and goodnight.
AN:
Whew that was a long chapter sorry for the late update, things are finally back to normal here so I should be updating again on Saturday night. Also I do know that they give morphine to breastfeeding mothers after a c-section, I have also seen mothers take morphine tablets while pregnant, but I don't know how safe it is for the baby, and I'm not a doctor.