Dear Speaking Sarcasm
I don't know what's worse: A mom who criticises you or a mom that neglects you. Both are pretty crappy.
Ha, I like you're Screwed Up Kids Union: We could have t-shirts and secret passwords. And maybe yearly meetings where the Crappy Mothers and Thoughtless Father's and Screwed Up Kids all get together and force passive-aggressive conversation. (Thoughtless Father is the perfect way to phrase it. My Dad was never outwardly cruel like my Mom, he was just insensitive and distant. I'm guessing yours is the same).
On your confession...first I am so, so, so touched that you shared it with me. Don't regret it. Second, never ever feel guilty for what happened to your parents: Unwanted pregnancy happens and it's not your fault. They had other options, like adoption or single parenthood, and they had no right to make you unhappy. Don't hold yourself accountable for that. They sound like they're pretty messed up anyway. (Meaning no offence). Who knows, their lives might have sucked even more without you! They were lucky to have you, and if they made you feel differently then they're idiots.
And think how much people would miss you if you never existed. You've talked about your friends-come-family. Think how they'd cope if you weren't around: If one of my little gang was missing, there'd be such a gap in my life. I'd miss their girly advice, or zany theories, or pretentious but well-meaning support or weird antics or warm hugs. Seriously, one of my friends gives the best hugs ever. If something so small can cheer me up, then you shouldn't under-estimate how you've affected others. Maybe your hugs comfort someone like that.
(I know I'd miss your support and weird humour and emails, which make me smile whenever I open my inbox).
Peter Pan huh? Hmm...Honestly. I think you pretend to be more scared of responsibility than you are. Just in that last email, you talked about having kids and making them feel loved. That's not the voice of a guy who wants to run away to Never Never Land. Don't feel because of your parent's issues, you have to be scared of the same things. Like you said to me: If I'm nothing like my bitch of a mother, then you're nothing like your self-involved parents. You can beat the odds. And I think you'll be a wonderful husband and father one day. You seem more of a Lost Boy than Peter Pan: Abandoned, wandering and maybe confused, but finding a family eventually. (Sappy I know, so sue me).
Sorry if you disagree with that, or I've misjudged you. I'm not pressuring you into getting married/having kids, but that's how I see you.
If I had a super power...Damn, you're right, I was going to pick flying! Probably super-strength. I mean I'm already pretty strong for a girl, (my friends all tease me) but super strength would be awesome! I could beat up anyone who annoyed me and always win in fights! (I may have some violent tendencies...)
My question: I've been reading a book about Greek myth and the children of god and goddesses and it's made me curious. If you discovered you were the child of a god, (y'know hypothetically) who do you think your parent would be? I like Demeter, the goddess of agriculture and farming. She's one of the low-key gods, who doesn't get enough credit, but she's just solid and keeps things running and is a lot more powerful than she's let on. I really hope you know the gods or this will mean nothing to you, I know it was a weird topic this time!
Talk to you soon!
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