An: Thank you so much Possessed and LC for your help with this i love you ladies! Ok i will warn you now this chapter is not happy. I tried to fit this ficlet into 10 chapters but i couldn't so it will be 12. I hope to finish it tomorrow or the next day. Thank you to everyone who is reading this fic, and your words of encouragment are wonderful. Ok on to the chapter.
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Sesshoumaru didn't care then. The feeling of her lips on his awakened a part of him that died with her. The demon lord took what she was offering hungrily, wrapping his arms around her, and pulling the woman as close to him as he could without absorbing her into himself.
Kagome broke the kiss. His eyes met hers and she could not help her actions, she went to kiss him again.
"Promise me you will stay," he said. "No matter what happens, promise me you will not return to the feudal era."
His words broke her heart. His eyes, the pain there, was worse. She thought about what he had said, what she had been told, and made a decision. "I promise."
Sesshoumaru soaked in her words, she had never lied to him before and the peace he felt was satisfying. As he held her in his arms, he remembered her last request from him.
"I just want to be with you, one last time, in any lifetime." she had said before she died that night.
Sesshoumaru kissed her again. If she would grant him his desires, he would grant the woman hers.
Kagome's heart began to pound. Something was telling her that this was supposed to be happening. She felt her feet leave the floor; instinctively she wrapped her legs around him. Soon he was devouring her neck and loosening her clothes.
Kagome relieved him of his haori as gracefully as she could. The feeling of his skin on hers was heavenly. The same familiarity that had troubled her these past few weeks was now guiding her. Her hands roamed his body as he laid her on the bed, removing the rest of her clothing. Her naked form made him ache to be inside her.
Sesshoumaru hadn't planned on this either, but he was not disappointed. It did not matter if she stayed here. He kissed along her collar bone. Memories of conceiving his children in the back of his mind made him want her more. He reached her breasts, stopping to take the taut nipples into his mouth. Kagome's hands tangled in his hair and she cried out in ecstasy. Her fingertips graced the muscles on his back and she dug her nails in.
A growl escaped him in reaction to her touch.
"Sesshoumaru, I need you," Kagome moaned, as she pulled him up to meet her face. He kissed her then, not wanting to deny her. He instinctively positioned himself at her entrance. Her juices coated him in preparation for his penetration. He opened his eyes to watch her, to take in everything, for this would be the last time he would be with her.
As he slid in, she reached up and wrapped her arms around his neck. Sesshoumaru had to fight the urge to mark her again, to claim what was rightfully his. He nipped and kissed her neck as he waited for her to become accustomed to him.
Kagome felt the sting as he entered her. She pulled him close and took in a deep breath, holding it until the pain subsided. She felt him kissing her neck, focusing on a certain spot.
'That must have been where he marked me,' she thought, a sad smile pulling at her lips.
He continued to take her, slow, savouring every moan and movement she made. Sesshoumaru had forgotten what it felt like to be with her. This was why they had ten children.
Kagome began to feel a pressure she had never felt before. She opened her eyes and looked at him.
"Sesshoumaru," she whispered, her voice leaving her from the sensations she was feeling. She felt him tense at the sound of his name off her lips.
"Kagome," He whispered back, their eyes meeting as he continued to slip in and out of her, drawing more moans and cries from the woman.
Something compelled her yet again, but now it was something she was starting to understand. She might not know their history, but her soul did. "I love you," she said.
She began to tremble; she wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him as close as she could as she came.
Sesshoumaru felt her walls tightening around him and he could not take it. He smelt her, he was with her. "I love you Kagome," he said as he came. His orgasm was intense. As his seed filled the woman he loved for probably the last time, Sesshoumaru felt such happiness and satisfaction.
They laid there for only a moment, totally out of breath. Sesshoumaru stayed within his miko, and she kissed him again. He pulled her to rest on his chest and soon he was asleep.
Kagome felt panic at the sight of him sleeping. She laid herself on his chest to feel his breathing, making sure he was still with her.
It was still mid-morning, but all in the household knew it was not uncommon for their lord and lady to "Nap" in the middle of the day.
When Kagome woke up he was still breathing. They went down for dinner. She hugged each one of her children and cried. They were confused as to how and why she knew, but it didn't matter. This last moment to all be together was all they had wanted.
Sesshoumaru could feel it throughout dinner. His family together one more time made the nostalgia of the situation really hit him; it was finally going to end. He pulled Kagome into his lap. 'Just one last time, I want to hold her,' he thought.
After dinner, as the sun set, Sesshoumaru took Kagome for a walk. They sat next to the koi pond and watched the sun disappear. Sesshoumaru laid his head in her lap and Kagome knew. She had done this before, but this was not as vague. He was dying, right here, in her arms. The memories of this flashed through her mind as a dam broke, flooding her with images and feeling of having lived this moment hundreds of times.
She began to cry and she pulled him closer. The pain of the realization was more intense than she could have imagined. She was shattering. Her tears fell on his face and he reached up to wipe them away.
"I have never loved nor respected another as much as I have you, Miko. It is unfortunate that we should be entangled in such a tragic destiny," he said, as caressed her cheek. "My love, find happiness here in this time."
Kagome kissed him with a passion she didn't know she had.
"I love you Kagome," he said.
"I love you, Sesshoumaru," she said, and then he was gone. He faded in front of her; he even died gracefully, his passing leaving Kagome alone. The miko sat in the dark and cried. Though all knew what was happening, they let their lady mourn her lord for a little while before coming to retrieve her.
She cried in his bed most of the night, remembering the promise she had made.
'Maybe he was right, to go through this pain for an eternity, doomed to repeat it...' Her heart and soul ached at losing him.
When morning came, she got up to go eat breakfast with her children, not sure of what to do now. The letter had told her to move forward, but her heart ached at the idea.
When she got to the table and sat down she noticed something. Instead of ten chairs, there were eleven.