Still don't own Twilight but I still love playing in the Twi. world.
A/N: Still not BETA'd so excuse grammar it's a work in progress and a way to learn.
Broken Heart
Chapter 10
Edward part 2
After the conversation with Edward, we decided to grab something to eat and try being just friends. Yeah I know he is biding his time but I am hoping he comes to terms with the fact that we are not going to be a couple any longer. I decided to text Jasper to let him know my plans because I did not want to ruin things before they even started and I know he is pacing and losing his mind. I have been with Edward for like 2 hours already and now we plan on lunch. After lunch we are going to get my stuff from James' place and then go home. Afterward I am planning on asking everyone if they want to go to the bar I work at and have some drinks because Angela is working tonight.
Jazz everything w/Edward went fine. We are going to have lunch and run some errands. Don't worry he agreed just friends! I am so happy he took it better than I thought! Miss u already! See ya soon! ;-) - B
He must have been waiting with his phone in hand because his reply was almost instant.
Hurry back to me darlin'! Miss u too! I am gonna get sum lunch w/Rose and Em then. Glad he took it good. TTYL 3 ;-) –J
I sighed because I know he was not too happy but at least he wasn't tripping out on me. I also knew he knows his brother and knows Edward is not taking it well at all. Then Edward broke me out of my thoughts.
"So Bella what are we going to eat? I have been in Chicago for a few months and haven't really been to many restaurants." Edward said with excitement in his voice.
"I'm not sure, maybe we should go to Maxwell Street Polish, for some polish sausage or Chicago style hotdogs. Or if you want pizza we can go to Capri's pizza, it's on the south side of the city." I said very hungrily.
"HM that is a hard choice how about we have polishes and dogs for lunch and pizza for dinner. I mean we are gonna get hungry after we get your stuff, aren't we?" Edward said nervously. But I was going to kill his buzz because I am going to suggest inviting everyone.
"Yeah, pizza for dinner sounds great we can call everyone and go out for drinks where I work after we eat. Instead of Capri's we can go somewhere close to the bar." I said excitedly.
"Y-yeah th-that would be great." Edward said hesitantly.
"Look Edward I told you, just friends and I think it's time we all started hanging out again besides we are adults and legally can drink now." I said in a serious tone he would understand that meant business.
"Yes Bells I think your right it does sound fun. I have been waiting for the time we could all go out together. I just never thought we wouldn't be a couple and it will be very hard to see you and Jazz together." He said with a solemn tone.
"Edward I told you I have feelings for him but he and I are not together right now! We are taking things slow because I am not ready after all the shit James did to me. Besides I would never hurt you by hanging all over your brother in front of you! At least until I am sure you are okay with our relationship." I said matter of factly.
"Oh!" Was all he responded with a grimace on his face probably because I brought up James.
"Well I will text them and see if they want to have dinner and drinks later, okay?" I said happily because I was very excited to spend time with everyone and I was really missing Jazz.
"Okay Bells you text while I drive to the hotdog place. What's the address? I will put it in the GPS and drive there." He said with a slight smile.
"The address is 3801 West Harrison Street. It's a good thing I had that address saved in my phone!" I laughed and started texting everyone with the plans to see who was available. I decided to text Rosalie first this way I could kill two birds with one stone because I knew Emmett would be with her.
Hey! You and Em wanna get some pizza and go out for drinks at my bar? Ang is working tonite! -B
Yes! He said of course silly Belly! We have been waiting to go out with you! BTW is Edward and Jasper going? Jazz is with us having lunch and he looks worried and sad. -R
Well I haven't asked Jazzy yet but Edward said yes. -B
You want me to ask him? He didn't hear me ask Em cause he was in the restroom. -R
No thanks I was gonna text him next. Please let me do it, okay? -B
Yea! It will be sound a lot better coming from you Bells -R
Thanks! TTYL Rosie -B
Oh shit! I forgot that Jasper was with them and I knew he was being too understanding when I text him earlier. I really love Rosalie because she tells you just how it is no sugar coating. I am so glad she told me how Jazz was feeling; now it is time to text him to let him know I'm thinking of him.
Jazzy what's up? I was just thinking about you and missing you. How about all of us go out for pizza and drinks at the bar I work at? Ang works tonight and wants to see all of us. –B
I waiting for a few minutes and then finally Jasper text me back.
Yes! That will be fun! I haven't been out with everyone in so long and I haven't been out with u w/them! Is Edward okay with this? I mean he does know you guys are going as friends, right? I mean I get it that so are we too but… -J
Wow he really is feeling insecure and sad. I need to rectify this and fast.
Jasper Cullen! What did I tell you! Jeez, yes Edward knows we are just friends! And as for you and me we are taking things SLOW. I am pretty sure we are more than just friends but not a couple yet, okay? I know I am selfish but I need some time to get my SHIT together. I am sorry to drag you along like this and you DON'T have to wait for me at all! If you find someone that deserves you and makes you happy than go for it! I don't want to HURT anyone! Please understand that! –B
Isabella Marie Swan! WTF did I tell you? HUH? I thought I made myself quite clear, I will wait however long it takes for you to be comfortable and ready to be with me. No MATTER how long it takes! NEVER STOP believing that! -J
NEVER! I promise I will never stop believing but sometimes I feel so selfish and shitty for wanting you after being with Edward. IDK it just feels wrong, like I am hurting the people I care about, too much! I really do want to be with you but I just need to…. –B
I couldn't finish the statement; I hope he understands it's just so fucking hard for me to face all my demons. But I am going to do it for him, so I can love him the way he deserves to be loved. I just need to get Edward out of my system for good and that means a trip to Forks, specifically the meadow. Once I go there I plan to let Edward go and come back and move forward with Jasper. My thoughts were broken again, but this time it was a text from Jasper.
Thank you Bella darlin' all I ask is for a chance to be happy with you. That is all I have ever wanted. And don't worry about hurting anyone because you are NOT! I promise if I am not what you want and Edward is I will not stop you from being HAPPY. NEVER stop yourself form being happy because you're scared of hurting someone. We are BIG boys and we know what we are getting ourselves into. Please NEVER doubt yourself or stop yourself from love or happiness. Our family will be here for you no matter whom you are with or if you decide not to be with either of us. You are a part of this family FOREVER! –J
I PROMISE! Thanks Jazzy I needed that! You always know what to say to make me feel better! 3 ;-) -B
After reading Jasper's texts, I starting thinking about all the promises I made to him and Rose. Fuck, I promised them we would get my stuff together! I guess I was being really stupid and selfish again. I better text them and see if they can come try and get my stuff today or if another day would me better. I knew that James would be out of town the next few days because Angela heard from a mutual friend he was leaving for a few days. So I decided to text everyone to see what would work best. I sent the same text to Jasper, Rosalie, and Emmett.
Hey! Is today a good day to get my shit? James will be out of town. Oh and if yes what time would work? J,R,EM
Then I sent Angela a text.
Hey Ang! Are you busy before work? Because I am trying to get everyone together to go get my shit, since you said James was out of town. –B
Jasper was the first to respond.
Of course Darlin' anytime you need me I am here! What time r u thinking? We are almost done with lunch. –J
Right after I read Jasper's text, Rosalie's chimed in.
Yea Bells Em and I r game after we eat and Jazz said u text him too and he was game also. –R
I breathed a sigh of relief because I was finally going to close that shitty chapter in my life, hopefully for good.
Angela was the last to answer back.
Sorry Bells no can do. I gotta get to work early to help do some extra cleaning but as long as everyone else is there I am okay with u going. –A
It's koo Ang everyone else is game so no worries. BTW we are ALL coming up to the bar later for drinks during your shift so see ya soon. –B
That is fucking AWESOME! Can't wait, to see ur ass tonite! –A
I was giggling after Angela's text and could see Edward raising a curious eyebrow toward me. I was so caught up in texting everyone I almost forgot he was next to me.
"Oh that was Angela she is excite we are all going to come up to the bar tonight. And by the way Jazz, Rose, and Emmett are going to meet up with us later to get my stuff from James' place." I said excitedly to Edward.
"Okay?" He said uneasily.
I guess he was hoping to spend more alone time but I was going to try and prevent that as much as possible from now on, especially if things with Jasper were going to progress. After everything that Jasper just said to me I knew that distancing myself from Edward would be best or at least making sure we weren't alone.
I looked at my phone and thought I better send a time to them so we can get this over with, preferably sometime soon so I wouldn't have to be alone with Edward much longer. So I text them all to meet us at back at the Cullen house at 3pm so we could borrow Carlisle's truck. I figured that Jasper and I could ride in the truck and Rose, Em, and Edward could ride in Em's big ass Jeep, this way one trip was all that was needed. They all agreed but I could see that Edward was sulking. He was trying his hardest to hide it but his eyes always told the truth, just like mine.
I was starting to get excited thinking about the drive with Jasper and then being able to relax and have a few drinks with everyone. I just hope that Edward and Jasper don't start acting stupid and jealous. I was planning on driving myself so if they did act like idiots I could leave. I was lost in my thoughts again when I felt a warm hand on my arm.
"Bells, what is going on in that head in yours that has you so distracted?" Edward said with a sigh letting go of my arm.
"I don't know Edward; I just have a lot on my mind. So what are you gonna eat when we get there?" I said to distract him from asking any more questions about my thoughts. Because I was not telling Edward I was thinking about Jasper, no fucking way.
I looked at his expression and knew he knew I was changing the subject. He sighed again and said "I'm thinking of trying a Chicago style hotdog and a Maxwell Street polish with some fries."
"That's my boy! At least your appetite hasn't changed, I was thinking of having the same." I licked my lips thinking about the food. I watched as his hands gripped the steering wheel, his knuckles turning white. Shit I better be careful of my actions I should've known that would turn him on it always did.
"Yea so your appetite is the same as well, I take it. I always loved that about you that you weren't one of those salad eating freaks!" He said with amusement.
"Hey! I happen to like salad but I also like everything else too. In fact I was planning on a hotdog, polish, fries and a salad to laugh at! So ha!" I was chuckling now. Edward always knew how to lighten the mood and make me laugh. I really miss him in my life; I just hope he is willing to stay my friend. I sighed and looked at him.
"What?" He said hesitantly with a questioning look in his jade colored eyes.
"Nothing, I was just hoping that you could understand that we can only be friends and I was praying you could accept that because I miss having you in my life." I said with a loud sigh.
He looked at me searching my eyes, while we were a red light, then he sighed and I could have sworn I heard him say "for now." "Yea Bella I get it okay, just friends. I am trying my hardest to accept that but I need time, okay?" I saw the saddest expression on his face and it tore at my heart.
"I really am sorry Edward but that is all I am capable of. I just can't ignore that fact that I have feelings for someone else. I just got to know, no I need to embrace this and see what happens. However I don't plan on just jumping into things with him, I plan on taking things slow." I looked him in his eyes to express my sincerity but the light changed and he looked back at the road.
"I get it Bella! I will be the friend you need but I just can't be happy about it, not right now at least. Just give me some time to adjust, okay? It is not the easiest thing to hear someone you have love for so long, is falling for your brother." He said through clenched teeth.
"Alright Edward let's not talk about this shit right now! Let's just enjoy our day being friends, okay?" I was fighting back tears at this point.
"Yes, I agree let's leave the heavy behind for now and enjoy the day." He had a slight smile playing on his lips and a thoughtful expression in his eyes.
We made it to our destination and ate our lunch, discussing things like our past classes and the grades we have received. I was very happy to find out that even though he was taking his core classes on-line he was getting straight A's. He would be starting at school with me in the fall and had a few core classes left before he started medical school. We talked about things we accomplished and things we failed at. We also talked about our 21st birthdays and what we did to celebrate them. After our light conversation and lunch. We drove back to the house to meet up with everyone else. It was so great to laugh and joke with Edward again, as friends. Surprisingly he kept his word and acted only as a friend. The jokes and teasing continued as we made our way to the Cullen house (home). I took it as a sign that us being friends was possible but I am not stupid enough to believe that it wouldn't take time for him to accept Jasper in my life.
Sorry it's short but too much going on in the next one so I had to break it up. Hopefully the next will be up in a week.