All characters are not created by me but the amazing Stephenie Meyer. I only made the story line :)

Chapter Ten - Esme's Suggestion

I could just not sleep. The words on the letter stood out in my mind and the words Jake spoke swirled around my head in complicated patterns. I turned over and looked at the picture of Grandpa Charlie that sat on the nightstand. I kissed my fingers and then reached out to touch the picture.

In precisely eight hours and twenty-three minutes I would say my final goodbye to Grandpa Charlie. I tossed over in bed again all hope of sleep was lost now so I gave up and crawled out of bed and stumbled across the room. I could hear my family downstairs talking quietly amoungst themselves, not looking where I was going I bumped straight into a sleepy Jacob.

"Sorry Jacob." I said trying to keep my eyes focused on his face when he was standing in front of me in nothing but a pair of too short shorts, I felt self concious again as I was only in his tshirt.

"No, don't worry it Ness, my fault." Jacob said softly, he started to walk past back to where he was sleeping but stopped short and leaned his face towards mine. My heart picked up and my breathing rate increased. Was he going to kiss me? His lips were in my ear.

"Ness if I were you I would put on a pair of shorts, you'll give your father a heart attack if he sees you wearing nothing but that shirt." he laughed softly before pulling away. "Night Nessie."

"Sure, sure. Night Jakey" I said masking the dissapointment in my tone with a laugh, but it sounded off. 'I Love You' I added inside my head and sighed.I reached across the the chair and picked up my jeans and quickly put them on before descending down the stairs.

"Ness? Everything alright?" Rosalie asked me as I came down the stairs, she raised her eyebrows at my shirt and I smiled timidly. She put down the magazine she was reading and patted the space beside her.

"Sure, can't sleep." I said staring outside into the darkness. "I think I might go hunting." I said quietly. I needed to get out of the house, to clear my thoughts.

"Ok Nessie, can I come?" Grandma Esme asked.

"Sure." I smiled politely, I could talk to Esme about Jacob. We ran in silence approaching a small meadow, I slowed down, I recognised this place. Esme noticed me slowing down and came back to where I was stood frozen.

"Renesmee whats wrong?" Esme said stroking my face

"I know this place."I said quietly

"Yes, it's your Mother's and Father's meadow. This is where they first declared their love. And of course where the big confrontation happened." Esme said her eyes lighting up at the word love.

"Oh I see." I said but I still did not move.

"Speaking of love have you talked to Jacob yet?" Esme asked

"No and yes. Esme he loved my Mom." I said practically inaudiably. Thinking about Jacob and my Mom made me feel sick and the venom welled up in my mouth again. I swallowed it.

"I know."

"You knew and you never told me?!" I ordered suddenly becoming angry "Is this what you were keeping from me?"

"Nessie, calm down. That's all in the past. I think you shoud tell him." Esme said stroking my arm

"I don't know how to." I said my voice breaking as I fought back the tears. Esme sensing this pulled me into a hug.

"Nessie why don't you bring him here? This afternoon is supposed to be a nice day, maybe it will help." Esme suggested.

"Acutally that's not a bad idea.." I said trailing off wrapping myself up in my thoughts.

"Should we hunt then Nessie?" Esme asked obviously noticing that I was far away.

"Sure." Esme and I hunted stinking herbivores in the game park before returning back to the house. The funeral started in a couple of hours and I had to plan what I was gonig to say to Jacob.