Chapter 10: Sex Ed with Alice
Edward had left my house after my shower, to change his clothes. He'd returned to pick me up for school. I saw Alice in the morning, and she had a big grin on her face. She ran up to me and put her arms around me, as Edward looked at her suspiciously.
"Bella you are positively glowing!" she exclaimed. "Interesting night last night?" she then asked with a wink. I turned red instantly, and Edward decided to look out the window. Neither of us answered the question, but she paid no heed.
"So, what's up?" she then casually asked me. Her voice was casual, but it in no way matched her body language. She was literally bubbly with excitement, and was just short of jumping up and down with glee. I shook my head. Alice – you had to love her. She knew what I was going to ask, she'd seen it already, but she was going to allow me to do it the conventional way.
"Well Alice, since Edward will be going hiking withJasper and Emmett tonight after school...I was wondering if you wanted to...hang out?" I said convincingly. I said hiking just in case any non-vampires were listening. It wouldn't do to have someone overhear me telling Alice that since her brothers were going to hunt animals and drink their blood for nourishment, how's about a little girl time? I chuckled at how well that would be received if overheard.
"Sure thing Bella! We have sooooo much to talk about!" she said as she looked towards Edward. Edward shook his head in annoyance, and I gazed down at the floor. After a few seconds I heard the warning bell announce that we had 5 minutes left until class started. Alice said her goodbyes, and danced down the hallway gracefully.
Edward looked at me. "Alice is blocking me again. I couldn't read anything at all of her thoughts this morning." he said frustrated.
"Huh. She must have her reasons..." I added lamely.
Edward looked at me, and he frowned. I was a poor actress. He knew that it had something to do with me. Whatever vision Alice had seen, it involved me and her, and she didn't want Edward to see or know about it yet.
"Indeed." was all he said to that. We walked the rest of the way to our first class together in silence.
I was in Alice's car speeding down the highway. Alice was driving me home from school since Edward was leaving with his brothers, but said that she had to make a quick stop before we went to her house. I considered Port Angeles to be a little bit far for a "quick stop" but I guess with Alice's driving it may as well have been down the road. We wove through the traffic and in no time entered the city. She parked the car, and I went to undo my seatbelt. I felt Alice's smooth icy fingers on my hand.
"Just wait here Bella. I won't even be two minutes." she replied as I looked at her questioningly.
Alice checked to make sure that no one was watching, and ran down the street, and turned a corner in an instant with her vampire speed. I was left in the car wondering what on earth she could be doing, and why I couldn't come with her. True to her word though, I didn't have time to dwell on this mystery for long. Two minutes later she strolled down the street with a bag in her hand. She opened the trunk, and tossed it in, and then entered the car. She gazed at my questioning expression, and giggled.
"Some things, you just cannot buy in Forks..." was all the explanation she was going to offer. She started the car, and within minutes were back on our way to the Cullen house.
When we arrived at the house, Alice grabbed the bag from the trunk, and then guided me into the house. The rest of the family was there. Carlisle and Esme smiled warmly as I entered their house. Rosalie merely nodded to me, and then made her way up the stairs. All the rest of the family were hunting now. What happened next surprised me.
Alice glanced at Carlisle and Esme, and then called Rosalie back into the room. She made her way back with a huff, and stood there tapping her foot. Rosalie made no secret of her dislike for me. I looked down at my hands.
"Okay...everyone out please. Bella and I need to talk. You can return in two hours." Alice said in her pixie voice, and pointed to the door. "No closer than three miles, and I will see it if anyone tries to come back here!" she continued as her delicate voice began to gain in volume. Rosalie, Esme, and Carlisle looked confused, but they made their way to the door. If Alice told them they needed to do something, they trusted her, and did not argue.
I began to ask Alice what was going on, but she put her hand on my lips. "Shhhh" she said and then her eyes went blank for 30 seconds. She snapped out of her vision then and smiled. "They are far enough away now...." she explained.
"Far enough away for what?" I asked her.
"Far enough away that they won't hear us. I know this isn't easy for you Bella. But the questions you want to ask, will be easier to ask if you know that there are not others in the house with super hearing that can hear every word you speak." she said sweetly.
I'd forgotten about that! Whew...Alice was a lifesaver. Alice led me to her room, and I sat on a chair. She sat on the bed, and waited for me to speak. I looked at her, and then my hands. I looked up again, and fidgeted. How should I start? A broad smile appeared on Alice's face, and she moved to me. I felt her fingers on my cheek. She had nothing but love in her golden eyes. She guided my face to lock her eyes with mine. "Ask me..." she said in a melodic whisper.
I gulped. "Alice...last night...." I began, and blushed deeper as I saw Alice's smile grow wider. She'd seen us last night! Shaking the thought off, I continued. "...last night...well you wouldn't believe it! It was so incredible Alice! Well you saw it. You must have saw it! I couldn't believe it was happening! I felt so good. Edward was so wonderful. I felt so happy...and loved...and it was like one of the best things that ever happened between us!" I blurted out. I was starting to feel more at ease now.
Alice nodded, and waited for me to continue. "Anyways...Edward made me feel so good Alice. And umm...well...I...." I broke my gaze with her. I stared at the floor now, and my voice dropped. "I...want to make Edward feel good too" I confessed in little more than a whisper. I looked up, and saw Alice's wide smile.
"It's okay Bella. There is nothing wrong with wanting to make Edward feel good." she said seriously. I nodded in reply.
"But first things first...what would you like to do to make Edward feel good?" she then asked me.
My face went even redder, if possible. How could I give voice to my desires? I was too embarassed now. Part of the problem was that a few of the words I wanted to use, I'd never even really spoken aloud before. So how could I do it now, when Alice was here? I sighed, and played with my hands for a few seconds. I looked back up at Alice, begging her with my eyes.
"Ahh..." she said knowingly. She took my hand in hers, and rubbed it softly. "So...ok then...terminology first."
She stood up then, and walked to the window and looked outside. Maybe she thought that it would be easier if I didn't have to see her face as she spoke.
"Bella...I'm going to use some terms, and you must not get offended. I know it will be embarassing for you, but trust me..." she turned around to look at me now and continued. "...that will pass with time, and practice. Do you trust me Bella?" she then asked. I nodded, and she turned to look out the window again.
"Bella...have you seen Edward's cock?" she asked me plainly.
I took a sharp intake of breath. I was floored at Alice's unexpected question. My eyes opened wide, and my throat constricted. I couldn't speak. Alice laughed.
"It's just a word Bella..." she trilled lightly. "So...have you? Have you seen his cock?"
I shook my head no. She tilted her head and put her hand to her ear, and pretended she couldn't hear me. "No..." I said out loud.
"Do you want to?" she then asked me.
I nodded furiously. She made the "I can't hear you" gesture again. I sighed. "Yes, I want to..." I said in little more than a whisper. Alice nodded, and prodded me.
"You want to what?" she asked seriously.
"I want to see it..." I admitted in the same hushed tone as before.
"Want to see what?" she continued the questioning.
"I want to see...his...cock..." I clarified for her. I felt a tingle go through my own body as I heard my own voice say such a thing. I did blush again though. My heart rate increased as I voiced my desire.
"Well Bella...you said you wanted to make Edward feel good?" she was in full teacher mode now.
"Yeah, I want to make him feel good...." I admitted.
"Well if Edward was here now, naked before you...how would you make him feel good?" she asked me.
"Well...I would want to feel him with my hands..." I said sheepishly.
"Feel what exactly?" Alice continued to quiz me.
"His...cock. I would want to touch it. Feel it..." I admitted. I felt so guilty saying such things. But I had to admit, it was getting easier. I began to think about all the things I would do if Edward was here naked before me.
Alice nodded knowingly, and waited for me to continue.
"And...I want...it in my mouth." I confessed. Alice went to make the gesture again, but I cut her off before she could finish it. "I want to feel his cock in my mouth. I want to taste him...and lick him..." I finished. My breathing was coming in gasps now, and I could feel my arousal increasing at just the thought of doing these things with Edward.
Alice watched me...with her perfect white teeth formed into a radiant smile at my admission. She nodded again that I should keep going.
I didn't hesitate as much now before I spoke. "Oh God...Alice...I can't even describe it. It's just...last night as Edward was on top of me...I felt his erection against me. Oh...it felt so big and hard against my body. If he was here right now...oh...I would want to touch him all over the way he did to me. I want to kiss him, and lick him, and caress my way all over his body. Covering his head and neck with my caresses, and licking my way down his hard chest...and I want to touch him. Touch his cock...and taste him..." I confessed, and felt a jolt at how much easier it was getting to talk about this with Alice.
"That sounds definitely like a good start Bella..." she said with a giggle. She moved to me, and extended her hand. I took it, and she guided me until I was standing beside her. She pulled me close beside her, and she rested her head on my shoulder. I could feel her cool skin next to me even through my clothes.
"Bella...do you love Edward?" she asked me. She knew that I loved him. There must be another reason for her to ask me.
I didn't think twice. "Yes, I love him." I answered.
"I know you do. My advice to you then...is go with your instincts. If you love him...then love him. You won't make a mistake. All the things you want to do with him...are natural. It's normal. When you are with Edward, and you want to do something...leave your inhibitions at the door. When it comes to love, be fearless" she explained.
I nodded. She was right. Part of my insecurity with Edward and making him happy was constantly doubting myself, or being afraid that I would mess it up. Maybe I shouldn't overthink things as much? That made sense. No more doubt...no more worries. I'd do my best to reciprocate, and even if I didn't get it right the first time...well practice makes perfect.
"So..." I looked at Alice..."is school over?" I began to laugh.
"Almost..." she said with a wink, and handed me the bag she'd got in Port Angeles.
I opened the bag, and gasped loudly. Alice merely laughed at my reaction. Inside was a vibrator. It was shaped exactly like a hard cock, and was made of a purplish jelly like substance. It took batteries, and had from what I could make out several speed settings. My face went red again, as I looked up at Alice.
"Practice with that Bella. I felt that maybe a little hands on help would benefit you." she giggled as she emphasized the "hands on" part.
Her eyes then took on a serious expression. "That's your homework Bella. Edward...well, he's your final exam...!"