Dear readers and reviewers!
In this story, and particularly in chapter 8 & 9, I have tried to make a portrayal of sessXrin relationship which is factual and in line with the original i.e. manga/ anime/ inu yasha movies. I mean, the portrayal is not contrary to the original. From the original, I have only implied that sessXrin's relationship turning out to be romantic over the years, is too obvious. I did my best not to cook up any concept for the sake of fiction in these chapters... hope u like it…
This chapter has Rin…. Enjoy!
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From the time Rin had her heart-to-heart discussion with Kagome, she couldn't keep her mind off Sesshomaru. She knew all too well that she felt the way described by kagome only with her lord.
She could hear Kagome's words echoing in her head:-
'you simply cannot live without him'
Well…. Seiko is a very close friend but….. she CAN live without him…. But can she live without her Lord?
Two seconds passed.
"NOOOO!" Rin cried out loud, shaking her head violently, her ebony tresses swinging, "Oh! I just can't imagine…. Gasp!" Those were Kagome's words! 'you can't even imagine a life without him'.
Rin WAS living without her lord all these years. But that didn't mean she can literally do him away from her life forever! She has managed all these years due to his frequent visits and gifts. She has managed the separation, because deep within her heart, she was anticipating that she would reunite with her lord again; she would be given a choice to, right?
'his absence will only leave a permanent hole in your heart, that which can never be filled even by the most loving heart of another'- Will Seiko's absence leave hole? Yes, it will… But will it matter as much as her Lord's absence? Will she not get anxious about his absence and worry about his safety if he failed, although rarely, to make his visit between three moon cycles? Forget about his visit! Is she really happy and content with her life in the Village? Is she not missing her lord every moment of her life there, even when she does her best to distract her mind from it by engaging in all kind of chores? Has anyone, including Seiko managed to fill that hole in her heart created by her Lord? Can any human, demon or even GOD replace her LORD? Rin lightly chuckled to herself. The only GOD she knew ever existed was her LORD. Rin knew too well that her Lord Sesshomaru holds such special place in her heart that none can and will replace him; not even Seiko. Yes! She's happy only with him; she needs nothing more. Gasp! Again it was what Kagome had told me! 'when you're with him, you'll be the happiest person alive…. he's your home… only by being by his side will you feel content… no matter what, you'll want to be with him, forever!'
Rim recalled the resolution she had made when she was eight years old. She had repeated it often to Master Jaken and to herself. 'I'll always be with Lord Sesshomaru FOREVER and EVER'.
Her heart warmed at the thought of her lord. He has a cold exterior indeed. But from within he was all warm, with his love and care. She recalled their very first meeting. The dog demon who was brutally injured had tried to scare her away. But she was not as scared as he wished. Instead she only came to the demon and splashed water on the demon lord in an attempt to aid him. Rin burst into ringles (Rin + giggles = Ringles) at how naïve she had been and how her lord reacted. She remembered how much she longed to say few words of comfort to the poor injured 'thing' but was unable to for she was mute. Every day she came to provide the 'thing' some food which she could manage to get. But that 'thing' only tried to shoo her away. But how could she leave such a 'thing', although it seems to be a dangerous demon, in such tattered state! She did not give up. She was very generous by nature and so she continued her service.
She also recalled the first time he showed her tiniest hint of care by those words: "Where did you get all those bruises?... You don't have to tell me if you don't want to"….. How happy and grateful she was to have someone to care! ….. or at least who even cared to ask! She had let out a toothy smile. The 'thing' didn't understand initially, "Why are you smiling?" , but when he understood, "I don't care… I'm just curious". She ringled again at how he tried to deny it. Even from such a young age she was drawn towards him... Even at the fatal moment, when the wolves were after her, her legs instinctively ran towards his direction for protection. How had she known that that he'll protect her even from the fate of death? That voice from within her... her instincts... She was appalled by her own boldness, for meddling with such a dangerous demon as him. Why didn't he kill her then and there when he could? Did his own inner voice, his instincts not let him to?
That vital moment! When she opened her eyes to a whole new life that was presented to her, she saw the most beautiful thing in the world! A familiar one too. That beautiful thing was actually that 'thing' she was trying to aid! When that 'thing' let go of its protective grasp on her and began to leave, her instincts took over again and the first thing she did in her 'new life' was following him. Since then, she followed him everywhere and she loved it….
She finds that all those times when she had been rescued by her Lord, especially from Naraku's plot he was risking his own life! And he didn't even seem to bother about it! How much does she loves him!
But how does she love him AS? As a daughter? As a sister? Sesshomaru did take care of her as how her father or brothers would have; but did SHE ever take him for a father or a brother? She recollected her hero-worship, childish faith and blind obedience which she possesses till date; she expressed it very clearly in her previous encounter with her lord, when he saved her again, as always. But not once in all these years did she consider him as a father or a brother! She loved him to the CORE, because he was HER EVERYTHING! HER LORD SESSHOMARU! NOTHING LESS!
Rin hadn't realized that her face began to burn red. Lord Sesshomaru….. he's….. he's handsome…. Too handsome…. His tall, regal, well-built form; The sharp eyebrows… such… such amber eyes... like molten gold, that uniquely sparkles when he lays them on and only on her; thick eyelashes that brushes her heart; Straight nose and well-sculpted soft lips suiting his pale face…. Magenta stripes... perfect forehead marked by cool blue crescent moon… not to mention his long silky white hair….. that shines like silver in moonlight… his regal white haori, hakama, fluffy tail, swords, armour… his magical voice…. deeper than ocean…. frosty to all, but soft only to her…. distant, stoic demeanor….. his graceful gestures- when he walks, talks, flies, fights….. even when he transforms into an incredible white dog demon…. How can a creature be so…. PERFECT? Has he not ANY flaw? Rin said breathlessly, "HE'S MAGNIFICENT!" She's very fortunate. She knew too well how God would look like if he chooses to appear before her…..
She was melting at the very thought of him…. Ooh….! Her hands clutched her burning cheeks and she was blushing from head to toe! Her eyes were dazzling like stars and she made the widest grin. She was in such a state that, anyone who bumps into her would have thought she was drunk! In simple words, she looked like Kagome at the peak of daydreaming. "I LOVE him! I LOVE MY LORD SESSHOMARU!" she breathlessly said out load. She was in ecstasy, she was ringling (Rin + giggling = ringling) with herself. She swirled round and round and began to dance. She began to pour out her feelings by her musical voice,
SONG BEGINS-
Why are you playing hide and seek?
Oh my love, I'm as fragile as a glass.
I probed the rivers, banks and the breeze,
Nor did I miss the sky and the heavens,
Just to seek you out, but you were nowhere.
(Rin stopped dancing, closed her eyes and gently placed her hands on her chest)
Finally, I've found you, deep within my heart,
It was you all along, my lord, it was you!
I love you, Lord Sesshomaru! Yes I do!
(she started dancing again)
Am I just a doll, prone to corrosion?
Do I not have any emotion?
The constant waves in heart, calms not
Till your lips close my mouth, come hither mi-Lord
Till your lids close my eyes, come hither mi-Lord
In spite of all your battles, your skin is not tainted!
Come hither; let us have our skin blended
May you merge with my soul;
may our lips be wet with kisses;
Come hither; let us have our skin blended
When the skies poured, you rescued me
Now my eyes pour, how will you recue me?
You seem to enjoy the tears of this flower!
Am I not a damsel in distress, my Lord?
Have you not eyes to note my despair?
Am I not in your dreams?
My hesitant heart flutters, it is sore
But I will say 'it', for I'm not mute anymore
Your deep breathe swells my soul, oh Milord
Your refrain of touch ceases my soul
Come hither; bestow your soul; make you mine.
Will you not say that you're in Lo…ve?...
[NOTE:
1) In the last stanza, 2nd line, 'it' means her love and true feelings for him.
2) The irony of the song is, while Rin dreams to be more than a ward to her lord, to make love to him and wishes if he dreams about her in the least, Sesshomaru actually had a dream of her in the mean time, but it was Seiko who was making love to her in it]
SONG ENDS
She ended her song with a question. She thought about the last line. 'Will you not say that you're in Lo…ve?'. All her ecstasy and excitement came to a halt. She stood motionless; eyes casted down; lips pouted; shoulders drooped. Will he ever say that he's in love? Wait! Will he ever fall in love with her, in the first place? Her knees started to tremble and she fell on her knees… Tears were pouring out her agony and her shoulders were shaking while she weeped in silence… Then she recalled Seiko's love for her… In her pain she thought of her own hopeless love for her lord and mused, So this is how Seiko should feel if I reject him next week… She loved her friend so much, she didn't want to cause such pain and misery to him. He's too nice to deserve this …. OH! Why does my life has to be so COMPLICATED?
Sooo? What'd ya think? Rin has finally figured out that she's in love with her lord. But how will Rin decide between Seiko and Sesshomaru? How will she choose between FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE?
In this chapter I've added a tidbit which I have conceived, i.e. Rin + giggles = ringles, so if Rin is giggling, then she's 'ringling'; I know it's kinda 'kid'dish but, Rin's giggles are unique; not like those of any other; to emphasize on that uniqueness I have coined the term…
I'm sorry if this chapter was boring... The next chapter will be very interesting and thought-provoking... stay tuned ;-)
I'm so sorry I haven't brought too many sessXrin interactions till now… I just want to make this fiction as natural as a sequel to Inu Yasha final act. But I'll surely bring a lot of them up soon!
I request you all to review just to ensure that my plot does not displease you… if u have any suggestions for improvement, plzz tell me…. Plzzzzz review ;-)