CHAPTER 10

She opened the reply, that she received faster than the speed of light.

Sorry, Honey. I'll remember next time. I'm signed in. So wanting to see you.

-S

She didn't bother texting back anymore instead she focused on her laptop and opened her webcam.

'Sebastian is now online' appeared on her computer screen. Then she answered a video call from Sebastian before a handsome guy appeared in her screen.

The boy seemed to be eager to see her. Santana on the contrary wasn't as excited.

"Hey Hon! Great to see you… I wish I could hold you in my arms though." Sebastian said.

"Yeah. Me too" she said non-chalantly.

"I wish you could come here in Illinois every now and then, my dear fiancée."

Fiancée. It was noise in Santana's ears. She hates Sebastian for reminding her everyday that she belongs to him.

After some chatting, which Sebastian did all the talking, Santana decided to make an excuse. "Uhm, I really want to chat with you some more but I have homework to do." She lied. "Talk to you some other time?"

Sebastian knows that the Latina was just making a excuse. But he didn't have a choice anyway. He knows she would still insist of signing out. Even though they just met for days he easily got used of Santana's stubbornness. "Okay. Take care always. Love you!" he was waiting for Santana's 'iloveyou' back. But as always, he didn't hear it.

"Okay. Bye" she didn't want to say I love you to him because she didn't. She was dating Sebastian for her Abuela's sake. She then signed off and put her laptop at her desk and lay back to bed.

After a while she heard a knock on the door. "San?" She heard a familiar voice call.

She went towards the door to open it immediately. She saw a pale Quinn in front of her and gestured her to come in. "What brought you here? Is something wrong?" she asked worriedly.

"I wanted to check on you. I texted you but I guess you don't have time to read it so I texted you're mom. She said you were home so I decided to come see you. I missed you" she explained.

It brought a smile in Santana's face. And Santana felt relief. "I just drive you home, Quinn. You miss me that fast?" she smirked.

"Well, we used to talk at my house before you go…so how did your plan go?" remembering the plan Santana had mentioned earlier.

Santana was a caught off guard. But she knows she has to tell Quinn sooner or later. "Its fine." She shrugged not wanting Quinn to suspect. "I'll get us some juice downstairs. Don't want to get my girlfriend thirsty" she said playfully.

"You better." Quinn smiled not showing her suspicion.

After Santana went down stairs Quinn saw the other girl's cellphone lying on her bed. She grabbed the phone and checked at the messages. She does this every now and then with Santana's knowing. She clicked on the inbox. Anger ran through her veins immediately as she read the messages from Sebastian.

Its okay Babe. Always willing to wait for you

Sorry, Honey. I'll remember next time. I'm signed in. So wanting to see you.

She turned her gaze on the door that just opened.

Santana knew something bad is waiting for her as she saw her phone on Quinn's hand, and let alone Quinn's deadly stare.

"Honey? Babe?" the blonde said furiously demanding for an explanation.

"Babe, I can explain that." Santana said with pleading eyes hoping that Quinn would calm down and let her explain.

"Don't call me that. Not when some guy is calling you that. It makes me want to puke." Quinn said before Santana can continue.

"I really don't want him calling me that" she defended.

Quinn smirked, "So he calls you Honey. Wow. That made me feel a lot better now." She said sarcastically.

"No! Quinn. I don't even like this guy"

"Who's this guy anyway?"

"He's…"she had an internal battle whether she's gonna tell Quinn the truth now or not. "He's my fiancée."

"Your what? Are you freaking serious?" Quinn yelled with shock. "Maybe I just misheard what you said, 'cause last time I checked I am your freaking girlfriend!" Quinn said in disbelief.

Santana understand why Quinn is being hysterical about it. She really didn't know where to begin with. All she knows is that Quinn is hurting, and Santana doesn't that. "You are…"

"But he's your fiancé at the same time? Since when have you been cheating on me?" her voice was angry but inside she was hurt. "I thought you were gay…" she shook in disbelief.

Santana was taken aback. But learned to compose herself. "I did NOT cheat on you, Quinn. And I don't love Sebastian. Trust me."

"Trust you? I don't think I can do that anymore, Santana" Quinn reached for the door. She can't fight with Santana anymore. Not now at least. She was hurt, she thought that Brittany is the biggest pain their relationship could ever encounter, but now her girlfriend is telling her that she has a fiancé. She reached for the door but Santana grabbed her arm.

Santana grabbed Quinn's arm, it was tight enough to hold Quinn but gentle enough not to hurt her. "Quinn…please don't. I need you. Just let me explain." She pleaded.

"I need you too." Her tears that she tried to hold flowed in her cheeks. "I need you but this is what I get. I can't do this San, not now. Let me go, if I stay with you I'm afraid I'd say something stupid"

Santana crossed her brows. "I don't want to break up with you" she heard Quinn say. She released Quinn from her grip, and before she knew it Quinn was out of her house.

After Quinn left Santana's house she went straight to the park. That was the only place she knew she could be alone. Only a few people go there at those times, most people would rather stay home or go to parties. She sat at the swing. She stayed there for two hours. She was thinking about so many things, mostly about her problems, including Santana.

Santana was worried sick. She at Quinn's house to check if Quinn was safe and at home but her mom told Santana that she hasn't arrived yet. Santana texted Quinn like a million times but she didn't get any reply. She decided to look for her after 30 minutes. She drove her mustang. Knowing Quinn, she would be at some place less populated and she thought of the park, so she went there.

She saw a blonde by the swing and walk towards her slowly. "May I join you?" the Latina asked softly.

Quinn looked up to see the Latina looking down at her. She really wanted to be alone, but this is Santana, her beloved. And she needed her. She wanted her comfort, even though she's one of the reason the blonde is troubled. "Sure" she uttered before Santana sat down at the swing beside her.

Quinn looked at the stars. There was silence. Neither one dared to speak. Santana wanted to but she didn't know what to say exactly.

Quinn was the first one to break the silence. "Love is so unfair." This made Santana look at her. "The more you sacrifice, the more you get hurt." This sting Santana's hurt, she felt guilty. The Latina just stared at her waiting for her continue. Quinn turned her head at Santana's direction. "I feel like I've given my best, and it is still not enough. And I'm afraid, San." Her tears are welling up.

"Why are you afraid?" Santana asked as she held Quinn's left cheek.

"I'm afraid because there might come a time that I'd have no choice but give up" her voice was shaky, which made Santana's heart ache even more. She stood from her swing and placed herself in front of Quinn.

Santana was really flattered with Quinn's words. She couldn't describe how happy she is to know that someone could love her this much. She hated herself, for being so unworthy of Quinn's love. She brought Quinn nothing but pain. "I'm sorry. I can't determine if these things that happens are sign for us to give up or just tests to see if we can hold on for long. It confuses me, really." Santana met those Hazel brown eyes. "I wanted to let you, so I couldn't hurt you anymore"

"I actually think of that sometimes." Quinn held Santana's hands. "But I always tell to myself that pain is just temporary. It may last an hour, a day, or even years, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place." Quinn stood as well as Santana. "If I quit, however, it will last forever"

The Latina could only smile. She envies Quinn for being so brave and strong. "How can I not love you? If every time we are together you give me reasons to love you even more?" It was more of a statement than a question. And Quinn couldn't help but smile and hug the Latina. It made her heart beat faster.

"I'm supposed to hate you right now, do you know that?" Quinn said but it has a lighter tone.

Santana almost forgot about the Sebastian thing. "Well I'm glad I still have the charms" Santana joked.

Quinn slapped the other girl's arm. "Big head"

Santana pulled away from the hug and Quinn pouted. She couldn't contain her laugh. "Did I just saw you pout?"

Quinn raised a brow, "So what? Is there something wrong with that?" she asked playfully and pouted again.

Santana laughed again, "Nothing. You're just adorable." Quinn smiled, happy with the thought. "Are you ready to hear me explain myself now?" she really didn't want to bring the topic back but she thought it would be better if she can clarify it to Quinn now. Quinn nodded.

She explained Quinn that her Abuela was ill and she wanted her Santana to be married to a man, which is not surprising because she was not happy about Santana having a relationship with any girl. Sebastian was a boy that lived next to her Abuela's house and her Abuela practically watched him grew up. Her Abuela claims that he is a good boy, which Santana agrees with.

"I don't really have a choice. Abuela is getting old, and I don't want to upset her. It might worsen her condition. So I accepted Sebastian's proposal. But trust me, I don't love him." They both sat at the swing again.

"I believe you." She looked at Santana, "I'm sorry I didn't let you explain earlier. I was just so problematic." She looked down.

"I totally understand why you acted that way." She said as she caressed the blonde's hair. "Or not…you have a problem other than me, don't you? That's why you came at my house" it all came to her. Quinn just nodded and it made sense why Quinn was so sad and pale when she saw her by the door. "I'm sorry. I'm supposed to make you feel better when you seek for my company earierbut all I did was hurt you more" she was really guilty and mad at herself.

Quinn just smiled. "My dad…" Santana waited for her to continue. "He cheated"

"What? Well, are you sure? How did you know?" Santana was shocked and felt bad for Quinn.

"I saw him with…" she couldn't let the words out, Quinn sobbed.

Santana comforted her with an embrace. "With who?" Quinn just continued to sob. "Its okay… You don't have to tell me if you can't" she caressed the blonde's back.

"With Brittany's mom, Santana. Of all people. They were all over each other." this brought shock to Santana as if she's not surprised enough. She didn't know what to say to comfort the poor girl.

Santana attempted to pull away from the hug but Quinn stopped her. "Just hug me, please. That's all I need from you right now. You don't even have to say anything"

"Wait, does anyone know about this? Your mom? Brittany?" Santana asked.

"Yeah. They both know. Surprisingly, my mom knows long before I knew…" Quinn stated sadly. Something in her voice tells Santana that the blonde was not over that fact.

"Did you know how long is this affair going on?" Santana couldn't really give advice to Quinn. All she could do is ask for whatever she can ask so she could talk and fill the silence.

"Before we were born. My mom thought it was over after I was born but then I saw him 3 days earlier with Brittany's mother. It grossed me out, seriously."

"That long. Wow" Santana said in disbelief. Quinn looked at her like telling that 'Wow' isn't really necessary. "I mean in a bad way. I'm just really surprised. I mean, I didn't know Britt's mom is capable of having an affair. Especially that long…"

"Me too", was all Quinn could utter. "I want to say here in your arms forever, do you know that? But its getting late. Its either my Mom would probably kill me for going home late or she'd be dead because of worrying too much"

"I'll bring you home. Let's go" as they walked towards Santana's car hand in hand with Quinn. But while walking she couldn't take her eyes off her phone.

Quinn noticed it and asked, "Who are you texting?"

"No one." She smiled.

"Yeah. It figures" Quinn said sarcastically.

Santana ignored Quinn went inside the car. She looked at her phone one last time before driving. Quinn was starting to get annoyed. "I thought were done fighting about this secreting thing?"

Santana smirked. "I know. We are done fighting." She placed a kiss on the blonde's cheek. "I texted your mom; I asked for her permission if you could just sleep at our house, and she said yes." She said enthusiastically.

Quinn couldn't help but smile. "I so love you right now" She hugged the Latina, but she saw the girl pouted. "What?"

"Just now?" Santana asked playfully. Both of them giggled.

"Of course not. I just love you more." she said before she sighed. "Just when I though I couldn't love you more, you always prove me wrong"

Both girls cuddled in Santana's bed. They spent their night thinking about nothing but each other, at least that's what Quinn showed. She was more than happy being in Santana's arms and sleep beside her. But inside her head all she can think of is Brittany and the confrontation and revelation she had with her family.