A/N: I said I'd put the names of the people who guessed where Leah was going in this chapter but no one's guessed correctly so far so I'm including the names of two of the people who give me the most reviews "MrsBlackWifey" also know as Nikki and "ari11990" known as Ariana. According to their profiles at least. Hope you don't mind, if you do I can edit out and repost it.
Alice is already in the car. I open the passenger door for Leah and she slides inside, silently. I worry about her and I shoot a glance at Alice who nods. She'll make sure Leah stays safe until she's dropped off at the reservation. She'll make sure they look after her too.
I close the door and walk around, putting the bag in the boot of the car. I take a step back and raise my arm, waving to see Leah off, and watch as the car pulls out. I keep watching it until it reaches the end of the road. And then I run.
"She walked away. Couldn't say why she was leaving." She Walked Away - BarlowGirl.
Alice POV
I'm driving slowly. At the actual speed limit. It's driving me crazy to be this slow but I know going faster would probably make Leah ill...all over the inside of my car.
Leah is silent. It's been twenty minutes and she hasn't spoken a word. Or moved. I'm a little worried about her. She says nothing, does nothing and only the faint rising of her chest and the soft beating of her heart tell me she's still alive. I worry. It's not natural to be around a human so devoid of life, so devoid of feeling. So catatonic.
She just sits there silent, eyes closed, the odd tear leaking out the corners. I know this is hurting her but it's the choice see made.
Leah POV
It hurts. It hurts to much. Jake, my Jake. Oh I love him so much what was I thinking? I can't do this on my own. I barely function without him. Jake. My Jake. This journey is going to be the hardest one I ever have to make.
I should end it all now. Quickly. Before anyone notices. Before they stop me. I'd be out of Jae's life forever then. I wouldn't be there to hurt him anymore. All I do is cause pain, and problems. I'm no good for anybody.
But I can't kill Jake's baby. No. Not his baby. Not my baby. I'll wait.
Alice POV
Were here now and I'm a little tense about leaving Leah. I know that she's not ready to be abandoned onto the graces of strangers, it hurt her enough leaving Jacob. But this is what she wanted to do. This is what she wanted. And I have to respect her decision. She's in a difficult situation with difficult choices and this perhaps is the best place for her.
I get out of the car and open the door for Leah. She gets out silently. I wish Edward were here. To tell me she's OK, that she's not going to do anything stupid, but I have to trust her. It's hard.
I walk over to a tall looking couple. Two representatives to make sure Leah fits into the Makah tribe. Their faces look calm and I know they'll be supportive of Leah, like Jacob's tribe was supportive of Embry's mother. They'll look after her. I walk over and introduce myself and Leah. They're expecting us.
The taller woman introduces herself as Nikki. Her friend's name is Ariana. I know they'll help Leah fit in. That's what they're here for. To protect her. To keep her safe. The way Jacob should have kept her safe, out of danger. Happy.
Nikki attempts to speak to Leah only to be greeted with silence. She trails of and shares a worried glace with me. Leah's state is not normal. She's practically catatonic. I smile reassuringly and try to pretend that everything will be alright, that everything will work out. But I know it's going to be hard.
Leah's silent. Ariana takes her arm and smiles sympathetically.
"Hush now sweetheart," she rubs Leah's back soothingly. "It'll be alright here, we'll look after you." Where have I heard that before? No one ever takes proper care of Leah. They always let her hurt herself.
Everybody just seems to let her down. All the time. It's as if she's living in some kind of soap opera. Or Shakespearean Tragedy. Only death and misery to look forward to. Leah's surely had more than enough suffering to classify. I can't help but think that maybe we're letting her down, abandoning her by letting her do this to herself, to Jacob. Maybe we should have made her stay. Maybe we should have to Jacob. Surely there was another way to sort this out than running away. It never solves anything, it just creates more problems, more lies to untangle.
The women start to lead Leah away. To her new home. I hope that she'll be safe here. More than anything I hope that his was the right decision, that she'll be happy here.
And yet there's doubt in my heart. I know that it's impossible for Leah to be happy without her Jacob. Her imprint. Her life. He's everything to her and just the thought of leaving Jasper for any time at all just about tears my heart to shreds. I don't know how she can do it, how she can even contemplate it, how she can possibly cope. Or maybe she can't.
It's too late now. It's out of my hands. There's nothing I can do but support her and pray she's made the right decision. I have to hope that Leah will be OK from now on. That this will be a fresh start for her, a better start.
And so I turn my back, get in my car and drive away. Leah's has to be Ok now, with or without us.
