A/N: Here's the tenth chapter of A Family of My Own. I'm thinking of starting a new story as soon as I finish this one….it'll be about vampires though…I'm better at writing that. Anyway, hopefully this fic will be coming to a close soon…I'm really starting to run out of ideas. Disclaimer: ME NO OWN
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Harry's POV
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I just barely made it into my room before I heard Draco's voice floating up the stairs. Topaz unearthed herself from under my bed and hovered near the door, turning to me almost sadly. "I know, girl, it hurts me too." I held out a hand and she rubbed herself against it.
"Harry." The sudden voice at my door made me jump. No one in the house called me Harry except, "It's Draco, let me in."
Topaz zoomed happily to the door and turned to me, hovering just above the doorknob. "I can't, Topaz." I whispered. "I just can't face him."
The small golden ball was coming at me and before I could stop her she was down my shirt making sure that I walked to the door.
"Please Harry, just let me in." The voice pleaded. "I need to talk to you. Please."
My hand fell onto the doorknob and I took a deep breath. What do I say? I thought frantically. "Okay." Smooth. I reprimanded myself furiously.
"I'm really sorry about offending you earlier. I didn't mean it. I really didn't it just came as so much of a shock and it was too much for me to handle at once. Please don't' break this off because of one mistake. I'm begging you." I could swear that I heard the blonde break out in sobs halfway through his apology.
"Draco," I said softly, holding Topaz tightly to my chest, trying to lessen the ache that had started there, "that's not the reason I'm ending this, ending us. I know this sounds really cliché but it's not something you've done, I promise. I've just," I hesitated for the right word, "realized that I can't keep stringing you along like I've been doing."
"Do you mean," the boy choked, "that you never loved me?"
The words cut right to my heart. I wanted to fling open the door and take the blonde into my arms but I knew that Pansy had liked him longer and I had no right taking him away from her. It was selfish of me and I had known from the start that it had been too good to last.
I opened my mouth and uttered the words that left a bitter taste in my mouth. "Yes Draco, that's exactly what I mean."
Footsteps fled down the hall and hung a right. I collapsed right there in front of the door and started to sob. Topaz hovered in front of my face when I finally let her go before fleeing to her favorite spot under my bed.
I had no idea how much time had passed before I finally calmed down enough to stumble to my bed. What felt like hours later there was a gentle knock on my door. "Griffith, are you okay?" Hermione asked softly.
"What do you think?" I lifted my head from my pillow and shouted at the door. "I just had to break up with the one guy that truly accepted me and you expect me to be okay?"
"No, I expect you to be miserable. May I come in?" She didn't wait for an answer as the door opened and her head poked around the frame.
"It hurts so much." I cried into her shoulder as she sat down on my bed.
"Then why did you do it?" She ran her slender fingers through my lengthening black hair.
I struggled with a way to explain my logic to her but came up blank. "It's hard to explain." I ended up saying. "But to me it all makes sense."
There was a long silence. "Griffith, are you sure you're doing the right thing?"
"No." I mumbled. "But it was something I had to do."
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A/n: I know it's a really short chapter, the shortest of all of them, but I'm still trying to get through this writer's block…I don't remember where I heard this but 'when you hit a wall search it for a door.' now that's gonna bug me….where did I HEAR that?