Murdock woke in his old room at the VA, hating himself. He curled into a ball and waited for the nurses to come and get him. Last night was the worst, Kelly, Face or Hannibal wasn't there for him. Maybe they'll come today...
The door creaked open. "Mr. Murdock? You have a visitor, she says she's your finacee." The nurse quietly asked.
Murdock turned around. "Kelly?" He wiped his stinging eyes.
Kelly thanked the nurse and closed the door, holding something white in her hands. "Murdock, how are you feeling?" Her eyes were red like she'd been crying.
Murdock twisted his hands in his blanket. "Terrible."
"Will good news help?" Kelly gave him a watery smile.
Murdock shrugged. "I doubt anything will help."
Kelly sniffed and wiped her eyes. "Murdock, I'm pregnant."
Murdock gasped and took her hands. "For real?"
She nodded and kissed him. She showed him the positive pregnancy test she held in her hands. "For real, it's for real!"
Murdock laughed and picked her up in his arms. "I'm going to be a Dad!" He yelled and sat Kelly down on the bed.
Kelly laughed. "Come on, the van's waiting outside. I'm going to sign you out."
Murdock shrugged his bomber jacket on and took her hand. Kelly led him out of his old room with his hand on her belly. Kelly signed him out and they walked back to the van, hand in hand.
Face rushed over and hugged him. "How are you feeling?"
Murdock smiled. "Excited."
Face wrinkled his nose. "Excited?"
Kelly cleared her throat. "We have something to announce. I'm preganant."
Amy squealed and clapped her hands over her mouth. Face laughed and clasped Murdock on the back, Hannibal smiled and puffed on his cigar. B.A smiled and pounded Murdock on the back.
"Congrats. When's the wedding?" Hannibal smiled and asked.
"Two days." Murdock's smile grew wider. "Did you get your dress yet?"
Kelly nodded. "Yeah, the first day you were gone."
Murdock took her hand and climbed into the van. "Okay, I need to go home." He rubbed his forehead and pulled Kelly onto his lap. "I have a huge headache."
Kelly took his hand and rubbed it between her hands. "Do you guys have any other missons planned after the wedding?"
"Yeah, I don't know if we can do one in-" Hannibal started.
"Hannibal, we can't do that one." Face said sharply.
Murdock stiffened. "Where is it?"
Face hesitated. "'nam." He said quietly. "We don't have to go-"
Murdock shook his head and placed his hand on Kelly's stomach. "No, no it's fine." Kelly rubbed circles in his knuckles.
Face sighed and rubbed his temples. "No, after what just happened in there, no. No way."
Murdock pressed his nose into Kelly's neck. "That was for a different reason." He said as they started to pull out of the VA.
Kelly sqeazed his hands and they rode in silence. "Thanks for the ride!" She called and stepped out of the van.
"Thanks Colonel, I'll see you later." Murdock grinned his squinty eye grin as the van rode off in a cloud of dust.
Kelly took his hand and they walked into the house. "So what do you want to do now?"
Murdock shrugged and sat down in a chair. "How'd you know you were pregnant?"
"I threw up this morning and had a lot of strange cravings." Kelly sat down on Murdock's lap. "I went to the store and bought the test." She pulled him in for a kiss.
Murdock wrapped his arms around Kelly's waist. "Well, I'm glad." He rested his tired head in the crook of her neck.
She ran her hands through the thinning hair on his head. "My Mom doesn't know yet. Murdock, she figured out you're in the team." She whispered.
His arm pulled her tighter around her waist. "What?"
"When we were dress shoping, she just asked me." Kelly bent her head into Murdock.
Murdock slid his hands through her choppy hair. "Well, that's okay. I just hope she won't tell anybody."
Kelly pulled her head up and kissed him, slowly and fully on the lips. "I missed you. Murdock, you can't just beat yourself up. You've got to do what's right for yourself."
Murdock pressed his nose behind her ear. "I know, sometimes... It just takes over."
"Well, you've got Face and me and Hannibal... Even B.A can help." She chuckled a little.
"Sometimes it's just not about 'nam..." Murdock said in a shaky voice.
Kelly pulled up a chair. "Murdock, you're a damaged man I understand that. You have to do what's right for yourself."
Murdock squeazed his eyes shut and tears leaked out of the corners. "Kell-"
She cupped his face in her hands and pressed her forehead to his. "Shh, it's okay." She mumbled.
Murdock's shoulder's shook. "No it's not..." He sobbed quietly.
Kelly pushed his baseball cap up so she could look into his beautiful blue eyes. "I can help you Murdock."
Murdock pushed his cap back down. "I realize I need help."
She took his hands. "Murdock. Listen, do we need to go back to the VA?"
He shook his head wildly. "No, no, not again." He sputtered against the tears streaming down his face.
"Here." Kelly moved his hands onto her stomach. "In nine months, it will be ours, that we created. Something we brought into this world."
Murdock's crying stopped. "That's true."
"What should we name it if it's a girl?" Kelly started to slowly change the subject.
"Olivia, Livie for short. Olivia Grace Murdock." Murdock said, he had stopped crying.
"And what if it's a boy?"
"Henry, Henry David." Murdock looked up at Kelly.
Kelly smiled. "They're beautiful names."
Murdock laughed. "Just like Kelly." He pressed the tip of his nose to hers.
Kelly giggled and kissed him. "So, are you ready to get married?" She wiped the tears off his cheeks.
Murdock nodded. "More then anything." He placed both hands on her stomach. He dipped his head and planted a kiss on her stomach.
Kelly giggled and ran her hands through his thinning hair. "I love you."
Murdock pressed his head into her chest. "I love you too."
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Kelly woke on November twenty-third to a cold bedside. Murdock wasn't here because he went over to Face's to get ready for the wedding. She slowly slipped out of bed and into the shower. She heard her Mother, sister and all the bridesmades come in, including Amy.
"Kelly!" Isabella called. "Are you ready?" She walked into the bathroom. "The car will be here any minute to take us to the church!"
Kelly turned the water off and wrapped herself up in a fluffy white towel. "Just let me get dressed and I'll be ready." She pushed her Mother out of her room.
She put on the nice yellow sundress that she had worn with Murdock's bomber jacket with some flip flops. She brushed her hair quickly and threw her makeup into her bag and then went out into the livingroom.
"I'm ready." She was going to get married!
They rode to the church and went into the backroom to get Kelly ready. Her hair had been put in perfect ringlets and a sparkly clip held her bangs back. They laced her up in her plain dress that looked wonderfull on her.
"Oh my little baby is getting married." Isabelle cried a little when she zipped her own dress up.
"Does she know yet?" Amy whispered in her ear.
Kelly shook head. "No, I'll tell her later." She said quietly and fluffed her hair. "How do I look?"
Amy smiled and took her hands. "You look beautiful, Murdock is going to love it."
Kelly blushed slightly as her brother holds out his arm. "You ready?" Ronny asked.
Kelly nodded. "Lets roll."