Author's note; Aaaah, this was super-fun to write! Even though I lost half of it when my laptop dooshed up:pp
I sit on the swings of the abandoned park, the sun rising, peeking out from behind a cloud. Me and Dan have persevered up until now but I lost it today. My dad came back. He just walked through the door, unannounced. My mum looked so happy, my brother look overjoyed. I felt my heart fall at his arrival. I felt my cheap glue held together child hood fall apart. I felt like shit, him walking in, being the boss. But where was he? When Crystal announced her unexpected pregnancy with my brother? When I realized that I'm slightly-very in love with a boy? When my mum couldn't hold herself together anymore? He wasn't where he was needed.
A single tear slips down my cheek. "Phil," Dan whispers. He wraps his arm around my slumped back, causing my to smile a little. "You should really tell your dad how you feel." It's a sour thought, speaking to my dad. It doesn't seem possible. I sigh, dejected and worn out from venting to Dan. "C'mon. I'll go with you?" He suggests. I look up and smile properly. I lean up and press my lips to his, only softly and for only a few precious seconds. He smiles back at me and stands up, offering a hand. "I'll just take that as a yes." He whispers, blinking his chocolate eyes innocently. I crinkle my nose and take his hand, wishing I never had the let go.
I hesitantly knock on my own door. How pathetic. I slide my hand out of Dan's, breaking my own personal promise of 'never letting go'. My mum spots me first as I walk into the living room. They're all sat together, even Crystal, at the dinner table. I exhale sharply at the sight of my father but Dan gives me a nudge to carry on down the corridor. My mum beckons us both forwards, motioning for us to sit. "Come, eat with the family." As soon as these words are spoke I lose it again. "Family?" I sneer. My mum shoots me warning signals but I push them aside. "How can you even call -consider- him family?" I look to my brother. Surely, he'll understand. He looks down and a flush spreads in my cheeks and the anger is coursing through my body."Don't speak to your Mother like that, Phil," His tone is smooth and undermining which as a child was intimidating but now it only spurs me on. I take a shaky step toward the table. The atmosphere is silent, the tension is unbearable. "How do you even have the nerve-" My voice cracks and I'm cut off by the tears that slide down my face. I lunge forward again but Dan's arms are holding me back and my brother's strength is forcing me to the living room. Miki thrusts me onto the settee, his hands on the top of my arms. I stop struggling. "Crap, Phil!" My brother's voice has traces off guilt ensnared in it and I look him in the eye. "What happened to you?" I don't know what happened to me but on the way I figured I didn't need my father and assumed my family didn't either. I was wrong. "You skip school," He starts. "You get expelled," Crystal walks in and his voice raises a decibel, as if he's shocked. "You get a boyfriend out of no-where!" He motions to Dan by the door and I feel very offended. "You run off like a kid, you're sixteen, goddamn it!" I snap my head up and stand a head taller than Miki. "Yeah," I challenge. Crystal holds her stomach through one of her over-sized jumper, teal today. Except, it's not really over-sized any longer. "Yeah," I repeat. ",And you're only eighteen and look what you've done." A gasp from the corner engulfs my senses in guilt and I know, I know I've gone to far. My brother's back on me, for all the wrong reasons. I push him off as Crystal blinks tears out of her green eyes, filled with disappointment. I go over to her and wrap my arms around her fragile body. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," I could say it a million times but that won't take the intentions away. My brother takes my arm and leads me away from her, handing me to Dan. Crystal looks at me long and hard, her actions shocked, her eyes full of pity. "Just..go." It's barely a whisper and it's barely audible but the meaning couldn't be clearer. Dan's quick to lead me out the door and I don't look back as we proceed up the street I've know for years, I don't look back to see the pained expression on my mother's face.
P.S, I know, it's very dramatic, I do apologize. I hope you enjoyed the chapter, t'was a pleasure to write. Reviews are the best;D As always, with love -NeonLuna