! I am so sorry! I am such a bad authoress! I feel so sorry for not updating sooner! School has kept me so busy and I had a minor block with this story but I AM BACK! This chapter is dedicated to my two awesome anonomis (sorry I can't spell) reviewers who make me smile and love to write this story! Gracie, I am so very happy you read my story first and loved it...I am truly honored. C.C, welcome back to my stories! I'm so very ectatic that you enjoy my writing that much!
I had a bit of help from Kuramasredredrose...but it was so insignificant it's hardly worth it to mention. haha love ya sis!
She didn't want to leave him hurt, or wishing he hadn't come on so strong last night. She'd wanted him, she still did, and she didn't want him to regret their night together. But it was still too soon for her, last night had proven that in her mind. So she packed a suit case, finished the letter to Mori, and called Marie for a ride.
When the car pulled up out front and Marie stepped out Haruhi ran up to her and hugged her as tightly as she could. "Thank you so much for letting me stay with you," Haruhi mumbled.
Marie pulled her at arm's length. "You need this. I'm glad you want to take some time away from everything." Haruhi sighed and smiled tiredly. Marie ushered her into the limo and talked animatedly the entire ride.
When they pulled up to the large house Haruhi was shown her room. "Lunch will be served at twelve thirty," the maid said to Haruhi. She thanked the kind woman and sprawled out onto the enormous bed, determined to let her body relax. The sun shone in through the windows, alighting on her face. She sighed and closed her eyes, basking in the warmth.
Haruhi had just let her muscles relax when a knock was heard at her door. She groaned. "Hm?" she grunted out.
"Haruhi? It's Marie. Would you like to talk?" The kind voice was greeted by a slightly grumpy Haruhi, who opened the door. Despite her attempts to relax, her eyes were still a bit puffy from the night before, and she was visibly off.
"Come in and sit down," Haruhi said with a smile. Marie returned the smile and plopped herself down onto the soft bed.
"I remember when I first stayed in this room. It was after I ran away from my relationship with Kyouya," Marie sighed, reminiscing.
"Would you like to tell me more about it? I'm interested to know how he treated other women before…me," Haruhi said.
Marie sat up and regarded Haruhi, who had sat down in front of the first. "He and I had a…complicated relationship. We were a special case, one that only comes about every so often. He and I weren't together. Actually, I don't think we were ever in the same spot in our lives at the same time. He never wanted anything more from me but to take out the rage his father inflicted upon his soul. He raped my spirit when we joined together in bed.
"Eventually I couldn't take the unspoken abuse anymore. Fed up, I left, and I haven't looked back ever since. Kaoru took me in and I slept here for a few weeks, until I realized I didn't want to be alone…that I loved Kaoru. He's always taken care of me…I guess it just takes a certain kind of man to love me the way I should be loved." Marie's eyes took on a far-off glaze and Haruhi hated to pull her back to reality, but she needed help herself.
"Marie, I love Kyouya, even though I love Mori. I'm just so conflicted! Kyouya has never once lifted a finger to me that I did not welcome. Our relationship has always been loving, I firmly believe that. But I couldn't handle the fact that he would only love me in secret. I was only ever a secret lover to him, and I wanted more. Mori gave that to me. He and I had been friends for so long, and when he kissed me," Haruhi sighed. "I don't know, it just felt like something tangible, something real.
"Kyouya and I had a good thing, but I guess with Mori it could be just as good, if not better?"
Marie took a good, hard look in her friend's eyes. "It seems to me that you're settling with Mori. I don't think you're truly to give up what you have with Kyouya just yet."
Haruhi sighed. "But if I let Mori go, if I go back to Kyouya, what will happen if I give him my heart and he can't accept me for all that I am. I couldn't handle going back to the way we were. I've taken a stand, and I need to know that he heard me, and that he will be willing to take care of me publicly, and not just in secret."
Marie pulled out a black square from her pocket and placed it into Haruhi's hand. "Call him. And call Mori. Talk to each of them, then think about the choice you're about to make." Marie nodded her head and stood, kissing the top of Haruhi's head and walking out of the room. The door shut behind her.
Em =]